SUMMARY: When Dongmin misses his boyfriend a little too much, cyber sex ensues.
AUTHORS NOTE: Re-uploading because I realized making another side blog was better
Dongmin’s been missing his boyfriend a lot recently. His hardworking boyfriend who loves to spoil him to no end. Unfortunately, his schedule has been pretty shit— only getting scheduled to work mid afternoon to late at night. Sure, they could always squeeze in some time before he’s set to start his shift, but he’s not too fond about that. Dongmin just wants to have Donghyun all to himself, is that too much to ask for? So when he gets that text that he’s finally home he immediately goes for his laptop.
“Hi, baby.” Donghyun greets with a smile as soon as the FaceTime call connects. Dongmin’s suddenly shy and looks down at his lap playing with the sleeves of his sweater. See, Donghyun has this effect on people where just eye contact is enough to have them blushing. His own boyfriend not immune to it. And he’s very aware of that. Loves to use it to his own advantage, too. “Don’t you miss me?” Donghyun juts his lower lip out. Tease. “I missed you.”
“Of course I missed you!” Dongmin finally looks up eyes a bit wide to emphasize his point. “Been thinking about you all day.” He pouts.
“Yeah? Tell me what you’ve been thinking about.” Ah, there’s that tone. The tone he uses when he’s missed Dongmin a little too much and wants to do something about it. But he loves to drag it on as a way to tease instead of getting straight to the point. He lives for the way his boyfriend squirms begging he please do something.
“Just want you here with me,” Dongmin pauses and begins fiddling with his fingers. “Touching me.” He finishes off with a whisper.
Donghyun, the tease that he is, leans forward a bit more with that smirk on his face and cups a hand over his ear. “What was that last part?”
Dongmin rolls his eyes and huffs. “I will hang up.”
“You won’t.”
“Is that a test?” Dongmin raises a brow.
“I know you won’t because I know that you’re hard right now,” that stupid smirk still on his face, but Dongmin would never admit it to his face that it’s hot. Just like how he won’t admit he loves to be teased. “Pull your cock out for me, baby.”
Dongmin flushes. He’s aware how forward Donghyun could be, but he wasn’t quite expecting it. Not yet, at least. He expected a little more foreplay.
Donghyun tilts his head. “You can’t fool me, Dongminnie. I know you better than that.”
“Sue me for being horny for my boyfriend.” He rolls his eyes.
“I’m aware. So, pull it out for me. Let me see your pretty cock, yeah?” Donghyun and his filthy mouth. But it fucking turns him on.
Dongmin pulls his pajama pants off and he’s about to reach for his sweater as well, but Donghyun stops him. “Leave the sweater on. Want you to touch yourself in the gift I got you.” God. The effect he has on him without even touching him. Dongmin’s hands are shaking as he pulls off his boxers. Shaky fingers gripping on his cock and giving it a gentle stroke.
“So pretty, baby. Look at you leaking wish I were there to lick it right off.” Donghyun leans further back in his seat and Dongmin notices the way he adjusts himself assuming to palm himself through his pants.
“Are you hard for me too?” Dongmin sighs, squeezing his tip.
“‘M always hard for you.” Donghyun’s watching the way he’s touching himself with hooded eyes. How he wish it were his hand instead, his tongue licking off that bead of precum, his hands traveling under his shirt to pinch his nipples rolling them in between his fingers, he wants to be kissing his neck, his lips. Donghyun just wants to be with his boyfriend. “Want to put you in my mouth.” He furrows his brows squirming in his seat.
Dongmin moans and squeezes his cock a bit more. He shuts his eyes imagining it were Donghyun here in front of him, touching him. But imagination could only go so far because he can’t feel his boyfriend’s lips on him. Biting, sucking, licking, kissing.
“Don’t you wish my mouth were on you? Wish you could cum in my mouth?”
“Fuck, Donghyun.”
“Close, baby?”
“Yeah.”
And when Dongmin finally cums, Donghyun leans in closer to the screen observing the mess he made.
“You made such a mess,” if he were less composed he’s sure he would’ve started drooling at the sight. The sight of his boyfriend breathless and flushed, cum staining his hands, thighs and parts of his shirt and sweater. “Fuck, I need to come see you. I’m on my way.”
Dongmin still unable to think straight just lays back on the bed with a dopey smile on his face. Donghyun is coming to see him.
MDNI !!! block the tag #misa;darkcontent to prevent viewing content like this from me! or just block me in general! + not proofread. (Also, everyone in this fic is 20+ I've not specified ages since it's common for high school students to take drop years after finishing school, you can choose how long you've been away from them.)
WC: 8.6k
disclaimer: this is a work of fiction, it is not to defame the said idols. it's just fantasy and not real, it doesn't represent the idol's real life personalities or behavior. i do not condone such behavior in real life, and neither should you. fiction is fiction, consume carefully and at your own discretion.
warnings: noncon/dubcon, coercion, power imblance, p in v, unprotected s*x, breeding kink, dacryphilia, perverted behavior, bullying, psychological ab*se, vaginal fingering, oral s*x, violence, bullying, emotional manipulation, leehan and taesan are genuinely fucked up, beware.
Do you know what they say about water lilies? that they're resilient, strong, and grow pure no matter what they're surrounded by. They would still bloom beautifully regardless of the environment that fostered them, they're very persistent. They bloom, even in murky waters.
Oddly enough, you resonated with it. A metaphor you found solace in when your past would haunt you in your nightmares.
Maybe it was your time to bloom too after all. After years of enduring life's constant cruel games, you've managed to study hard after graduating high school, and landed yourself in the nation's prestigious university.
It felt freeing, a new life, a new era. An escape from your past disadvantages. It's finally your turn to live life like you had decided.
It's the first day of class, you were nervous, after all everything is new to you. Everyone was just as nervous too, it was the beginning of a new semester. You scanned the lecture hall before taking a seat at a place where it's more convenient for you to focus while also socially interacting with others.
Truth be told, you've always been a socially awkward person with no true friends in high school and all throughout life. You never really had the chance to form healthy friendships. So you take a deep breath.
That's right, everything is fine.
No one will be cruel here.
Leave your demons in the past.
Don't let it affect you.
You've reassured yourself, the lecture hall started filling in as more freshmen arrived, a girl seated herself next to you, she was really pretty and gave you a smile. “Hi, nice to meet you, I'm Minju.” She introduced herself and you nodded. You can see from her demeanour that she was just as nervous to speak and mustered up courage to greet you. Which you found relatable and cute. “I'm [name], it's nice to meet you too, Minju.” You gave her a soft smile and she returned back.
You both engaged in small talk, from what you tell, she was really sweet and kind. Her way of speaking was soft and careful with cracking a few jokes here and there, and awkwardly smiling.
“Where did you go to high school?” She asks and your breath hitches in your throat. “Uh, it was a private school. Hanlee high school.” You reply, biting your lip in nervousness. “What!? Isn't that the school for rich kids? Are you secretly loaded?” She asks jokingly, but you shake your head no. “I got in through merit. They usually have 10 spots open for merit based scholarship, and I got in through that.” You clarify.
“Well, I don't doubt it, after all you're here in this university too.” She nods. “What about you?” You ask. “Oh, I graduated from Santae all girls high school.” She answers and you gasp. “Wow, that was my dream school.” You reply, genuinely shocked and she just smiles.
“I always wanted to transfer there, especially after the ha—” You begin but immediately stop yourself. She raises an eyebrow in curiosity.
“after— I realised how high the pressure is in hanlee.” You cover up, giving her an awkward smile.
“Figured, but you still made it through, and that's commendable and I am so proud of yoh!” She answers and you immediately feel your heart swell up with emotion. No one has ever said that to you before. “T-thank you.” You stumble over your words, this moment becoming oddly emotional.
The conversation goes into a comfortable silence after that, with you both watching the students enter one by one and interact with one another. You talk to a couple of students nearby your seating area, getting along with them well. It seems like your life is finally beginning to change.
That was until you caught a glimpse of two students that entered last after everyone did. And your heart sank. The air was knocked out of your lungs the minute you spotted those two. You were seconds away from a panic attack.
“Hey, are you okay?” Minju asks, noticing your stiff body, you immediately snap out of the paralysis state and focus on her. “Uh- yeah. I'm fine, I'm just nervous.” You justify, coming up with a reason that makes sense.
Her gaze shifts towards where you were staring, noticing the two guys checking out the perimeter before the lecture starts.
“Oh my god, is that Kim Donghyun and Han Dongmin?” She gasps. “Y-you know them?” You ask, your voice meek. “Of course, who wouldn't? They're the heirs of the two biggest corporations in the country. I can't believe they'll be studying here. I wonder if I could ask them a favour to land me a job in their corporation.” She jokes, but you only let out a forced chuckle.
Your heart begins to beat faster the longer they're down there, you lean forward on your desk in a position where your hair curtains around your face, essentially covering it so they don't spot you.
You hope they have forgotten you. After all, it's been so long since you last saw them. You've changed up your hair and everything else so the traces of the past didn't linger on you. You pray to God, that they don't spot you, that they don't recognize you, and even if they do, they just ignore you.
But God isn't real.
You've learnt that years ago when you had to face suffering, when no one was around, no one came to save you. So you prayed all night, but it was all in vain.
“Wait, Is it [name]?” The voice snapped you out of your prayers. A voice you'd recognize anywhere. Donghyun's voice.
You were so stuck up in your thoughts that you didn't realise they had walked up to you. You bit your lip, took a deep breath before raising your head.
Your hair fell away from your face, cascading down as you turned to face them. Your gaze finally met their faces. Your gut was screaming at you to run, to escape them, but you were still seated.
Murky waters.
“Woah, it is her!” Dongmin chirps, placing his hand over Donghyun’s shoulder. “Damn, has she gotten even prettier? I almost didn't recognize her, It's been a while since we last saw you.” Donghyun added.
You wished they didn't recognize you.
“Uh, h-hey.” You greeted them.
Donghyun shot you a smile, and Dongmin waved. “What a coincidence, I didn't expect to see you here.” Dongmin speaks while Donghyun urges the student seated next to your left and the one after them to leave the spots by tapping their shoulders so they both could sit there.
You pray that they don't leave, you don't want to be seated next to them again.
But alas. Prayers don't work.
The students obey, not wanting to get in Donghyun and Dongmin’s bad graces.
Bootlickers.
“Me neither.” You reply, watching as Donghyun sits right next to you, with Dongmin taking the seat next to him.
You didn't want to see them at all.
“Do you know each other?” Minju's voice snaps you out once again, you look to your right to see her staring at you nervously, her eyes filled with confusion and concern, watching you react like this.
“Uh—”
“We're close friends, we were classmates back in high school.” Donghyun cuts you off before you could say anything.
Close friends?
You wanted to scoff.
“Ahh, I see.” Minju responds, still vary of them due to your reaction, but she doesn't speak more.
“Anyway, where have you been? I've lost my mind trying to find you after high school.” Donghyun speaks, with a pouty tone that would seem harmless to anyone else, but not you. He's angry, you can hear it underneath the masking.
“I've— been busy. Preparing for the entrance test. And my family had to move due to financial issues.” You tell him.
Lie. Lie. Lie.
You begged on your knees for your mother to leave the city the minute you graduated. You cried your heart out in front of her for the first time in your life. She agreed to move after seeing her daughter in such a state.
“Really? Why didn't you bother contacting us? You kind of ditched us, y'know? Even though we've been nothing but kind.” Dongmin adds, raising an eyebrow.
“I broke my phone, and didn't remember your contact information. I'm so sorry, I really wanted to keep in touch.” You explained softly, trying to maintain your composure.
You broke it on purpose, cause they wouldn't stop spam calling you.
You didn't want to see their faces again.
Kind? You almost puked.
You begin to space out, remembering the day of the graduation.
❀❀❀❀
The ceremony had just ended, and you received a letter from a guy from your class to meet up behind the school after the ceremony ends.
You thought he had a favour to ask, but to your surprise, he confessed to you.
“I've.. always liked you, [name]. I couldn't muster up the courage to do it sooner. So please forgive me.” he spoke softly. Your heart fluttered at his genuinity, for a moment, you wanted to accept his confession.
“I really appreciate that but—”
“The fuck is going on here?” Donghyun’s voice made you jump. And you could see the fear take over the guy's face too. Dongmin was right behind him.
“Dude, are you that dense? Anyone can tell that he was confessing to her.” Dongmin smacked Donghyun gently on the head before they made their way near you both.
“Confession? Like he likes her?” Donghyun asks and Dongmin sighs, “Yes, that's what a confession usually means in this context.” shaking his head.
“So, what now? You accepted it? You love him too?” Donghyun gets closer, pressing you for answers. “N-no, I didn't, I haven't given my answer yet.” You reply, scared.
Donghyun scoffs before he looks at the guy.
You don't know how it had happened, but Donghyun lunged towards the guy, tackling him to the ground as he punched him in the face. “What. About. Off. Limits. Do. You. Not. Understand?” He emphasized each word with a punch.
You were on your knees, crying, trying to stop him, but Dongmin grabbed you by your arm and stopped you from interfering. “Dongmin, stop him, please, he's gonna kill him!” You beg but he just stares at you with a raised eyebrow. “What? You into that loser? You guys fucked already or what?” Dongmin questions lifting you up harshly to your feet before slamming you against the nearest wall.
You wince in pain, as you shake your head. “N-no! I was going to reject him, you came before that, it's not his fault. Please don't hurt him.” You cried and Dongmin scoffed, grabbing you by your hair. “Really?” He asks and you nod frantically and he lets go of your hair.
“It doesn't matter anyway, we told everyone you're off limits, but he had the nerve to even think about having a chance. He deserves it.” Dongmin justifies it, and you can only watch in horror as the guy's face is beaten into a pulp.
Donghyun finally gets up, with knuckles covered in blood, he wipes it off on his pants before finally kicking the guy in his stomach one last time as a final measure before turning his attention towards you.
