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this is me and my gf

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yes.

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i might wanna see u. but for a while . and it’s not gonna be sunshine and rainbows

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it’s too late

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u said plain sorry when we called .

and honestly u could’ve said anything. like actually tried .

today i was feeling vulnerable i did nothing all day . i would’ve been stupid enough to see u .

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ew ur responses are so icky . they’re pushing me away

like earlier “sorry” instead of trying

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apple reminding me how i was trying again with you while you were cheating on me

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“u did so many fucked up things too ” you cheated . and it was until we broke up , that i got w ppl , or talked shit .

i deadass waited for u to fuck up big time to really do as i please . unlike you calling me crazy and sending screenshots to people during.. . and STILL fw someone else WHILE being w me . i never once told anyone our problems .

that’s the difference between us .

mind you i did everything out of hurt . from being cheated on . you had a whole gf who LOVED U . doing the shit u did

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fighting the biggest battle with myself

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if the thought of you didn’t disgust me . i would let you hold me one last time

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i was doing fine and then i called you 1 night . it set me back and ruined all my progress . my friends are worried for me at this point . i was asked how i’m doing since we called because i’m always mentally somewhere else . and i literally said i can’t cry anymore. i just feel so fucking tired . i feel drained . my chest hurts everyday . nobody can take this pain but you . but you also bring me sm pain . mentally . i’m in this position right now because you couldn’t ever just stay loyal to me . that’s what’s keeping me strong and not texting back . the messages replaying . you begging her to fuck . you saying i’d never find out . it makes me sick to my stomach . ur lucky i’m even replying right now . and someone was like “ur numb dani” but i’m not fucking numb . i feel every ounce of this pain . but i’m too tired to cry anymore . you changed me as a person . im cold . i’m suicidal again .

i need help again .

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i feeel so many emotions

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i don’t want u to leave me alone . it hurts

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i miss you more than anything.

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it’s not what i want . it’s what i need

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it’s just so hard for me sarah