As it turned out, Madeleine was available for lunch that afternoon and more than happy to see her daughter. Things had been well between the two of them for the last two weeks, and Rachel felt like vomiting just at the thought of possibly throwing that away. Hannibal suggested the news would be easier for her mother to bear if it was told to her in private by Rachel herself. Rachel, however, felt as if he were leaving her to handle it alone.
Why do I feel like we’re going to fight tonight even if she’s happy about it, she thought with a sigh while waiting for Madeleine to join her. That moment came far too quickly than she wanted.
“Oh, Rachel, dear, don’t you look lovely.” Madeleine leaned in to greet her daughter with a kiss on the cheek. “The spring sun is already doing you well. You look almost glowing.”
Rachel gave her a tense smile, adjusting the napkin on her lap. Madeleine didn’t notice, though, as she was giving her drink order to the waiter.
“A martini, please, with extra olives. One for both of us.”
The waiter hustled off before Rachel could interject. She’d intended to put the news off until the end of their meal, but now that timetable was also being moved up.
There was a little small talk after the drinks were dropped off and entrees ordered. Eventually Rachel couldn’t put it off any longer; she’d left her martini completely untouched, and Madeleine was looking a bit suspicious.
Rachel’s fingers fidgeted in her lap. “Mom,” she started, intentionally picking an endearing term she never used, “Can I tell you something?”
Madeleine gave her a sympathetic look, and her eyes flashed. Rachel couldn’t tell if the flash was one of happiness or concern. In all likelihood, it was probably a bit of both.
“Is it Hannibal, dear?” She dropped her voice. “Are you arguing? I’ve heard that European men can be quite aggressive, you know.”
As much as Madeleine may have been growing warmer towards her future son-in-law, there was nothing she loved more than drama.
“No, of course not, it isn’t that.” Rachel’s voice was sharp with offense — and frustration at the fact that they likely would be arguing tonight if her mood didn’t improve.
Madeleine gave her daughter an unconvinced look. Rachel looked off to the hostess stand for a moment, steeling herself. Then she turned back, finding her mother’s steely blue eyes hard to meet.
“We’re expecting a child. I’m due in November.”
The rim of Madeleine’s martini froze against her lips. She set it down with an unsteady hand, unsure of what to do with her face.
“My goodness, dear. How long have you known?”
More like, “How long have you been hiding this from me?” Even Rachel’s internal monologue sighed. Just swallow your pride and do what Hannibal said to do.
“We only found out this week. It’s still incredibly early, but we’ve decided to keep the baby.”
“Well I would sure hope so. We’re Catholic,” Madeleine said with righteousness, as if the last time she were on her knees had been for anything close to prayer. “What, did he suggest you get one of those… things?”
“No.” Rachel closed her eyes. Don’t snap, don’t snap. It’ll only make it worse. Her eyes fluttered open again, and she smiled. “We took our trip to New York, he proposed, and then we were completely surprised when I missed a second period. Missing one can often be a fluke, as you know.”
While Rachel talked, Madeleine had taken a silver case from her bag and was lighting a slim cigarette. There was an uncomfortable silence.
“I don’t know what the hell we’re going to have you wear for the wedding. Hiding a bump is hard but I will not have my daughter getting married after a child is born.” She took a long drag. “Well, that’s assuming he even has the decency to still marry you?”
“Of course.” The edge was coming back.
“Good. People will talk a little less, then.” Madeleine sighed, puffed out smoke and eyed Rachel’s martini. “I’ll take that off your hands, if you don’t mind.”
While Rachel was enduring an exceedingly unpleasant lunch, Hannibal had tried to step up as well. His behavior that morning had been immature. After all, he bore the same amount of responsibility for the current situation as his lover did. His annoyance had ebbed away, replaced by concern–she had been so anxious about being discovered by Madeleine’s friend, and knowing the elder DuBerry woman, he understood why. Hannibal no longer had parents to please. The only standards and expectations he had to meet were those he had set for himself, and if he failed to meet them, he only had himself to answer to. It was hard to remember that Rachel’s situation was entirely different. And despite that, instead of support, he’d shown contempt, impatience.
Even Hannibal could feel shame.
So he decided to make the effort for Rachel’s sake and the sake of their coming child. Since he already had the afternoon off from the hospital, Hannibal picked up a bottle of good Scotch and drove to the DuBerry residence. There was no guarantee that Eddy would be home, but luck favored the young father-to-be.