“Ah I'm fucking pissed off, I want to kill this fucker but I can't. My dad worked his ass off to clear me from juvenile violence reports.” Donghyun groans.
“Take this as a lesson, you bastard.” He addresses the guy on the floor, who is barely conscious.
His focus is now fully on you, your teary face as you stared at him. “You crying for him?” He asks and you shake your head no, trying to stop tears from coming out as you hold in your sniffles.
“Aw, how cute. My flower is crying.” He comes near you, caressing your face. “Why don't you show him that you belong to us?” He squeezes your cheeks, forcing your mouth open. Another hand groping your breast.
“Get on your knees.” Dongmin commands, pushing you to your knees. “Lemme go first, I'm so fucking frustrated.” Donghyun groans in annoyance. You could only stare at the guy who was slowly falling out of consciousness in pity.
You close your eyes not wanting to look at him anymore. You hear the sound of a zipper being undone and metal clanking before you feel Donghyun's fingers lift your chin up. “Open your mouth.”
❀❀❀❀
“...[Name]”
“.... [Name]”
“..... [Name]!!”
You come back to the present with a jolt, blinking as you turn to look at Minju you called out your name. “Are you okay? You've zoned for a minute straight.” She asks, now concern clearly evident on her face. You look to your left to see Donghyun staring ahead.
The lecture had started.
“Y-yeah I'm fine, sorry I was just…” You speak but Minju shushes you. “It's okay, I understand.” She rubs your back in comfort and you give her a small smile.
You turn your attention to the lecture as well, biting your lip as you try to shift your focus away from them.
Dongmin and Donghyun both glance at you, seeing your discomfort, to which they give each other a knowing smile.
Not even a speck of remorse in their eyes.
The day goes by excruciatingly slowly for you. Your chance of a shot at a new life dwindling away each hour.
At least you're living on campus.
So you slightly have an escape.
You weren't able to move in before the classes started due to health complications, but your stuff was already transferred and arranged in the room you were given through helpers that your mom hired.
You felt really grateful, she was the one variable who always looked out for you, even if she was distant. Ever since your dad passed away, she hasn't been the same, but she tried, tried to be there for you. And you were grateful.
You spent a good while checking out the campus before making your way to the dorms.
You reached the dormitory, and you didn't expect it to be this big, it was almost like a five star hotel. The funding comes from the Hanlee foundation after all. The same corporation that funded your high school.
You reached your floor and room number.
First years would be having 2 roommates, second year onwards, you can opt out to be alone or only share a room with 1 person. You couldn't wait to meet your new roommates.
It would be awkward if they were both guys since this was co-ed after all. But you took a deep breath and unlocked the door with the key.
Whatever preparation you had before opening the door went flying out the window when you realised who your roommates are, that were currently watching the TV. They turned their head towards you and to say their face lit up would be an understatement.
“Holy fuck, I genuinely cannot believe this.” Donghyun remarked, his excitement barely masked while Dongmin laughed.
You cannot believe it either.
Does the universe hate you?
What have you done to punish you in such a cruel way?
“So you're our roommate huh? I was praying for a pretty girl but I got more than what I asked for. God is real.” Donghyun chirped excitedly. You wanted to cry.
You still entered bravely, to show them that you're not the girl they used to bully anymore, shutting the door behind you. You ignored them both, and went to see which one was your room. It was the one located on the right.
There were three separate bedrooms in this layout, small but functional enough, all three rooms opened to the common entry way which was the living room, and located all the way at the end was a small kitchen and a common bathroom.
Before you stepped inside your room, you turned around to see Dongmin was staring at you. You took a deep breath, mustering up courage.
“Why are you both in the dormitory anyway?” Questioning why they were here. They're rich enough to own a property near the university to go back and forth. Why are they staying in the dorm?
Dongmin sighs. “Charity, humbleness.” He replies bored. “To build a reputation that we're humble and are not classist. That's why we're living like the poor.” You wanted to throw a chair at him.
But you didn't, instead just turned around and went inside your room. The boxes were already there, all you had to do was just unpack. The dorm provided you with a bed and a study table, which you were thankful for.
You open the boxes and begin to settle down, arranging it in a neat manner.
You didn't own a lot of stuff anyway, just clothes and basic necessities. It only took two hours to fully unpack. You folded the cardboards flat and stored them beneath your bed for future use.
You got up off your knees and let out a breath of relief. All there's left to do now is freshen up and relax.
Relax? Oh yeah nevermind. You're roommates with hyenas, there is no time to relax.
You step out of your room and into the living room, Donghyun is lying on the sofa scrolling his phone, while the faint sound of the shower running indicates that Dongmin is taking a shower. You didn't know what to do, so you just went to the kitchen and were surprised to see ingredients all stocked up.
“I had one of my staff members make sure we don't lack anything.” You jump, hearing Donghyun's voice. Why couldn't you hear his footsteps?
“Ah, I see.” You reply, shortly.
“Why'd you ignore me earlier?” He asks, stepping closer to you. “Huh? Right, sorry I was just shocked, I thought I responded but I guess it was in my mind.” You make up an excuse. Donghyun hums.
“I missed you.” He confesses, stepping even closer, grabbing your wrists gently.
Well, you certainly didn't miss him.
“Ah? Really.” You reply, can you even call it a reply?
“Did you miss me too?” He asked and you were taken aback. “Hm, yeah I missed you too.” You answer, telling a lie because the truth will land you in a mess far beyond human comprehension.
You didn't miss them at all.
“I'm glad you did. What have you been up to lately?” It was so unlike him to make small talk, why is he behaving like this?
“Nothing much— just—”
“Do you have a boyfriend?” He cuts you off, finally getting to the actual question he wanted to ask, damn, he couldn't even pretend to care for 10 seconds.
Should you lie? What would happen if you said yes? Will they leave you alone?
“N-nope, I've been busy.” You stare at him.
His hold on your wrist tightens as he suddenly pulls you against him, wrapping his arms around you in a hug.
Your heart starts hammering uncontrollably, your gut tells you to run, your breathing gets heavy. Donghyun inhales your scent deeply, burying his face in your neck.
“Fuck, I missed you so fucking much.” He mumbles. “Did you know how many bitches I fucked to fill the void you left in me? In me and Dongmin? Poor guy became a celibate after you disappeared.” He cooed slowly. “He didn't want to touch anyone that wasn't you and had more control over his sexual urges, meanwhile, I fucked any bitch that resembled you in the slighest.” He breathed.
“Yet none could ever satisfy me, you know? For a long while we've both suffered, and now that you're back? Did you know the amount of joy I felt when I saw you in class today? It took everything in me to not fucking strip you naked and fuck you right then and there.” His hand travelled down your shoulder, resting right above the flesh of your breast.
He pulled back from the hug, he caressed your cheek, thumb swiping over your bottom lip. “Fuck, did you get prettier or something? I mean you were always really pretty, but holy fuck.” He curses beneath his breath, admiring you.
The door to the bathroom opens before Donghyun could do anything. “Are you forgetting the deal?” Dongmin intrudes, rubbing his wet hair with a towel. “Urgh. Whatever.” Donghyun lets go of you and steps back.
“Deal?” You ask before you could stop yourself.
“Oh, don't worry about it.” He shrugs it off and they both leave you alone in the kitchen. You should be relieved, you should be thankful that they didn't step out of line.
But it only worried you further.
>>>
A few days pass by and it's beginning to feel scary how peaceful it has been lately. Donghyun and Dongmin seemed like they don't care about your existence anymore. Maybe they had gotten bored with you as their play toy. Whatever it was, it felt peaceful but you couldn't help doubting them.
You enjoyed most of what you got, hanging out with other students and Minju, you and her had gotten close as time went by. She was also timid and shy like you, but surprisingly more outgoing when people talk to her.
It felt nice.
It felt normal.
For the first time in years, it finally felt normal.
But the existence of Donghyun and Dongmin threatened your normalcy.
You wanted it to last forever.
You were minding your own business in the kitchen, cooking some recipe you found online. When the door opens, Donghyun steps in.
He wasn't alone, a girl was wrapped around his arms. “Is it okay to do it in the dorms?” the girl questioned and he shrugged, not caring before he pulled her close and took her to his room, shutting it with a loud bang.
You paid no mind to it and finished cooking the food. Dongmin then enters the dorm as well. “It smells good.” He states, whiffing up the air.
“Ah, I made honey chicken. Do you want to try?” You honestly didn't know why you had asked, it felt too rude not to ask, but then again, the person in front of you was your tormentor, so it's justifiable to be mean right?
“If you don't mind.” Dongmin, walks over to you, helping you set up the dishes on the pull up dining table. You usually don't eat here, you go to your room and eat at your desk. But there is no escape now.
You both sit down, and taste the dish. “This tastes so amazing. I didn't know you could cook.” He compliments your dish. “I couldn't, but I've been learning through recipes.” You reply, biting into the piece.
“If you need help or advice, you can always ask me. I know a little bit about cooking myself.” Dongmin speaks, shrugging as he continues to take the pieces.
“You can cook?” You ask, genuinely surprised. “Is it that shocking?” He asks before chuckling, “Yup, I can cook.” He confirms. “I didn't mean it that way— I was just— you know you probably have chefs and what not—” You stumble over your words, trying to find an explanation.
“Hey, hey, it's okay. I understand.” He reassures you and you nod. Silence falls over the dining table and you guys continue to eat. You've never been this relaxed around him before.
But it makes sense why, Dongmin is probably the only person that you can imagine being normal around between the two. He was more stable, he wouldn't react irrationally unlike Donghyun.
Dongmin would be the one to clean you up, brush the dust off your knees, legs and skirt when they were done with you.
He would be the one to stop Donghyun when he'd go too far. You vividly remember when Donghyun accidentally pushed you too hard, causing you to fall and scrape your knee, which resulted in Dongmin landing a punch straight into his face.
The sudden memory made you chuckle out of loud, which caused him to raise an eye brow at you. “Sorry, I just remembered something funny.” You explain yourself. “What was it?” He asks. You didn't know if you should tell him. “Uhm, it was nothing really. Just an old memory.” You shrug it off, but then visible annoyance forms on his face, which makes you panic. “I just remembered the time you punched Donghyun, and I laughed cause it was unexpected.” You reply.
Dongmin, surprisingly chuckles. “Oh yeah I remember, he was so mad at me for that. But what can I do? That asshole pushed you pretty hard and you got hurt. If there's one person I won't allow the blood to spill on my watch, it's yours.” He responded. The last line would've been quite the romantic one if it wasn't coming out of your bully.
It didn't matter if he was the stable one, they're both evil repacked into different personalities. Only different methods of executing it.
You were about to respond but cut off by loud moans erupting from Donghyun's room. Dongmin scoffs. “He couldn't wait, pathetic.” He mutters underneath his breath. “What?” You question.
“Nothing, let's just ignore them. Let's go to my room, I had noise cancelling walls installed due to this very reason.” Dongmin gets up, grabbing his food and going into his room, he holds the door open with his food, waiting for you to follow.
You probably shouldn't.
But you do anyway, cause the moans were getting ridiculous.
His room was exactly like you'd expected it to be, covered in posters of his favourite bands and darker themed. He sat on the bed. “You can have the table.” He points at the study desk. You feel rude not facing him so you turn the chair to face him and admire his room. You notice something in between. They were pictures. Of his family and friends.
And then you spot the picture of you three. You, Dongmin and Donghyun, those photos were taken in a photo booth. With them posing in various ways while you stood in the middle, copying their poses. In hindsight, it looks like a normal picture with what seems like three friends messing around in a photo booth.
The story behind it was entirely different.
They had both dragged you to go to the photo booth wanting to take pictures, it was isolated and that should've been first your sign to leave but it was already too late. They made sure to make a complete mess out of you. Those pictures were taken after that, you were having a hard time standing while their spend dripped down your thighs. Donghyun found it cute, he had to carry you home on his back since you couldn't walk.
You didn't want to recall that memory in detail, so your eyes quickly moved to another picture. But this time was a picture of you alone.
It was a polaroid picture, of you smiling while looking down at something. You remember, it was a cute kitten. Dongmin took you out with him to test out his polaroid camera, basically to accompany him as took various pictures because Donghyun wasn't available, but you didn't expect him to have taken one of you.
“You took a picture of me?” You asked and Dongmin shifted his focus from eating to you, and to the picture you were pointing at. “Ah, yeah. I've never seen you make that kind of expression before, you looked beautiful.” He shrugged. “You've always smiled but, that time, your smile was softer and more genuine.” He stated.
You didn't know how to feel.
Silence follows after that, with you not having anything to say but to just finish your food. This peaceful time is interrupted by Donghyun bursting into the room, with only boxers. He was panting hard, as if he just ran a marathon.
He let out a sigh of relief when he saw you guys just eating.
“I thought you betrayed me there for a second.” He addressed Dongmin. “What? What happened to the girl?” He asked, annoyed.
“She left angrily because I moaned someone else's name.” Donghyun shrugged as if it was no big deal. He invited himself in much to Dongmin's annoyance and grabbed the leftover piece of honey chicken and popped it in his mouth. “Oo, this is yummy, did you make this?” He asks you, and you nod. “Damn, this is delicious, why didn't you save some for me.” He pouts. “Because you were too busy fucking.” Dongmin adds crudely, rolling his eyes in annoyance. “You're just jealous.” Donghyun retorts.
“Please, as if I'd be desperate enough.” Dongmin defends, causing Donghyun to scoff. “Yeah you'd rather jerk it off to her pictures like some loser.” Donghyun replies. Dongmin has nothing to say to that but he doesn't take any offense.
Now you just feel awkward.
You suddenly remember what Donghyun said to you in the kitchen a few days ago. About how Dongmin hasn't touched a woman since you left. And that context made it even more painfully awkward.
“Uhm, I'll go now.” You state, grabbing your plate but before you could leave the room, Donghyun stops you. “Wait, you have this too? [Name] do you remember this day?” He grabbed the photo booth picture off the wall. “I have it too in my room. It's my favourite picture of us three.”
