[HIATUS] Nothing's Fair.

Yong Junhyung/Damien Renegades Better the devil you know... ____________________________ Roleplay account. Join Us?

[lyneepoo]

I am over you, and I have emptied you

But when it rains again, all the memories that I have hidden

Come find you again

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[lyneepoo]

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[dropped--junhyung]

Dropping

Errr yeah, the title. I'm going to be dropping Junhyung & Yukwon. It's so depressing cause I wasn't able to work on Yukwon that long so ; n ;. Irl is being a bitch and it doesn't want me to rp rn I guess... but yeah, dropping so feel free to unfollow... or not. Idk. 

It was fun while it lasted and all you guys are really nice \o/.

Yeah idk what to say. I'm no good at this.

Byyeeee~

[dropped--junhyung]

Hiatus.

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] institute. where else would i be? [text] do u want me to come 2 ur house?

(/doesn't feel too comfortable going to the institute but decides it's better if he goes than having Ilhoon step outside.)

[text] Stay put. I'll be there soon.

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] why did you ask me that yesterday? Usually, you never ask me how I'm doing.

(/finally gets a text back from the other. He wasn't really sure whether to call or give him some space when he hadn't texted him back yesterday, so he had just waited.)

[text] We need to talk.

[text] Where are you?

[lyneepoo]

15/100 junhyung gifs

[dropped--junhyung]

Blood Is Always Thicker...

[text] I know more than you think. Make it easy then. Don't think. Just be his brother. That's all he needs from you. More than food, more than clothes, many than anything money can buy.

Why was it that this faceless person on the other side of their conversation knew more about being a brother than he did? How did it come so easily to them?

Don't think.

Was it really that easy? Just to not think and just do? But wasn't that were the reflexes and instincts came in?

Thinking is the only way he even got close to being what he needs, but it was never enough. Nothing was ever enough when it came to Junhyung. 

[text] I don't know how to be one. You're supposed to have a brother for more than this. You're supposed to grow up with him and figure out how to be one. I didn't have that.

The fact that he hadn't had a brother, that he hadn't grown up with him... was it just an excuse he used to make it easier on himself? Even if that was the case, why was it that he treated some of his friends better than he treated his own brother? It was unfair, he knew, but every time the younger brought up the topic of his parents, Junhyung would just stop listening. He didn't want to talk about it. He didn't want to talk about the fact that they were nice people and that they cared for him before they tossed him aside, because that wasn't how Junhyung viewed it. The person he was, the person Ilhoon was... they both would've never turned out like this if it hadn't been for their parents. 

Junhyung never talked about his parents with anybody, even himself, but Ilhoon always seemed to be wanting to speak with him on the topic. Maybe it was time for him to contribute to the conversation instead of shielding it away.  It was his responsibility to fill in the place that was supposed to be filled in by their parents. Sure, he wouldn't like it. Even the thought of their blood running through him got him pissed, but Ilhoon was his brother... and the older always has to give up some things, right?

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] that's low. Are you trying to pass him off? Even if I want to take him as my own brother, you're his brother. He loves you. Can't you understand that?

(/grips onto his phone as he rereads the text, getting more and more frustrated with each text. The thought that it might be Ilhoon comes into his head for the slightest second before he shakes the thought out of his head. Ilhoon would've just come to him with complaints, not hide behind an unknown number... right?)

[text] Who is this?

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] are you really going to let what your parents did to you and him become your excuse? Don't you think he deserves better than that?

[text] He does. Which is why I still don't get why he's my brother. You seem to know more than I do. Why not just take him?

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] I know more than you think. Make it easy then. Don't think. Just be his brother. That's all he needs from you. More than food, more than clothes, many than anything money can buy.

[text] ... I don't know how to be one. You're supposed to have a brother for more than this. You're supposed to grow up with him and figure out how to be one. I didn't have that.

(/figures it doesn't matter who the other is. It wouldn't really matter anyway, what this person thinks of him.) 

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] obviously I'm texting you about it. That's doing something. [text] if you mean something like treating him well myself, I can do that as much as I can. I can spoil him rotten but its not the same. You're his brother, his last family member left. Not me. I can't change that.

