A weeb?! AND a doctor?! don't tell me you like feet too, queen

roadtripwithlucifer @ AO3

[doctorweebmd]

roadtripwithlucifer is my AO3

i don’t have a twitter or insta or kofi or anything lol i just talk to myself on here and forget to respond to comments/messages for months on end (sorry)

[doctorweebmd]

12300 words ☠️ ok. what miracle do i need to pull off to actually finish this today

[battwingmembrane]

“And the best of these thoughts taste metallic.”

[themistas]

@kyouka-supremacy

[braincellzgone]

I made my own wallpaper because I'm starving.

I suck at making wallpapers though😭 Well, it's good enough for me lmao.

[doctorweebmd]

oh i VASTLY overestimated how much i'd be able to write yesterday because as usual i feel like total brainfoggy shit after working a nightshift (i got through one (1!!!!) page. its 28 pages long thus far.) so ok lets start the editing process forreals today ->

starting wordcount 8400. i've read through chapter 14 on the fic and have taken a lot of notes re: references/lines i want to make sure to include which is a really good thing because i forgot minor details from part 1. i definitely want to finish re-reading the fic (and respond to all the comments!) before my final edit of the epilogue which depending on how things go today will be tomorrow (or monday at the latest.) hehehehe ok lets get this bread

[doctorweebmd]

...12300. yikes! part 1 is solid and needs some more editing (i teared up a bit at the end hehe), part 2 is messy and needs work but the story itself is solid - tbd re how much time/work it still needs. i'll have to re-read with clear eyes tomorrow to see if there are parts i need to slash but overall i'm very excited. its coming along very VERY well. not sure if tomorrow is the day - if we're very lucky and i'm very productive, then maybe, but its more likely that it will be ready by mondayyyy hehehhehehehehhe

[daily-ranpo]

[r26yz]

big brother

[deuterix-deactivated20170623]

”It’s my job.”

[lasutotu]

unwillingly fated destinies

[vonlipwig]

developing the hots for ryan gosling because of project hail mary is so fucking embarrassing I swear to god. that is a conventionally attractive man. a noted hollywood heartthrob. he's even blond, are you kidding me? did he win people magazine's sexiest man alive? I don't know. I'm not going to check but it wouldn't surprise me at this point. it's such a mainstream taste. such a clichéd celebrity crush. like oh I fancy ryan gosling and my favourite drink is coca-cola and my favourite snack is ready salted crisps. jesus christ. 'b-b-but i only like him when he's in a science pun tshirt and playing a dorky-awkward loner type!' doesn't matter. he's still ryan 'ken from barbie' gosling. it's so trite. I feel like the weird nerd girl in a teen coming-of-age romcom falling for the super popular jock. don't I know that I have a reputation to uphold here? cringe.

[fandomsandfairytales]

This post is the spiritual successor to that post about David Corenswet:

[doctorweebmd]

oh i VASTLY overestimated how much i'd be able to write yesterday because as usual i feel like total brainfoggy shit after working a nightshift (i got through one (1!!!!) page. its 28 pages long thus far.) so ok lets start the editing process forreals today ->

starting wordcount 8400. i've read through chapter 14 on the fic and have taken a lot of notes re: references/lines i want to make sure to include which is a really good thing because i forgot minor details from part 1. i definitely want to finish re-reading the fic (and respond to all the comments!) before my final edit of the epilogue which depending on how things go today will be tomorrow (or monday at the latest.) hehehehe ok lets get this bread

[soldier-of-death]

im only attracted to worthy opponents

[doctorweebmd]

i think in general one of the themes of beast that i really dont vibe with (and, in part, i think that's the point) is that over and over again, we see the main characters (dazai, atsushi, gin, kyouka) each, one by one, tell akutagawa that he's a bad person inherently and that nothing he does will change that fact. that he is born evil and that it is not possible for him to be a 'good person' no matter how hard he tries.

and i think the point of beast is to show that even if he IS born evil that he's capable of resisting the monster within, that he's capable of changing and growing; all well and good, but it still heavily leans into a concept around 'goodness' that is somehow nebulous and impossible to define. akutagawa DOES live by a internal moral code and has values that he acts on that many WOULD consider 'good': i.e. strong opposition to organized crime as his friends were killed by these people, value of food and respect of the hard work that feeding others requires, the belief that siblings should be kind and respect and protect one another - to name a few.

the way he enforces and responds to violations of those beliefs - i.e. with violence and often bloodshed - is not a socially appropriate reaction and its used as both a comic relief aspect of the story AND the main point of criticism of him as person. but i think to call him inherently evil when he clearly holds a strong moral code is reductionist at best.

in my opinion beast!akutagawa's issue is not the lack of moral code - its that his morality around justice is anchored around revenge. an eye for an eye. i'd argue that is not a 'monster-like' sentiment - its human, and incredibly incredibly common. like many, his fatal flaw is focusing so much on getting revenge on that which has been destroyed in his life that he cannot see and nurture what's still left.

[clocktower-order]

Doppo Kunikida "An Unscripted Sunday" SSR from the Doppo Kunikida Training Campaign (6.12-6.26)

[kyouka-supremacy]

@sad-emo-dip-dye !!!!!!!!

[neep365]

caught

heres the sketch and the less saturated version that i kinda like better

[kyouka-supremacy]

Every day I thank Beast for making what was an already complex and multilayered relationship an even more complex and multilayered relationship

The layers it adds to the sskk dynamics... How much they have in common... Helping to distinguish what of their behavior was shaped by their upbringing and what wasn't and instead is part of their nature... And most importantly how they would have literally loved each other if it hadn't been for the circumstances. They would have clicked at the first encounter. They would have affably chatted like they were longtime friends. They would have sympathized with the other and genuinely enjoyed the other's presence. AND ALL OF THIS IS CANON

Tbh I think Beast's main theme is that Atsushi and Akutagawa love each other and that any grudge they hold against the other is the consequence of the society they live in no I don't take criticism. What hits hardest - really, hardest - is the fact that even while fighting in Beast, they knew the other had no fault. They knew the other was just doing what they had to do, and it couldn't be any other way. They would have done the same thing in their place, and in a way they were doing exactly that, because their positions - fighting for their little sisters' lives - were nearly identical. As paradoxical as it may sound, even while fighting, they were sympathizing one with the other. The most beautiful yet cruel difference between Beast and canon is that while in canon they fight against each other because there's a difference in their ideals / goals, and can't understand the other's motivations, in Beast they do have such knowledge, they do understand and even go as far as to relate to the other's motivations, yet because of cruel fate they can't evade fighting - despite they would rather not to!!!! Despite actually saying they're sorry for what they're doing!!!! - because the circumstances compelled them to kill each other, a destiny they can't escape. And it's so tragic, and it's so beautiful, and it shows how deeply connected they are, and how much they're made for each other.

[doctorweebmd]

(me re-reading chapter 14 of eih)