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Decided to shamelessly promote my longer Sicario fics*:

Tame my flesh

Storm

If not for you

* or Variations on a theme, as my husband would say it ;-)

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Photo: Dalma Szivos

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No, I haven't forgotten his birthday. But there was no opportunity to have a negroni, so I am going to have it this weekend, somewhere.

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Daily portions, so far. None of them heals me but helps with symptoms... allegedly. Will have more supplements when the holiday is over.

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This is most likely my last driving holiday. Managed to travel through Wales, England, France, Germany and Austria in 5 days to reach my birth town. I still can sit for long hours and sleep briefly in the car if needed. So that's good. But my snapshots are really bad. Everything is kept in my memories and don't even feel like writing a blog post. I have to be more positive about my future and not thinking of weakening muscles and impending indignities and death. There is still life to be living, my neurologist said, so... let's get living.

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https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWjDB9UDQ0U/?igsh=MWJ2cXpibTdsazVyOA==

Just to answer @mariamariquinha re. 10 fav movies

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The only motivation you’ll ever need. 🐾🐉🐈‍⬛🤍

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Yep.

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Bluebells. Wild garlic. Such an amazing place. Managed to walk 2.75 km, _very_ slowly and enjoy this sight.

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"If my doctor told me I had only six months to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster." - Isaac Asimov

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Clinging to beauty, and doing loops around the community garden. Such colours there and in our little garden as well.

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Now, that I am slowly emerging from my initial shock and deep misery after getting my diagnosis (fuck ALS, thank you very much), maybe I should finish my half-baked fic, and let it out into the world. It will be shamessly soppy and soft but I don't give a fuck. I want it to float out there for all eternity after I am gone.

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She stayed for five minutes.

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Now, that I am shit-scared, and anxious, I cling to memories. Clinging to the time, last year, spent with friends, in loving environment, being spoiled and being able to enjoy the lifestyles they have. A different world, different nature, where everything is bigger... but there are tiny beauties as well as this visitor to my friend's windowsill. I try to remember only these snippets of beauties and not dwell on the possible future.

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Tagged by @mariamariquinha whose writing I 😍

Would love to see photos of @tia-greyblueviolet if she is willing, or @ursahlee or anyone elses (my circle is so small 😆)

Four pics that aren't selfies ( personally, I hate selfies):

1. Mantzi, the cat who decided to take me on as owner

2. My favourite building in Dublin, Ireland

3. My "highest" achievement, haha, my cookies at the Gravity Bar at the Guinness Storehouse (some lucky agricultural ministers ate them later)

4. A loaf I baked.

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59th

Photo IG @justinbettman

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Yay, it's here! The new book of Roger Deakins about cinematography. No win for guesses what was the first movie I checked out 🤭

This is going to keep me entertained for weeks.