The world's a nightmare

Nic | 35 | She/They. The Raven Cycle has eaten my life and will probably (hopefully) continue to do so for a long time.

[brotticelli]

no offence to bloggers who just love shitting on anyone who appreciates joseph kavinsky as a character but in my experience a lot of ppl who like k are queer and/or mentally ill and recognise parts of these things in him and dismissing that is kind of shitty lmao

[valdomarx]

“I hate that prick,” Adam said. Ronan knew he ought to hate him, too. There was nothing about Kavinsky that wasn’t despicable.

[valdomarx]

He’s not a dirtbag. He’s an asshole.

[rovnsky]

how do you feel about the way maggie talks about kavinsky/kavinsky fans? i try to respect her, obviously, but it makes me feel... uncomfortable.

I feel bad about her way to interact with us.

I haven’t been in the trc fandom for long obviously, but i’ve read some of her posts about K and it always feels like she is telling us to hate him and listing off all the bad things he did (even adding some stuff that weren’t completely clear in the books ON PURPOSE), yet the rest of the time she is all “i’m not part of the fandom I don’t get to tell you what to do”.

And like, I think she is making a big deal out of it, always mentionning him and being petty & blaming K’s fans for always asking questions about him and like fighting her on it but I don’t think she has had to deal more with K’s fans than other characters fans??

And when some K fans come up with good and important discussion topics I don’t think she listens to them & she always denies that she did anything wrong (esp when called out about the xenophobia & lack of diversity for eastern europeans and LGBTQA ppl) even though she keeps singling out K fans and it doesn’t feel like she spreads as much awareness for the GM and his horrible actions???

And I’m tired of being guilt-tripped for liking a character she created and she keeps fuelling anti-K haters who then come and harass us a lot???? So i’m just tired of her interacting with the fandom, like in her latest post she basically said i don’t like to tell you what to do or to give more information on the characters that aren’t in the books AND THEN she mentions K and K fans again…

TLDR; I’m tired of not being able to enjoy a character that I identify with without everyone yelling at me that i’m an apologist and them being justified by MS. (and yes I try to respect her too but tbh these days I just try to ignore her, esp since I haven’t read BLLB yet. I just want to know how the story ends and enjoy my side of the fandom in peace.)

[aquire]

[princeabernathy]

Hi, sorry if this seems ignorant but I'm American and I don't really understand the whole European white racism thing, could you explain what you meant in the tags about how the other characters treat kavinsky in the raven cycle?

Uhm, I tried to explain this to a friend using an example and it worked for her so I’m going with the same thing. I live in Italy and I’ve also been in America for a couple of months, while I was there (I was in the south) I worked in a Mexican restaurant and most of the people working there were obviously from Mexico. I’ve seen a lot of friends get treated like shit by white costumers. Ronan’s supposed to be white and from Virginia so this actually isn’t far from reality at all: if a white teeager were to go in mexican restaturant and say something like “Mexican trash piece of shit” to his waiter that’d be sure considered 100% racist in the USA. Well, saying “Bulgarian mobster Jersey trash piece of shit” is considered the same thing here in Europe. It’s exactly the same. It doesnt matter if you’re white, if you’re Bulgarian/ Russian/ Romanian/etc and you’re an immigrant there’s 99,9% chance you get treated the exact same way as ethnic minorities get treated in the USA

I think this pretty much explains why I think there’s a problem with the way some characters (Ronan & Blue) see Kavinsky but if I haven’t explained myself clearly just tell me and I’ll try my best again

[rovnsky]

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[josephkaivnsky]

You are shitting me.

