the doctor is: in

@doc-nickel-official

hey!!! I'm nickel! part of the djd. you can find me as @aurora_explorer or @tfa_soundwave I love transformers. I swear a lot, asexual and full of hatred. 24 an unemployed, I do commissions.

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Even in death and an alternate universe they ended up next to one another....

ratchet-offical

@drifttt-official

See. No divorce for us. We die gruesome deaths together.

drifttt-official

As I’d hope, never straying too far from my beloved conjunx, even in Primus’ will of our deaths we stay together… but if we pass who has flatline..?

OOC: who has flatline I ask as if I haven’t been absent for…. Uhh yes :) #deadbeat father #loser #drift take care of ur child #ratchet is gon leave yo ass and have u paying child support #roddy doesn’t pay u

ratchet-offical

Oh there you are. Of course we stay together.

And if we die, Brainstorm gets custody. So let’s not die.

OOC:

#The only time I approve of hashtags #drift is a deadbeat father #isnt he also rich? #ratchet is getting that child support

doc-nickel-official

I can always get custody myself, deep down you know I'm the wiser choice, yet pride won't allow you

ratchet-offical

I’d find a way back from death just to make sure you didn’t get custody.

doc-nickel-official

I will raise your child and make them into my IMAGE

ratchet-offical

doc-nickel-official

COME FIGHT ME YOU WHORE, YOUR CHILD WILL BE MINE

ratchet-offical

I’LL FUCKING KILL YOU

doc-nickel-official

ILL KILL YOU FIRST

ratchet-offical

udcjtarnofficial

*watches on with amusment like the Emperor in Gladiator*

doc-nickel-official

GET OUT

motormaster-official

AN AUTOBOT?!

Primus’ sake… is this my punishment for not tolerating Dreadwing and Dead?

@breakdown-oficial

It was an accident, Breakdown.

breakdown-oficial

You accidentally fell asleep with him on top of you?!

YOU DONT SLEEP. LIKE EVER. YOU FREAKING CREEP AROUND THE BASE AT NIGHT, WHICH IS FREAKY AS FUCK BY THE WAY.

motormaster-official

I'M ALSO IN A LOW ENERGY STATE TO HEAL MY FRAME. IM GONNA ACT DIFFERENT!

breakdown-oficial

SO YOU SLEPT WITH AN AUTOBOT?

motormaster-official

NOT PURPOSELY! FRAG, GIVE ME A BREAK, WILL YA?

breakdown-oficial

NO! YOU SLEPT WITH THE ENEMY! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CHILL???

doc-nickel-official

There's a peace treaty going on, we can't do shit

why are you so mean to tables :(

I am not. I simply forget myself in anger on occasion, and the nearest desk, or table pays the consequences.

I am seeking council on how to improve my self control.

doc-nickel-official

@rung-official therapy

I’m on leave. Sorry. No therapy.

doc-nickel-official

Why are you on leave

I’ve been neglecting myself for others.

doc-nickel-official

What if I become YOUR therapist

You’d need therapy.

doc-nickel-official

Why

I’m not going to say that. Not going to say that. Just a hunch. I’m alright, believe me, I’m just taking a while off work to work on myself.

doc-nickel-official

Say. What

why are you so mean to tables :(

I am not. I simply forget myself in anger on occasion, and the nearest desk, or table pays the consequences.

I am seeking council on how to improve my self control.

doc-nickel-official

@rung-official therapy

I’m on leave. Sorry. No therapy.

doc-nickel-official

Why are you on leave

I’ve been neglecting myself for others.

doc-nickel-official

What if I become YOUR therapist

You’d need therapy.

doc-nickel-official

Why

why are you so mean to tables :(

I am not. I simply forget myself in anger on occasion, and the nearest desk, or table pays the consequences.

I am seeking council on how to improve my self control.

doc-nickel-official

@rung-official therapy

I’m on leave. Sorry. No therapy.

doc-nickel-official

Why are you on leave

I’ve been neglecting myself for others.

doc-nickel-official

What if I become YOUR therapist

why are you so mean to tables :(

I am not. I simply forget myself in anger on occasion, and the nearest desk, or table pays the consequences.

