I’ve always had a tendency to overthink, but when I’m in a NEET state I feel like I could drown in my thoughts.
I once read that Japanese people say 「 地震は日本の宿命だ 」(”earthquakes are Japan’s destiny”), accepting that their country exists on top of actively shifting tectonic plates, and the associated risks are an inevitable part of that. Instead of pitying themselves for their ill-fate, they just yield to fact and do their best prepare for each and every shock. It’s just such a Japanese way of seeing things and having a humble attitude.
Well, in a similar vein I want to say「就活と恋活を苦労するのは私の宿命だ」 (”the struggle to find a permanent job and someone to spend my life with are my destiny”). I just have to accept this truth and work with it, rather than pitting myself against it as if things shouldn’t be this way. The fact is, it is and there’s nothing I can do to control that. I can do everything in my power to be the smartest, hard-working, most loving person in the world, but ultimately it’s not for me to decide if the company will employ me, or if that person will love me. It seems like it’s my lot in life that both of these things will be forever hard to acquire for me, and I have to accept that. I have a lot to be thankful already, and God help me if I fail to appreciate them by futilely fighting what cannot be changed. As Eckhart Tolle says, “Nonresistance is the key to the greatest power in the universe”.
And, even more importantly to me, as what the Bible says in my favourite book: “Notice the way God does things; then fall into line. Don't fight the ways of God, for who can straighten out what he has made crooked?” (Ecclesiastes 7:13)
