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~About~

Charlie Chesterfield Hughes

Known as ‘Chez’ by his friends

Stage name ‘Cherubim’

Embraced at 22 years old (less than a year dead)

13th gen Malkavian

Anarch

Feeding type: Farmer

Animalism Auspex Dominate Obfuscate

Born in Cardiff, Chez now lives in LA with his coterie, a band of indecipherable genre (lets just say punk) Heart Club. He is defined by his strong moral convictions and chooses not to drink from humans, fearing he may frenzy and hurt them. He is a supporter of thinblood rights, and while he won’t outwardly say he has chosen a side, he is very much an Anarch.

OOC stuff

Hi, I’m Bee, 30yr old Welsh lass playing vampires on the internet

Rules are pretty standard, no Terfs, homophobes, racists, ableists etc

I would prefer to interact with other muns similar in age to myself

I will not RP Blood bond plots, this is non negotiable

I’m not set to a specific schedule and will RP when I feel like it, I can be a bit flighty and do struggle with depressive episodes. It’s nothing personal if I disappear for a while or take my time replying to RPs or messages.

#//should have done this a long time ago #ooc

I've talked until there's no more to say

I'm leaving LA

#Spotify

We are minded to provisional acceptance of a petition in the name of Charles Chesterfield Hughes and one associate.

Given the nature of your visit, you will present yourself to an appointed official for interview prior to formal reception, in exchange for a minor boon owed to that official.

Kindly confirm your date of arrival by return of post to 24 rue Chanoinesse.

Upon arrival in Paris, proceed to that address.

I will await you there. Antoinette

[The above letter arrives at Lot 404 several days after Chez and Sorcha discuss the journey to Paris. It's handwritten on old-fashioned writing paper in an old-fashioned envelope, tucked inside a more modern airmail wallet.]

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[offline]

I'm sorry

#i cant do this anymore

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@ventrue-in-control I need fashion advice 🥺👉👈

ventrue-in-control

read a book kiddo its not that hard

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Oh... ok...

ventrue-in-control

chezzabelle mate I aint gonna like lie to ya. but we aint like. cool. and stuff. youve said that I should die like a few times. and like. I wanted to look past it. but uve never even said like sorry. and im kinda in my not caring era and frankly im not with your vibe.

youve been unimaginably cruel to me for like. no reason. when ive been mostly kind to you for as long as ive known ya. but im na gonna help ya. just cuz u conveniently need me okay. not until you can figure out that saying the shit uve said about me, my people, my city has hurt me. and maybe u oughta say sorry.

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I....

Yeah.. I understand,, I'm sorry I had a meltdown, ptsd and triggers are a hell of a thing, specially when ur bane makes everythin more intense.. the things I said were awful and unfair,, its uh,,, hard for me to talk about or apologise for directly cos.... I promised myself I'd never talk about it again, even blacklisted the G word so I never have 2 see anythin about it

I wish I could jus look away,, I wish I could be desensitised to the horrors and monstrous things kindred do,, but they make me so angry-...

I'm goin to Paris, I'm gonna meet with the Prince, then I'm gonna burn down the fuckers that made me this way... then maybe I can stop bein like this

I'm sorry.

ventrue-in-control

its not once tho. its been like a lot. like. a lot of times. and not just about that. like in general. small things. everything I do ud just make fun of me over it and of crs it didnt hurt me cuz im build different but like thats not okay.

and even now so. Im not a monster chez. I dont do monstrous things. youre making it sound like I dont care bout morals and that im just some kindred doing evil horrors etc. which im not. i do things to protect my people and to thrive. Thats it. I aint saying u gots to agree. but like. i dont have to feel bad cuz u are dealing with things. putting down me own boundaries and such.

maybe try saying im sorry i hurt you. instead of im sorry I have issues.

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But I dunno how else to describe wot u did to Robbie, that was not okay. and maybe Joe wouldn't have turned out the way he did if u didn't punish him in the way you did. I can't apologise for bein angry at you for those things.

But u been a kindred way longer than I have, ur used to all the shit we gotta do to survive and I gotta accept that, as hard as it is. I know that now. I'm too tired to fight against the darkness anymore

I'm sorry I made fun of u, I'm sorry I made fun of Andover, ur doing a good job, and I miss you so fucking much u would not believe

fairycosmos

people when mental illness actually makes you unpalatable and disappointing instead of just making you quirky online

#legit

djcherubim-archive

@ventrue-in-control I need fashion advice 🥺👉👈

ventrue-in-control

read a book kiddo its not that hard

djcherubim-archive

Oh... ok...

ventrue-in-control

chezzabelle mate I aint gonna like lie to ya. but we aint like. cool. and stuff. youve said that I should die like a few times. and like. I wanted to look past it. but uve never even said like sorry. and im kinda in my not caring era and frankly im not with your vibe.

youve been unimaginably cruel to me for like. no reason. when ive been mostly kind to you for as long as ive known ya. but im na gonna help ya. just cuz u conveniently need me okay. not until you can figure out that saying the shit uve said about me, my people, my city has hurt me. and maybe u oughta say sorry.

djcherubim-archive

I....

Yeah.. I understand,, I'm sorry I had a meltdown, ptsd and triggers are a hell of a thing, specially when ur bane makes everythin more intense.. the things I said were awful and unfair,, its uh,,, hard for me to talk about or apologise for directly cos.... I promised myself I'd never talk about it again, even blacklisted the G word so I never have 2 see anythin about it

I wish I could jus look away,, I wish I could be desensitised to the horrors and monstrous things kindred do,, but they make me so angry-...

I'm goin to Paris, I'm gonna meet with the Prince, then I'm gonna burn down the fuckers that made me this way... then maybe I can stop bein like this

I'm sorry.

#i miss you