The one thing that I've done was harm one person that I have cared for the past 24 years of my existence. I've let her devastated, heartbroken, and in misery. I use to call my a Bastard but not a Fucking Bastard. For my wrong doings I'm now a Fucking Bastard. I can't ask for her forgiveness and I know that she will reject the attempt. This tragedy has almost come into full circle and I know she has put a curse on me for the act I've committed on her. You will never know the sorrow and the burden that was going through me. You've blamed my atheism, my unhealthy lifestyle, and social identity into this, but I've assured you that it was the path of true corruption and into the domain of greed and power. I will make it up to you, but alas I don't know how to do it? But when I figure it out, I hope you can forgive me and if you don't then I hope for you to be alright! All I can promise you is once I've made my redemption to you, I will scour the earth to find my realm of peace! You kept telling me, to hope that god will forgive me as you will never. And yet I keep telling you that there is no god, but I will accept my actions and if you want me locked up, just say the word and it's done. But, my intellectual side of me tells me that you won't do that, you just want me to suffer the course of my actions! I hope to see you in the near future if you still want to talk
