I used this tumblr through most of high school to be a general collection of pictures that fit my mood. If you took the time to go all the way back to the very beginning of this blog you’d see into the mind of someone who seems to have multiple personalities. Growing up is hard. In my opinion, it is perfectly normal to start over as a whole new person. I got to live all these different versions of myself. Some were harder than others. I don’t feel drawn to all that dark scary shit I used to be. But I was angsty and dealing with my eating disorder and the mental illnesses my friends and sister had so that felt right at the time. I’m happy I had that moment too. Now I’ll always have a soft spot for blink-182 and others I meet who had a similar phase. It’s also made this safe space in my mind where I can go when I’m feeling edgy because it’s still a part of me. I used to be embarrassed for this stage in my life because I thought it was too dark. I don’t think I truly embraced it until this past year. Another version of myself was the wannabe hippie free girl where I read poems and exclusively wore maxi skirts and had pet plants and meditated in the woods and had ~wanderlust~ but never took action. My ‘sorority self’ gave me an appreciation of all things basic which I don’t feel bad about loving. No one is too cool that they can’t fall into mainstream pop culture. I love The Bachelor, puppies, wine painting nights, lululemon, top40 Chainsmokers-y music, wearing my letters, instagramming everything, taking selfies, pinterest boards of my future house/wedding, the Kardashian empire, and drunk snap storying my life. As I’ve come into my own full self I noticed one vibe present in the background consistently. I just love freedom. The ability to start over whenever is so reassuring to me. Being an adult-ish person of society now, freedom has translated into a lot of traveling and stepping out of my comfort zone. I made a bucket list on this blog back in high school that I just went through for the first time in YEARS and I’ve now completed 62/100 on the list. Hopefully when I’ve checked off all 100 there will be new things to add. I don’t ever want to see my list fully crossed out. Gotta keep dreamin’ ya know? So to get to the point, I’m starting over. I know the life I want and I finally have the means to go after it. Sending myself to Nicaragua and then Thailand this past August, leaving what I believed to be my dream college, completing my Nursing Assistant certificate, working on my Yoga Teacher certificate, looking at apartments and nursing schools in other states I’ve never been to. This is all just the beginning. Feel free to follow along on my adventures!