I am seeking council on how to improve my self control.

doc-nickel-official

@rung-official therapy

I’m on leave. Sorry. No therapy.

doc-nickel-official

Why are you on leave

blaster-official

Hello Temu Soundwave

Wassup, tiny Tarn groupie?

doc-nickel-official

What are you doing here

blaster-official

As in, like, on Cybertron? The planet where I live?

You gotta be more specific, I ain’t the smart one as far as the intel corps go.

doc-nickel-official

Yeah, it SHOWS.

#sorry #nickel a meanie

blaster-official

Hello Temu Soundwave

Wassup, tiny Tarn groupie?

doc-nickel-official

What are you doing here

why are you so mean to tables :(

I am not. I simply forget myself in anger on occasion, and the nearest desk, or table pays the consequences.

I am seeking council on how to improve my self control.

doc-nickel-official

@rung-official therapy

I do not require therapy.

doc-nickel-official

As a medical official with a medical degree, observing the damage in your servos from those poor tables, I have declared that you will go to therapy

You are not my doctor. You do not have those rights.

doc-nickel-official

Do I call ratchet in so he tells you the same thing except he can force you orrrrr...?

why are you so mean to tables :(

I am not. I simply forget myself in anger on occasion, and the nearest desk, or table pays the consequences.

I am seeking council on how to improve my self control.

doc-nickel-official

@rung-official therapy

I do not require therapy.

doc-nickel-official

As a medical official with a medical degree, observing the damage in your servos from those poor tables, I have declared that you will go to therapy

why are you so mean to tables :(

I am not. I simply forget myself in anger on occasion, and the nearest desk, or table pays the consequences.

I am seeking council on how to improve my self control.

doc-nickel-official

@rung-official therapy

Even in death and an alternate universe they ended up next to one another....

ratchet-offical

@drifttt-official

See. No divorce for us. We die gruesome deaths together.

drifttt-official

As I’d hope, never straying too far from my beloved conjunx, even in Primus’ will of our deaths we stay together… but if we pass who has flatline..?

OOC: who has flatline I ask as if I haven’t been absent for…. Uhh yes :) #deadbeat father #loser #drift take care of ur child #ratchet is gon leave yo ass and have u paying child support #roddy doesn’t pay u

ratchet-offical

Oh there you are. Of course we stay together.

And if we die, Brainstorm gets custody. So let’s not die.

OOC:

#The only time I approve of hashtags #drift is a deadbeat father #isnt he also rich? #ratchet is getting that child support

doc-nickel-official

I can always get custody myself, deep down you know I'm the wiser choice, yet pride won't allow you

ratchet-offical

I’d find a way back from death just to make sure you didn’t get custody.

doc-nickel-official

I will raise your child and make them into my IMAGE

ratchet-offical

doc-nickel-official

COME FIGHT ME YOU WHORE, YOUR CHILD WILL BE MINE

ratchet-offical

I’LL FUCKING KILL YOU

doc-nickel-official

ILL KILL YOU FIRST

#the good old times

Even in death and an alternate universe they ended up next to one another....

ratchet-offical

@drifttt-official

See. No divorce for us. We die gruesome deaths together.

drifttt-official

As I’d hope, never straying too far from my beloved conjunx, even in Primus’ will of our deaths we stay together… but if we pass who has flatline..?

OOC: who has flatline I ask as if I haven’t been absent for…. Uhh yes :) #deadbeat father #loser #drift take care of ur child #ratchet is gon leave yo ass and have u paying child support #roddy doesn’t pay u

ratchet-offical

Oh there you are. Of course we stay together.

And if we die, Brainstorm gets custody. So let’s not die.

OOC:

#The only time I approve of hashtags #drift is a deadbeat father #isnt he also rich? #ratchet is getting that child support

doc-nickel-official

I can always get custody myself, deep down you know I'm the wiser choice, yet pride won't allow you

ratchet-offical

I’d find a way back from death just to make sure you didn’t get custody.

doc-nickel-official

I will raise your child and make them into my IMAGE

ratchet-offical

doc-nickel-official

COME FIGHT ME YOU WHORE, YOUR CHILD WILL BE MINE

deadend-officiall

((Rp starter for @dreadwing-official others please dni. Also, various Trigger Warning! TW: Self harm, suicide, attempted suicide, negative self talk, depression, bad coping mechanisms, alcohol and all the other stuff you’d expect from this plot line. Do NOT continue reading if any of these topics trigger you, please stay safe.))

