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Vent/Personal blog ag3: 20 ♀

[dollgorewhore]

The yumejoshi/fictionloving side of me is losing its mind. When I see other fanart of people with my favorite character that I supported way longer than them I get severely angry. Like why are you all having sex and dating my f/o EXCEPT ME

But I could never make actual art of me and my favorite character because I get embarrassed…

[dollgorewhore]

I hate when someone says they don’t like something and it should perish that if it’s sarcasm everyone agrees and laughs but when it’s serious and you actually mean it nobody wants to talk with you and you’re considered a terrible human

[dollgorewhore]

I can’t stand people who smoke complaining about other smokes or perfume. Cry about and die about it. The doctor TOLD you to stop smoking. I refuse to smell literal feces and urine in our bathroom. I refuse to smell and inhale it. I have sensory problems, asthma, and allergies that only get worse if I smell these things. So I spray flowery perfume, I don’t care how many chemical it has.

Since no one gives a damn I don’t give not one damn in return

[dollgorewhore]

Returning to my jervis tetch days to cope with the fact that James Gordon Jr isn’t coming back anytime soon 😢

I love crusty DC villains so much

[kickasscentral]

its official. i have jervis disease (instead of brain there is only jervis)

heres the brain scan 😞😞

[purgatoryportal]

I don't want to contribute to this putrid society. Rot in hell.

[dollgorewhore]

This is literally how I look when I eat a chicken burger (this is very important because normally I don’t eat burgers) the darn thing is big as my hand..

Oh yeah and there’s Tomoko (aka also literally me)

[dollgorewhore]

I wanna believe hanlon’s razor is true, but in reality it’s mostly half true. People do willingly cause harm and chaos for their sick pleasures. people hurt me cause it’s easy, I’m short and autistic and a girl so I’m considered less than or even non existent. there’s been countless examples of low empathetic crimes committed by people regardless of intelligence, intention, mental health, or neurotype.

no one sexually harasses because they were stupid or ignorant, they do it willfully and with intent to harm. Same with non sexual abuse and so on.

even ragebait has the intent to harm and divide. It manipulates the emotions.

How can’t people see that humans are truly evil creatures?

I’m tired of blaming things on anything but the truth and being called a doomer, what are you, 12? Why do think using hurt words makes me sad or that it’s gonna change my mind?

[ryan-sometimes]

This makes me feel like such a boomer, but I hate it how all media has been TikTok-ified and algorithm primed. Songs are shorter, designed for short viral clips rather than a full listening experience. TV shows and movies are sloppier, dragging on and on, assuming you’ll be on your phone and have it only in the background. Even books have been chewed up and spat back out as easily consumable tropes, with bite-sized chapters and mannequins for characters. This late stage capitalism hellscape we’re in has made art into something you snack on rather than savor.

[dollgorewhore]

look at those chompers…

Get Myles out of Metroid so I can care for him💛

this poor nerdy baby didn’t deserve his hate he just spawned in the wrong game universe is all

[dollgorewhore]

How many bennys does it take to see hat man

normally if I took it for my allergy’s it doesn’t do anything but make me beyond tired

[dollgorewhore]

I think my chronic stomach issues are coming from anxiety, I don’t see how. All my life has been anxiety inducing and sensory overload before I even was diagnosed autistic. My mother has verbally and physically and mentally abused me. I’m surprised my hair didn’t fall out back then. All she could say was “my bad for yelling at you” fuck you bitch I hope you rot in hell. anyway, this is serious, I can’t even talk to people without my heart pounding and my bp messing up, the nurse checking my blood pressure pleaded with me to calm down but I just couldn’t. The entire concept of a hospital is anxiety inducing and they just don’t give a damn even with my autism diagnosis they don’t care that I’m having a silent panic attack before their eyes. Speaking of eyes I have giant dark circles under them because I can’t sleep from my vivid nightmares and insomnia.

I used to cry all the time and since getting my tears beaten out of me I guess it developed into anxiety/paranoia instead. I’m sure no doctor would take me seriously over this because I’m a poc neurodivergent girl and they just want money or whatever reason.

does anyone have any real advice? I can’t turn this shit off. I’m on lexapro but i don’t think any of the antidepressants work, I really am going to say it…but I want relief, I want to die. I can’t stand this world nor its people and nothing will change. It’s either this or I go back to cutting or something else. I blamed everything on autism but now I’m not even sure anymore.

people wonder why statistic say we die from suicide more than anything else, only problem is I’m too scared to actually do it.. because I hate pain. If people knew how bad this was they would take it seriously

[iryoukawa]

never ever comfort me on my vent posts bro i would rather die than be pitied through words😭😭😭 just hit the like button and thatll be enough for me

[dollgorewhore]

I wish I was a vampire, I already can’t stand the sunlight and the concept of daytime. My life would be fixed.

[entropymisanthropy]

I was waiting my whole life for someone to be on my level. Everyone just sucks. That is why I never had a real friend or relationship.

Everyone was after something out of me. "Love" is just a lie people use to trap others. And most don't even say the word because they know they are not able to even pretend to experience it.

You know how therapy tries to gaslight you into believing good people exist? Lol. That only works if you're following the script. For women that's "get pregnant and put out children". Leave the script and you will be abandoned.

Love is something humans wish they could achieve. Sex and lust is all they manage.

[dollgorewhore]

I think back when I saw eugenia cooney’s mother called her a “skinny minny”

why? My own mother called me that once too

obviously I’m not at that girls weight but my height does make me smaller. My mother probably thinks I’ll one day become a 6ft 225lb tank like Jason Todd or something (my hubby btw)

I guess to some people it sounds like a eating problem but I can eat fine I just can’t eat a 5 pound steak seasoned with gun powder like my fellow ‘muricans

I don’t like to think about my weight too much but I think it very…interesting that that happened

I’ve talked about this a dozen times. Just autism rumination I guess…

I also know this sounds like some poor sad girl story but I’m not saying this to make you feel bad about me

[paralyzedthoughts]

I hate modern society so much, but I would hate living in any era. I fucking hate humans. Humans are the reason this world is full of suffering.