[harleuyquinn]

see you on the streets

[uncannyparrish]

My friends and I, we got got a lot of problems

[carryonmywaywardsimonsnow]

Reasons I really can't hate Joseph Kavinsky

•He grew up in a home with parents that never gave him love or attention

•His only sanctuary was Cabeswater, which he lost, because as his life grew darker he stole from it, and it never forgave him for that

•Ronan Lynch was his only link to the sanctuary that had cast him out, and he lost Ronan too- or, no, he never had Ronan, because Ronan would always put Gansey first

•His dreams were at first something of relief and happiness, but when his life devolved so did his good heart, and they turned into something of shame

•Ronan made him feel as if he were not alone, but he was blatantly cast aside because, like always, he wasn’t worth more than drugs, or money, or Richard Campbell Gansey the fucking III

•He gave everything to help Ronan; he told him his secrets, helped him learn, but it did nothing for him

•He was in such a bad place family-wise that he killed his own father, then had to live with that unwanted guilt for rest of his short life, because as much as he hated his father, he was family, and Kavinsky still believed, after all those horrible years, that blood is thicker than water

•He died knowing that Ronan, Cabeswater, his own family had chosen to give up on him. He died knowing he wasn’t wanted.

[dreamthief13]

Monmouth Manufacturing~

[charliespringold-deactivated202]

how is this boy real :(

[solavei]

genuinely, though, ronan’s depression is an intrinsic part of him. everyone who knew ronan before notes constantly how different he is; how he’s less soft, less open, less carefree. he’s different enough now that he fights with gansey about it, because gansey doesn’t understand how a person could become so far removed from who they used to be. 

so here’s what we do know: ronan’s anger is, in canon, his depression manifesting as anger. he’s irritable, he can’t sleep, he feels guilty and hates himself up until the fourth book, he feels notably empty and alone even when he has close friends and a boyfriend, and he’s impulsive and self destructive. 

and while ronan’s attempt didn’t happen the way that it was perceived to have happened before he told the gangsey about his dreams, that doesn’t mean that an attempt didn’t happen. ronan’s dreams want what he wants; they do what he feels they should do. when it happened, ronan’s dreams weren’t yet evolved enough to create things like the cars and the sundogs; he could only even pull out small things. at that point, ronan’s dream creature trying to kill him was a mirror of ronan’s own wants. and ronan is destructive. he’s passively suicidal throughout all the books, blatantly, in the ways that he dismantles himself through drinking and racing and recklessness, and even with his fights with the people he cares about, pushing away people because it makes him feel lonely.

he’s lost his family–both parents (and the PTSD of finding his father viciously murdered), his brothers to different places rather than the same home as him–as well as his home itself. and he’s grown up there. ronan, in cdth, expressed how little he really saw of the world outside of the barns, how he didn’t even understand the way the world was until he was older because he saw so little of it. it’s not just his home, but for a large part of his life, the whole world that he knows, and he’s lost it, and doesn’t know how to cope with that. 

not only that, but in the later books, it’s prominent to ronan that he is alive, and evidently, is working on getting better, most notably in call down the hawk. (”7:07: WAKE UP, ASSHOLE. YOU’RE ALIVE.”, the constant reminders to himself that he’s not actually alone even though he feels lonely.) despite that, he does claim many times throughout it that he’s apathetic about whether he really lives or dies–to the point where ronan’s arc isn’t really his dreamthings, or the world of dreamers, or finding others; so much as a beginning of a resolution to his conflict with himself 

[anxiousanimal]

Favorite Adam moments

It’s Adam Parrish’s birthday and since he’s a character that has made me bite my fingernails and yell at the page and grin like an idiot and maybe even get a moist eye or two (this despite being spoiled to his ending), here are some of my favorite Adam moments in (I think) chronological order:

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[adamnsey]

that feeling when u start thinking real hard about how Adam asks Gansey to explain how he knows he loves Blue and Gansey’s like IDK!!! but then goes on to explain how loving is like breathing air because we don’t want to suffocate, like eating because we don’t want to starve, essentially that we love not because we want to but because we Have to, because sometimes we have no choice and then u start  thinking real hard about how after that Adam probably thought long and hard about that and then when Ronan says “Adam?” Adam does not hesitate and kisses him because up until that point Adam had thought love was something that is earned, that love is a privilege that only the lucky can afford, that love was a commodity and then Gansey changes his whole mindset and tells him no, Love is a Necessity and Adam finally realizes love is something that comes to us whether we think we are deserving or not and love is something we Need to Live and he just…. Kisses Ronan……… bc he finally understands…….. 

