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The Satanic Leaf Tailed Gecko is like a real life Dragon!

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I haven't been on this in a long time.

Holy fuck its literally been forever, this reminds me too much of shit, oh god. I don't really know what to say besides to talk about my problems, and this is the one place I know my friends won't see so here you go. I want to literally kill myself, I'm not depressed I'm just really tired if constantly bring surrounded by negative energy and today had been too much, I'm not gonna actually attempt to its just crazy I don't want to kill myself because of myself anymore but more of just life and its challenges. Today did have it's good moments, Nicky, aka the main reason I stay happy and try really hard not to stay down, she feels love for me that I once thought I lost and its such an indescribable feeling knowing she feels that way about me. I love her more than there are thoughts in my head that can think of ways to describe it, more than I ever thought my heart could handle, more than I ever imagined I could again. I just really want to say life is a roller coaster, a cluster fuck, and then you die so make the most of it we're here for a reason and you decided if that reason is nothing at all.

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Pantera and Alice in Chains

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2 of my favorites (-':

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Everything is a matter of perspective. I realized today that within certain circles of people, I project the image of someone with a nearly perfect and problem-less life. I seem to be someone that is very put together, confident, cheerful, passionate, etc… Of course, that is not the entire story. Yes, I can normally seem put together even in the days in which I feel the most broken. I do project confidence because even when I am not feeling it, I fake it till I make it. I am a very cheerful person in the outside most of the time, and I am indeed very passionate about the things I care about. However… there is so much more beyond that. Today I was talking with someone who recently found out that I listen to heavy and black metal, and they were quite surprised. They said something by the lines of “I didn’t think that you would be the type of person that listened to that type of music. Normally people who do, are in some deep shit” . In that moment I realized that to that person, I was this teenager with her life pulled together, and not any major problems other than the typical of her age (grades, school, etc…). This was very curious to me since I don’t feel that way. I don’t tell every single person what I’ve gone through or what I am going through (naturally). Therefore it is simply logical that if I only show the best of me, they will only see the best of me. Behind my confidence and my put-togetherness, I am trying to pick up my broken pieces, and viciously fight off a permeating sense of worthlessness and self-doubt. My passion is always there, but beyond my cheerfulness, there are many dark days and nights of numbness.

I think that overall, projecting a positive image of yourself to others is the best that you can do. By doing this, I can aspire to eventually become inside the person that I project.