I hate the phrase "It'll get better" because it's been years, and sure I've had happy moments I've had good things happen, but the reasons I don't want to be around anymore have done nothing but gotten worse, I have so many reasons to stay but with everything getting worse and worse their light seems so dim
Everyone wants to tell me I HAVE to stay, but life these days isn't "good with a few bad days" it's torture with a couple of nice moments
I'm so exhausted of having every dream ripped from me, of not even being able to achieve the simplest freedoms, of constantly lying to myself that it'll get better one day
I'm not breaking down everyday but it's hard to enjoy life when every little feeling of happiness is always overshadowed by the fact that there's no good future anymore just constant struggle
And that's the worst part about the current time, because it doesn't matter how long your list of reasons to stay is, life has gotten to the point where it's just not worth it anymore















