the angst mage

24. She/her. 🏳️‍🌈/🇬🇭/🇺🇸. Multifandom. AO3 writer. https://archiveofourown.org/users/dreamersreality/pseuds/dreamersreality

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Idk if anyone who follows me reads Ballad of the Brokenhearted, but I fear the ao3 curse is getting to me 😭 I might get chapter four out but I’m not so sure after that. It’s rough out here.

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Here’s a snippet from the beginning of chapter 4 of BOTB!!! We start getting angst heavy in this one.

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Chapters: 3/10 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Rose Landry, Svetlana Vetrova, Hayden Pike, Jackie Pike, Troy Barrett, Scott Hunter (Game Changers), Kip Grady, Jean-Jacques Boiziau | J. J. Dagenais, Irina Rozanova, Grigori Rozanov, Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov Additional Tags: strangers to friends to lovers to maladjusted exes to lovers, Dark Academia, Witch!Shane, witch!Ilya, Dual POV, dual timelines, Mean Shane Hollander, Mean Ilya Rozanov, Angst, Yearning, Angst with a Happy Ending, these two are terrible are being exes, running a student body gov campaign against your ex, irina dies when ilya is older, magic PhD, Alternate Universe - Magic, Second Chances, Right Person Wrong Time, Hate Sex, ALLEGEDLY, Light Dom/sub, Smut, Oral Sex, Anal Sex, Bottom Shane Hollander, Top Ilya Rozanov, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Substance Abuse, Depressed Ilya Rozanov, Anxious Shane Hollander, Post-Break Up, Dirty Talk, Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative, Bipolar Irina Rozanova, Past Child Death, Miscommunication, Grief/Mourning, Figurative representations of mental health, Semi-Public Sex, Insecure Shane Hollander, Insecure Ilya Rozanov Summary:

The door bangs open.

Anger swiftly replaces his self-demolition. Ilya Rozanov is shutting the door behind him as if it’s expected for him to be there, like he and Shane discussed ahead of time to meet. His hands go into the pockets of his slacks when the door is closed, eyes cataloging the room with a detached casualness that makes Shane’s blood boil. He couldn’t even wait a second before coming to shit talk, could he?

“The fuck do you want?” Shane pushes himself off the counter, turning to face Ilya.

Ilya blinks at him like he’s surprised to see him. “Oh, well, I was waiting for you to leave so I could follow.”

“Seriously?”

“Yeah, I wasn’t sure you would get the hint if I got up first so I just waited for when you would inevitably run out to shit yourself.”

It's time for the Boston Conservatory of Dark Arts to elect a new prefect for the next year. The candidates are Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov, both elite witches of their class and both still not over the turbulent relationship that ended four years ago.

CHAPTER THREE IS UP!!

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Chapter 3 is coming soon!!

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Age gap professor and student AU with older Shane and younger Ilya is in the works ✍🏾

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Chapter 2!!!

Chapters: 2/10 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Rose Landry, Svetlana Vetrova, Hayden Pike, Jackie Pike, Troy Barrett, Scott Hunter (Game Changers), Kip Grady, Jean-Jacques Boiziau | J. J. Dagenais, Irina Rozanova, Grigori Rozanov, Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov Additional Tags: strangers to friends to lovers to maladjusted exes to lovers, Dark Academia, Witch!Shane, witch!Ilya, Dual POV, dual timelines, Mean Shane Hollander, Mean Ilya Rozanov, Angst, Yearning, Angst with a Happy Ending, these two are terrible are being exes, running a student body gov campaign against your ex, irina dies when ilya is older, magic PhD, Alternate Universe - Magic, Second Chances, Right Person Wrong Time, Hate Sex, ALLEGEDLY, Light Dom/sub, Smut, Oral Sex, Anal Sex, Bottom Shane Hollander, Top Ilya Rozanov, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Substance Abuse, Depressed Ilya Rozanov, Anxious Shane Hollander, Post-Break Up, Dirty Talk, Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative, Bipolar Irina Rozanova, Past Child Death Summary:

The door bangs open.

Anger swiftly replaces his self-demolition. Ilya Rozanov is shutting the door behind him as if it’s expected for him to be there, like he and Shane discussed ahead of time to meet. His hands go into the pockets of his slacks when the door is closed, eyes cataloging the room with a detached casualness that makes Shane’s blood boil. He couldn’t even wait a second before coming to shit talk, could he?

“The fuck do you want?” Shane pushes himself off the counter, turning to face Ilya.

Ilya blinks at him like he’s surprised to see him. “Oh, well, I was waiting for you to leave so I could follow.”

“Seriously?”

“Yeah, I wasn’t sure you would get the hint if I got up first so I just waited for when you would inevitably run out to shit yourself.”

It's time for the Boston Conservatory of Dark Arts to elect a new prefect for the next year. The candidates are Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov, both elite witches of their class and both still not over the turbulent relationship that ended four years ago.

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Chapter 2 coming veryyyyyy soon!

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types Rating: Mature Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Ilya Rozanov, Shane Hollander, Rose Landry, Svetlana Vetrova, Irina Rozanova Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Reincarnation, knight!shane, knight!ilya, Character Death, but it’s Shane in their past life, Angst with a Happy Ending, defying space and time for the love of your life, Suicide Attempt, Alternate Timelines, nurse!shane, janitor!ilya, HOTD inspo Summary:

Ilya’s earliest dream is of his first mother. She sits in a big chair by a fire, embroidering until her fingers turn raw. She looks nothing like his current mother. She is raven hair and silver eyes and frown lines set too deep, but she is, of essence, just like Irina Rozanova. If Ilya squints an eye just so, they merge into one another, and Ilya forgets if he is dreaming or awake.

One thousand and fifty-three years into the future, Ilya Rozanov reunites with a past love.

