Yesterday I found myself thinking that I can definitely fit anywhere I want, stand out in every situation, melt with every "clique", people are just sooo predictable.
Its hard for me to find someone who actually has a unique personality, someone who actually stands out from the rest. I mean of course everybody is different and unique in their own way but they usually hide it in presence of "society". I have this "friend" who is as fake as Pamela Anderson's pair of double triple DD's. She is a different person depending on wherever or whoever she is with, she has this "main character" who is a "rich, pretty, sexy, a little slutty, a little shy, naive " kind of girl. I know she is not rich, yes she is pretty, sexy... uhmm well lets say you can't be sexy when you are so insecure, slutty yes, naive... NEVER! she usually "acts" like she knows nothing about life, relationships or heartbreaks, knows nothing about "sex, drugs" you know all those "bad stuff", but she does, she actually does, she has had the most sexual and drug addict boyfriends ever, she's been cheated on she's been lied to, her heart has been broken several times and yet she decides to behave like a little foolish girl, which I find quite pathetic. She is 34 and she says she is 24 every time, since I met her 5 years ago she has always been 24. She is surrounded by fake people except me, cause I know her like I know the palm of my hand, I always get to know the real person in the fake one and that is because I'm an open book, people find it hard to be fake around me so either they reveal themselves of they leave. That's why I have this reduced circle of friends, really close friends and it is compound by what I like to call "diamond people". They are always themselves in every situation they aren't afraid of showing who they really are, they don't try to fit, they don't "act" , they don't pose, they know what they've been through and they aren't trying to hide it, they embrace their mistakes as experiences and they share it cause they know that is what makes the shine, they don't have to reveal themselves cause they are an open book. The rest of the people are "charcoal people" maybe they could be diamonds, but they are hiding beneath all this poses, they try to look cool, act cool, fit, they act like they are "perfect" but all those layers of "fakeness" cover this true shiny person. Some of my friends turned into charcoals, somehow they suddenly started covering their shine and started acting like somebody else. It is easier to turn into charcoal than into diamond, cause diamond people we love ourselves. Charcoals either hate us or want to be us, sometimes charcoals can't stand us but at the same time they want to hang out with us.. they want to be us.
Now, I'm not talking about popularity or being an outcast, this is real life, it sounds a little bit like "highschool" stuff but it isn't. In real life is not about hanging with the "cool" people, that is a charcoal way of thinking. In real life is about being yourself.
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