“Tell me, do you remember?” He presses again and you nod, which makes him smile. “It was an awesome day.” He added, almost like rubbing salt into the wound.
You excused yourself and left the room, throwing the plate into the sink and going into your room.
That night you had a dream, recalling the entire day of that picture.
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Graduation was getting near, and people were already being nostalgic about how much they'd miss their school days.
Donghyun and Dongmin dragged you to the photo booth for the same reason. “Let's take pictures to remember.” Is what he said before he grabbed you and led you to the location.
It was extremely isolated from the public. “I don't think it will work.” You added meekly, wanting to leave cause alarms were going off in your head.
“Oh come on, it works fine.” Donghyun dragged you in, and Dongmin followed before he closed the curtain.
The minute the curtain cut off the outside world, Donghyun's hands were already on you, he grabbed you by your waist, kissed you and squeezed your flesh all over. He bit your lip, groaning into your mouth. Dongmin’s hands grabbed your hips as he rubbed himself against your ass, the tent forming in his pants as his hands groped your breasts.
You didn't know what to do, Donghyun was in the front, Dongmin in the back. You were stuck.
They only continued their means, and before you knew it, things escalated and you found yourself moaning their names, Dongmin had to shush you cause you were getting loud. But you only whined in response. “God, fuck, she's so fucking addictive.” Donghyun grunted.
You don't know how much time had passed, but by the time you came to your senses, you were a complete mess, your hair was disheveled along with your clothes. Dongmin fixed you up before it was picture time. “Okay let's take a picture now, you better pose.” Donghyun told you. And you did, trying to copy their poses, but you couldn't stand properly.
Donghyun held you. “Can't stand?” He asks and you nod. “It's okay baby, I'll support you.” And he did, you were successfully able to take a few pictures.
You held onto Donghyun as you waited for the pictures to print out. “Holy shit, did we fill her up that much, she's still leaking.” Donghyun comments while Dongmin scoffs. Donghyun quickly takes out his handkerchief and wipes your inner thighs.
“I can't walk.” You tell him, shamefully, to which he just smirks. “I'll carry you home, flower, don't worry.” Donghyun reassured you.
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You wake up, panting hard as the light of the sunrise hits you, you cannot believe you had a dream of that day. You groan getting off your bed only to feel wetness inside your panties.
No fucking way.
Did you just… get wet because of your dream?
It disgusted you.
But you felt sexually frustrated, the irreversible damage the both of them had done to you made you averted from sex, this is the first time you've been turned on.
And it disgusts you even more that it's because of them.
You ignore the urges and just get ready for class.
>>>>
More days pass by and you're getting used to routine and normalcy, Dongmin and Donghyun have been normal around you. Donghyun still finds excuses to touch you and grope you but that's massive self control coming from a person like him.
“They're holding a party, apparently.” Minju speaks. “Finally, it's about time. Social parties are extremely important, you know?” Your other friend adds and you nod.
“You coming?” She asks you and you hesitate. “I'd love to.” You answer.
“Okay! We're all going then!” Your friend group all continue talking about the party excitedly.
>>
You were in the biggest dilemma on what to wear, so you chose a dress, something that's your style but also comfortable. You did your hair and makeup, feeling like you're on top of the world because you were finally excited for something.
You head out to see both of them leaving their room too. “Heading to the party?” Donghyun asks and you nod. “Let's all go together.” He invites you. “Ah I'm sorry, my friends will be picking me up.” You reject his offer. For a moment, a flicker of annoyance rushes past his features before he contains himself. “Alright.” is what he says before they both head off.
>>
You remember why you don't like parties now, loud music, full crowds that are dancing and jumping. You aspire to be like that one day, to be as free as they seem, but still, it seems you have a long way to go.
Your friends have all separated, doing their own thing, Minju was the only one left but she had to go use the restroom. So now you are alone.
Seeing this as an opportunity, a guy comes up to you. “Hey, did anyone tell you that you're really pretty?” He questions you, and you are taken aback. “Uhm, not really.” You reply, not knowing what to say. “You're pretty, like a flower.” The comparison throws you off, reminding you of Donghyun's nickname for you in the past.
“Uh thank you.” You reply awkwardly. “So, you have a boyfriend?” He asks, changing topics, not hiding the fact that he's hitting on you. “Nope.” You answer. “Really? That's surprising.” He seems genuinely shocked, which makes you chuckle and loosen up a bit around him.
Although the interaction was awkward at first, it surprisingly feels easier as it goes on, putting you in relief. He seems genuinely interested in you, and you blush whenever he compliments you. He makes you feel relaxed. You swear you could feel eyes burning holes into the back of your skull, but when you look, there's no one there. So you just brush it off.
The topic switches back to flowers. “What type of flower do you think I'd be, if I was one?” You ask him and he ponders for a bit. “Probably, a sunflower. You seem to be someone that would be cheerful and have led an easy life.” You just laugh, knowing his guess is far off. “Not really, I consider myself a water lily.” You correct him. “Why is that?” He asks you.
“I'm not sure, water lilies are always surrounded by invasive plants, ditry water, yet still seem to bloom the brightest shade.” you answer. “They also symbolize resilience, purity and tranquility. I relate to one thing, but want to experience the other two as well.” You explain.
“That's really interesting, now that I think about it, you do seem more of a water lily type. Did someone tell you that? Or did you discover it yourself?” He asks, curious to know. “I'm not quite sure, I don't remember it, but it really resonated with me.” You shrug.
The conversation once again flows away naturally, you're genuinely laughing and smiling at his joke, and then he makes a move. “You want to get away for a bit?” He asks, and you nod, knowing what he's implying.
You both move to a more isolated place, with almost no one around before he caresses your cheek. His hands feel gentle.
You expect a kiss but what you're met with in something else entirely. You can only stare in utter shock as the man that was once standing before is now laying on the ground.
You look up to the reason.
Donghyun and Dongmin, looking more furious than you've ever seen them. “We give you space and this is how you repay us? By being a whore?” Donghyun grits his teeth. “I'm fucking done with this deal Dongmin, you said she'll come back, but look where this bought her.” Donghyun grabs your wrists, forcing you out of the party. You don't protest, you just look back at the guy, who's still on the ground, he seemed like he was knocked out with one punch. It scared you how strong Donghyun was.
You're dragged out of the party and shoved into the back seat of the car as Donghyun sits next to you, while Dongmin drives furiously. “I was mistaken, I thought maybe if we let her go, she'll come back.” Dongmin sighs in annoyance. You're scared but you don't speak.
“Don't you have anything to say for yourself?” Donghyun yanks you by your hair, making you wince. Tears stream down your cheeks. “I-i'm sorry. I'm sorry.” You apologize, sobbing uncontrollably.
You were fucking stupid.
Thinking you had a chance at a normal life.
You will never have a normal life as long as they are around.
How could you let your guard down?
“Fuck don't cry, it turns me on.” Donghyun grits his teeth, trying to control himself. “Did you know what you did wrong? Tell me what you did.” He questions.
“I-i- don't know. I'm sorry, I'm very sorry. I'm so sorry.” You sniff, trying to free your hair from his grip. “You were behaving like a slut, seeing other men while you had us, your boyfriends.” He grit his teeth. You were confused. “We never fucking broke up if you think about it. You just disappeared one day. And even after we met, we didn't bother clarifying what we were.” He explained it to you. It didn't make sense.
“Why'd you think Dongmin didn't touch any other woman? Cause he didn't want to cheat on you. But here you were cheating on him, on us with that guy.” Anyone with common sense will see a flaw in his argument, but he didn't.
You furrowed your brows. “You fucked other girls.”
Seriously? That was all you could muster up to say?
“I did, and I fucking hated it, but you weren't there, and it was either I killed someone or let out my frustration other ways. I didn't want to end up in jail before I got to see my beloved flower.” He justified his actions, the nickname made you wince.
“I never agreed—”
“Oh don't fucking saying that. You did, do you not remember? In the booth? You were begging for my cock. Have you forgotten already? How much of a slut you were for us?” You don't quite remember anything in detail. Whether that was a conscious decision or a decision made by your brain survival mode. You couldn't tell.
But it's all useless now. They are angry. You've never seen them this angry. They genuinely believe that they're the victims here.
“I'm sorry, I'm really sorry.” You apologize, knowing you need to calm their anger a little bit before they show you pure hell. You ransacked your brain trying to find a way out of the situation.
Bash their heads? No, they'll catch on quickly and are stronger than you.
Cause an accident? You'll die too.
Scream? It'll annoy them more.
Donghyun was breathing heavily, his anger barely contained, you knew of the two, he is the most dangerous one. You had to deal with him first. And so you do the only thing that you could possibly do at that moment.
Your hands shoot to his pants, where a visible tent had been forming due to your crying. You unbuckle his belt and unzip his pants. His grips in your hair loosens as he realises what you are doing.
You take a deep breath, before wrapping your mouth around his cock, licking the tip and sucking it. Donghyun throws his head back groaning in pleasure as his hand now instead of gripping your hair, it's merely resting on the top of your head.
“F-fuck, is this to calm me down? I'm not forgiving you— oh fuck. Fuck, yeah right there.” He babbles, guiding your head up and down his shaft as he grunts and moans. “Fuck yeah, I missed this mouth so much. Feels the same as it always did.” He praises you.
You bob your head up and down quickly, he bucks his hips, and you know that it is a telltale sign that he's about to finish.
So you lick his tip, prodding his hole with your tongue and suckling on it before taking him fully once again. That was enough, enough to make him see stars and come inside your mouth.
He holds your head in place as you're forced to swallow his seed. You finally come up for a breather. “Open your mouth, show me it.” He asks, his eyes hazy, as he grabs your chin. You obey and he groans when he sees residue of his cum. “Fuck, my sweet flower has always been good. I knew you'd come to your senses, to where you belong.” He mutters before kissing you.
You don't do anything to push him away, and let him kiss you back, you're trying to survive. So this should be alright.
The car comes to a stop and Donghyun pulls away, quickly fixing his pants and immediately pulling you along with him out of the car. Your eyes widen when you realise that Dongmin drove to Donghyun's estate. You'd only been here twice before.
Donghyun ignores all the staff and they too pretend like they see nothing which always disgusted you. They acted the same way last time as well.
You barely remember the memory but Donghyun was mad at you for a petty reason, not as mad as he is right now, but just enough for him to be cruel. He made you kneel in front of him for an hour straight, apologizing to him. And the staff all passed by like nothing happened. You hoped that someone would tell him to stop, but they didn't.
Only after an hour did Donghyun pick you up, carrying you up to his room, complimenting you for being so strong and resilient. Like a water lily.
Your brain froze, your body was still being dragged by Donghyun upstairs in the present moment. Yet the realisation made your gut churn.
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“P-please I'm sorry.” You breathed as you stared at Donghyun, he gave you a small smile. “I forgive you, my flower.” He kissed your wrist before he laid you down on his bed, climbing on top of you.
“Do you know why I call you my flower?” He asks out of the blue, and you shake your head no. “Because I love them. I love flowers, there's meaning behind them. Although not more than I love my fish” He goes on, chuckling. “And I love you too. I love you more than anything in this world.” His voice softens, it was the first time you've heard that tone. “W-whats your favourite flower?” You sniffle, wincing at the burning sensation you feel down your knees.
Donghyun stares down for a moment before he gets off you, bringing in a first aid box and sitting at the edge of the bed, wrapping your knees up. He places a small kiss on them. “Sorry, I was just so mad.” He apologizes. “I-it's okay.” It wasn't okay. You just said it out of pity. Donghyun stares at you for a moment before placing the box away.
He climbs the bed again, kneeling in between your legs as he pries them apart. He dips his head, his hands hook around your underwear as he pulls them off.
His head dips and in an effort to stop him you ask the question again. “What's your favourite flower?” But it's already too late, his mouth was already on your cunt, lapping it up as he flicks your clit with it.
Within time and effort, you are coming undone against him, your hand gripping his hair tight as he lets your ride out your orgasm. You felt ashamed.
Donghyun comes up again, his lips glisten with your juices coating them. “I don't have a favourite flower.” He answers. “But, I do have a flower that reminds me of you.” He adds.
“What is it?” You inquire.
“Water lily.”
“Why a water lily?” You're genuinely curious.
“Metaphorically, it's resilient, pure and tranquilant. Just like you. And physically— although its preferred habitat is in fresh ponds, lakes, it will still bloom in murky waters. Like you always have during hardships.” He disclosed, as he leaned down to kiss you.
“You're my favorite, so water lilies would be my favourite flower.” He muttered against your ear before engulfing your lips with his.
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The feeling of being thrown snapped you out of the memory, before you could react, you already fell onto the bed with a thud. The soft cushion felt like concrete with the amount of force you were thrown with. You winced in pain but they didn't care.
“P-please, I'm sorry, it's my fault. I didn't know— I shouldn't have disappeared.” You're just rambling words to calm them down.
“You're acknowledging it now? After you fucked up? Are you truly sorry?” Dongmin pesters, hovering over you. “Y-yes. I am truly sorry, I didn't know—” your sentence is interrupted by a hiccup. “Please, Dongmin, Donghyun, please I am sorry. Please don't punish me.” You beg, crying as they just stand there looking over you.
Dongmin grabs your foot, pulling you to the edge of the bed, and forcing your knees to bend inwards into yourself as he positions himself in between your legs.
“Fucking slut, it's been a while since you've been properly fucked and reminded who exactly you belong you.” Dongmin grits his teeth. He rips apart your dress and your panties, leaving in remnants of what once used to be a beautiful dress.
“You're wet? Donghyun, look at her, she's wet, she's enjoying this.” Dongmin addresses Donghyun to which he just responds with a mocking tone. “You pretend to hate it, but it turns you on, doesn't it?”
You aren't even warned or prepped properly before you feel Dongmin enter inside you with one thrust, causing you to arch your back in pain and grip his arms that were holding back your legs.
