"Reeeeeen, don't needlessly apologize! I already expect you to be utterly boring, there's no reason to be sorry for something that isn't a disappointment! It makes you weak in front of your enemies! Geez, even apologizing for asking an extra question..." She made a fist and shook it for effect.
Sumiko put on a mock, over dramatic thinking pose, but it slowly turned into a real one. Why had she talked to Ren again? She went back in forth in her head between being honest and just giving an obviously fake answer. God, how could she even be considering being truthful? It was like a dirty word, truth. She bit her lip self-consciously before talking.
"Hnnng those are difficult questions! Difficult, personal questions! Oh Ren, don't tell me you're trying to take advantage of my emotional insecurity over the death of my friend?! That's low down! Manipulative, even a little bit evil!"
She giggled lightly and briefly put her hand to his chest. "And I like that in a man!"
Sumiko inhaled deeply, pulling or pushing her hands with her breaths.
"Alright, alright, I'm serious now. I'm super...emotionally...intense...I guess I kept talking to you because you are different than most people! No, really! Most people don't really consider me a person worth spending time on. Hell, most people don't act like they consider me a person! People think that cause i'm in a wheelchair that i'm different. Sometimes they act like they think natural selection should have just wiped me out, so i didn't really 'earn' my place as a real person. Even nice people talk down to me or think i'm stupid...it's really helpful in my career though! People don't expect me to be capable at all, much less of killing. Ah, but don't think I'm a martyr, I'm sure there have been people who consider me worthy but are just put off by my being very weird! But still, I guess it was nice to be...well, i know fear isn't the same as respect, but you don't fear sometime inferior! You must have thought i was an equal to be afraid of me, and that's nice! Not to mention people aren't exactly intimidated by a very cute girl who only comes up to their stomach! It was nice that you were intimidated of me before you knew a was a killer..."
Sumiko sat back comfortably, closing her eyes.
" ..It was a real confidence boost. But really, of course you are on my Don't Kill list! Despite my...feelings...about your job you still aren't a bad person, and I only kill criminals. You're on my don't kill as opposed to just not being on the death list is, well, because i don't think you should die! I thought the stuff you said to me had a very- ahhhhh- unique strength to it. I know it's odd to say there's strength in admitting you don't like your 'career' but you don't have the spine to get out of it, but there is! Self-awareness is a good thing, yeah? Besides, if I killed you it would be a little like killing a part of myself, and i'm not really the self-harm type, ehehehe!"
She sighed openly, clearly a bit drained. This conversation was not going how she wanted, this is the real problem with talking to people she could scare; It was waaaay too easy to just talk.. Comfort does not keep secrets safe! Her eyes shot open, and she looked at Ren wistfully, cracking a small but genuine smile.
"You seem like you are like me; a person who has been molded not by their own experiences and wishes but by the desires of other people. Right?"
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