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My loves, My Life.

So happy i got to see my amazing girlfriend of nearly 3 years and my handsome god son on Valentines Day. Lord Elijah, who needs a deadbeat dad when you have two amazing mothers who love you like no tomorrow. Can't wait till i can teach you to fish.

My amazing Ducky., i love her so much. She pleases me in every way. I never thought id feel something so special with a girl. I love that we will always have eachother and still can have a life involving men. I can't wait to have em comeout for my birthday. I just am so in love with my girl.. one day it'll be the 3 of us happily ever after.

Danielle's Don't Date Rules ;

1- Always use a condom 2- No personal questions other then the two ( do you have a girlfriend ? You legally have to tell me if you have a STI or STD so do ya?) 3- don't hold hands, cuddle 4- do not kiss me , especially during sex 5- from behind I don't want to see your face. 6- get their number, don't give them yours. ( then your choice if u want to call em ) 7- if he's clingy , drop him ASAP 8- Talk to him no more then 2 days a week 9- only fuck a max three days a week ( with same guy) 10- make sure he pays your cab home or drives you 11- THERE BETTER BE BEER!!!! 12- leave before they wake up.

This be my best friend Jamie everybody, this girl and I have had enough adventures in the last 11 months then I've had with anyone in my life. We are a crazy pair to say the least. Put us in a room together and we can make your life just by talking. Everybody loves when we come party together. From crazy camping trips to rock concerts, rocking river, road trips, crazy car rides, binges , boys. And I couldn't tell you half the rest. I never met someone who was so good to be around. Positive energy, 0 bullshit, and plenty of fun. I don't think I'd be alive without this girl, or my amazing girlfriend of course. Two girls who I can't wait to get drunk at my wedding with. Xoxox

After years of trying to get myself a therapist I'm finally on a waiting list.

I can't handle facing all this alone day by day I slip closer to trying. I can't deal with these constant reminders of the past. I smoke a shitload of pot every day to control my anger. I have to use pot I'll never be one of those people living their life on pills. All my life everyone I cared for has tried to leave. And the ones that I need out of my life are always trying to crawl back in. I believe death crosses everyone's mind, I can't stand when people publicize suicides and lie and make it media based. It's disgraceful and I learned in my psychology class that it's increasing the rates of suicide like I predicted. But that's not why I crave death. I crave it to re-unite, to rid of these pains every day. I am tired of living. I want to restart I personally fucked up my life. I accept everything I can't change. But then when I'm about to do it I think of my siblings, my mother, my girlfriend Grace & Godson Eli, my niece and nephew. Jamie , Vic Johnny , Beth, Caitlyn, mama H , Gomez, pimp, my big sis Sara, - And then I switch. I think of my grandma who was my best friend when I would be bullied. My big brother Patrick, he was everything, helped me through everything, since he's been gone I've been lost on my own. I have a journal to write to him as my own personal excersize and it doesn't help too much. I feel like I'm waiting for him to say something. My dearest Friend, Brodie.. My step sister . I just can't wait to get this therapist.. Hopefully she can help me with my past and present traumas..

I have a past I haven't been able to face. I race , and I chase for help , nobodies there, everything's eating me away, ever day. Will this stay? Will it leave ? Like everyone I cared for ;; I fought demons and addictions, seen my share of traumatic events, did horrible things to get people out of my life. Only 2 people I need have lives if their own, H & D. One my first best friend the other my first love.;; Holls had a broken heart, it was torn apart. Her next move , not smart. Swallowed pills to part, life. I was there that day, saw it before my eyes, her pain & sorrow. As they took her in the ER , it broke my heart, hearing her scream my name. Since then I cared, for anyone , anywhere who felt they were alone. Then I met a leech who tried to kill me and my life fell apart, I recoverd my life, it's complete and hole. Yet there's this hole in my heart. Holly my dearest and I are not nearest to friends or anything like that. But I miss her so, wish she would know, she was always my luvbug.

A true hero gives hope when there is none,

A true hero smiles in the worst times.

Although her faith may be questioned.

She never gives up;

#life #elegance #blondes #makeup #strength #hero #faith

I love my Girlfriend.

She's just the most amazing person i've ever met and we've been together for 2 years and 7 months and we always make it through life with eachother. I don't like girls really not even as friends but this chick is everything to me. She'd a best friend, family , a lover ,a shoulder to lean on, and someone who i can truly rely on.

Ducky is my babygirl, I am hers. We just connect to an unreal level. I've never felt like this for any woman other then this one.

Best Part is no matter what our boyfriends or future husbands say we'll always be together n we'll always be eachothers woman.

I love her till the day I die and my god son Lord Elijah.

#love #girlfriends #best friends #family #hope #strength #life #bed time snuggles