dreaming..

vent sideblog!! go in at your own risk. im 20 so MDNI!!

[dreaming-lethe]

They say "going through the looking glass" is the classic symbol for dissasociating from reality. Does that apply to you, too?

Welcome, one and all, to Lethe! The place we go to pour our hearts out and forget. As the dreamer running this blog, I guess I should introduce myself, before I forget who I am.

My name is Lynn. I'm 20 years old, and use any pronouns. Minors are not welcome on this blog, due to the nature of stuff discussed here. Posts are undirected (I'm single, if anyone's curious, but not ACTIVELY looking).

This is mainly a vent/yanblr blog! Bear with me.

pfp, banner, and quote at the top are all from Hello Charlotte!! I highly recommend :)

feel free to send me asks!! i will respond to them as quickly as possible <3

[dreaming-lethe]

i'm trying to be better, but it's so hard to give up the rush.

[grotesquex]

ohhhh nooooo dont be really dependent on me 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 dont only feel happy when im around and let me isolate you from everyone 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 oh noooo that would suckkkk hahahahahahaaa 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

[dreaming-lethe]

cupcakes for easter

[dreaming-lethe]

finally took her poem off my wall. is that healing

vent-y stuff in the tags go forth at your own risk

[dreaming-lethe]

potato croquettes with cheese in the middle

cuz i felt like making food and we had all the things

[dreaming-lethe]

apparently its not normal to feel like the person that experienced your childhood was an entirely different person from yourself who had died and an "inner child" isnt actually like. a. child version of you that lives (lives is not the right term. i dont think. but she exists) in your head

[kxtre]

and every yan deserves to be loved exactly how they love others.

[dreaming-lethe]

not crashing out as hard this morning. in case anyone was wondering

[domesticatedmoth]

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I'd cut open my own chest just so you can see how full of you it is. Let me prove there’s no room left for anything else.

[dreaming-lethe]

this is stupid. i should sleep. i dont want to sleep but apparently thats a thing the human body needs to do. everything sucks majorly

[dreaming-lethe]

i was going to celebrate 50 days clean but i cant now because im stupid and impulsive and an idiot and now im shouting into the void all on my own

i hope its entertaining and you guys dont leave me too

i can suffer even more prettily if youd like just tell me how you want it your wish is my command because i shouldnt be allowed to think for myself really

[dreaming-lethe]

i still cant fully self destruct though. i want to but i cant. im not allowed to and i need to keep my promises

so no matter what happens and no matter how sick of it i get i have to keep pushing forwards

this sucks

this sucks!!!

[dreaming-lethe]

people being able to determine the worth of others is crazy "everyone is beautiful in their own way" yeah until the bank account starts to look a little dicey. let me be more fem and soft spoken and talkative and maybe someone will want me around but until then im just a stupid whore who can't do anything right

[dreaming-lethe]

in case anyone sees me crashing out and wants to be like "oh no what happened" im unemployed again. employer had to cut costs. the new hire was the first to go i guess. because i am not a valuable asset yet i am thrown to the wayside to be eaten by wolves

i am also the wolves. i am eating myself but not in the fun way

[dreaming-lethe]

is it a relapse if its my default or is it just returning to baseline. things to discuss. more at 6

[dreaming-lethe]

"recovery is possible!!!" not for me it's not <- #1 idiot in the world for thinking i could get better

lets start from scratch again and again and hope the outcome wont be the same as every other time