[Deadend stepped into his room and let the door close behind him. His hands shook as he pulled his side of the bond away from his siblings, closing them all off. He almost lost Motormaster. He almost lost Motormaster and then made him feel like he had to apologize for it. Primus… Deadend was such a selfish bastard. He let out a half laugh half sob as he leaned against the door to his room. A stupid, selfish, cruel, unlovable bastard who should have died years ago. Who should have never been born! He laughed. Because what was there left to do? It was funny! It was a fucking comedy! He was a joke! He pushed himself off the wall and walked over to the drawer in his room. He pulled open one of the drawers with a far more aggression than was necessary. Initially, the drawer looked normal. Filled with old sketches and doodles, Deadend reached in and pulled them all out, carelessly tossing them onto the desk. Fucking idiot. You should take better care of your space. He laughed as tears dropped down his face. He reached down and pressed down on one side of the wooden bottom of the desk and it popped up. He pulled it out revealing a hidden compartment which housed two items, a bottle of engex and sharp knife. He stared at them for a moment before pulling them both out. He slammed the drawer shut and walked over to his berth. He sat down on the floor and leaned against it as he began downing the engex. He hadn’t eaten or drank anything in… frag, he didn’t know how long. He felt like shit. Good. He was a piece of shit. He deserved it. He hurt everyone around him, ruined everything a he touched. He’d broken Dreadwing’s heart when the mech had been nothing but perfect to him, he’d gone and yelled at Dragstrip when all she wanted to do was help, and now not even Motormaster wanted him around anymore! He was fucking useless! Redundant! Unwanted! He chugged more of the engex and took the blade and began to slash at his platting. It hurt. He knew it would. It wasn’t the first time he’d done this. He knew it was bad. That’s why the blade was hidden. Wilds had tried to take all his blades away from him and any blasters that could be triggered while pointed at oneself. But Dead was the worst. He was awful. So he went Ang got another knife. Because he was a piece of shit who didn’t care about anyone other than himself! Slice, slice, slice. The bottle was gone sooner than he would have liked it to be. But hey, he still had his knife. And oh, slag, that was a lot of energon on the ground, wasn’t it? And it was gushing pretty fast, huh? He dropped the knife to the ground and just stared up at the ceiling and those silly glowing stars. Was this it? He hoped so. He deserved it, after all. He focused on keeping the bond as closed down as he could. No point in worrying anybody else with his problems.]

dreadwing-official

Dreadwing was sitting at his desk, meticulously taking apart a blaster to tinker with. He'd been thinking about that day at the race again, how he scared Deadend away. He set down his tools with a sigh, calling Deadend.

deadend-officiall

[Deadend heard his comms ping.]

[Dreadwing? Ha… that’s funny. The universe has one fucked sense of humor.]

[should he even answer it?]

[fuck it. Why not? Not like it would matter for much longer anyway.]

dreadwing-official

"Deadend, is that you?" He quietly asked, his voice soft and polite.

deadend-officiall

Yea. Yea, I’m here.

[he took a breath]

Hey, Dread, look, I’ve gotta say somethin’ to you, yea?

I’m sorry. I fucked up. I know I fucked up. I led you on despite knowing that I’m a piece of shit and you deserve better, better than I could ever be. I hurt you. I’m sorry.

[his breathing was struggled]

Yea, yea, that’s it.

dreadwing-official

"Oh." He sounded surprised. "Actually, I was calling to apologize as well, with how pitiful I acted before, it was... unbecoming of me."

"If it helps, I don't you're a peice of scrap."

deadend-officiall

Na, na,

Don’t… don’t apologize to me, I fucked up.

I don’t deserve an apology.

[he sounded tired on the other side of the call, like he was struggling to stay awake…]

dreadwing-official

Dreadwing had gone back to tinkering with the blaster to keep his hands busy. "Don't say things like that, you are a beautiful, intelligent, strong mech. Even if you don't believe you should be loved, i will still love you, if you will let me."

"Apologies, did I wake you?"

deadend-officiall

Mm. No, you didn’t wake me.

You should save yourself the trouble. Really.

I’m just another heartbreak waiting to happen…

dreadwing-official

"But I want to love you, Deadend." He spoke more softly, pausing his tinkering again.

"What are you doing right now?"

deadend-officiall

…you don’t wanna know.

