dream journal

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I had to buy a cake for a coworker or smth, so I went to the best bakery in town and found a nice looking chocolate-vanilla swirl cake. I bought it. It cost 37€. The price really scared me and I thought that there's no way that the cake is THAT good. I brought it to the destination, it was a weird basement/studio type room, there was one person writing smth down. There was some time left before others showed up, but I couldn't stop looking at the cake so I told the girl in the room that I'll just go ahead and try it. She didn't disagree, so I just took a fucking bite right out of the cake. Like I held it with my hand and bit it. And it was literally the tastiest thing I've ever had in my life, pure bliss. So I said "ok this is totally worth its price". Fast forward, I went to the bakery again and asked for the same cake again, this time for me only. I was thinking to myself that even though I shouldn't waste my money like that, it'll be a little treat to lift up my mood. The cashier was a really cute and friendly girl so I felt bad for buying only one item (I think I also didn't want to appear poor???), so I asked her for personal recommendations. She suggested smth but I wasn't interested. Instead, I noticed some caramel glazed donuts, they looked really good so I took 2. The total was over 60€. Once I left the bakery I realized that I just spent TOO much money on some baked dough and sugar, and I got this really intense feeling of regret, disgust and sadness. I thought that I had no self control and that I'm too impulsive with my spendings. I felt really relieved when I woke up lol

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Tried escaping prison like 4 times. One time I ran to the grocery store and bought a baked chicken. When they caught me, I had to bring the chicken back with me. The last time I escaped, I pretended to be a civil who just had tour of the facility. While I was getting ready (changed etc) a woman came in, she was like a ward or smth. She was really suspicious and asking lots of questions, I tried my best to act relaxed and normal. She asked what im gonna do after I leave this prison. I said that I'm meeting a friend. she let me go but was following me with her stare. I went to first floor, there was like a mall or smth, I noticed a friend in one of the stores and quickly went there. The woman was instantly there, she thought she caught me but I went to my friend and quickly asked her to help me out. She understood the assignment and assured the woman that we're supposed to go shopping together etc.

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Found out that both my grandma and my driving teacher have colon cancer. Spent lots of time crying. Saw the teacher's gf, she looked like my coworker and was sad about his cancer too. He drove us to the hospital for a check up i think, his car was a big white bmw, then we went to his apartment where my car was and my driving lesson began. Then i was angry at grandma bc she kept her illness a secret for more than a year and lied about not having it.

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Grandpa had a hippo, it was HUGE and knew how to step on a pedal that turns the water hose on so the hippo could drink.

I was at the hay place and the actor that played the DEA agent from Breaking Bad showed up. He was fun and easy to talk to. We talked about BB, I expressed my opinion about Walter not being a "genius" or "god". Before the actor could respond anything, a bomb went off near us and I flew out. Suddenly there were lots of ppl. I looked for the actor everywhere but I knew he was dead

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At my sister's high school on her last day of school. They had to play some games and do fun activities with teachers. Bio teacher wrote down 15 words from her every day life with the kids and they had to guess them. For some reason my classmate from uni came to visit. When saying goodbye my sis hugged my friend, she (sis) seemed emotional. She said that she remembers the day she entered this school for the first time and how they renovated it and how there were trash everywhere before they cleaned it.

In another dream it was christmas and I was laying next to a building (outside on the ground). I had a sleeping bag and I think I was homeless or smth like that. Mom's friend walked to me and was like "I'm gonna call the police because you shouldn't be crashing at a place like this. My family's inside." And I was like ok my family's there too. She got surprised and ashamed and walked away. I took my belongings and went inside

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Asked my dad to teach my ice skating, he angrily refused bc he doesnt know how to do that either. We went to skate anyways. I somehow learned that he accidentally killed 78+2 ppl in road accidents. I got angry and left. Asked other ppl to teach me. No one could do that except dads former bff which irl is the same person as current bff but like a version of it

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I had a orange/brown bunny and it was anxious to be in a different room than the one his cage was in. I kept bringing him to the kitchen but he would always run straight back to its room or the corner of the kitchen and then the room. It was very cute.

I was also hanging out with a person from tiktok, they were really fun and supportive. I asked them if I could get a hug from someone (I was too scared to ask them directly for one lol) and they instantly hugged me soo tight, I felt like I was cured

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I was at my grandpa's place with my sister's friend. I think we were eating or planning to eat some berries. The two oak trees at the entrence fell down at the same time

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I was in a gallery/art supplies shop in an old town of a town I've never been to. My mom was with me, she was looking for something. She came to a guy that was in his late 20s, had a beard and was quite tall. They clicked and started talking about yarn or something, it went on for a long time. I got bored, so I started hurrying her. The guy said something to me and we had a small talk, it was nice. Apparently he could speak in French, Russian, English and Lithuanian. It seemed impressive and I kind of wanted to continue our talk but my mom was ready to go and so we went. The old town was really *old*, the architecture was amazing, the buildings were chunky and tall, there were lots of shadows. The paths were narrow and winding. It felt cozy but not like home, it was clear that we're foreigners. At some point I told my sis about the guy and while talking about him I realized that I kinda liked him. My sis noticed that and told me to go back to him. I think I did, even though I don't recall much. I only remember talking with him and feeling excited and amazed, definitely developed a crush on him.