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Coming soon!

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Working on another thing that’ll hopefully be up this weekend 🤭

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Chapters: 1/10 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Rose Landry, Svetlana Vetrova, Hayden Pike, Jackie Pike, Troy Barrett, Scott Hunter (Game Changers), Kip Grady, Jean-Jacques Boiziau | J. J. Dagenais, Irina Rozanova, Grigori Rozanov, Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov Additional Tags: strangers to friends to lovers to maladjusted exes to lovers, Dark Academia, Witch!Shane, witch!Ilya, Dual POV, dual timelines, Mean Shane Hollander, Mean Ilya Rozanov, Angst, Yearning, Angst with a Happy Ending, these two are terrible are being exes, running a student body gov campaign against your ex, irina dies when ilya is older, magic PhD, Alternate Universe - Magic, Second Chances, Right Person Wrong Time, Hate Sex, ALLEGEDLY, Light Dom/sub, Smut, Oral Sex, Anal Sex, Bottom Shane Hollander, Top Ilya Rozanov, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Substance Abuse, Depressed Ilya Rozanov, Anxious Shane Hollander, Post-Break Up Summary:

The door bangs open.

Anger swiftly replaces his self-demolition. Ilya Rozanov is shutting the door behind him as if it’s expected for him to be there, like he and Shane discussed ahead of time to meet. His hands go into the pockets of his slacks when the door is closed, eyes cataloging the room with a detached casualness that makes Shane’s blood boil. He couldn’t even wait a second before coming to shit talk, could he?

“The fuck do you want?” Shane pushes himself off the counter, turning to face Ilya.

Ilya blinks at him like he’s surprised to see him. “Oh, well, I was waiting for you to leave so I could follow.”

“Seriously?”

“Yeah, I wasn’t sure you would get the hint if I got up first so I just waited for when you would inevitably run out to shit yourself.”

It's time for the Boston Conservatory of Dark Arts to elect a new prefect for the next year. The candidates are Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov, both elite witches of their class and both still not over the turbulent relationship that ended four years ago.

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First chapter of BOTB coming soon!

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For the people that have watched The Old Guard, what would y’all think of an AU where hollanov are immortals like Joe and Nicky? 👀

It would have to be after my dark academia AU, but I’m thinking:

- Fantasy world; Shane and Ilya are on opposite sides of a war. I’ve been envisioning them as something out of HOTD a lot, so dragons could be involved.

- The two of them kill each other, but they keep waking up. And they dream of other people like them.

- They’re forced to rely on one another as they travel across the lands to find the other immortals. They fall in love during the process.

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Here’s a snippet from chapter 2 of the dark academia hollanov fic I’m working on (wanna get a couple chapters done before I start posting). In the meantime, I’m in the mood for domestic hollanov. Any ideas? If I like it, I’ll write!

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Forgot to share here! Part 2 of “Please Me (Baby)”

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov Additional Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Omega Shane Hollander, Alpha Ilya Rozanov, Shane Hollander Walks Ilya Rozanov Like A Dog, Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov, Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander, Top Ilya Rozanov, Bottom Shane Hollander, Shane is hungry af, Angst with a Happy Ending, Mating Bites, Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov Being an Asshole, Riding, Fluff and Smut, Knotting, Summer Vacation Series: Part 2 of The Roommate-ship Summary:

They had come back to their hotel room, showered, and made the pretense of getting comfortable underneath the thin top sheet that still felt too hot. The sun had been setting, their room flooded with its kaleidoscope march into night. Shane’s face had been bathed in it. His beautiful Shane. Shane had looked at him, his eyes the vibrant brown of autumn’s most tenacious leaf, adamantly clinging to the tree and drinking the sun’s fickle warmth, all the more stunning for it. He’d kissed him. He’d trailed his hand down his side knowing the shiver that would follow after. He’d lost track of what happened next.

Now it was dark. The balmy summer night was cut by a howl of the wind through their open window, and Shane’s hand was buried in Ilya’s hair.

A year later, Shane and Ilya go on vacation to Ilya's favorite place.

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/78748086

Moon Child

1/3 chapters up (work is completed though)

- Explicit

- Hollanov

- Mountain doctor Shane and werewolf Ilya

- Historical Fantasy AU

He saw the eyes first. Two glowing spheres of turquoise blinked an arm's length away. Something like a wolf stood before him—if wolves were the size of moose with thick pelts of sandy fur. The beast favored its hind legs more, resting the majority of its weight onto them. It was still as a statue, its attention fixed solely on him.

In the winter of 1923, Shane Hollander is unknowingly courted by a werewolf.

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/75581361

Turned my tumblr into a space for fandom space! Adding my heated rivalry fics on here.

Please Me (Baby)

- 13k words

- Explicit

- Completed

Shane didn’t tell his parents until the lease was already signed.

“Oh, by the way,” he said, shoving a spearing of carbonara into his mouth, “the guy I’m rooming with is an alpha.”

Yuna was scrolling through Facebook, so it took a moment for her to register what Shane had said. His father, however, furrowed his brows and frowned.

“What?” David leaned forward, hand reaching toward his son as if to pull him off a cliff. “Why in the world would you room with an alpha?”

Yuna’s eyes darted up. “What?”

David repeated, “He just said he’s—”

“Rooming with an alpha, yes, I heard.” Yuna unceremoniously dropped her phone on the table. She made a quick scan of the restaurant before speaking, as if worried someone would overhear that her unmated omega son had agreed to live alone with an alpha. Shane loved his parents, he did. He loved having an alpha mother and a beta father, and he knew they adored him back. But it didn’t change the fact that they sometimes let their biases seep through. “That’s not safe, Shane.”

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Shane meets his scent-kryptonite in the form of Ilya Rozanov.