leave me alone doodt i'm autistic

that's what's up

[dreadpressed]

30s/he/trans man

all you really need to know is that a DID system uses this blog to scream about being mentally ill. expect some delusional talk

if you can't handle some content it's better to unfollow/block us. even if we want to tag a lot of us won't remember. alters pop in, fuck with the internet machines and then leave so yeah...

our main is @furylad and is more casual/fandom stuff

btw we don't support e/ndo sy/stems here. we block folk who support that stuff and would be grateful if you blocked us too

[miraclemaya]

you know i never can understand people who like freak out about being in a simulation. it's like on the same level as when like in middle school nerds trying to sound cool and detached are like "well actually emotions aren't real, it's just chemicals in your brain". like yeah that's cool but like that doesn't mean it's not real. like if the world was a simulation, how does that actually change shit besides idk cause some crisis of faith for however many people. nothing materially has changed. you will still have things you care about and can still get food poisoning

[dreadpressed]

bro this is so dumb I have psychosis it's not my choice to start freaking out about being in a simulation, it's the little voice in my head yelling at me that I'm trapped in a human zoo and will never experience true freedom. why even type this post

obviously people who genuinely worry about out-there things are not doing it because they think they sound like cool nerds. it's way more likely that they are dealing with a mental health issue

bad post OP

[miraclemaya]

hi i have psychosis too i typed this post because i was annoyed at elon musk fans talking about simulation theory perhaps you think everyone of them is experiencing delusions too when they talk about it but i dont really care

[dreadpressed]

I'll call you a moron all I want when you've literally just said you don't care if someone is delusional lol. like okay you're psychotic but you literally do not give a shit about other psychotic people. stfu

[dreadpressed]

"I have psychosis too" sure Jan this is why you made a whole post shitting on a common psychotic delusion. go fuck yourself

[dreadpressed]

I get on tumblr today and the first thing I see is some dumbass post with 4k notes making fun of people who believe in simulation theory as if the majority of those people aren't fucking psychotic

fuck this place sometimes seriously. it was a recommended post too and he only time I ever mention simulation theory is when I'm discussing my own psychosis

[miraclemaya]

you know i never can understand people who like freak out about being in a simulation. it's like on the same level as when like in middle school nerds trying to sound cool and detached are like "well actually emotions aren't real, it's just chemicals in your brain". like yeah that's cool but like that doesn't mean it's not real. like if the world was a simulation, how does that actually change shit besides idk cause some crisis of faith for however many people. nothing materially has changed. you will still have things you care about and can still get food poisoning

[dreadpressed]

bro this is so dumb I have psychosis it's not my choice to start freaking out about being in a simulation, it's the little voice in my head yelling at me that I'm trapped in a human zoo and will never experience true freedom. why even type this post

obviously people who genuinely worry about out-there things are not doing it because they think they sound like cool nerds. it's way more likely that they are dealing with a mental health issue

bad post OP

[dreadpressed]

the astral realm is real because the other day I went to sleep naked and in my dreams I was casually sat at a table with several people while totally naked and we all had a discussion about how strange it was that I showed up naked today, and I was like well y'know what? I don't mind it. kinda like being naked since I had top surgery

anyway I'm pretty sure that was real. it was very weird feeling

[dreadpressed]

it's funny when the cats follow me to bed but I can't sleep so I get up but they stay in bed so basically. I just warmed the bed for them

[dreadpressed]

youtube please I love you but it's 4 am and I already have insomnia this is not the time to notify me of a bunch of new alien/UFO videos

[dreadpressed]

frustrated because realistically my plan to move out is going to require steps that take months to accomplish

need to get on meds that actually work

start showing up at work program regularly

get a job

get a car

then finally I can rent a cheap place and be on my own for the first time in my life. something about being sick that no one seems to talk about is how you're basically reliant on the charity of friends or family members just for a place to sleep, because my disability can't cover rent and the shitass gubment won't raise my allowance

I'm so sick of being reliant on other people + always being trapped by other people's routines and expectations. just want to be fucking free

also pisses me off because I feel like every day I see shitty, asshole people who have more than enough, just get more handed to them

meanwhile people who have nothing, and don't even have their mental health, are fighting for our fucking lives every day

[tamsoj]

Charles Bukowski, "grip the dark," from The People Look Like Flowers At Last

[sunphrenia]

pro tip if you see someone acting 'weird' or 'crazy' in public mind your own fucking business

[dreadpressed]

me: I need a space to talk about my delusions and such

me: goes to tumblr

delusion tumblr: is literally just 100s of multi-k-note posts explaining when it is and isn't appropriate to use the word delusion

delusion tumblr: literally that's every post

me: you guys have time to care about how people use the word delusional? I'm busy fighting for my fucking life (imaginary)

[dreadpressed]

I was so immersed in trying to survive being trapped in a virtual reality with a bunch of assholes from the 5th dimension that I forgot how fucking ridiculous and annoying the "plurality" community is

[bebsi-cola]

sometimes i think people just want people who struggle to regulate their emotions to direct it inwards towards the self, and hurt the self, rather than lash outwards in any way. without actually caring about the process of managing emotions itself. like they have this idea that people who lash out do it with malicious intent, in a way that's deliberate and targeted instead of. a dysfunction in emotional regulation.

[hidden-in-your-aattic-deactivat]

Does the fact that neurotypicals exist weird anybody else out? Like, there are thousands of disorders out there and you don’t even have one of them???????

[thoughtcascades]

People will traumatize you and be like "you are still not over that?"

[kosmogrl]