Doctor Lucy Zoidberg

doooooooooo it!

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

Stopped psychoanalysis after a year and a half yesterday.

so i could sit down with my analyst for 5 mins and openly talk about patterns she has noticed and what she makes of them.

she said cluster B but somewhere a little everywhere but borderline borderline. the high emotions and low emotions and some impulsivity. well the last one i think because i stopped analysis with a months notice. and a little narcissism in that decision.

before this i had nothing i knew but depression. deep pits of it at that.

in my time with her i considered if i was ever manic, but no, always under the threshold - way under when compared to my husband’s hypomania under Ssri. so.. now i know.

[thoughtkick]

“She woke up one day and decided to stop waiting for her life to begin and start making things happen instead.”

— Unknown

[leebrontide]

An explainer for why I don't fuck with algorithmic social media

If you give a pigeon a little button to peck that releases pigeon food, it will push the button when it's hungry.

If you give a pigeon a button to peck that releases food every 5 pecks, it will peck it more often.

If you give a pigeon a button to peck that releases food at a randomly selected, always shifting number of pecks, the pigeon will peck that fucking button all day long.

Algorithm based social media is not set up to give you the best most fun stuff all the time, it is set up to give you a bunch of stress and nothingness with a randomized reward of something that actually makes you happy, because they want you pecking that button all damn day. It is a slot machine of content, meant to keep you putting in quarters made of your time and attention till you've nothing yet.

At least if I'm having a shit day on my own Tumblr home feed it's because I've made a bad choice about who to follow and I can fix it.

[askyea-poesy]

The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no farther.

Sylvia Plath

[thehopefulquotes]

“You will have days where you feel better, and you will have days where you want to die. Both are okay. There is no magical cure. You just need to close your eyes, and trust that the waves will pass, and soon you’ll be able to breathe again.”

— Unknown

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

क्या होना था हमे, क्या से क्या हो गए।

आँखें चौकन्नी रखनी थीं हमे, तो मूँद कर सो गए।

ग़म की चादर ख़ुशी से ओढ़ ली खुदके कलेजे खंजर घोप कर,

नासमझी से जब होश आया, पुश्ते लुटा चुके थे हम इन साहब की मौज पर।।

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

I suddenly feel what i actually desire is to be able to build a place like this lady Nalini’s i met in Bangalore socially a couple of times. She had a beautiful one storied bungalow she used for her ceramics, with a kitchen and kilns and a garden..

to move freely amongst the green, a cozy warm tea stored in boxes i made, surrounded by paraphernalia either crafted or curated by friends and family; a small fire burns in the corner of my mud house studio, keeping my tea warm. a quaint drawing corner and a dirty sculpting area littered with fuzzy blankets and books, enveloped in the comfort of night and silence, interrupted only by the sounds of the hearth.

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

Lost in transit, never to be found;

wishing i was 6 feet inside the ground;

wild all thoughts, more connotations than literal;

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

Days linger on..

and life doesn't taste sweet.

My mouth tastes bitter, turned by the sourness i carry in my heart.

I know i am loved, but i feel unlovable, and i have no love to give either.

More than a decade ago was when i first felt this way, and i fear it'll stay till the day i draw my last breath..

the day i wish almost everyday, was today..

[thoughtkick]

“We all have one foot in a fairytale, and the other in the abyss.”

— Paulo Coelho

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

furthermore, what do you do when the quiet abyss calls sound sweeter to your tired peasant ears than the loud, thumping, demanding beats of the foretold fairyland of other peoples making?

forever stuck in the same spot with a foot in each world, fighting for one while desperately longing for the other.

#depression tales

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

[zindagi-se-darte-ho]

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

Franz Kafka, The Diaries of Franz Kafka

Anne Sexton, Imitations of Drowning

Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights

[husbandyke]

women want me for my huge cock (silicone) and my huge tits (silicone) and my funny pointed wizard hat (silly cone)

[fulcrums501st]

Barbie 🤝 Fight Club

Being cautionary tales of how men who lack a sense of identity caused by their society are more susceptible to harmful ideologies that seem like they’ll solve the men’s problems but in reality only make everything much worse.

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

if we were a movie,

you’d be the right guy,

and i’d be the best friend,

that you’d never fall in love,

so in the end we would be laughing.

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]

going to use this tumblr as my emotional dump because i’m too broke for therapy

[when-did-this-become-difficult]

I genuinely think @staff should give us an official Bot Kill Count where it ticks up every time a bot you reported is officially taken off by the tumblr team and when you hit a certain number you get gruesome little trophies. Gamification can be of the devil but in this particular case I need a little treat for doing my daily chore of taking out the trash

[dr-lucy-zoidberg]