[the words game out before he could stop them, maybe it was the engex making him more honest or maybe the energon loss was just making him stupid.]

dreadwing-official

Dreadwing's brow furrowed. "Tell me, Deadend." He somewhat sternly responded, sounding just soft enough to be playful.

deadend-officiall

mm.

[Deadend debates the pros and cons of honesty for maybe half a second before the word just falls out]

dying.

dreadwing-official

He went silent, a bit shocked by his answer. "Are you really dying?" His voice became soft again.

deadend-officiall

Yea, like I said, heartbreak waitin’ to happen.

dreadwing-official

He stood up from his desk a let out a shaky sigh, his anxiety rising. "How are you injured, or are you sick?" He questioned, trying to understand the severity of things.

deadend-officiall

Why do you care?

I hurt you.

dreadwing-official

"Maybe you did, but I still care about you, no matter how much you push me away." He spoke softly again, trying to soothe Deadend.

"So please, tell me if you are injured."

deadend-officiall

Does it matter?

I dunno if it can be fixed.

I don’t think I want it to be.

dreadwing-official

"I see..." He sat back down, picking up his flip-comm and opening it.

"Say, if you are going to die, then can I at least talk to you for these last few moments?" He went back to comforting, while in his hands he searched for a way to contact the other stunticons.

deadend-officiall

Eh. Whatever suits you I guess.

dreadwing-official

"So, how are you feeling?" He continued searching online, hoping at least one of them was still awake.

He tapped the first communication line he saw, @wildrider-official. "Hello, I am Dreadwing, I'm here to inform you of an emergency with your brother, Deadend. Please answer."

deadend-officiall

Like shit? I don’t even know why I’m telling you this. All it’s gonna do is upset you.

[he sighs]

I dunno, I guess I thought it’d feel better than it does? But it really hurts. I’m just so tired I guess.

——————————————————————————

Huh? Oh, you’re that guy from the race— fuck you mean emergency?!

dreadwing-official

Despite the pain in his chest-plate, he continued talking in a soft voice. "Yeah, I've been close to death a few times before, it hurts like scraplet when the adrenaline comes down." He chuckled. "Oh, I have been reading more lately, including some of the human books you recommended."

Dreadwing texted back. "I don't know what specifically is happening, but he says he's dying and won't tell me how, I think he's trying to kill himself."

deadend-officiall

Oh yea? How you like them? They good?

…

Hey, did you know that engex makes you energon thinner? Makes you bleed out faster.

——————————————————————————

WHAT?! WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?

I knew he was like,, upset! After the race but—!

[there’s a sound like a chair clattering to the floor]

Where is he?!

dreadwing-official

His spark throbbed with pain listening to Deadend speak. "I liked them a lot, I've mostly been reading Greek mythology, you remind me of Helios."

He hummed. "Are you drunk?"

Through text. "I don't know, but I'm pretty sure he's in his room. He said something about engex and bleeding, I think he's drunk."

deadend-officiall

Helios? I dunno.

I’ve always thought myself more of crescent moon from Ket myth.

And maybe I am drunk. Not that it really matters.

——————————————————————————

I’m on my way.

[footsteps can be heard running in the background]

Can- can you uh keep him talking?

dreadwing-official

"Hm, I suppose I'll read that one next then." He paused for just a moment, coming up with another conversation starter. "You know, I've always liked stars, what do you think of them?"

He texted back. "Already on it."

deadend-officiall

Yea, uh… I like the Pleiades best. The seven sisters. A group of siblings who do everything together. Kinda silly, right?

[there’s a sudden banging on the door in the background]

DEADEND, OPEN THE DAMN DOOR.

dreadwing-official

He forced out a small chuckle. "Reminds me of me and my brother. I don't know much about constellations, but I do like binary stars."

He heard the bangs on the other side of the comms. "Deadend, could you open the door for me? We could look at the stars together if you go outside, even if we're stars apart." He kindly asked.

deadend-officiall

Mm… Wilds is yellin’ at me.

…

You’re wanting’ to “save” me or whatever…

dreadwing-official

His spark clenched, standing up against his desk so keep his processor running. "I know Wildrider is yelling, he won't yell once you come out, I promise."

"So please," his voice started to shake. "Just open the door."

deadend-officiall

…I’m tired, Dread.