[ellipsea]

one sec lemme pull out a quote from a random and completely apt latin love poem on demand –

[jackietaylorsghost]

remember that adam approaches blue, asks her for her number, sends her flowers, and rings her up and asks her out. that he goes to collect her for their date, tells her she looks nice. remember how often he thinks about how he wants to hold her hand or touch her hair or entwine himself with her. remember how often he actually does do those things and how ridiculously pleased he is to be doing so. remember how, when he’s sad, he lays his head in her lap. remember how he sticks up for her when she’s cat-called, how he doesn’t really understand why she’s upset, but states that he cares about her so he wants to. remember how, when he confronts blue about hers and gansey’s deception, he’s explicitly upset because their happiness would always mean more to him than anything he felt for blue and he’s hurt they didn’t give him that chance. remember that he had severe self-esteem issues that caused him anxieties about what someone like gansey would think of him, how they would react to him or judge him, but that, despite those fears, he stopped when he found gansey broken down on the side of the road. remember that he spends much of his limited time helping gansey to fix his car, that he feels immense pride for gansey when he manages to fix something on his own. remember that he makes sure gansey gets his burger the way he likes it. remember how he distracts gansey with homework when gansey is anxious. remember how devastated he was to find out gansey’s fate, that he became hellbent on finding glendower so he can save the friend he frequently expresses his love and admiration for. remember how he thinks gansey is wonderful, that he loves gansey so much. remember that he’s happy blue and noah get on so well because noah is ignored so often, or laughed at, that he’s happy there’s someone in the group now who takes notice of him. remember his fierce defence of noah, that proclamation that no friend would ever have hurt him that way. remember that in the midst of everyone’s unease, it is adam who lifts his hand, bumps knuckles with him.

remember that the consequences for him sneaking out are violent and dangerous, yet he goes out in the middle of the night to help look for ronan. remember when he projects into ronan’s dream to help him save matthew. remember that even though he’s so exhausted and barely keeping his head above water he helps ronan with greenmantle and his sleeping cows. remember that he gets cabeswater to play ronan’s electronic music, that he revels in making ronan smile. remember how he gives opal his watch to help her feel better, that he hates the idea of her in cabeswater, that he brings her out. remember how he felt soft and fuzzy after his kiss with ronan, and describes himself as senselessly happy. remember that he’s devastated for ronan after they find his mum, that he wishes he could do something to stop ronan turning around and seeing it, to keep him safe for a moment longer. remember how he climbs into ronan’s car so he won’t be alone in his grief, he doesn’t force ronan out or to talk, because he knows that’s not what ronan needs. remember how he can’t bear to be blindfolded, hearing the sounds of ronan being unmade. remember how natural it was for him to put his fingers through ronan’s when ronan was upset, to let ronan press his face against his neck. remember how he initiates kisses, and naps with ronan, and clings to him in their mud pit. remember that he was ready to not go to college for ronan, the thing he worked so exhaustingly hard for, that he got very upset about ronan not caring what happened to him. remember that he drives ronan’s car, thinks about how it smells like him, listens to his thumping music.

remember that adam knows more than anyone what a privilege love is as he went without it for so, very long. remember that he thinks about love often, that he feels so lucky to have it and that he doesn’t ever want to lose it. remember how he feels when he does lose his first love cabeswater. remember how he feels when he loses persephone, how he likens it to a scab that won’t ever fully heal. adam parrish is so wonderfully compassionate, so full of the love he knows he’s privileged to feel and have. he’s affectionate and giving, always looking for and giving it, both physically and emotionally. the way he loves is so distinct in its thoughtfulness, like his very own language that spills out over him and onto his friends and boyfriend, similarly to the way cabeswater reaches out its branches and wraps adam up its love; fitting, given it was through cabeswater that adam realised ah, this has been what love was the entire time and im never letting it go.