i could be beautiful

forged in salt and tides

[driftwoodandtears]

oh no. oh no oh no oh no. please don’t let me be falling for someone physically incapable of loving me back like this

[driftwoodandtears]

maybe i’ll fuck around, become my father, join the military instead of dealing with my trauma and save some lives?

[driftwoodandtears]

stop abusing your sibling stop abusing your sibling stop abusing your sibling

[driftwoodandtears]

lately it’s been feeling like everyone forgets i have depression, and expects me to not fuck up as a person, ever.

it’s nice that they have such high opinions of me, but terrible because when i do fuck up everyone comes down so much harder.

[hydraa]

[driftwoodandtears]

no. absolutely not. you do not get to talk about how hard the start of the year was for you, how turbulent it was. it was turbulent because you cheated on me you fuck. it was hard for you?! how the hell do you think i felt?

[driftwoodandtears]

sociopathic asshole how dare you break me the way you broke me

i can’t have my friends anymore because you took them

i can’t have my mental health anymore because you took it

i can’t have anything anymore because you decided that you were too drunk to remember you had a girlfriend that night, and i don’t get to recover from it because you made it all about you

hope you’re happy with her x

[driftwoodandtears]

actually i think you’ll find i’m a certified crazy; i have a piece of paper

[driftwoodandtears]

look you were manipulative and awful by the end of it, but thank you for never having hit me, control what i ate, or belittling me for anything other than that last choice i made. you were unhealthy for completely different reasons, sure, but you never did those things.

[driftwoodandtears]

i find it so hard to believe that you are the same person who looked after me through high school

[driftwoodandtears]

i will hold you accountable for your actions.

[driftwoodandtears]

i will honestly sacrifice my friendship with them so he can get out. i don’t care what it takes.

[driftwoodandtears]

honestly if you think you can’t tell me stuff to the point that when you snap at me you have a list of things i’ve done wrong dating back months then i don’t consider us friends. if you think you can justify talking about someone i love in that way and snapping when i ask you to stop because it’s ‘for my own good’ i don’t consider us friends. if you think you can just reason it away with ‘i don’t understand how to communicate’ ‘i don’t know how friendship works’ ‘i was afraid if i upset you you’d leave me like my therapist’ i don’t consider us friends.

you don’t get to say shit like that to me. not after five years of friendship. not ever.

[driftwoodandtears]

did it ever occur to you that I'm not heartless?

[driftwoodandtears]

I'm self-involved because if I'm not, who else will be?

[driftwoodandtears]

thought you might cancel. didn't expect you to actually cancel. is it too much to ask to see you before i go away again?

[driftwoodandtears]

I wish I could somehow give you something back