Eddy looked mildly surprised to see him when he opened the door. He stepped back to allow Hannibal to come inside, and Hannibal smiled.
“I’m sorry to drop in unannounced,” he said, “but Rachel is with her mother, as you probably know, and I thought I should do my part as well. Can I interest you in an afternoon drink?” He held up the bottle, which Eddy accepted with slightly wide eyes.
“Well, sure. I don’t see why not. How about we, uh, go into the library?”
The library was clearly Eddy’s space alone. It had none of Madeleine’s flourishes that Hannibal could detect nor even a faint whiff of her perfume. He wondered first when the lady of the house had last stepped foot in here; next, if a young Rachel, fond of books as she was, had sought sanctuary in this distinctly masculine room during her youth when she needed time away from Madeleine’s demanding nature. The image of her (in braids, perhaps, and a Catholic school uniform?) curled up in one of these big leather armchairs touched him.
Eddy opened the Scotch at a dark-stained cherry sideboard by the windows. He poured with a somewhat heavy hand, glancing back at Hannibal a few times in the process. Did he suspect the kind of news that Hannibal was about to deliver? Maybe every father instinctively mistrusted his daughter’s lover, engaged to be married or not.
“So what’s on your mind, Hannibal?” Eddy attempted the kind of jovial, paternal tone better suited to a fifties sitcoms than real life as he passed Hannibal a glass.
Hannibal had considered leading into the real reason for his visit by apologizing for not coming to Eddy to ask for his blessing before proposing to Rachel. Unfortunately, traditional in many ways though he was, he could not bring himself to ask forgiveness for something he considered both unnecessary and more than a little patronizing. Rachel was a grown woman in her thirties who knew her own mind. Even if she relied a bit too heavily on the DuBerrys for money and approval, she was her own woman, and Eddy was not the kind of attentive father whose blessing she would’ve sought before saying yes, in any case...even if she hoped for it deep down.
Instead, therefore, Hannibal looked Eddy squarely in the eye and said in a decidedly unapologetic tone, “Rachel and I found out this week that we are having a child.”
“Oh.” Eddy’s face gave away surprisingly little, but the older man did drink deeply from his glass. He blinked a few times. “Oh, I see. I...Rachel...what are your plans, then?”
“Our plans haven’t changed,” Hannibal assured him. “Though they may have to be moved forward...and I’m afraid Rachel is quite anxious about what you’ll think, you and her mother.”
Eddy nodded. He looked a bit dazed, Hannibal thought. Maybe he was considering the fallout one daughter’s premature pregnancy (by a strange European man no less) would cause in his household after the other had already run off with a Spanish stableboy.
“I know that I’m the outsider joining this family. But Rachel’s well-being is my number-one concern. Rachel’s and our baby’s, of course.” Now Eddy almost squirmed beneath Hannibal’s unwavering garnet stare. “Rachel needs your support. She needs a mother and father who will stand by her.”
Finally, he dropped his gaze and softened his expression a little. He donned his most guileless smile when he looked back at his future father-in-law.
“I could use a little of that myself.”
When Rachel returned home after her emotionally draining lunch date, her entire house smelled like Hannibal’s cooking. He had put one of her opera records on the turntable as well; as she came closer to the kitchen, she would be able to hear him singing along to the strains of melodramatic Italian under his breath. A pretty bouquet of a dozen newly-bloomed pink roses sat in the middle of the island along with a bottle of sparkling grape juice, his tongue-and-cheek concession to her enforced sobriety, and a box of chocolates wrapped in gold foil paper.
Hearing her footsteps, Hannibal turned way from his work. Dark hair had fallen into his eyes, forcing him to jerk his head to one side to clear them, and he wore a plain olive-green work shirt, its sleeves rolled to the elbows, with an apron overtop it. As usual in the house, he was in stocking feet. The whole picture was quite domestic.
“Hello, Rachel darling. Was it awful?” he asked, holding his arms open for her. “I’m sorry. You must think I’m an ogre. I should have gone with you. This is all just as much my doing as yours. Well...very nearly. You are exceedingly tempting, you know.”
As if to remind her that even while repentant, Hannibal Lecter could be a charming ass, he winked at her.
But contrition was an interesting look on Rachel’s fiancé. It made him seem younger, a sweet reminder that for all his pride and self-confidence, he wasn’t even thirty. Two months ago, neither of them expected to be walking this path towards matrimony and parenthood, yet here they were, navigating it clumsily together hand-in-hand.