He begins to thrust rapidly, a cruel pace that almost doesn't allow you to adjust, but your body does. Cause it knows who's fucking her, you feel ashamed. And before you know it, it's converting the pain into pleasure. The burn from the friction fades as you throw your head back.
Dongmin presses his thumb against your clit, rubbing slow circles, pinching and twisting, making you see stars.
You let out broken moans, voice trembling and cracking as he thrusts into you with no mercy.
Donghyun positions himself near your head, his thighs on either side of your head as he sets his cock free, slapping it against your face before he cranes your neck, guiding you to twist it as shoves his cock into your mouth.
You almost choke on it as he thrusts it into you, your throat being filled with his length. “Look at her throat.” Donghyun coos, continuing his actions.
Your eyes roll back into your head as both men fuck your holes in a rhythmic pattern. You feel a familiar knot forming in your stomach and you feel embarrassed.
You arch your back, bucking against Dongmin's hips as your body chases after it's high.
“That's right baby, come on, cum on my cock. You missed this didn't you? Tell us you missed it. You missed having us fuck your brains out.” Dongmin grunts, panting as his thrusts falter, indicating that he's near too.
You managed to muffle something close to what he asked you to repeat, but your mouth was filled with Donghyun's cock.
It was almost like fate when you all three finished at the same time, you were spent and fucked out of your brain.
“My turn with her pussy now. I can't fucking believe I get to be inside it after so long.” Donghyun chirps excitedly, already thrusting into you once again. He gropes your breasts, grabbing your nipple, twisting it before he collapses on you to take your other breast into his mouth as he continues thrusting.
He suckles on your breast, letting out lewd sounds as he hums in satisfaction. He lets go with a pop, hand on your throat, but not squeezing it as his thrusts get harsher and harsher.
You were so sensitive from the previous orgasm, your walls clenched around his cock while you could only let out whines. Dongmin gets behind you, hooking your arms underneath his as he lifts you up to change your angle. His lips find yours in an instant, his hands now replacing Donghyun’s on your breasts. He twists your nipples, kneading your breasts like they're stress balls. Your eyes were hazy, you could only do as they had wished.
“F-fuck fuck fuck, I'm cumming.” Donghyun is more vocal during his intense moments, his thrusts begin to falter as you moan against Dongmin's lips.
“I'm gonna cum inside, fill you up yeah? fuck— gonna fucking breed you like the slut you are. Maybe with my child inside, you wouldn't fool around with other guys.” He grunts, biting his lip.
You tried to protest— but before you could, he's already cum inside.
You realised that they both finished inside of you.
Donghyun pulls out his cock from your sensitive hole, causing the semen to drip down, he scoops it up and pushes it back inside, you buck your hips out of instinct.
“See, your body knows where you belong.” He states, continuing to finger you. His finger rubs the sensitive spot inside you, causing you to whine. Dongmin's mouth leaves your lips and travels down your neck and shoulder, leaving hickies and bite marks all over.
You throw your head back against his shoulder when Donghyun keeps hitting your sweet spot, and then it comes, the sensation of a rope snapping your belly as you let out a loud moan, your body collapsing as your second orgasm is forced out of you in waves.
You lay there exhausted, trying to breathe, but that is short lived when the men start working on you again.
They devoured you for the entire night, showing who you belong to. By the end of it, you were so fucked out of your mind, your vision was hazy and your body ached all over.
They finally stopped and laid on either side of you, pulling you into an embrace, cuddling you to sleep.
The last thing you saw before you fell asleep was the painting of a water lily, hung up in Donghyun's room.
Maybe they were right.
You had always been theirs.
Such a foolish thought to think that you'd bloom without their help.
⏱︎ GENRE: Spider-Man! AU | fluff, action, angst
⏱︎ SYN: to you, Kim Leehan is your gorgeous nerd of a boyfriend, who hasn't been able to take his eyes off you ever since you made it official. So why is he crawling in through your dorm windows at 3 am on a Saturday... And why is he... is he—breaking up with you...?
⏱︎ TOTAL WC: 33.8k [pt1: 14k, pt2: 19.8k]
⏱︎ T/W: lots of kissing, graphic violence, themes of death
⏱︎ A/N: thank you from the bottom of my heart if you've reached the final part of the lovebug series. it's truly been a labour of love to work on this story, so while im quite sad to say goodbye to it, im also happy to wrap it up quite satisfactorily <33 again, ily all for reading!
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FALL
Leehan sticks out like a sore thumb amongst the giggly students, back on campus for their first day of the second semester.
They chatter about family vacations and summer internships, voices bright and giddy. Unlike them, Leehan rubs his shadowy eyes before awkwardly placing his glasses back on.
"Riwoo hyung?" His throat croaks when he speaks, hair sticking up oddly as Riwoo spots him peeking in through the crack in the door.
"Leehan? Come in, come in! I was just setting up the classroom." The shorter blond smiles in his naturally amiable way, then looks down at his watch. "Wow, it's still early…even for you."
Leehan wastes no time. "Hyung, what do you know about parasites?"
"Wow, straight to the point, huh?" Riwoo grins, but when Leehan's face remains serious, he decides to answer without teasing. "Considering it's the centre of my thesis, I'd say…a lot."
"Symbiotes in specific."
"Symbiotes? Like the metahuman species on the news?"
Leehan nods.
Riwoo hums in thought as he taps a marker on the desk. "We don't know a lot about dangerous organisms like those just yet, considering they're most likely alien to our planet. But…it would be safe to assume they work like any other parasite."
"Do you think that…hypothetically, it could kill its host?"
"Hypothetically," Riwoo says, "yes. yes it could kill. But there's no saying how long it could take and how painful it would be without a thorough assessment of its physiology and mechanics, of course." When he sees Leehan's curious tilt of the head, he lets out a small laugh. "Interested?"
"Hm?"
"In parasites. You're free to come work in the lab on your own, but I doubt we have anything as cool as an alien symbiote…the most I can offer are tapeworms."
Leehan forces a smile at that—on any other day, he wouldn't have to, because anything Riwoo says is enough to send him into a fit of laughter. Today though, Leehan is distracted.
He had stayed up all night without reaching anything useful. Somehow, he'd managed to coax the symbiote out of his bag and onto his table, but it had barely reacted—simply laying there, weak and limp. As a final resort, he had even tried poking the shapeless goo with a stick to see if it would do something to retaliate…but nothing had happened.
"What if I could get you a sample?" Leehan asks before he can stop himself.
Riwoo's brows scrunch; he doesn't understand.
The younger boy repeats, "D'you think you can run some tests…if I can get you a sample?"
"Of the symbiote?"
The last thing Riwoo expects is for Leehan to nod. He doesn't even give the TA enough time to process the meaning of that before digging into this backpack to take out a Ziploc bag containing some sort of obsidian slime.
"Leehan…" Riwoo squints, then takes a deep breath. "What the actual fuck?"
It's probably the first time Leehan has heard the sweet research student say anything even remotely uncouth, so he assumes it must be a shock response.
"Riwoo hyung, I need you to ask as little questions as possible, but," Leehan says, feverishly, "I already tried testing stimuli—touch, scent, light…it's been pointless so far. I really need your help."
Riwoo looks at him—really looks at him, how frantic Leehan seems, more than just his normally clumsy demeanour. This time, he looks about as sane as some of the villains Riwoo's seen on TV: the way he bites his lip hard enough to draw blood, how red the whites of his eyes look, the sallow complexion of his skin…something is terribly wrong.
But Leehan needs his help and Riwoo does not pry.
"Alright, I'll run some tests," he says as he gingerly takes the transparent bag.
Leehan breathes out a sigh of relief, the knot in his chest easing now that he's got someone who understands the organism better than most people could. Riwoo urges him to skip class in lieu of getting some much needed sleep, and Leehan reluctantly agrees. He doesn't notice the older boy's worried eyes following his figure as he lets the door close behind him.
Before concern can gnaw at his brain, Riwoo pulls out his phone and shoots you a text.
//
"Hannie—!!"
Flames, roaring around him, tearing like wind through the room—burning flesh, burning everything in its path.
Leehan reacts to your voice like muscle memory, "Y/N!"
"Leehan, here!"
It's all smoke and char, and a figure in the distance, close to the ledge of the building. You. One more step back and you'd be tipping off, too late to be reached, to be saved.
Leehan runs.
His fingers almost meet yours—but almost doesn't cut it when you've already fallen, fading into the grey clouds of smoke below. Leehan hears your screams…or is it him that's screaming? He can't tell.
"Hannie," your voice echoes again.
"Y/N?"
"Hannie, wake up."
"Hm?"
"Wake up, you're sweating." Your face comes into focus. "It's a fever."
Leehan leans up on his elbows, almost slipping on his bedsheet, but you loop an arm under his shoulder to keep him steady. Your other hand comes to check his temperature.
"You're burning up," you say, brushing away the sweaty strands of gold hair. "Let's go to the doctor."
"It's just the weather change," he says dismissively, and it pinches at your annoyance a little.
"Have you been sleeping?"
He doesn't speak, but his eyes evade yours. The boy is no good at lying, no matter how hard he tries to.
"Did you eat at all today?"
Leehan has the decency to look at least a little ashamed, and eventually he shakes his head, a small motion combined with a gulp.
Riwoo had told you earlier, how Leehan had seemed so off that morning. You've been feeling it too—his sudden bouts of silence, when he zones out into space while he normally would've been earnestly listening to you; the way he hasn't asked you to turn on your comms each time he's gone out to patrol or fight. He seems even more alert of danger—obsessively checking the wiretapped police radio for news. You don't even know the last time he took off his suit; it wouldn't be crazy to assume he's wearing it right at this moment too.
There are more obvious signs. For example, he hasn't talked about fish with you in close to two weeks, not since the fire.
Something is terribly wrong, and you hope to the heavens the feeling of dread beginning to grow inside you is just an illusion.
"Hannie, you should take a break from," you pull down his collar just enough for his red suit to peek through, "this."
"People need help. They need Spider-Man."
"And I need you," You guide his head back onto the pillow, tugging off his overshirt. He doesn't fight it, too feeble to muster complaints. "I'm gonna go and get you some soup, yeah? Your mom sent a recipe for when I had the sniffles and it worked like a charm, remember?"
"Y/N, I don't need—"
"Shush, lemme take care of you. It's my duty as your girlfriend," you press a kiss to his cheek, swinging your purse over your shoulder, "Be back in twenty. Don't go anywhere!"
You give him a glare of warning before making your way out of your room, and once you're outside, let out a relieved breath that he still had the forethought to come to you before anyone else in this state.
Leehan stares at the ceiling for what feels like aeons, his head spinning when he strains too much at a spot, despite wearing glasses. His lips feel cracked, muscles weak; somewhere deep inside, he knows this isn't just physical—the recent nightmares have been driving his sanity downwards with each passing day, and in every single one of them, either one of you dies.
BEEEEEEEEEP–!
His watch blares, indicating a blinking signal near the museum. When Leehan wearily reaches for his phone on the side-table, he notices that you had forgotten to take yours with you.
He should stay put, that way, you won't be worried on the chance you come back and don't see him in bed. But when the news feed buzzes to life, Leehan sees the absolute mayhem going on in the streets: people's screams as they try to flee from a giant robot; it bulldozes without any care, sweeping away cars and streetlights with barely a step or two.
They need him, and fast.
Leehan discards his clothes with what energy's left of him, pulling on his mask with trembling hands. He doesn't make it past the window threshold before his body gives out, brain a jumble of dizziness—he could throw up from the nausea.
He's half slumped over, kneeling against the wall, when he feels something prod at his feet.
Venom.
The life form curls around his limbs, growing upwards like vines, twisting itself around Leehan's suit. The resurgence is immediate—a rush of adrenaline coursing through his veins like cold wind, replacing the prior fatigue with something strong, something…addictive.
"What are you…?" Leehan mumbles curiously as he looks down at his own hands. When he tests out a shot of web to the bedpost, it's faster than ever, even more than he could manage on his best days. It must be the symbiote's doing.
We are Venom.
Leehan jumps at the voice; he can’t place whether it comes from near him, or inside of him. When he catches sight of his own reflection in the window, barely illuminated by the setting sun, he reels backwards in shock.
Instead of seeing Spider-Man, Leehan sees an eerie slit of a smile where his mouth should be covered by the mask—a white spider marking his chest, giving way to the spindly, tar-like substance that makes up the rest of him.
Scared? The voice resounds again, deep and thrumming. Its words crawl. Spider-Man’s fear tastes good!
STOP–! Leehan attempts to overpower, to retract control, but the baritone cackle smothers over all his thoughts.
We kid, Venom appeases with a sly smile in his tone. We can help you. If you let us.
The offer stays dangled in front of him like bait; if Leehan was any less desperate, he would have ripped the symbiote off his skin, even if it took flesh with it, and chosen a less risky route to save those people's lives. But he's out of options right now. He's sick, and exhausted, and Venom makes him stronger. It's the simple truth.
He'd be an idiot to turn down the proposition.
Leehan doesn't even need to speak for the thing to understand; he cackles once more, and Leehan feels his own thoughts being assaulted, no safety within a mind that's supposed to be his alone.
It's fine, It's going to be fine, he tells himself over and over like a prayer—he remembers it to be an imitation of how you calm him down in tense situations, with a hand on his back and a kiss to his cheek. Leehan convinces himself that this is a temporary invasion—that he should be okay once he gets the crisis handled, that he can discard Venom once the mission is over and done.
So like always, he puts one foot up on the ledge and leaps.
//
Okay, so that was a terrible idea.
"You said you'd help!" Leehan screams as his ribcage crushes under the weight of the fifteen-foot-something robot's sole.
We feed on anger, Spider-Man. Not cowardice. Get up.
"I would if I could," Leehan grumbles as he squirms. Eventually he manages to pry an arm from underneath and shoot a tight rope of web around the metal behemoth's neck, yanking it powerfully so that it almost trips over and he takes the chance to haul himself up onto its nape.
To his surprise, his body doesn't ache like it should. When he runs a quick palm over his torso, he feels no broken bones. Venom must have healed him…somehow.
