Dome Of Silence

A soul who loved too much

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Who am I to tell me who I am when you’ve taken all of me?

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Old habits die hard, once again I’m back to my suicidal thoughts.

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For once in my life, I just want to be good enough.

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It’s cold, it’s 3 a.m. and I’m haunted by your voice. Unable to sleep, unable to forget, unable to move on.

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I’m filled to the brim with emotions that all I have left is a hollow space in my chest

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I just want to be held by your arms once again, just once again, I want to feel like I’m home.

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I am truly, undoubtedly, absolutely alone in this world. The people who pretend they care don’t even pretend anymore. I have never felt more lonely than I do in this moment.

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It hurts more to live than to die because I’m a failure who just can’t get anything right.

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I was so close today, so close. I even wrote the goodbye letters and had the blade to my pulse, yet I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Coward.

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Do you know how much it sucks? How it sucks that you can try and try and try but you’ll never be good enough. Not even close.

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I always said I live to die. There is no point to life because nothing really matters, does it?

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I guess I’ll always be an idiot when it comes to you.

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I tried, I really really did. Can you blame me for eventually getting tired?

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I left you because I break everything I touch.

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And after all this time, even though I promised to “not give a damn”, I still cry when you forget me.

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I have turned into everything I despised because it was the only way I could survive.

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I became the monster I swore to protect myself from.