it felt like nobody really understood what she was going through, other than her younger brother. even then, zehra had recognized that the two of them handled grief in different ways.
perfection is what had always been expected of her. she had to be the best, the smartest, the most cunning, the one who's not just ten but a hundred steps ahead of everyone else. zehra had always been prepared for anything to happen in this town, but this? she never expected this. not one atom in her body even entertained the idea of anyone in her family dying, let alone someone who wasn't even fully in the business.
a part of her just... gave up. shriveled and died along with the younger sister that she had to ship back to turkey to be buried like cargo. she hadn't been sleeping well because the lifeless body is the only thing she could picture out every time she closed her eyes, causing dark circles to form underneath hers.
she felt... fragile. even with all this power, this money, this influence, she couldn't protect her own flesh and blood, which in turn, makes her a failure.
zehra heard the door open, but she already knew that her people had let someone in she trusted, because she gave them strict orders to not be disturbed. of course it would be beatriz, and while zehra had felt no desire to actually get up, she couldn't stop herself from flinching, closing her eyes and sitting up once the room was flooded with unwelcomed light.
"what the fuck, b?!" zehra snapped, hands immediately shielding her eyes before she slowly opened them again, trying to get used to it. "i... don't know." she answered truthfully. if she was being completely honest with herself, it was easier to just stay inside and not have to talk to people. to deal with the paperwork instead.
"days i guess. three, at most." she said, resigned. she knew her friend well enough to know that today was her last day of moping inside her office, that beatriz wouldn't leave here without her. "oh, don't look at me like that." zehra sharply said, rolling her eyes. "i'm fine. it's fine. just waiting to hear back from the private investigator." she said, her voice turning low before she shook her head, almost like she was trying her best to snap herself out of the funk she had found herself in.
"what are you doing here?"