Diying Daddy

21 Years. A daddy who has lose his little girl. bdsm - dd/lg - cg. My english is not the best, sorry. Don't think the worsth, if someone ask... She said that she needs some Dialga and Palkia (pokémon reference here).

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Whe can't hurt each other anymore

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Dead in everywhere

She has deleted me from everywhere... So, i block her in whatsapp. It's the end and i have done a bad thing. I have alot of pills to sleep, i has keep them but i put the pills box on the bag that i give to her mother today.

I have 29... on three weeks i has have take just one, but u understand the meaning? Well, it's a toxic and very fucking bad "good bye". Officially the worsth person, not even daddy, in the world.

She don't have the bag jet, i'm going to send a last menssage "give a fuck about the box, it was a fucking bad and toxic idea, have a nice life, little one. I am not goin to take them"

Sorry for everyone, really sorry. Don't be like me.

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Cutting again...

If u are boring of girs cutting... here is me, a guy of 21 year cutting himself for depresión.

I was thinking that girs haven't the same freedom, they underwear dont hide them well...

It's so hard

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Very depressed right now... idk. I feel bad. I think i just need a rest of everything or die... wathever come first... It's becoming so hard... sorry.

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I deleted instagram because i don't want to see her instagram stories or her pictures, it get me more sad. It's like she is so freaking happy without me. I feels in that shitti way, in that shitti way that everyone feels when get depressed.

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A bad moment

I hate myself, i hate myself to much because i miss her and i want to pat her, and cuddle her and a lot of fucking things but i can't.

Aint feel good.

And i hate me.

I hate me so much for feeling love for someone. I just want to die and vanish from the world and from the mind and memory of everyone.

I don't want to suffer anymore neither make others suffer, i just want to vanish.

Aint feel good, sorry.

I have punch and kick the walls, i have cried and scream. I... I have cut myself and i don't want to look at her with this fucking shitti scars.

When you do something that "something" become easier the next time. And it's getting too easy for me... I can't stop doing this shit and i hate me.

I have fear to see her again, i get very nervous thinking about it. idk.

I feel really bad and i don't want to speak about this with my friends.

Everytime i go out i want to buy to her candy, toys and a lot of things but we are nothing... I want to consent her but i cant. I hate me for feel this shit.

I want to spank her, choke and punish her again, but i cant. I want to cuddle with her and watch a movie, but i cant. i want to go out with her, but i cant. I want to see her drawing again, but i cant.

Three months has passed, ¿why i still feel this shit?

I want it to stop, please, please. I can't with it anymore.

I have a bussy life, it's not like i am doing nothing, i study and have a job, i have things to distract myself, but i cant.

i just want it to stop, i dont want to feel anymore, please, just stop this shit.

I just want to quit.

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I'm getting depressed (wiiiiiii!)

I had make pizza today for my family but i usually make pizza with lg. I make it alone this time... i was very good before beginning but ffff**** up my feelings

I looked the pizza.

The pizza looked at me.

I looked pizza again.

And pizza looked at me again.

Pizza and i remember that moments with lg and cried(?)

That's all, sorry(?)

Yes, if someone ask, my pizza is the best ♡ It's make with love, like the Krabby Patty (Cangreburger in spanish [?])

Now, that's all.

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I want to bite her so hard now…

- Out from daddy role and in my mental healty-

HERE COMES THE DRAMA, DON’T READ IT IF YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT MY LIFE AND MY THOUGHTS

I has take a desicion a few days ago. I’m going to wait a little more (a month and a week had pased from the Dialga and Palkia choise). If she does not come, i’m goin to erase her from my life. I can’t be waiting all my life, i’m suffering from this. I need someones to play’s daddys role with. Someone who i aint goin to find because i’m very introvert and have serious problems interacting with people(?) No, i’m not going to search for another little so fast because i don’t want hurt a person. If i am not ready for other relation i aint to do it.

I’m waiting because she said that she wants us to be together again… But idk if she is saiying the truth, if she want me here waiting because she don’t know if she is going to get anotherone (partner/ man/ woman/ others), if she is just playing with me. Or if she really don’t know what she wants…

It’s so hard when she said something and do another thing… And i don’t want to end in that kind of thougth: “it’s because she is a woman” or “she acts like a woman”. It’s so stupid, i hate it, believe me, i heard it a lot of times in this month *sigh*

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Bdsmtest.org

Idk, i just want to share something... I got a diferent result a year ago, but my cellphone was stolen on 4th of july 2017 (the worsth day of my life) and i had loose all my photos, the photos of my little and a lot of other things. So i can't teach you that results.

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It’s hard to be a little without a daddy…

But it’s harder to be a daddy without a little.

The little can play, sleep with her stuffies, eat sweets, drink from her little cup, i don’t know. She can get in her little space without a daddy, sometimes it’s hard, i know. I think it’s not the “full combo” that she gets with a good daddy… but it’s something.

But, the daddy? He can’t be a daddy alone… He don’t have someone to take care, to cuddle with, to spank, to do happy, to pat her head, to give love and attetion (and “torture” too, we really love to hear them moaning and screaming sometimes)

A daddy without his little is nothing. Just a man with a lot to give but no one to give it. He is a thing with feelings diying in his inside.

You can apply it to Mommys, pets, idk… i think that some bdsm relations are very special… The littles give the daddys/mommys/etc a reason to live.