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I was looking for a new dentist and found one that was also a group dance for women teacher? I didn't want to dance but I made an appointment with her as a dentist. The day of the appt came but I had no information about the address, so I called her number and some man picked up. He talked very slowly and there were long pauses between each response. He asked me what time my appt was, I couldn't recall and said "around 2pm". He told me that there's some appt at 3pm, I then changed my mind and said yeah that's it. He gave me an address and I went there. Well it wasn't no dentist office or anything of that sorts. There was a group of like 10 women, all with curly hair and colorful gym clothes. There was a woman that was directing them and teaching them some dance moves. I realized that I'm at the practise. I don't quite remember what happened next, but basically I decided to try the dance class because "why not" (in fact there were many reasons not to). At some point, a guy appeared. He was wearing a long black coat and had ginger hair. He was tall and handsome. We exchanged some formal words and I felt that I liked him. He seemed neutral towards me but suggested we go outside after he saw that I had a pack of cigs. I tried to lit my cig but my thumb was almost paralyzed, I couldn't click the button. I didn't have to say anythig, the guy was already giving me his lighter. But he didn't *give* it to me, he held it in his hand and motioned me to get closer to it. I did, and he lit the cig. Somefuckinghow I ended up smoking his cigarette and the taste was so familiar, I asked him "what kind do you smoke?". He responded "Camel blue". I laughed (it was that honest and warm laugh that comes from the heart) and he laughed, too. We had the exact same kind. I realized we liked each other. He told me that my coat is nice. I thanked and said something about his coat. He suggested we go to his place/some other place and there we went. It was nice, I felt comfortable and cozy around him, we had fun time talking to each other. I'm not sure what happened but at some point his mood changed and he became a bit anxious and said that we should go back. He avoided eye contact and seemed in a rush. I was surprised and a bit weirded out, so I agreed.

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My highschool class mini reunion. One of the "jocks" that I used to think disliked me, sat next to me and talked to me as if I was his friend. It was fun. He suggested we smoke some weed afterwards, and I agreed. My ex bf was there but we didn't even look at each other. Almost all of his friends were with me, it was funny. Then, I appeared to be at my grandpa's place, and the dude (jock) was texting me constantly about weed and other ppl. He also sent me a photo of his butt and legs, he had a weird piece of underwead from Nike. I was weirded out but I reacted with "like" emoji. Showed the messages and photo to my sister, she also was confused. It was summer and sun was shining through windows, someone was working outside.

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1. Our old house. My dad had to drive us back to the city. We went to the car, he said he'll be right back. Came back with an almost empty vodka bottle. I felt really uncomfortable, awkward, disgusted and disappointed but didn't want to say anything that could make him angry. The atmosphere were weird and quiet

2. Can't recall any details but my bf cheated on me and texted me about it. Had an anxiety attack

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There was a zoo near my grandpa's house, and somehow all animals escaped. We noticed some of them in the forest or near it and managed to bring the smaller ones back to the zoo. Then we found a capybara with a baby (it looked like a fawn). I tried to call it but it didn't care. The baby had a broken leg. I had a banana in my hand so I gave it to the capybara and it looked interested and went after it, so I tried to lead it. But it gave up after a while. Well I lead it into a big paper bag (the baby too) and closed it. They fell asleep and we tried to lift them by they were so heavy we literally couldn't even move them. I called a local vet, she arrived after a while and I think we solved the issue

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Felt like I was 12 again. All I could feel was anger, rage and helplessness. My parents asked me if I wanted to meet some family friends and their little kids, I had an anger attack and screamed at everyone. I felt shitty for doing that but couldn't stop myself

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I think this was yesterday but I hit my front right tooth on something made out of metal. It was kind of an accident but at the same time I was hoping that the hit would fix my tooth's placement and push it back a bit. I then looked at a mirror and saw that the tooth had a massive crack that went almost all the way up to the gums. It was really bad, and I suddendly got that yucky feeling of regret and hopelessness

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nightmare about sitting in a math class (in highschool) and having to solve a problem. Time is running out and I have no clue where to even start. The teacher is there and he's angry

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Some foreign girls of color moved in next door (I lived in an apartment alone) and they were really friendly, smiled a lot. One of them suggested to meet up at their place to get to know each other. I went there and they started fighting over small things, they shouted and sweared and were super angry, so I left.

Playing hide and seek with my mom in our former house. I had like 5 seconds to hide, my sis was playing some song. I crawled under my mom's bed and hid between some storage boxes. She found me immediatelly. I got scared for some reason