MATT DONOVAN.

SOME OF US DON'T HAVE THE OPTION OF LEAVING. SOME OF US ... ARE STUCK HERE. he shouldn't be able to bleed. it's not right for that god-made GOLDEN BOY to have blood that RED. [ dependant matt donovan with iotd. ]

[donovanmatt]

"he shouldn't be able to bleed. it's not right for that god-made GOLDEN BOY to have blood that RED." where is this quote from? did you write it yourself?

I did not write it! It’s from this poem (as far as I know, that post is the source.)

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

It broke her heart to say those things, it hurt like hell to let him go, but she knew it was the right thing to do. It is kind of a relief to hear that he knows why she’s saying those things and it takes all of her self control to not close the distance between them, kiss him and keep him there with her forever. “I guess that’s what people mean when they say that they love you more than anything.” She replied with a sad smile before sighing deeply.  “I love you enough to know you’ll have a better chance in life if you go and I’m so in love with you that I want you to have that chance, even if it’s without me.” And because she couldn’t stand the possibility that her job would be the death of him. “If we’re supposed to be together we’ll find each other again, but until then you’ll pack your things and you’ll go to college.”

Matt has tears in his eyes as Sofia speaks, knowing that she’s right, but hating it all the same. “Someday, we will. Find each other again, I mean. And there’ll always be room for you with me out in New Mexico. But until then...” He pulls her in, kissing her one last time. He wants to freeze that moment and stay in it forever, but he knows it’s not possible. If he’s being realistic, he knows that this kind of opportunity won’t come twice, which means he has to take it. “I love you, Sofia,” he says, pulling away and giving her one last look. “Goodbye.”

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

“I love you too.” She replied sadly. It took her only a second to decide what she was going to do, maybe the exact amount of time that it took Matt to decide to jump in front of her and save her life. “But… Matt, we would never work in a long term. I’m a hunter, you are not, it’s only a matter of time until I have to move away from Mystic Falls and then what? You’ll follow me around? No home, never staying too long in one place, no stability. I love what we have, but it wouldn’t last much longer anyway.” She shrugged, surprised at how stable her voice was even though she was lying. “I can’t quit my job and I can’t let you quit your future because of me. You should go to college, you should find another girl, one that won’t have a dangerous job.”

Matt frowned as Sofia spoke, her words taking a moment to sink in. He’s hurt at first, before he understands what she’s trying to do. “You’re breaking up with me so I’ll go.” He says, letting out a sigh, stepping closer to her as he feels his heart begin to break. She’s lying, but she’s right: Sofia’s not going to stop hunting, and he wasn’t built to be one. He’s wanted to go to college for years, and now that the opportunity’s been provided to him, it feels almost impossible to say no. “That just makes me love you more, you know.”

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

Sofia sighed heavily. Of course she needed Matt and of course she wanted to be with him, but she knew Matt deserved a better chance in life, one he would never have in Mystic Falls. “Matt… Maddie and I will be fine and Caroline would probably tell you to go too.” She replied. “What everyone needs is for you to go.”

“I’m not just going to leave you, Sofia. You’re my girlfriend, and I love you.” Sacrificing things he wanted for what other people needed was second nature at this point, but it hardly bothered him anymore. “When things calm down, I’ll try again.”

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

Sofia smiled as told her, feeling genuinely happy for Matt, but her smile turned into a frown when he said he could go. “Wait, what do you mean you can’t go?” She asked. “You can definitely go, you have to go, Matt. What is stopping you?” She asked, even though she instantly knew the answer to that.

“With everything going on here, I can’t go,” Matt protests. “You and Maddie are still grieving over your parents, Caroline’s mom just died... everyone still needs me here. I can’t just up and leave.”

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

“Full scholarship? I’m going to need more details than that.”

“To the University of New Mexico! I applied months ago, I didn’t tell anybody because it was a crazy long shot, but apparently my admissions essay was killer. It’s totally crazy, and...” he trails off, smile fading as he shakes his head. “And I can’t go.”

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

“What is it?”

“I got in. I got a full scholarship.”

[donovanmatt]

“Holy shit.” / @huntressinheels

[donovanmatt]

madelinebrown !

It wasn’t hard to hear that things wouldn’t go back to normal, because she knew herself they wouldn’t, especially now when she didn’t even know what her normal was anymore. There wasn’t anywhere that she could even call home anymore, because the people that made it one were no longer here and those people were the ones that made her feel safe. Her parents were the ones she could have always turned to, even if it was just for a hug she couldn’t bring herself to ask for. The fact that she heard that he had moved on, eventually, did bring her a small glimmer of hope that she didn’t have before. She gave him a faint smile in return as she looked at him, when he said he would be there to help her she felt a single tear roll down her cheek that she very quickly wiped away. Now pulling her hand away from his, she turned her head so she wasn’t looking at him face on and she stayed silent, so she could take a moment to compose herself.

