i’m going to wait till i’m not in a horrible pit of depression to decide for sure, but chances are i’m going to end up archiving this blog and abandoning it
it’s not fun for me because every time i try to write something IC i just get so much anxiety that i have to log out of tumblr entirely for a while. i don’t know the character as well as i thought i could. i feel like i’m under a ton of pressure, like everyone has expectations of me and i’m not meeting them.
basically i’m doing a poor job with this muse and i don’t think it’s something i can ever remedy. i don’t connect to light the way i do my other muses. it’s not working out for me at all and it’s bringing me frustration sometimes to the point of actual tears.
for my own sanity, i am probably going to end up archiving this blog, but i’m going to wait until i feel better to decide.



