(/swallows thickly at the mention of family, his thoughts slowly going back towards his Ilhoon's parents, the thoughts causing his jaw to clench up.) Well it would've been different if it hadn't been for them. 

[text] I'm trying. It's not as easy as it seems. You don't know everything about... us.

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] "just fine." Wow do you always sound like this much of a jerk or is that special when it comes to your brother? Fine isn't good enough. He needs you more than he says, you know.

[text] What's it matter to you? If the way I look out for him pisses you off then why don't you do something about it?

(/is starting to feel guilty for the way he treats Ilhoon sometimes but he can't help it. Why was it that he treated some people better than he treated his own brother?)

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] I know your brother. Why else would I say anything about him? [text] it doesn't matter who I am. You really ought to watch over him carefully for the next few months.

[text] I can take care of my brother just fine.

(/thinks back to the last time he had checked up on his brother. He had told him he had been just fine but... how long ago had that been?) (/scrolls through the messages he has between Ilhoon before he sends him another one.)

[dropped--junhyung]

[text] don't you think you should pay more attention to your brother? It's winter now.

[text] How do you know I haven't been?

(/is about to pocket his phone when he realizes he doesn't know who he's texting. Something about the unknown number felt familiar, which was the reason why he hadn't really checked the number, but then again, there were probably a shitload of people who texted that way.)

[text] ... Who is this?

[dropped--junhyung]

Hangover

[x-xiah]

(/takes a deep breath as all the twirling and knotting his stomach was doing disappears and slightly shakes his head, in hopes that the dizziness will also disappear or at least get better because he hates seeing everything so blurry and walking like he is a baby who is just learning how to balance himself on his two legs) (/presses the button to open his window and lets his head rest there, feeling the wind and hoping it can clear out his mind. Probably looks like a dog with his head like that, but he doesn’t mind too much. He’s basically just grateful that Junhyung ended up going out of his way to go get him even though he didn’t know where the hell he was in the first place. It always felt good to have someone to rely on whenever he needed) Thank you, hyung. Sorry I’m always like this to you. (/doesn’t look at the man and try not to sound too mushy because he never really thanked anyone for things and feels weird when doing so although he’s being sincere) (/He somehow recognizes the shop they’re going to and pats his friend’s back as if he’s telling him he did a nice job picking that one) I look really weird being carried by you. Ask the lady where the bathroom is and take me there, ‘kay? Really need to put my head under the water or something to let this guy sober up a bit.

[dropped--junhyung]

(/groans slighty as he tries to manuveur the other over to the shop but he isn't listening, or rather, the other's body isn't.) God dammit Xiah, try to walk properly, will you? (/takes a deep breath and finally manages to get him into the shop, not needing to ask anyone where the bathroom is because it seemed pretty obvious, thanks to the signs pointing in the direction of the desired place.) (/drops Xiah down onto the sink once they get there, a loud huff leaving Junhyung as he rolls his shoulders a bit, rolling his neck and looking over at the other with furrowed eyebrows.) I told you only time helps. What time did you start drinking? (/checks his phone, seeing that it's almost midnight. It surprised it how the shop would still be open at such a time but he wasn't complaining. It was more convient for him anyway.)

[dropped--junhyung]

Happy Birthday, Bitch.

[dropped-ilhoon-blog]

(/ his grin persists as the other speaks and his tears of joy fade away; now, he’s just happy to have his family with him in one form or another; as the other finishes, his mind floods with emotions and questions; he chooses his words carefully and speaks ) How … how did you get this? Who did you get this? When did you get this? Who did you get it from? Where did you get it? Tell me! Tell me everything you know about this photo, hyung (/ he pauses momentarily ) except for the obvious, of course. I know those. (/ he chuckles)

[dropped--junhyung]

(/sighs as the grin spreads on his lips, not getting why he's so happy with the photo but decides it's better that he got him something he wanted than giving him something that he has no use of.) ... I asked Lucifer. (/doesn't say anything after because it's a pretty big deal for him to ask of Lucifer. He never asks him for anything unless it's a really big deal.)