The tank of metal flails around, trying to swat Spider-Man off its back like he was nothing but a pesky fly. Leehan has to fire another jet of cobwebs to veer the giant away from crushing several people on the street—playing puppeteer—but the loss of balance sends it crashing through a line of buildings, eventually landing near a signboard for an ongoing performance, right outside the concert hall.
Leehan needs to stop this thing from hurting more civilians, that's his only priority when springs off to pull out the stun gun from his utility belt.
The…utility belt. Fuck, he'd forgotten it at home.
A rush of panic surges through him; it's worse when the absence of your voice in his ear makes itself evident. He's gonna fail, he's about to—
Kill it! —Venom instructs. Leehan wants to argue that he can't kill a machine, but the symbiote jumbles his thoughts so much that it disorients him, muscles spasming as though Leehan was the puppet now—just a body under the influence of something vile and dangerous.
He feels himself move, sees himself wrangle the robot to the ground, punching a fist through its armour. Venom's own pointless rage contaminates his confusion. And the more he attempts to fight it away, the worse it feels.
Kill! Kill! Kill! Venom is shrieking with uncontainable laughter; with every part of the machine coming off, Leehan feels the pure joy of violence. A little voice in his head—somewhere deep and untouched by the symbiote—tells him to stop. But he's too weak to obey.
Leehan can see his body swell to twice its size, muscles expanding, the writhing biomass of his faux skin morphing into a scythe—and its brought down to slice into metal, sending electric sparks flying into the rubble as wires show underneath. It's all Venom now, no part of Leehan in control. He is but a subconscious voice—there but not really. Floating inside the creature, only half aware. There's jagged teeth—long canines under a lashing tongue, too long to be human, too predatory to be kind. His vision is obscured as though behind a blurry visor, also floating like the rest of him.
There's an unnatural smile at his mouth when the robot stops moving altogether, more bloodthirsty than victorious. Mixed in with the fear in Leehan is a shameless rush of adrenaline.
It feels good—the act of hurting, he thinks. It's the closest to happiness he's felt in weeks.
Somewhere above him, the whirr of engines distracts his thrashing, or more so, distracts Venom. His clawed hands reconfigure into something tentacle-like, aiming for any of the multiple drones hovering overhead. They fade in and out as though behind a holographic screen, reappearing somewhere feets away that the symbiote can't catch up to its speed.
Mysterio.
Mysterio's here—Leehan's sure he is.
Before he can take a moment to think, Venom has already started chasing headfirst after a drone, crashing a hole through the concert hall's brick wall.
WAIT!—Leehan tries, but it's already too late. People scramble out of their chairs, shrieking as they squeeze past bodies and seats. A lady freezes in fear, her eyes bulging out of their sockets at the sight of Venom, of the monstrous creature Leehan was trapped within.
He wants to reach out and help her. He wants to be Spider-Man, but this body cages him in as it courses after the taunting drones.
"You're alright. You're safe, there's no need to worry. I have the situation under control," is what Leehan means to say.
But what comes out of his imposter's mouth is, "Killlllllllll—!!!"
The woman screams in panic, alerting the rest of the crowd at the front, and it belatedly occurs to Leehan that the music was ever there when it suddenly dies with an unpleasant clang of the wrong piano keys. The pianist takes off behind the curtain, and the opera singer lets out a shrill cry of terror.
The sheer frequency of it breaks a vessel inside of Venom, making him keel over in pain.
Human, make it stop! Make it—AHHHHHHHHH!!!
Leehan's own injury meshes with the mess of agony transferred from the symbiote's end, the obsidian material of his skin-suit struggling to peel away from Leehan's body, static washing over him with every attempt to separate.
A shot of fire lands on his arm and it multiplies the misery ten-fold. Venom yells as his skin bubbles up, melting away like grease, acrid smoke stinging the air. Leehan feels all of it, hissing, recoiling futilely. Flames catch onto the long scarlet curtains, spreading in lines around the perimeter, burning through age-old wood and polish. People scream, a beam above the stage crashing onto the floor into dust, and Leehan feels the symbiote leave him.
"Y/N," he says in habit, but you're not here. You're unaware of his state, blissfully oblivious of the dangerous predicament he's put himself under. Maybe that's for the best, he muses.
Leehan picks himself up, makes a half-assed attempt at putting himself back together, and takes one last look at the burning building before he’s forced to flee.
He’s fucked up terribly this time.
//
"You better have a good explanation." The ice in your voice makes his weary body stiffen over the window, spiking guilt and shame up his spine, rendering him speechless. Nothing he says can make it better.
When he finally looks over, gripping his mask in hand, a heavy gulp squeezing down his throat, Leehan feels sick again. Underneath his red suit, dregs of the symbiote cling to his skin, cold to the touch.
"You didn't call me, you didn't say you were leaving, nothing…" you say through a tight breath. "I've been dead worried, did you realise? I come home, expecting my sick boyfriend to be in bed—where I told him to stay put, and all I get is an empty room and radio silence."
"I'm fine—" Leehan starts, but you cut his excuse off.
"You could have died." It's curt, biting. "Why the fuck wouldn't you turn your comms on?"
"Your phone wasn't with you," is Leehan's answer. He collapses to the floor, vision hazy.
Despite the absolute wreckage to his physical body, he still feels the electric buzz courtesy of the symbiote's effect—alcoholic almost, a fever high that both took away a part of him, and refilled the empty space with an addictive energy. Adrenaline and power. A lethal combo.
"Still," you continue, taking a step towards him, untangling your crossed arms from over your chest. "There were other ways…you could have found me first. Or waited."
"People were about to die."
"You're a person too, you idiot. My person. What should I…" Your voice cracks albeit your attempt to reel it back to a stable line, turning into half a sob the second his eyes meet you. You look away down to the carpet, hiding how you bite your bottom lip to stop it from quivering. "You didn't keep your promise, Leehan."
"Some promises are meant to be broken." The words are out his mouth before he can take it back. You slowly lift your face in shock, wondering if you'd heard him wrong.
"What's happened to you?" There's no malice when you ask, just the slight waver of fear. "You don't talk to me anymore—why won't you just talk to me, huh?"
Silence again; Leehan wishes he had something appeasing to hand you—an assurance of 'I'm sorry, it won't happen again'—but he knows it will be just another lie, a promise he'll worry over but never have the capacity to keep. So long as he is Spider-Man.
Frustration claws at his innards, coiling like ropes into him, mixing with the utter failure of today's events. And there's anger there too—mostly at himself, a lot at Mysterio for planting the seed of doubt in his mind; Leehan curses internally at how foolish he had been for letting it grow rampant until he'd started waking up screaming from visions of death—of your death, of you being pulled into this mess of a life he'd been doomed to live.
Venom's tie to him only amplifies every terrible emotion he's plagued with.
"Let me at least clean you up," you choke back a sniffle, inching closer to try and lean down to meet his eye.
But the soft touch of your fingers over his cheek sends him into panic; he swats it away with more aggression than he means to, like your body had somehow burnt him.
"I—" Leehan shivers as something sad engulfs your expression. Your hand stays frozen in place, not knowing what you'd done wrong to anger him. Or worse yet, to hurt him. "Sorry," he says in the smallest of voices, looking away because one more look at you is all it will take to ruin him beyond repair.
But you don't yell. You don't blame him. Instead, you gingerly bring your hand to your side, then squat down to meet him at eye-length.
"Get some sleep. There's soup on the table," you say softly, and when he doesn't acknowledge it, you purse your lips, then bring yourself to your feet again. Leehan hears footsteps, then a quiet click of the door.
When he looks down at his collarbone, he sees reeds of black clawing up again, desperate to feed on his grim thoughts.
He leaves the soup untouched, crawling out your window for somewhere no one can find him easily.
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Time passes, but the recovery is gradual.
You don't mention a thing, and he doesn't bring it up either. It's a slow monotony of pretending away the awkwardness, but it helps, somehow.
Leehan gets coaxed into your bed again, after you'd politely asked his mother for permission to keep him there out of worry. He obeys wordlessly—drinks whatever concoction you slip past his lips, stares blankly in the direction of his suit you'd folded up neatly behind one of your shelves, flexes his fingers as though to test out their strength, feeling slack and weary, and more than often, his eyes stray away to his backpack, where he knows the symbiote remains dormant.
You'd gently taken away his phone; Leehan knows why you do it—to keep him from news channels, from terrible online commenters who'd no doubt found blame in the Venom incident. All Leehan knows for now is that you probably don't know as much about the symbiote's relation to him either, given you hadn't asked a single question, nor had you looked into his belongings for any traces of danger. And logically, that should mean the general public hadn't connected the dots either. There's some relief in that, but not much.
Then there are the babysitters you not-so-secretly sent his way when you're too busy with school-work.
Sometimes it's Woonhak, who casually strolls into your dorm room with an annoyingly big grin on his face; it looks too big to be real, and Leehan can already tell he's trying to brighten up his mood.
"Leehan Hyung! Wait, should I say Spidey Hyung? Is that too weird… Anyways," he's rambling as he pulls out several bags of dinosaur-shaped gummies and prawn crackers from a plastic bag. "Y/N has been on my back about me 'breaking important lab equipment'—" He mockingly adds air quotes, rolling his eyes comically. "Not like our university can't afford it, it's just that they spend all their funding on the athletics department and well—back to my point, she was saying how you've been sick and I volunteered to check up if it meant not having her breathe down my neck every time I'm trying to connect two wires together."
The younger boy never really acknowledges Spider-Man's public absence, and Leehan thanks him internally.
Leehan gratefully chews on a piece of candy without saying much in response. Words don't make it past his throat as easy these days.
Thankfully, Woonhak does enough talking for two people—he's jabbering on as though playing a part in a one-man show, taking deep breaths between every gap only to continue with an even lengthier monologue about space-time travel, and engineering recreational flamethrowers, and of course, once he runs out of wind, he switches to asking non-stop questions about being Spider-Man.
"When you swing from one building to the next, going at the speed you do, do you ever get airsick? Cuz there are medications for nausea you know."
"On a scale from 1 to 10, how likely are you to let me borrow the suit…? I'll even dry clean it for you!"
"So… do you like make the webs or…'make' the webs if you know what I mean—"
Leehan does not know what he means, so he just shrugs, scooting deeper into his cocoon made of blankets.
He means well, Leehan knows this, but some days he's just glad Woonhak is too preoccupied with his projects to torment his personal space. However, you have decided that he's not to be left completely alone at all times, which means it's Riwoo's turn to take care of him.
Unlike Woonhak, the TA acts more like a coddling mother—even more than his real one.
"You need to eat to feel stronger. Just bear the taste for a little more, okay? Now, say aaaaaah—"
"I know it's cold but you need the sponge baths. I promise to bring more sweaters for you tonight."
"Don't even think about coming back to class tomorrow—you've still got a temperature and you can barely hold a pen in your hand, let alone stand on your own two feet. I've already put in a request to extend the medical leave."
Leehan feels like a bedridden patient, inching closer to death by the day.
He's lying flat on the mattress, head propped up high, a cold towel on his forehead as Riwoo refills the water jug beside the bed. Leehan has been feeling better lately—no nightmares to plague his sleep, and no news of villains to take up his thoughts. His world has been strangely quiet.
"Hyung." He tilts his head to face Riwoo. "About the sample…"
Riwoo stares at him expressionlessly for a beat, then sighs, giving into Leehan's inquiry.
"I did what I could, but obviously, there are limits—" Leehan automatically perks up. "There's the basics: strength, durability, elasticity, healing… Exceptional performance in each of these factors. The symbiote seems to be made of some sort of organic polymer with insane regenerative capacity."
"And…?"
"Well, I'm guessing the government could have good use for it; imagine how it could revolutionise medicine, or the military."
Leehan gazes off into the distance as the other boy watches him. Riwoo looks as though he's wondering whether to ask Leehan questions of his own, but he swallows it down without prying.
When he too has to leave, Leehan has short windows of time to spend in his own company, before you'll eventually come home and berate him for forgetting to eat again. Most of it, he uses to wallow in his hyperfixation: Venom, who has started to consume his thoughts in more ways than one. He knows he can use this to fix his weakness, to finally beat Mysterio for good.
And that's how he ends up looking forward to Woonhak's visit for once.
Out of the three of you, he'd be the easiest to convince, given his over-interest in Leehan's part-time persona as Spider-Man.
"Leehan-ie hyung, you look like you're doing better! I must be an awesome nurse," he muses to himself, setting down a bag of takeout.
"Woonhak-ah," Leehan's voice startles him, not having heard it clearly in ages. "I need your help."
At first, the boy's entire face lights up like a Christmas tree. Soon after, it dissolves into a grimace and a gulp of fear. Leehan can tell he's afraid of what will be asked of him, and more importantly, of your reaction if he agrees.
"In return, you can ask me anything you want—I'll answer all of it," Leehan adds, a last ditch effort.
It isn't a secret that Woonhak has been suspiciously hoarding his used tissues and plastic water bottles to sell online as merchandise—not when he has the nerve to ask Leehan how high a crinkly napkin could sell for. Leehan is half glad that Woonhak isn't a Biotechnology major or he'd have most likely stolen his DNA for some sort of cloning experiment.The most absurd thing he has done so far is casually mention that he dabbles in writing Spider-Man fanfiction online, and while it sounds relatively harmless, Leehan does not want details.
Leehan is positive he'll take the bait—that the opportunity to get closer to Spider-Man looks alluring to the boy.
When Woonhak seems to slowly lower his defence, Leehan feels optimistic enough to ask, "Just let me borrow your phone for a bit," he says. "Just a bit."
He hesitantly pulls out his phone and hands it to Leehan, the grip on it loosening when Leehan flashes him a pathetic pout, wet eyes and all. Woonhak fiddles with the tapered end of a pillow as Leehan opens up his socials and scrolls down the newsfeed.
It's so much worse than he'd anticipated.