You don’t get it.

I ruin everything I touch.

I hurt my brothers and sister.

I yelled at DS!

Motors says it’s better if I’m not around him anymore!

Don’t even get me started on the fact that Breakdown just up and left us!

And I don’t even know why you care!

I hurt you!

Why do you want me to live?

[his voice trembled]

dreadwing-official

"Because I love you." His voice broke. "And your siblings love you, more than you will ever understand, and siblings hurt each other sometimes, it happens, but that doesn't mean you are a monster."

He couldn't help but let out a sob. "I don't want to lose you too..."

deadend-officiall

I don’t get it…

[He sounded like he was crying, but it seemed like the banging on the door hadn’t stopped]

I can’t move…

dreadwing-official

He took in a deep breath, stabilizing himself. "It's okay, I'm here, love, it's all going to be okay." He cooed.

He texted one last time. "Break down the door."

wildrider-official

I literally already have explosives on the door.

[BOOM]

dreadwing-official

"Thank you." He closed his flip-comm.

"Deadend? Love? Are you still awake?"

deadend-officiall

[Deadend made a vague mumbling noise]

[there’s a loud noise]

DEAD! DEAD, ANSWER ME!

[it sounds like there’s a shuffling noise and it sounds like a body is being lifted, Deadend lets out a pained grunt but not much more]

dreadwing-official

He let out a tiny sigh of relief. "It's okay, love, you're going to be okay." He cooed, continuing to comfort him.

wildrider-official

Hey, hey, hey Dead, I’ve got ya

[Wildrider cradles his brother close to his chest]

I’ve got him Dread, I’ve got him.

dreadwing-official

"Good... will he be alright?" He rather quietly asked.

wildrider-official

I…

I don’t know.

I’m not the smart one.

Frag, I’m not the smart one…

I’m taking him to a medic.

doc-nickel-official

OoooooHHHH PRIMUSSSS!!! MOVE

Even in death and an alternate universe they ended up next to one another....

ratchet-offical

@drifttt-official

See. No divorce for us. We die gruesome deaths together.

drifttt-official

As I’d hope, never straying too far from my beloved conjunx, even in Primus’ will of our deaths we stay together… but if we pass who has flatline..?

OOC: who has flatline I ask as if I haven’t been absent for…. Uhh yes :) #deadbeat father #loser #drift take care of ur child #ratchet is gon leave yo ass and have u paying child support #roddy doesn’t pay u

ratchet-offical

Oh there you are. Of course we stay together.

And if we die, Brainstorm gets custody. So let’s not die.

OOC:

#The only time I approve of hashtags #drift is a deadbeat father #isnt he also rich? #ratchet is getting that child support

doc-nickel-official

I can always get custody myself, deep down you know I'm the wiser choice, yet pride won't allow you

ratchet-offical

I’d find a way back from death just to make sure you didn’t get custody.

doc-nickel-official

I will raise your child and make them into my IMAGE

Even in death and an alternate universe they ended up next to one another....

ratchet-offical

@drifttt-official

See. No divorce for us. We die gruesome deaths together.

drifttt-official

As I’d hope, never straying too far from my beloved conjunx, even in Primus’ will of our deaths we stay together… but if we pass who has flatline..?

OOC: who has flatline I ask as if I haven’t been absent for…. Uhh yes :) #deadbeat father #loser #drift take care of ur child #ratchet is gon leave yo ass and have u paying child support #roddy doesn’t pay u

ratchet-offical

Oh there you are. Of course we stay together.

And if we die, Brainstorm gets custody. So let’s not die.

OOC:

#The only time I approve of hashtags #drift is a deadbeat father #isnt he also rich? #ratchet is getting that child support

doc-nickel-official

I can always get custody myself, deep down you know I'm the wiser choice, yet pride won't allow you

gadget-workshopmaintanece

Played animal hospital yesterday with @knockout-official127. WAY TOO MUCH FUN. We played on VC and their just an amazing friend X3

knockout-official127

it was literally so KO and Koi coded though!! A patient was about to die and I was panicking, Koi just calmly said “just put them in the trash.” 😭

doc-nickel-official

The trash truck is going to crush them anyways

knockout-official127

You should play with us Nickel

doc-nickel-official

Eh, sure I can try, I'll message you my user, my account is like.. really old tho

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