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Been trying to figure out what the fuck my issue is and I feel like the more I read about inattentive adhd the more it explains all the stupid little moments in my life. Each bullet point of symptoms has several experiences that I've dealt with a lot in my life.

I don't even know what to do about it at this point.

I wasted so much of my life already that if this were the answer it'd be a cruel fucking joke and I be so angry and bitter at all the people who ignored me for decades when I tried to tell them that there was something wrong with me.

I also hate that if it is adhd that the only way to deal with it is medication that I probably can't even afford right now. This shits depressing. I just want to feel normal and not fucking paralyzed and unmotivated all the time.

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aurora ~ espeon & umbreon risograph, design by me

if I knew how lonely and anxious I'd still be when I was younger I don't think I'd be here today. Been telling myself the lie of "it'll get better" but it hasn't. There's been a few moments through the past 15 years where it really felt like it would, but I just go back to being the same lonely anxious depressed guy I've always been since high school. I wish I could be better, but it's just not gonna happen.

I'm still stuck. The same person I've always been. I'm just older, more tired, and my body is beginning to wearing down. Everyone else is moving forward and changing.

I wasted so much time, I have nothing worthwhile to contribute, and I'm going to end up completely alone.

protip if you run a website then put an option that requires you to opt-out of your content being scraped for AI bullshit you're scum. Looking at you tumblr.

#tumblr #staff #tumblr staff #Fuck AI #Imagine using AI tech to fuck over the entire creative industry for a quick buck and exasperate artists further by automating art theft