Matt didn’t resist when Maddie pulled her hand away, giving her the minute she needed to pull herself together. He didn’t that she was this raw, this emotional, but he knew that she minded, and that was what was important. Maddie wasn’t one for wearing her heart on her sleeve or having deep, heartfelt conversations, and Matt knew that. He knew they’d pushed far enough for one day, and he didn’t want to try to pressure her into any more of the conversation. Though he was ready to keep going if she needed, he simply sat in silence and waited.

[donovanmatt]

madelinebrown !

When he reached out to take her hand, she didn’t pull away, she let him and she looked away, trying to keep her focus on anything else. She couldn’t understand how she could learn to deal with everything that had happened and was happening, but Matt made it seem that she would and she believed him. She did. She just didn’t know how she would get there. She was trying so hard to be strong, but it didn’t help, it didn’t ease the pain. “I keep…” she breathed out slowly, “I keep pushing people away because it’s easier for me to ignore everything and…” she didn’t know why it was easy to talk to Matt, but he was one of the closest friends she had and she felt comfortable. “I’ve been drinking to.. to help me sleep and if I don’t–” she took a deep breath in, “If I don’t…” she smiles, but there was only sadness behind it, “I can’t think straight.”

Matt was glad Maddie was opening up to him, but he hated that she was having such a hard time. “When my sister died, I pushed everyone away, too. My dad left us when we were kids, and my mom... well, Vicki and I were pretty much on our own from day one. She was all I had, and when she was gone, I didn’t think things would ever go back to normal. And to be honest? They didn’t.” It was true: there was still a hole where his sister was supposed to be, one that he didn’t think would ever completely go away. “I have a new normal now. And it doesn’t have my sister, which sucks sometimes, but it does a lot of things I didn’t have before, too.” He gives her hand a little squeeze and offers her a smile. “The drinking and the ignoring, it only works for so long. Eventually you’re gonna learn how to deal without that stuff, and I’ll be here to help.”

[donovanmatt]

shawnmaddox !

“Name’s Shawn.” He stated looking him over. He wasn’t here to intimidate the guy, he just wanted to chat to him, whether or not they got along afterwards depended on the way the conversation went. “Friend of the Will, Maddie…Sofia.” Slumping down into the chair to make himself comfortable he nodded his chin towards him. “Heard you got a nasty hit by jumpin’ in front of Sofia, right? You gonna do that every time with her? Cause she was pretty pissed about that.” 

Once Matt had his name, things clicked into place: he’d seen a few photos of the guy, and all of the Browns had mentioned him at once time or another. “Oh, yeah, I’ve heard your name from them before.” His posture relaxes for a moment before he chuckles at Shawn’s words. “Only when it’s a fatal one she won’t be able to dodge in time. She mentioned that part, right? Where she would have died, and all I got was a glorified scratch? Or did she leave that bit out?”

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

Sofia wished she could stay there forever in Matt’s arms, laying in a hospital bed, it hurt a lot less than going home and facing the reality that her and her siblings were now orphans. But she couldn’t. “I can’t.” She shook her head, sitting on the bed. As much as she wanted to stay there with him, there was too much to do. “I… I have to find Maddie and Will and… And I need to get things ready for the funeral, and…” She started rambling, tears streaming down her face as she did so. No one else would do those things, Maddie was in too much pain and she would never put Will through any of that. “I need to go.”

“Not tonight you don’t,” Matt said, keeping a hold on her hand as if that would keep her there with him. With his free hand, he reached up to brush away some of the tears that were still streaming down her cheeks. He knew exactly how stubborn she was, but he also knew how to try and talk her down. “It’s late, and everything’s closed. You won’t be able to call and make funeral arrangements until the morning. Right now all you need is to stay here and take care of yourself.”

[donovanmatt]

madelinebrown !

She knew that everyone around her would eventually die, but it wasn’t fair that almost half of the ones she loved were now dead and a year hadn’t even passed yet. They deserved better than how it all ended. LJ. Her mom. Her dad. They did’t deserve to go the way they did. It wasn’t fair. None of this was fair and she couldn’t help herself but worry over who was next, it was almost like she was trying to prepare herself for something bad happening, so that when it did (if it would), she was ready and wouldn’t feel as much. She took a deep breath as she felt her eyes glaze over, she wouldn’t do this now, she didn’t want to. “It’s just not fair.” she breathed out. How could she even enjoy what she had around her, when she was continuously avoiding her sister and her brother was— well, she didn’t even know where he was. Everything was broken. “I don’t know… I don’t know how to do anything.”

