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Good night.

I hope I won't wake up ever again.

I feel the worst that I've felt in a while. Like it all accumulated to this. I keep pushing myself and I think I'm having some sort of episode. Depression and numbness.

And yet I will still go to work tomorrow cause I don't know how to stop pushing. I think it translates in my brain into sh.

#:(

I feel like I have no one to talk to.

I'm at a point in life in which I have friends, and they're good friends but I feel it's out of place to share my current feelings with them.

I'm exhausted and alone and I need to keep a mask on and I honestly can't breathe.

#i have therapy in three days #and i need to survive till then #i want to write to make myself feel better but i cant

I had a dream that I finally found my blades and cut myself. Next day I hoped it was a clue and looked for them in the drawer from the dream nothing :(

#disappointing #tw #i need to buy but i always forget

I'm back it was quite short I know. Now I just feel nothing

. .

:)

I don't know where I hid my blades I've looked a few times everywhere and I can't find them I'm starting to dissociate bye bye now

#tw #lol im still thinking about other ppl at this time and tagging that

I felt like shit enough as it is and I was like let's play a game that will make me feel better and now I feel even worse. It was like psychological and it's hard to breathe now. What to do what to do..

#maybe it should have had a tw for the mentally unstable #i have this urge to quit my meds so i can kms easily #im tired all of a sudden #like cant move tired