'Spider-Man fails to show; local concert hall burns down'—the tabloid headline reads, accompanied by reactions from internet users below, each more sour than the last.
user1091: knew 'vigilante justice' was just a hoax. where are superheros when you need them? probably off on vacation pretending to care about the world ugh.
spidermansucks: I was there when this happened, some monster beat the shit out of a robot and then set fire to a building. It's lucky no one died.
rando-on-the-street: this is all Spider-Man's fault. he should have stopped the criminals from breaking out of prison in the first place.
SpideyHak06: MAYBE HE WAS BUSY SAVING THE CITY YOU ASSHOLES! stop lying and go get a job
Some are mild, bordering on just frustration at the incident being so poorly handled. The rest simply point fingers at Spider-Man for not being quick enough—for not caring enough to stop Venom's damage. The only saving grace is a lack of footage, and Leehan wonders if that's somehow Mysterio's doing, some twisted way to mask the truth just enough for the public to hate Leehan.
He can't stop scrolling once he's started, and what he finds leaves a bitter taste on his tongue.
'Fault', 'Incompetent', 'Fake'—the words echo uneasily in his brain, along with the imagined visual of people's angry expressions aimed his way. Street interviews dig the point even deeper, clarifying how much public scrutiny he'd been subjected to since the event, how any tiny mistake he'd made before this had been dug up to examine under a microscope—to really make it clear that Spider-Man was no more than an attention seeker, too inept to make any real difference in the world.
The very same people he'd dedicated himself to saving each day, they had turned his back on him.
Leehan hands the phone back, already feeling an oncoming migraine. Woonhak observes quietly for a second, then brings his hand down to pat Leehan's shoulder.
"Don't tell Y/N," he mumbles, and Leehan sighs to agree.
Once he's left in privacy once more, Leehan's thoughts start to bubble like acid, pulling him in and out of shallow sleep.
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Days stop feeling real—just a blur of time he spends thinking about fire and anger and disappointments. When his fever starts to die down, you don't push as hard for Woonhak and Riwoo to supervise, the three of you only taking turns to drop by with his notes or food.
On Halloween, the campus starts to brim with excitement once more—night markets and booths in place, welcoming students clad in costumes, some sultry, some committed to the humour of it all.
Woonhak shows up in a less-than-authentic replica of the spidey suit and you groan at him.
"You could've been anything, literally anything for Halloween—a wizard, or a ghoul, or I don't know…a freakin' dinosaur for all I care, and you choose to dress up as my boyfriend?"
"Hey," Woonhak puts his hands up to clear his name, "I liked him before I knew he was your boyfriend."
"That's not the point—!"
Leehan clears his throat to interrupt your spat. "You guys should go now, if you don't want to be late for the haunted house," he says, propped against the headboard with a plushie hugging his chest.
"Are you sure about this… what if your temperature flares up again?" Your brows knit in worry as you slowly move a strand of hair off his face. You don't touch as carelessly anymore; Leehan can't blame you, but the feeling that swirls in his stomach does not sit well.
"Go," he hopes he sounds natural, "Woonhak bought tickets anyway."
"I can ask Riwoo—"
"Hyung has a meeting with his supervisor today. You don't need to call him," Leehan assures you. "Really, Y/N, I'm fine now."
He fakes a grin for good measure. You narrow your eyes, not believing it to be genuine in the least.
But you sigh, letting up. "Alright… call me if you need me." Then you add under your breath, "Please."
He sees how tired your eyes look in that moment, worry and exhaustion swimming behind the glazed-over look in them, and suddenly feels a pang of regret to his chest.
You don't deserve this. He doesn't deserve you. If he were anyone else, you'd be laughing now, joking about how Woonhak wouldn't last a minute into the haunted house. But Leehan is unfortunately frail in his confidence, too anxious for his own good, and he isn't worth the trouble you're going through.
But he still holds onto you, selfishly.
When he waves the two of you off, he doesn't miss the tense glance you spare him before the door clicks closed and he hears the distant echo of you asking Woonhak how he plans to go to the bathroom in his spandex onesie.
//
This isn't breaking another promise, Leehan mutters in his mind. He's just…taking a break. Recuperating with fresh air. Being proactive.
From up on the clock tower, he can see everything: the busy streets full of scary decorations and parade goers, the orange glow of string lights illuminating vendors, children with their little goodie bags, and a moon hanging low in the night sky.
Leehan lays out his scattered notes on the flat surface behind the ledge, throwing off his mask to the side before sitting down with a pencil in hand and his laptop propped up on his lap. His backpack is right beside him, and the Ziploc bag containing the symbiote sample inside.
What's another night of no sleep—it's not like he's been faring well lately anyways. He spends time researching Mysterio and the ruckus he'd caused twice. Fires. Robots. Lasers. Holograms. They weigh him down like lies. His eyes begin to burn at some point, but he pays it no attention, simply lets his body take over on autopilot. Each new article he comes across makes his heart tighten and thump against his ribs.
It's clear now, the world is starting to hate Spider-Man.
There is more criticism than kind words left for him, some calling him the worst of names, blaming him for things that are out of his control. Leehan can't take it. He needs to fix this, he needs a way out.
So he tries—throwing himself into running more tests on Venom on top of what he'd gathered from Riwoo.
He stays at a standstill for a long time, until—
"Oh."
The symbiote reacts violently when the clock strikes a loud, metallic hour hand at midnight, spasming in a futile attempt to escape the Petri dish he's placed it on.
Sound.
Sound is its weakness.
Then something else occurs to him, the way Venom had screamed and split as it touched heat. Sound and temperature—two factors neither he nor Riwoo had considered yet.
And so starts the experimenting.
He slowly builds his own makeshift lab, a hundred feet high above the city, accumulating equipment as he goes. First, he does the unsavoury act of breaking into the campus lab in the middle of the night to borrow a microscope. And then slowly, another tool, then another, then…
By 4 AM in the morning, he's crawling back into your room, discarding his suit, making quick work to change into his pyjamas, and crawling under the sheets. He pretends to be asleep when he hears the door creak open and your footsteps approach.
The twist of keeping a secret squeezes at him even as he sees daybreak approach.
//
In two days time, Leehan tries to actively bond with the symbiote.
He'd figured it had something to with his emotions, that Venom was attracted to his negative thoughts, the kind that made him regret everything the next day.
But he tries anyway; Leehan focuses on what makes him angry, of Mysterio's gleeful chides as he watched Spider-Man crumble to the floor, as fire had almost consumed him whole and left no evidence behind. He thinks of the articles, of people spewing insults against him, condemning him for neglecting the city. He thinks of how sad he makes you these days.
And it works. Venom is curling around him once more, binding his body into a single physical entity.
Finally! We were getting impatient—the creature drawls.
Leehan stands atop the tower and truly feels his renewed power. It's like a fresh breath after inhaling smoke for the longest time. When he leaps, there is no fear. When he's swinging from one concrete building to the next, his webs never run out. They feel stronger somehow. Sturdier. He trusts himself—or this version of himself—more than the real one.
His routine morphs into a fast-paced order of classes, research, and more surveillance. Outwardly, he's back to normal, but Leehan knows it's so far from the truth. He hasn't felt this restless ever.
On mornings, he patrols as usual, eyes peeled for a man with a cape and helmet. Ready to strike if needed. Everything else is a second priority.
At nights, he makes the excuse of needing to catch up with all his missed assignments, shoving the bitter taste of a lie down and putting on his suit for yet another sleepless shift.
The weather begins to harden, the air growing colder as fall slowly bleeds into winter.
He doesn't eat three full meals a day, resorting to the occasional energy bar or instant noodles; he's zoning out during classes, averting Riwoo's concerned gaze, hoping he isn't relaying the information to you. And his suit…at night, it barely shows it's red anymore, blending into the city's after hours as Venom shows himself on Leehan, watching Spider-Man's face planted up on the big screen above buildings with the latest news of what he's done wrong to offend the public.
And the nightmares, they become bone-chilling.
There's you, in multiple scenarios, and dying in each before Leehan can reach for your hands. Drowning sometimes. Burning in others. The look in your eyes breaks him open, slowly, withering any semblance of sanity left, chipping away at his being. The more he dreams, the worse it gets.
"Hannie," your voice bubbles around his ear, water cascading as he dips lower into the pool.
Leehan closes his eyes and tries to drown everything out. Focuses on happy memories.
You and him—at the beach, scavenging for pebbles, at the aquarium looking at jellyfish and sharks. Kissing. The warmth when you trace his skin, the first time you'd leaned up and kissed his cheek. The sound of your voice when you giggle, when you look at him softly, in awe, in love…
It isn't too long before murky black swirls begin to taint his thoughts, creeping into the crevices of his brain, ruining what's good.
Doc Ock towering above you, you crouching below pretending to be brave, pretending you couldn't have died that day because of him—because of Leehan.
Kill, Kill, Kill—! Venom is sneering.
"You shouldn't have been chosen to be Spider-Man at all"—Mysterio's voice rings the loudest.
Leehan feels dizzy. He feels lost.
He begins to choke, and not on water. His vision blinds, panic surging, a deadly scream ringing in his mind, telling him to ruin everything that's making him feel this way. Leehan tries to remind himself that he is kind, but the hot white anger that flares up makes him forget immediately.
Kill, Kill, Kill, Kill, Kill, Kill—!!!!! It shrieks, dense and boiling. He thinks of his own hands around your throat, curling black smoke around it, watching as the life drains out of you. It's inseparable now—him and the symbiote, whether fused or not, it feeds on him.
Stop it, he thinks weakly. Please, stop.
It isn't until minutes later he finally gasps for air, breaking through the water's surface, and his eyes prick with the sting of tears.
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WINTER
Leehan hasn't texted you in 5 days.
Which is strange, because you haven't seen him properly in over a week. Usually, he'd at least be ringing you up for missions, to stay with him on call while he chased after a petty criminal or two. If not, he'd be laying flat over your blankets, flipping through his book as you worked on a project at your desk.
It's dark outside, way past midnight, light winter rain drizzling down, tapping at your window panes. Your laptop is propped open, the news anchor reading out the headlines monotonously:
"Spider-Man under fire: city questions if its saviour is losing his edge. Officials are wondering if the need for a superhero is truly necessary, and if vigilante justice is justice at all. Is the collateral damage truly worth the mistakes of one masked hero?"
You glance down at the phone in your hand, tracing your eyes over the screen as the grip on your pen tightens.
TUESDAY
hannie / bug boy: class ended late. can we cancel dinner?
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: yeah, no problem. call me in the morning yeah?
WEDNESDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: hey you forgot to call, i'm worried you didn't eat last night
Read 10:30 PM
THURSDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: hannie, are you home?
Read 5:00 PM
FRIDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: prof beck recommended me for an internship, it's like super big and the best in the city. do you want to go celebrate tonight?
SATURDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: i don't wanna bother you if ure busy but lemme know when u get better yeah? i miss talking to u, it'a been a while… anyways, ily <33 sleep well.
The unanswered texts glare back at you. A tiny part of you feels a strange sense of deja vu, and the rest of you reject the notion vehemently.
Nothing bad is going to happen… Nothing bad had happened; Leehan is safe. He just needs time to get better, to recover from whatever had happened that day he'd come back to you looking frail and broken.
You can wait a little longer, you tell yourself. But it does nothing to curb the fact that you miss him terribly.
A long sigh escapes your mouth, and you're about to slam the laptop down in irritation when you hear the window creaking open.
You don't even need to look—you already know it's him.
"Leehan!" Your feet move immediately, a bright grin spreading across your cheeks as you throw your arms around him before he can even make it across the ledge. "You came!"
While you can't see his expression as you hug his body to yours, coaxing his head to rest over your shoulder, you sense the difference in his demeanour—how stiff he feels, the tension in his hands and how they don't come to hold you; they just stay languid at his sides, empty.
Your fingers twist into the material of his flannel. "What's wrong? …are you okay—wait, are you hurt—"
Before you start to frantically search him for wounds, Leehan stops you by the wrist.
"Y/N," he exhales, eyes weary behind his rain-splattered glasses. "I have to tell you something; it's…important."
"Yeah, of course. You can tell me anything, you already know that," You attempt a small smile, trying to calm him down when he looks this close to breaking down. "Sit down, I'll get you some tea."
"It can't wait," Leehan says, and it sounds like a plea. Like he'd barely mustered up the guts to speak and could lose his courage if he wastes any more time.
You nod, then wait patiently. Absentmindedly, your fingers remain grasping the end of his shirt, tethering your feet to the spot and stopping your head from spiralling.
"I—" he begins in a small voice, "We should stop this."
You furrow your brow in confusion, not understanding.
Leehan hangs his head, refusing to meet your eyes, a painful trail of gulp travelling down his throat before he repeats:
"We should break up."
…
The world stands still, something static humming around the two of you—uncomfortable and cold. It makes you want to throw up.
"What?"
"I can't keep doing this to us—to you, I—it's unfair to you, Y/N. And I'll be damned if I'm the reason you're miserable." Leehan is biting his lips harsh enough to draw blood; watching him makes you almost feel the metal on your own tongue. His hands are fists now, a thin rim of red under his eyes, hair unkempt.
Despite everything, your first instinct is to worry about whether he's been taking care of himself.
"I thought we were past this," you keep your voice levelled. "We're partners, remember? In sickness and in health." A weary laugh escapes you at the futile attempt at a joke. He doesn't react.
"I'm sorry," he tries to sound impassive and fails monumentally. You hear a sob in his voice when he says, "Forget me and move on. You have your whole life ahead…don't throw that away—"
"It's not that easy! It's not easy, I can't just throw away everything between us." You motion to the minute space between your bodies, leading his face to yours, looking him head-on. "This, what we have, it's not disposable. And you're an idiot to think you'd be so easily forgotten."
"Y/N–"
"We were good together. Things were good, we were happy. Leehan, we just need to get through this like always…slowly, one day at a time," you try.
But Leehan has made up his mind. He puts more distance between you, even when you refuse to let go.
