Mohammad Zainal @dontfindmeihateyou - Tumblr Blog

thank you Allah ❤️

im proud of me. i passed the first trial.

i cant eat well, exausted and tired till i got the apendex. ya Allah i seek for forgiveness, help me. it hurt alots, save me Allah. amin

aku akan ingat sampai bila bila, apabila diri tiada harga, susah dan tidak sehebat seperti lelaki lain. alasan dia " tanpa lelaki aku boleh hidup, aku belajar untuk berdikari sendiri, cari duit sendiri " dalam kata yang aku terima terlalu banyak yang termaktub dalam beribu alasan. terima kasih banyak Nurul Aqmal Aqilah Binti Hazzarie, banyak pengajaran yang ku dapat, in shaa Allah dari semua pengajaran yg ku dpt akan menjadi mudah ku untuk ku menjadi lelaki yg baik untuk jodoh ku di masa depan.

2017 hingga 2020 ku bersama mu pelbagai dugaan dan pahitnya ku terima dan menahan sabar, malahan bertahun tahun sudah di khianati aku sentiasa untuk memilih sabar sehinggalah pengakhiran alasan yg kau beri ku terima oleh kerana diri ku tiada harganya lagi. derita yg ku dapat bertahun tahun bersama mu.. aku berserah saja kepada yang maha esa, semua atu urusan nya dan kerajaannya. aku pasti setiap doa ku tabur kn Allah dengar, sedang kan sekeping daun yg jatuh dari pohon pokoknya Allah boleh dengar.. apatah lagi doa doa hamba nya.. Allah pasti dengar dan Allah yang lagi maha Adil. ❤️

true, i cant even feel the love that are only for me. you have so many issues. i tried to bring myself back everyday, but.. by trusting you back is hard, im not gonna say that i wasnt love you at that time, i do love you everyday i miss you everyday.. sometimes i got nothing to say, i say i love you i miss you so many times.. i never get bored saying that. when you tellin me a stories i tried to cut your story for awhile then i say bb i love you i miss you alot! but sad, you never prove me anything that can make me to trust you, till you left me, that i was still waiting for you to change, still struggling to find some enough money for us. im so tired bb, you are my only hope to make me raised everyday.. even you hurt me everyday, im still okey to stay.. because i love you alot. till the day you left me, that day make me relise who you are. honestly, i never met a person who has been treat me as cruel you have been treated me, you are so meant. since 2017, 2018, 2019 and 2020 we are together, we laugh, we cry and everything.. even you hurt me alot, i never choose to leave as meant as you are. im still strong to stay with you and i never get bored with you. all i need is to get myself back and i would love to trust you back like 100% but yet, you choose to leave. leaving me just like that, and now.. the struggle i just had is nothing. i dont know how to tell, i dont know how to explain. im tired.. i am totally tired 😔