Iāve always been a loner. I had some trouble making friends growing up but was overall pretty outgoing and could fake it with the best of them. I had a handful of people I called friends my entire life, but always I kept them at arms length. I knew I was different. iāve always been a pervert, too. I dont even bother wondering why anymore or trying to figure out what made me this way, It doesnāt matter. Iāve always been this curious needy thing. I donāt have any hope for that changing.
Itās something Iāve come to accept, though it took some work especially in my existential teenage years. I use to struggle so with the shame of it all, I drowned in my own desire and resented myself for it. All my life Iād been a freak. There had been no escaping it or explaining it away, and those nights spent groveling in the shame of submission while trying to fight it off and hating myself for aching to be pushed toward the edge made me what I am now. Still a freak, but self aware and at peace with having some wires crossed.
As an adult I focus strongly on what I CAN control in life. In fact I try to control every aspect of my life, down to the smallest detail. Every calorie I consume is counted for, every minute of the day is scheduled with some chore or task. I keep my hair dyed and fixed, my makeup on daily, and my outfits specifically set aside the night before. I am efficient at keeping my home and body clean and tidy, keeping dinner on the table nightly and laundry upkept diligently. Iāve been reading more into these Bimbo rules and ideologies, and Iāve never felt more seen. Iāve also been reading up about Misogyny and the natural role of females in history and society, and I am now entirely sure of it. I am a traditional bimbo, a homemaker, I am anything my Man wants me to be. Thatās all Iāve ever wanted. To be seen, to be controlled, to be craved so deeply, thought of constantly. Iāve always wanted to be kept pristine and on display but also of use by cooking dinners for Men but keeping my waist in check, by cleaning the house daily and my body daily always making sure I look my 100 percent best for Men. That is my purpose. To be a bimbo cumdump maid for Men.
Iāve been the happiest Iāve ever been since I came to that realization and started living accordingly. I do my lashes and makeup daily, have a cleaning routine daily, am in a calorie deficit, and only consume bimbo/misogynist media! I am working on updating my wardrobe and trying hard to find links for good hypnosis!! I also read that drinking or smoking daily can help change your mindset and personality so I decided to become a drunk bimbo! Itās been fantastic. I get cute and drunk and do my little tasks around town like grocery shopping and getting coffee and all the Men are soo nice to me! Itās like they can sense it.
I work every day on being the bestest hottest drunk bimbo cumdump I can be!! I hope to further develop my new bimbo self and hope to update in the future!!
Comment if you enjoy this confession and if you have tips for me in this journey!š
