Remade by accident.

Name is Stella. I am actually a dude, but I'm not that fussed on pronouns. Severely agoraphobic adult who lives vicariously through fiction. Pathologically obsessed with stories about grief and trauma.

[dreamerdrop]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: ER (TV 1994) Rating: Mature Warnings: Rape/Non-Con, Underage Sex Relationships: John Carter/Carl Vucelich, Peter Benton/John Carter, Peter Benton & John Carter, John Carter/Harper Tracy Characters: John Carter (ER TV 1994), Peter Benton, Harper Tracy, Carl Vucelich Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Incest, Ambiguous Relationships, Whump, Hurt No Comfort, Hurt John Carter (ER TV 1994), Possibly Unrequited Love, Sexual Coercion, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Unhappy Ending Summary:

Vucelich will drive the knife in slowly, asking if Doctor Benton knows just how lucky he is to have Carter for a student—

He doesn’t want to think about Benton during this. He can’t handle that.

[druskels]

Patreon request

[drawnbyzuza]

Finished the last episode and sprinted to finish coloring this piece.

Whitsantos my beloved ♥️

[roqqqq]

[mikudonald]

enaiC31 - らきすた

artist's danbooru

[shiranai-koto]

[jfashion-magazines]

FRUiTS 156

July 2010

[addictedtostorytelling]

"they sent a video of him walking just before christmas!"

[dreamerdrop]

If Peter Benton had a pussy, John Carter would be setting a world record on cunt diving without coming back up for air.

[sugarsugarrrune]

[obaketeru]

I finished it

[tiptapismellbullcrap]

As a disabled person, Baran is a character that is hard for me to think about for too long. My disabilities have gotten more limiting as the years have gone by, and I’ve had to confront the possibility of not being able to work in certain careers, not being able to do sports I want to do, missing out on trips and holidays or any days out with family bc i physically can’t, fuck, Ive been told multiple times to drop out of uni bc they don’t think i can handle it - they say come back when i have a better handle on my conditions/when they get more manageable when i know that is unlikely to ever happen and they’re more likely to worsen.

Seeing Baran, a character who is talented and capable, someone so kind and lovely, have to confront the limits her disability puts on her and the worsening of it in the same day fucking wrecks me. She’s probably done this thousands of times throughout her life. Higher education is a nightmare to navigate disabled in the 2020s, i cant imagine what it would have been like for her in the 2010s, having to fight the system so often just to do what she wants, what she loves.

When she said she’s spent her whole career trying to improve the system, trying to fight for everyone, i truly believe that her disability is core to this. When you are disabled, especially a disabled woman of colour like Baran is, you have to fight so hard just to get the bare minimum of healthcare you deserve. You are dismissed so often and every time it is soul crushing. And she has done it, she pushed through, she got a handle on her seizures, she’s an amazing doctor, and she is fighting to provide better healthcare for everyone.

And just the fear of that slipping through her fingers when her seizures start again, the fear of another fight, the fear of losing everything she’s worked so hard for, including control of herself. Its just so fucking devastating it’s genuinely painful to watch.

[dreamerdrop]

some fandoms, when the canon tortures their favourite character to hell and back, respond by writing coffee shop aus and fluffy comfort fics.

the er fandom, when the canon tortures john carter to hell and back, seems to respond by loudly and enthusiastically brainstorming ways to torture him even worse.

[karamelise]

[artaudmatic]

It was fascination, I know ♪〜

Seeing you alone with the moonlight above ♪〜

inks ;)

[pterribledinosaurdrawings]

how it feels to message a friend who's having Problems that you can't do anything to help with.

[valkyrie-illust]