"It doesn't matter how bad I want you, or you want me. We're doomed to fail, okay? There isn't a single future where we can be happy and alive."
"You make me happy, you idiot," you scream, tears spilling without restraint now. "You. Not a promise of safety. Not a comfortable life, either. I don't need white picket fences and dinner dates… I want us, you and I—having picnics, going on missions, looking at fish. I don't care as long as you'll keep me around."
Leehan shakes his head, more stubborn than he's ever been. "Don't be foolish. You're too smart to ignore what could happen to you if you stick around with me."
Something taut snaps inside you; your voice rises, "I've stuck around for this long haven't I? What's some more—"
"You don't get it."
"Then explain it to me!" A sob wrecks past your lips—then grows quieter, sadder. Your hand on his shirt pulls tight enough to stretch the fabric. "Talk to me, please, Hannie. I'm trying to understand…"
"I…can't."
"Did I do something wrong?" You say it so softly, so sincerely that Leehan has to look at you.
"Never." He fights the urge to bring his thumb to your cheek, to wipe at the tear-stained skin there. "You're perfect. Always have been."
"Then why?"
"Because you deserve someone better than me. Someone just as kind."
You want to scoff. To pull him by the collar and press your lips to his and make him believe that there is no one kinder than him that you know of.
But Leehan doesn't let you when he pries your fingers off of his shirt, moving backwards until his legs hit the wall.
You promised me, you want to say.
Some promises are meant to be broken—you hear the echo of his voice from a while ago. It stings.
Then he's speaking, and it feels like a whisper when the rain begins to crash down twice as hard, his voice muffled by water on concrete. "I'm sorry," are his last words before he disappears into the night, barely a shadow at your window-ledge at first, then nothing at all.
At 3 AM on a cold Saturday morning, your heart breaks into a million pieces, and Leehan leaves his behind.
Looking back, you should have probably seen this coming. Or at least that's what you tell yourself to feel better. It doesn't work, not one bit.
Your recent observation is that a break up is a lot like the five stages of grief:
First there's denial.
You don't believe it. Leehan would not end your relationship, he would not give up on you this easily. He wouldn't. It was strong, the feelings you had for him, and you're positive it's the exact same for him.
Then it bleeds into anger.
Every time you look at the Polaroids of the two of you together, you feel an insurmountable amount of rage. The scent of rain makes you see red, the thought of him makes you want to punch a pillow. When Woonhak walks in at an unfortunate time, you almost throw it straight at his face before he immediately walks back the same way and shuts the door in front of him, face pale from your ambush.
Bargaining is third.
Usually you wouldn't be drinking this much—you barely like the taste of alcohol, let alone how it makes you feel. But here you are, slumped on the floor of your room, knocking the bottle back as it burns your throat going down. When nothing remains, you're clawing for your phone, staring at the lock-screen: a candid picture of him staring at the aquarium glass, eyes shiny and big.
The next day, you're waking up to a string of incoherent texts you'd sent him, progressively growing embarrassing as you scroll down. Your pride is nowhere to be seen in them when it's just you begging for him to talk to you, promising you can try again—that it'll be different this time.
Depression looks no better on you.
Crying should feel like a release, like finally letting go of a held breath, but your heart thuds painfully against your ribcage as a stream of tears flows down. And it's as close to the end of the world as you'd ever felt.
Sometimes you even find yourself crying when you wake up from a dream—of a bright smile that reminds you of the sun and the sea, of hair the colour of spun gold, of seeing the city from above, safe in his arms.
Acceptance never really comes, but you hold a seat for it, terrified of the day it might arrive.
//
November is turning out to be a terrible month for Leehan.
He didn't think it would be easy—not by any means. From the second he'd decided to end it, he'd already predicted how hard it would be to stay away from you.
Leehan doesn't even know who he is without you.
As a kid, he'd always latched onto creatures with all the innocence and naivety that came with childhood. His father called it a phase, his mother called it 'Our Leehan-ie just has a tender heart'. But the thing about loving too hard was the aftermath of it—every time a fish died, or when the family dog got too old and succumbed, he'd sobbed into his mom's arms without holding back. It got better with age; he'd learnt to let go without letting the hurt get to him, accepting it as part of life. Seeing a sort of beauty in endings.
Leehan hadn't planned to fall in love back then, let alone have to watch you die over and over again every time he'd slipped into slumber.
So yeah, it was for the best. When he eventually hunted Mysterio down and confronted whatever came after, when one or neither of them won for good, you'd be safe regardless.
And if he did…die, then it'll be easier for you to let him go this way. Even if it means you hate him now.
"All units, stand-by. A possible explosion at the natural history museum downtown," the police radio transmits right into Leehan's phone as he crouches on top of the clock tower, scanning the city below him. It's colder now, more windy—erratic and unpleasant. He takes a deep breath in, watching the white spider-symbol on his chest contract over the black suit, darting a web quicker than his mind moves.
Anything for us to kill, Spidey? Venom chimes dutifully within his brain.
Leehan has learnt not to lower his guard, so he refuses to reply and focuses on directing himself to the museum location.
Silent treatment? Rude.
Can you shut up, I have work to do—Leehan chides.
It's a routine now: Venom's voice in his head accompanying him like a devil on the shoulder as he moves on autopilot, dousing another fire, holding up another collapsing pillar, trying to get as many civilians out unharmed. Leehan does not stay to entertain pleasantries any more—he ignores reporters and news crews without caring for making a statement. On worse days, he has lost his temper and snapped at them, but the lesson was learnt when his public rating dropped to an all time low with every broadcast out there kept replaying “Spider-Man threatens innocent passerbys".
Hence why he preferred to work discreetly now, letting the black of his suit camouflage him—sneaking into buildings and making quick work of the next mess Mysterio had left for him to salvage. Each of them feels like a trap, to wear down his body and mind. Almost like he wanted Leehan to drive himself mad for the pure fun of watching it happen. If it weren't for Venom, he might have died already.
The only semblance of peace he gets in a day is getting to watch you from a safe distance.
Like some twisted version of a guardian angel, Leehan makes sure you're safe. Even when he stares down at your texts, the ones he has to reject all instinct to keep from replying to, a twinge of relief keeps him going—that you are alive and breathing. He tells himself that's the only reason he hasn't deleted your number off his phone.
He watches you on mornings when you're on your way to class, during your lunches with Woonhak and the lab team in the quads, makes sure no one is following you when it gets dark outside, when you're alone. And sometimes you turn to look at him, almost straight through him—and Leehan feels a shiver travel down his spine even when he knows there is no way you can see him from such a long distance.
It's like you sense his presence with something beyond logic.
But each time, you sigh as though in disappointment, like you were probably just imagining him there, and you turn back to walk away.
Then there are titbits of information Woonhak brings on his barge-ins that help a little with the paranoia.
"You look like you're hanging on by a thread," the younger boy sympathises, making himself at home on Leehan's bed. "No pun intended."
Leehan has no energy to entertain him, so he simply purses his lips and goes back to scribbling on his notebook that was progressively being filled with new findings on the symbiote.
"Riwoo hyung is with Y/N," Woonhak adds.
Leehan can't help but jolt slightly.
Thankfully, Woonhak doesn't need to be prompted to continue, "She's doing better these days. Hyung's been dragging her to try new restaurants, so she's eating better. Oh, and she's taking that internship with Dr. Beck next year. He says she could easily land a junior researcher position at Oscorp."
"That's good," Leehan's voice is small but he means every word. It was good that your friends are there for you when he couldn't be.
"You guys will figure it out, you know," Woonhak says suddenly, without a shred of doubt. "If any two people can find their way back to each other, it's you guys."
Leehan pauses for a breath.
It's not that he doesn't believe the same; a part of him will always belong to you, would always look for you in a crowd and seek out your voice like a lighthouse. By the time it happens, he wonders if he'll be Kim Leehan anymore—the boy you fell in love with in the first place. Or will he just be a vestige of himself, simply a vessel for the symbiote…a weapon to get back at Mysterio.
He doesn't reply. When Woonhak eventually starts to yawn, he excuses himself out with a slurred out goodnight, leaving Leehan for yet another night of patrol and research.
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December fares no better.
Campus grows steadily quieter once the exam season wears down, bringing more snow and rain with it. He does his usual regimen—a half-attended handful of classes, barely passed exams, patrol, patrol, then more patrol.
"—shouldn't be pulling so many all nighters. That's why you lost marks over here, and—" Riwoo is on an uncharacteristic tangent about Leehan's latest grades, scolding him for his sudden drop in interest.
Leehan listens with one ear, and tries to close off the other one when Venom starts spewing his own string of complains:
Human, this is boring. Where is the blood… We want to KILLLLL—!
Shut up, Leehan replies mentally, sneaking an annoyed glance down his collar where the suit rested.
"Zebrafish reach up to 4 to 5 centimetres in length, not inches… How did you even get that wrong, Han-ah? It's so careless—" Riwoo is saying as they walk across the grounds into the campus cafe, and Leehan wishes he could get some caffeine in him sooner than Venom can jump back in with various versions of ‘Kill ‘, and ‘Die’.
These days, Leehan feels more like a babysitter than a vessel, if he's being completely honest. And his psyche has only been deteriorating with the severe lack of sleep and any real food. Thank heavens for coffee and instant rice, he reckons.
They queue up for the counter, Leehan pretend-nodding along to whatever Riwoo is saying, head slumped down, his hands deep in the pockets of his jeans. It's quieter than usual with most of the students having headed home for winter break already—only bits and pieces of conversations, mixed with the comforting scent of breakfast, in the small space around them.
But as the universe would have it, all of Leehan's defences lower at once at the sound of your voice.
You're a couple spots in front of him, chatting animatedly with Doctor Beck as he grabs two cups off the counter.
Leehan should look away, or better yet, turn around and make a break for it. But Riwoo has already noticed the way his body stiffens, how he freezes at the sight of your face, and Leehan realises it's already too late.
Thankfully, you don't seem to notice, too busy conversing.
"—I'm heading home this weekend, so I should be able to send in those final documents soon enough," you say smiling. "Thank you again, Professor. If it wasn't for your letter of recommendation, this would never have happened."
"Nonsense," Doctor Beck waves away your modesty. "You're a brilliant young scientist, Miss L/N. Oscorp will be lucky to have you."
You reply with a bashful smile, and while it looks perfect and practised, Leehan can tell that you're not all there. There are shadows underneath your eyes, and you've forgotten to tie your hair back. Even your clothes look slightly wrinkled.
He hates the possibility that he could be the cause of it.
It doesn't matter, Leehan repeats inwardly. You were going to be okay. You were going to be happy and successful and eventually forget he ever existed. That was the plan.
Are you about to cry over your girlfriend? Venom smirks tauntingly. Our bad, we meant ex-girlfriend.
It takes every bit of resolve to not burn the symbiote right then and there, but as fate would have it, Riwoo gets ushered forward to make his order. By the time they've turned back to find a spot to wait, you have already disappeared past the door.
Follow them.
Leehan doesn't immediately take it seriously. But Venom repeats again—Follow those two.
What for?
She could be in danger, you know.
Y/N is fine. She won't be in class anyways, it's her last day of finals.
Wow, and here we thought you'd stopped stalking—
It's not stalking!
Follow them. We'd like to see something.
Why?
Curious.
I have to get back to my work station. There's a lot to do if I want to stop Mysterio before it's too late.
FOLLOW THEM—!!
Leehan flinches visibly, earning a concerned glance from Riwoo. He gives an awkward smile, taking the coffee from the older boy's hand.
Can you not yell? Leehan rebukes telepathically.
But the symbiote is relentless as always, already beginning to curl its body around Leehan's, threatening to bond with him right in the middle of the cafe in front of everyone. Leehan panics, a hand coming to grab at his chest on pure instinct.
"Are you okay?" Riwoo leans in. "Do you need to go to the clinic?"
"Ah, it's nothing hyung, just a heartburn," Leehan makes a half-convincing excuse.
Riwoo doesn't seem to buy it, but before Leehan can derail the conversation away, Venom is cackling at his misery. His head throbs from the sheer volume of it, pounding against his skull like his brain was being eaten alive.
FINE—! Leehan yells. It takes a moment of held breath before he notices Riwoo's shocked expression and realises he'd said it out loud instead of thinking it.
"Sorry, I—" He attempts to undo his mistake, but Riwoo seems to be about to suggest again he go to a doctor, so Leehan beats him to it, "I'll make a booking. And don't worry, Woonhak can take me."
Woonhak will absolutely not be taking him anywhere; Leehan would rather trust his health in the hands (or fins) of a brain-dead fish before he'd have resorted to Woonhak as an option. Instead, he returns his coffee cup back to Riwoo, bows in apology, and sprints off out of the cafe.
The robotics lab is empty today, at least from what Leehan can gauge through the windows. If it were anyone else, he wouldn't be able to see into the room from all the way at the top of the opposite building—but fortunate for him, his superhuman senses had only sharpened under the effects of the symbiote.
He hears broken sentences; Woonhak is bidding goodbye after gathering his formulae sheets and you're pulling him along with you, making it clear that you won't be sparing an extra pen in the middle of the exam if he had forgotten one.
Despite everything, the normalcy of your banter makes Leehan's heart soften.
Once you've disappeared, Professor Beck's face appears through the parted curtains. He turns to take a seat at his desk, flipping a pencil between his fingers. His brows are scrunched in thought, lips a thin line—grim and stony. His other hand reaches into his coat to fish something out.
And then Leehan's entire world stops.
His heart constricts painfully at the sight, a rock forming at his throat, making his tongue taste like acid.
Quentin Beck turns the object, watching how the metal reflects the winter sun. And then his expression turns sourer, teeth gritted as he squeezes it between his fist with obvious rage.
The keychain.
Leehan's keychain. The one he'd lost under the bridge, the one he'd spent hours looking for, the one…
The one he had seen dangled in front of him, from Mysterio's hand.
Leehan doesn't stomach the implication easily—he feels bile rise before Venom distracts him enough for him to push it down.
What is he saying? the symbiote asks.
