distant but strong

she/her | 23 | my bf is 21 yo, 729 km far from me, and amazingly handsome | together since 14.07.17 | language barrier (EU) | insta > pm me

[distantbutstrong]

I haven't been active on this blog for a long while now. in the meantime my bf visited me for two days, we had an ok time together. I mean, we didn't do anything particularly exciting, but we were together and that was enough. we had a bad moment of misunderstanding and this is also part of our language barrier problem. it was nice to be with him without taking a visit as a holiday, it's good from time to time to just live as a close distance couple, there's no need to make every single visit a special trip!

but I'm looking forward to my visit next month, he'll bring me to the seaside and I really hope we'll have a good time.

yesterday I started a new job, it's so cool to be busy all day long, because this way I don't focus too much on being far from him and all the sadness I feel. and I have to study to get into my master next year, so I'm finally really busy!

[uitvaagsel]

(kus mijn nek en fluister hoe hard je me wil)

[distantbutstrong]

baciami il collo e sussurrami quanto mi desideri

[ietsuitmijnpendatwoordenwerden]

“Je bent een plaats in mijn hart binnengewandeld waar niemand ooit een voet heeft gezet.”

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[themsdiary-deactivated20180905]

“Distance is hard to overcome but I’d rather do it with you than not at all”

— YMJT (via confessionvault)

[distantbutstrong]

the confident me is like: we are a great couple, he loves me and everything is going great! I will keep working on this relationship and go on my own life at the same time, it's not so difficult!

and the insecure me is like: who was that girl he hugged that night while I was talking to some other friends of his? why does he hugs girls? why does he dances with girls? he will dump me, he will get sick of me.

[loving-ldr-suggestions]

there are so many things I will never be able to experience with you…

[distantbutstrong]

but there are so many other ones you can experience together and plan for the future 💙

[distantbutstrong]

just a personal update

so, I met his friends. they were nice, especially some of them. we had fun, we drank, I spent a lot of time dancing and making out with my bf and it was just the best night in a long while. then we spent two amazing days (and nights 😎) together and we also talked a bit about my jealousy. he reassured me a lot and he was so sweet... but I'm still an insecure girl and I hate it because I hate the anxiety and all the doubts I always have. and we kind of talked again about long-term plans but it's going to be hard 😟

[distantbutstrong]

coming back from a visit always feels like waking up after a good dream. you go back to your life, you start planning next visit, everything is ok but still you feel that sour flavour in your mouth. is it just because of the travelling or is it because you feel like throwing up at the idea of being apart again? I crave intimacy and after three days constantly together I feel terribly lonely.

[distantbutstrong]

me: *sends him a goodmorning text*

me: *waits in bed until he replies*

my bf: goodmorning beautiful!

me: *standing up* LET'S START WITH ANOTHER AMAZING DAY!

[kiefbowl]

“he just left in the middle of an argument” dump him “he rolls his eyes when I start to cry” dump him “we never agree on what movie to watch and we always go with his choice” dump him “when he’s mad he’ll stand up straight and tower over me” dump him “his friends make me uncomfortable” dump him “he didn’t appreciate the gift I made him” dump him “I don’t like that he drinks every day” dump him “sometimes he ignores what I said during sex unless I say it again” dump him “he told me he doesn’t like it when I wear my favorite sweater” dump him “he threw something when he got mad once” dump him “he won’t yell but sometimes he’ll just stop responding until I stop talking about it” dump him “he doesn’t want me to go to my friend’s parties without him, but he never wants to go” dump him “he pouts and says his last girlfriend did it for him” dump him “he plays pranks on me that I don’t like” dump him “he doesn’t think my jokes are very funny and makes fun of me for it” dump him “he wants me to wear more make up” dump him “he got angry that I cut my hair” dump him “he still hasn’t met my parents” dump him “he talks about me giving him kids, but we’ve never talked about our future” dump him “he whines that condoms don’t feel as good” dump him “I like having a boyfriend, but I have to put up with a lot for this one” dump him (:

[distantbutstrong]

this guy knows something about distance, it's worth watching and listening to him!

[distantbutstrong]

I know you're the right person right now because one videochat with you makes me feel better than a whole day spent with anyone else.

[mylongdistancerelationshipstory]

8 months in relationship 2 visits 10 letters 1,000,000 memories

[arttrampbelle]

Only 10 more days or so till i see my man.

God i miss him and can’t wait to see him soon.

I just wanna hold him right now.

[distantbutstrong]

same here

[distantbutstrong]

next weekend I'll be there with him and I'm a bit scared bc he'll make me meet some of his friends during a party but I'm also so excited bc we're planning to spend my second day there in bed watching netflix and that's literally everything I want to do. and we're going to visit another city during my third day before leaving which sounds also really exciting 🎉

I'm still having doubts about this relationship but I feel like this is never gonna change until we're long distance so I'm just gonna try focusing on the good things and the time we have together 👍

[distantbutstrong]

sometimes I wonder "should I put an end to this difficult relationship?" but then I always find myself working for it, for us. so screw it, until I have the strength to go on, I won't give up on loving my s/o just because of distance.

[sulfur]