Love and other stuff. ♥

Hi, this is my blog, with everything. I love music: one direction, lana del rey, lady gaga. I love movies; Dear John, The Vow, Twilight and The hungergames. This is just a random blog about life, music, movies, one direction lady gaga and lana... feel free to ask me things! xoxo Online people

[thelovewhisperer]

I needed to know that I meant something, anything to you. But what I got was nothing, absolutely nothing. And it’s funny the things you realize when someone walks away. At first you feel as though it’s your fault. Feeling like nothing, so close to falling apart. And then, in time, you come to the realization that you did nothing wrong. That it’s his loss, which you are so much better without that one boy who didn’t ever care. You live and you learn, that’s how it is.

Daily Tumblr Love Quotes (via thelovewhisperer)

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

My life right now

Hello world, I know its not the savest place to write down my thoughts but its the best way for me.. knowing that maybe someone will read this and get bored en laughs at me and thats fine because then someone thinks im funny. Ive met a boy, it al starts with falling in love, not the good guy.. nooo ofcourse not.. the most horrible son of a bitch you can imagen. He textst with girls.. he snaps with girls.. I get jealous, he gets mad, we fight and its over.. but i love him.. and cant let him go! And every single bone in my body knows he is not somebody who i can trust and built a future with.. but my brains cant stop thinking about him.. I think i am life sick.. i just saw the movie If I Stay, and then I realized.. what if i was in that position.. would i die or fight for my own life.. I think i would die.. its sad now i think about it because I am supposed to feel young, full of life, full of willing to live,, but thats not me. If i where hit by a car or something else i would rather die than staying alive.. isnt that fucked upp. I am willing to die if i have to, who else doe i got.. my mom, yeah she is also old and will make it without me, or else i will see her soon after i die. No this isnot a suicide letter or a scream for attention, but these are my feelings. #still awake at 4 in the midnight

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

[zodiacmind]

ARIES - The Aggressive (March 21 to April 19) Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny… Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an Aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to...

[onefitmodel]

realising that we’re almost halfway through the year 2013 and i have literally achieved nothing 

[favejonasbrother-deactivated201]

realising that you’re reading this almost halfway through 2014 and still haven’t achieved anything

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

I have to go

I need to have some time alone, but I'm not gonna say it to my mom till the day i go.. I need to think about my life, what will I do. Sometimes I think about who will miss me when I'm gone, not dead but just at the other side of the world.. who the fuck will miss me?! As a family I only have my mom and a couple of close friends. In about four, five years I wanna go on a world journey all on my own, no friends, no family just me and only my thoughts. Yes within a weak I'll go on my first trip alone, just here in the Netherlands, not far away but it's my first step alone in this world! I'm so excited for this, can't wait!!

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

I feel lost, all my friends get their boyfriend and I'm sitting here like, hey why will I not meet the guy who also like me, and I wanna talk about my feelings with ma friends but they wouldn't understand. But it is hard te be the only girl in the group who doesn't have a boyfriend.. and maybe you are now thinking wtf girl, straighten up your shoulders and let go, but I can't. It make me feel the ugly friend, and maybe it's the truth.. mann I have never feel uglier than now. All I wanna have is the same happiness that they feel, what dit I do wrong to not meet my guy. I hate my life right now.

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

Put myself together

I'm done with living, I'm done with everything but in the back of my head I know that one time it has to be better. I've stopped going to school and my classmates are wondering where I am, but all I can think of that they make jokes and don't even care about me. So I've got mad, and I know thats not the way but I have so much anger in my mind, that I start pushing people away. Not that I can't live without my classmates but I need to stop feeling so depressed, I literally hate my life.. and no one knows about it, no one.

[falestinian]

I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life.

Voltaire  (via gofuckingnuts)

[ifyougrinyoulose]

if you’re reading this i hope something good happens to you today

[handsomedogs]

[hydratedbitch]

when i erase a word with a pencil where does it go

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are you okay

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

Guys you're my favourite candy, I love you sooo damn much! Can't waitt till 25th June!!!!!

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

LONDON ♡

So I went to London this vacation and I love it! Tje people there are so nice and calm, I would hate all the tourists but they won't feel any better than me (as a tourist) Today I went to brick lane, WHAUW What a place, the Brooklin of Londen ( I think, sorry if I'm wrong!!!) All of those creative, wonderfull people, with their own fashion style. I love the thrift shops there. No one will laugh at you there, no ine will judge you because of your clothes or behaviour, I FOCKING LOVE IT. I think I was born in the wrong place!

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

Friends

In all the hardtimes I've bin trough I met my best friends, now I know where I can count on in the saddest times of my life.

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

Today

Today is another shitty day.. all I can think about is the fights with my mom and my passed away friend..suddenly all the memories I have with him are showing up in my head.. the one and only kiss that we had and al of the best conversations we had! He was the best, and I wish I could bring him back to life, without anyone knowing and leave the Netherlands and start a new life somewhere on this planet.. leaving al my troubles behind.. and just be together. I that's one of my biggest wishes.. but here I am, laying in bed, sleeping at my best friend because I can't take it anymore at home, She is talking in her sleep, thats the only fun thing of this day, I wish I can record it and share it with you guys. and now my mom, she is mentally ill, I put all my money ( not that I have money) on it, she is saying to all my friends that I have an illness in my head and that I must search for a psychiatrist.. who in the world is she to say that.. okay I honest with you, I could use some help but my mom doesn't know a thing about my life so shut the f*ck off! Soo my head is a littlebit clearer.. writing stuff down is a great way!

[dreamlivehopeandbehappy]

My life

So i'm gonna change my blog a little bit.. i need to write some stuf out my head.. i hope it will help! My dad, also know as my stepdad, because i dont know my real biological dad, is a real asshole. My parents went trough a divorce two years ago and I never talked about my feelings because I want to be the strong girl. Bit guess what, I'm not. my stepdad had a marriage of 40 years with a woman (no idea who) then he made the best decision, and choose my mother (best mom in the whole wide world (cliché, I know 😌)) but after 12 years of being happy together, he left my mother alone with me, and went to another b*tch, don't know who and dont wanna know. Now, when I lay in my bed, I thought about it and said to myself, why wouldn't I confront him with what I think about the whole decision that he made. But I just can't, I'm the type of girl that speaks the words that come up in my mind, but when it's to an aduld I put all my words back in my mouth. WHY WHY. I've never had a dad in the first years of my life, my stepdad came into my life when I was 6, he did alot for me and I appreciate that, but I know that in a year I won't talk to him anymore, everything has to come from one side and that's mine. He says he cares, but I haven't spoke him in a month now (I spoke him the last 1,5 year every month, we had dinner somewhere in a restaurant). It's so cruel of him that he left me and my mom alone. Why would he left me and my mom, where is this good for? The things that he did ripped us apart, my mom is broken, I'm broken, money is gone because we have a huge house and he, he is sitting with his new b*tch, watching stupid television programmes and go fishing and walking, bleghh. Where is the calssy man that we knew. I never thought that this had so much influence on my life, I never know the feeling of breaking points, maby that's something that all teenagers have, and many have much more weight on their shoulders, but why is there this man in my life who only broke our hearts, of course there were cool, exciting, loved moments the past 12 years.. but the bad overrule the good things, unfortunately. Sorry if I bored you, but I had to clear my head.