ginger tart

pics not mine!! angels choose recovery

[dollheaart]

i hate when i'm 6 sedatives into the day and everything's still upsetting me

[crashingonneptune]

[beautifuiprincessdisorder]

one of my friends gave the other a weird look while i was speaking yesterday and it’s gotten to me so much thinking that they’re mad at something i’ve done or that they don’t like me anymore or that they’ve been talking behind my back that i’m sat on my bedroom floor crying my eyes out with my blades out next to me not knowing whether i want to give in and relapse or try going for longer but it’s so hard when all you want to do is just hurt yourself as badly as you can. i’m just writing as a way of calming myself down, usually if i keep doing this for long enough i calm down enough to be able to think a bit more clearly about things and feel stronger enough to put them away and just go back and cry it out in bed. my chest feels so heavy and like theres something stabbing me and my throat feels like it’s closing up. my legs are shaking a lot and so are my hands and my head. i hope that i’m only overthinking things. i think i just get more upset by little things than i should. i just care a lot about what my friends think of me. most people were mean to me for most of my life so when i start to feel like my friends don’t like me either i panic a lot i think i’m very insecure when it comes to my relationships with people i just always think that people are lying to me and that they are trying to get my guard down so that they can bully me. i don’t know. i think i should just get back into bed and put something on my tv and let myself cry now.

[lisaabunny]

pleaaaaase donttttt try to find me thru my deeeeaaallerrrrrr