“You’re not supposed to.” Matt said, reaching out to take Maddie’s hand. He could see how much she was hurting, even if she didn’t want for it to show. “The universe just carved a gaping hole in your life that used to be filled. You’ve never had to deal with it before, so of course you don’t know how to do anything after that. But you’re gonna learn.” He did have faith in that, even though the huntress had lost so much: she was one of the strongest people he knew, and she would find a way to keep going eventually. “We learn to adapt, even if it hurts. We’re built to lose things, and learn how to move on from it.”

[donovanmatt]

shawnmaddox !

With him already being in the hospital Shawn figured he should make the most out of his trip there, not that it was uncommon for him to need to go to hospital. Besides motels, it was probably the second place he visited the most. With a flash of his smile and a bit of conversation with one of the nurses which he had also gotten acquainted with from his visits, he got the room that Matt was staying in with ease. Strolling in, he glanced around at the sad room. “You’re Matt right?” He asked before pulling up a chair to the side of Matt’s bed. @donovanmatt

Matt was only a few days away from leaving the hospital, according to his doctors. An infection had delayed his release, but it was healed now, and so close to his release date he wasn’t expecting any new visitors. Certainly not ones he didn’t know, but he thought the man looked slightly familiar: he just couldn’t put his finger on where he’d seen him. “Yeah, that’s me.” He sat up in the hospital bed, slightly wary. “Who’re you?”

[donovanmatt]

madelinebrown !

She dropped her gaze to the floor when he started lecturing her, she did think it was funny, especially as roles should have been reversed, considering he was the on in the hospital bed and not her. She glanced over to him, holding his eye contact for probably about five seconds before she started to look anywhere else. “I know. People just keep dying and I’m— I’m scared to think who’s next.” she couldn’t help but think it, it hadn’t even been a year since her brother died and now her parents were both dead. Who was next? Sofia? Will? Leo— Matt? She knew she wouldn’t be able to handle another, purely because she was barely keeping it together now.

“People are always gonna die, Maddie. Even without all this supernatural bullshit we end up getting roped into.” Maybe not as early and as gruesome as they did here, but it was true. They were humans: death just came with the territory. Not that he didn’t feel for Maddie: when Vicki had died, he’d tried to push everyone away because he was scared of losing someone else. “It’s normal to stress about it. But I think the best thing to do isn’t to worry about what we’re going to lose next: we should be enjoying what we do have, while we have it.”

[donovanmatt]

madelinebrown !

She took a seat in the chair beside his bed once he said she could and she still couldn’t help feeling guilty despite hearing him tell her she shouldn’t. If truth be told, after everything that had happened she completely forgot that Matt was actually in hospital. It wasn’t until she walked past earlier that she remembered, though she wasn’t here because she had to be, she was here because she wanted to be. “I do.” she blamed herself for more than just this. “At least you’re getting better now. You should be out soon, right?” 

“Any day now,” he says, shifting a bit in the bed so he can watch her expressions. “I know you’re not a big talker, especially when it comes to feelings, but there is absolutely no way that you’re fine right now, Maddie.” It probably looked a little silly, him practically lecturing her from a hospital bed of all places, but Maddie was a good friend and he was concerned. “You don’t have to talk, but if there’s something else, anything... you know I’m here.”

[donovanmatt]

huntressinheels !

Deep down Sofia knew Matt couldn’t keep that promise, it wasn’t really up to him. She knew that if she was ever in danger again, he would risk his life for her, and she knew that in a town like Mystic Falls you never knew what big dangerous event would happen next and who would die because of it. Still it was a relief to hear him promising it and it felt good to hear him saying he loved her. “And I love you.” She said, her dark eyes staring into his blue ones. She laid her head on his chest carefuly, letting him hug her tightly, and like all the other times Matt held her Sofia felt that was her home, right between his arms, not in the cold, empty and dark house that she grew up in, that now held nothing but the painful memory of losing her parents.

Matt wished, more than anything, that he could take away the hurt Sofia was feeling. Being stuck here for even longer? Being stabbed again? He would take any and all of it, tenfold, if it meant that it would lessen Sofia’s agony. But he knew that there was nothing he could do, nothing but sit there and hold her tight, and hope that there would be a morning where she finally woke up and realized that the void in her heart hurt just a little less than it had yesterday. “You should try and get some sleep.” Her sleeping here in his arms wasn’t technically allowed, but all of the staff had gotten used to them spending all their time together by now, so he was pretty sure they would let it slide.