I can't tell…
Use one of her inventions. Your girlfriend's.
Leehan doesn't correct him; his mind moves with muscle memory, fingers already reaching to tap his watch. The nanobot spiders come alive at once, floating invisibly through the air until one lands safely at the window ledge.
"Enabling microphone," Leehan commands as he plugs in his Bluetooth earphones, something he had heard you passingly mention you wanted to install—it seems like you had ended up doing it eventually. Doctor Beck's mumbling vibrates through his ear, incoherent at first, then the words slowly grow longer, making more sense.
"Soon, boy….it's only a matter of time before you take your last breath." The professor seethes. "Keep falling into my traps and eventually, I'll make sure you won't have legs to run away any more.
I'll break you inch by inch until there's nothing but bones left of you…until you finally realise how you don't deserve to be hailed as everyone's king. Hah—! 'Spider-Man'… how arrogant… it's time someone put you in your place! First you, then everyone else who's ever had the foolish idea to feed your ego…."
Leehan feels dizzy. His knees give out as he collapses onto the concrete rooftop, keeling over to swallow the panic.
"And then your girlfriend," Beck says, making every hair on Leehan stand up. "Good thing she landed right into the palm of my hands," he's grinning as he speaks, "Good thing you hurt her so bad that she didn't think twice before taking my proposition. Soon, she'll be off to Oscorp, you'll be dead, and I won't have a pest to distract me while I blow their entire company to bits. Along with all the technology they stole from me…"
Leehan is ripping the earphones out before he can continue, head spinning as he books it for his house, barely stumbling in through the window and spilling his guts into the toilet.
He feels sick all over.
Quentin Beck is Mysterio.
The thought makes him recoil away, landing backwards with the cold tiles under his palms.
Mysterio had been right there, a hair's breadth away, right under his nose, and Leehan hadn't known. He feels stupid to never have doubted it would be someone known to him. And then another wave of nausea hits him at the realisation of what this meant.
Beck had been watching him from the very first day Leehan had been introduced by you… Maybe even before that. His paranoia wasn't wrongly placed, it had been real all along.
Every little scenario, each odd happening—they piece together to complete the puzzle, until Leehan feels like he's seeing clearly for the first time in a very long time. The sudden reappearance of Doc Ock, the jailbreak, the illusions and fire and carefully curated mousetraps, set in place simply to drive Spider-Man mad—no, to drive Leehan mad. Because Beck had been surveying him long before Leehan had the mind to pay it any mind.
And now, Quentin Beck had successfully made a dent in his life, plaguing his thoughts with fear and vengeance.
The words Oscorp and technology stand out in his memory; on shaky feet, Leehan trudges to his laptop to search up what could link the man to the corporation. It doesn't take too long to skim through articles to find the truth Beck had been trying so hard to quell:
"Senior Oscorp Researcher fired for malpractice: Quentin Beck endangers humanity with the proposal of superpowered military drones. Oscorp responds quickly."
The articles are few in quantity, and seems to have been swept under the rug courtesy of Oscorp's PR team. And any damage they hadn't been able to explain away, they seem to have blamed on the now Professor, compensating his loss of livelihood with a unglorified teaching position at the city's university.
Kill now? Venom sneers with the cadence of an animal growling for meat, and this time, Leehan does not oppose him.
"Soon," he whispers instead, tone turning cold. "After Y/N leaves for home… She has to be safe before I rip the head off that asshole."
Now you're talking. Spidey's grown a pair, I see. The symbiote is gleeful—Leehan can clearly imagine the hungry grin on his face if he were masked right now, ready to pounce if given permission to.
"Patient now," Leehan says, and Venom only calms down because it sounds like a promise. "You can kill him all you want, but first, we need a game plan."
The evening starts with a drizzle—too soft to predict anything harsher to follow.
It's cold, people swathed in their fluffy winter coats and tightly wrapped scarves, the traffic jam-packed with everyone heading home for the holidays. December 21st—the day Leehan knows you'd be safely tucked away in a car or train, far away from the trouble that was about to ensue.
Once the initial shock had worn off, Leehan had found the energy to get down to business, flipping through tens and hundreds of pages of Quentin Beck's research profile and previous portfolios, trying to figure out how exactly he had designed his Mysterio persona.
When Leehan had eventually realised that Robotics lingo and drone models made no sense to him, he had finally resorted to asking Woonhak for another favour.
Needless to say, Woonhak had been more than eager to help.
"You're taking an interest in Robotics!? Is this your ploy to win Y/N over, because might I say, it would most definitely work on me," Woonhak delivers a greasy wink to punctuate his point, and Leehan has to hold back a groan.
"Will you help or not?"
"Listen, the way to a girl's heart is through combat-grade drones. I totally approve!" Woonhak plants his hands on Leehan's shoulders, shaking him slightly in enthusiasm. "And also, you need all the help you can get after she dumped you."
"She didn't dump me—"
"Let's get to work, hyungie!" The younger is already barrelling past him, leading him to the corner of his mostly messy couch. Then he turns around abruptly, eyes wide and sparkly like a puppy hearing the word walk. "Oh my god, does this mean I'm officially part of Spider-Man's team…"
"Sure."
"And that Spider-Man needs me. That I get to boss Spider-Man around…AM I SPIDER-MAN'S BOSS!? I've dreamt of days like this, wow…."
"I'm kicking you off the team if you don't stop right there."
Once they've settled down, Woonhak doesn't need to be prompted to talk, given it was his favourite hobby next to Spider-Man fanaticism and time machine fantasies. He builds off of the word robotics and covers a whole array of topics, most of which is nothing but hogwash to Leehan's untrained ears.
Parts of it sound familiar though. He must have heard you talk about it once upon a time and his brain had most likely held onto the memory without him knowing.
"So…" he begins carefully, right when Woonhak takes a deep breath after a long tangent on Teleoperation. "What about Beck? Your professor—what does he do?"
"Doctor Beck?" Woonhak quirks his head to the side, taking a bite out of his bowl of rice. "He's chill. Why?"
"No, like…what does he do? What does he like? Dislike? Y'know…stuff like that."
This only makes Woonhak even more perplexed. He gives Leehan a judgmental look. "Are you trying to win back Y/N or seduce our Robotics professor…"
"It's part of my tactic, okay?" Leehan sighs, finding no other way to wheedle the information he desperately needs.
Woonhak doesn't seem too bothered by the excuse. "Hmm…he's a funny guy sometimes. Like a very quirky, mad scientist typa guy. Likes to mess around with ideas like holographic illusions and tricks. My theory is that he wanted to be a magician as a child but never had the flair for it; Y/N says he's just getting bored the older he gets. We have a bet going."
Slowly and casually, Leehan manages to gather as much on Quentin Beck, filing it away mentally to be put down into his personal research notes. If Woonhak gets suspicious about anything, Leehan points out the window at a non-existent bird, and without fail, the younger boy looks over—not unlike a hyper dog, he muses. Rest of the time, he throws in a bait or two about Spider-Man and Woonhak bites it every single time, any prior scepticism abandoned in favour of fanboying.
Which brings Leehan back to the present—perched on his usual spot, at the very top of the clock tower, the tallest building in the city, bathed by the glow of a hanging moon.
Unusually however, he also has a phone in one hand, and Woonhak's genius expertise to aid his plan in the other.
"HELLO THERE, PEOPLE OF THE CITY," he begins somewhat awkwardly, watching the big screens light up all around the city square, every television and radio breached, a live broadcast in place. "THIS IS YOUR FRIENDLY NEIGHBOURHOOD SPIDER-MAN SPEAKING. NOT TO WORRY, IT'S JUST A PERSONAL ANNOUNCEMENT TO MY DEAREST FRIEND AND OVERALL 'WORST DRESSED' PERSON WITHIN A THOUSAND MILE RADIUS—MR. MYSTERIO, THE FAILED MAGICIAN WANNABE."
Leehan can hear the sneer in his own voice echo through the public systems: people stopping their cars to turn up the radio, news vans making a speedy run to get the latest scoop, teenagers tapping their screens to scroll through live updates. The entire city stops for a split second, Christmas shopping put on a pause to listen to Spider-Man's sudden declaration.
"YOU'VE WATCHED ME, TOYED WITH MY LIFE, ATTEMPTED EVERYTHING TO DRAG ME DOWN WITH YOU. BUT GUESS WHAT…" Leehan grins behind his mask to match Venom's own smile. "YOU'RE A PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A SUPERVILLAIN. YOU AREN'T A GOD—ALL YOU ARE IS A SAD OLD MAN PROJECTING HIS OWN INSECURITIES ONTO OTHERS."
The words are mirrors of what he'd told Leehan the first time he almost killed him, and Leehan can't help but feel a sick sense of happiness at saying it back now.
"CATCH ME IF YOU CAN," he says. "YOU KNOW WHERE TO LOOK."
And with that, he shuts down the feed at once, screens turning static.
Good job, Venom adds with a hint of pride.
Shouts blare out from below—people's outraged cries, demanding justice for Spider-Man with the abrupt revelations. They might not know who Mysterio is yet, but the public opinion is quick to turn against a potential enemy, subjecting him to angry insults without waiting to see reason. Cars honk in protest, reporters springing to action to interview angry civilians, chants of 'Spider-Man rules' already coming to life beneath on the streets.
The bait works like a charm.
Before Leehan can count to ten, Venom's happiness flares up, making it known that he'd found a new prey to hunt.
"Ah, look who's right on time," Leehan smiles, dangling his feet down off the dome, watching the way the helmeted figure levitating mid-air, red cape whipping angrily behind him, chest heaving in anger above where Leehan sits.
"You!—"
"You're not that intimidating once your tricks are exposed, you know." Leehan pretends to check his fingernails for dirt, which aids to be useless given he was wearing his symbiote-fused black suit. "It's like a magician. The illusion only works as long as you don't reveal your secrets. But you… you're a phoney top to bottom. Just cheap camera tricks and invisible wires, right? Maybe a few optical illusions here and there of course."
"How dare you!" Mysterio fumes, and with it, the green smoke around him burns angrily. "You insolent, arrogant—"
"Yeah, yeah, cry me a river," Leehan taunts, now springing up to his feet. "I already know what you think of me—you’ve made it crystal clear two separate times, so I think we can forgo introductions now. Are you gonna fight me or what?"
Mysterio barely gives a second of thought before commanding one of his drones to shoot a fiery laser right at Leehan's chest. But Venom has honed his senses beyond human capacity that he responds without the need to think, a quick flip that dodges the beam and has him land smoothly on all fours.
"Miss me," Leehan cackles, and it sounds more like Venom this time—gruff and deep.
Mysterio's face might be hidden beneath his fishbowl of a helmet, but the way his moves get frantic after proves Leehan's suspicions to be true.
He's getting sloppy.
A web shoots out to grab Mysterio by the neck, a quick pull of Leehan's wrist doing away with the helmet as it plummets to the ground feet below. Beck's terrified face shows itself.
He tries to hide it with a palm, but it's useless when Leehan has known for a while now.
"Why did you do all of this? Because of some petty revenge you wanna plan against Oscorp?"
Beck's face falls. "How did you…"
"You monologue when you think too hard. Should probably stop doing that in case someone's spying on you."
Beck grabs Leehan's string of web and yanks, landing the two of them in an aerial fight; Leehan can barely keep his feet on solid ground when Mysterio abandons his drones in favour of his fist, jamming a sharp elbow into his stomach, rendering his webs useless for the time being.
So Leehan does the logical thing—he grabs Beck as hard as he can and drags him down with him, leaving a human-shaped hole in the brick dome and plunging downwards together, crashing down onto a metal grill, pressed into his shoulder blades.
Leehan is lithe, swinging a fist into Beck's jaw. The snap of bone sends a shiver of rage down his—or Venom's—spine, and soon after, he's pummelling into muscle and skeleton without caring what breaks.
How dare you threaten me, Venom sounds clear and loud.
"You wanted to hurt Y/N," Leehan barks out, punctuating each word with a punch. "You were using her to get to me."
Instead of conceding as Leehan expects him to, Beck only grins through a mouthful of blood.
Before Leehan can swipe that look off his face with another blow, he hears a snap of fingers.
The room begins to cloud with smoke—eerie and green, sparks of pixels flickering around him. The scenery begins to transition from the inside of the tower to something tubular and fleshy, almost like the belly of a large animal.
An illusion. Just an illusion, Leehan reminds himself.
"Could have proved me wrong this time, but my verdict remains unchanged," Mysterio's voice rings out, the same way it had in all of Leehan's nightmares and memories. "You're still incompetent."
Leehan shoots a web at the silhouette he sees behind the smoke screen, but the veil parts just enough to show empty space. Venom's frustration begins to gnaw under his own, stringed together with a mess of expletives.
The scene shifts once more, body falling through a void until he finds himself trapped inside a globe made of glass.
A fish bowl?
Leehan bangs against the walls, attempting a scream, but nothing comes out of his throat. Water begins to drip through the crack above, filling the empty space with rounded droplets, a haze of what seems to be dream-like fish and octopods, floating and phasing through his body.
It would have been a beautiful sight if not for how terrifying it feels.
Water rises until it drowns his entire lower half—Leehan can barely yell when it creeps higher, threatening to break past his throat, past his nose, until air is stolen from his lungs and he chokes—
Once again, the scene changes.
This time, it's a mirror maze. Each reflection is a past enemy: each with a scathing remark to throw at him, making it clear how much they wanted to skin him alive at the next chance.
Then, your voice.
"Hannie!" You sound frightened to see him. Or maybe that's sorrow he sees on you: wet lashes, blurry eyes, the way you clutch your hands to your chest. "Please."
"Y/N?" he asks despite himself, inching closer even when Venom howls at him to back off.
Leehan sees you hesitantly extend a hand, reaching out for him, like in his dreams. But then you're falling backwards, through the sheen of glass and smoke, down and down into pitch black nothingness…
And he follows because there isn't a world in which he wouldn't.
His feet move first, then his body dives forward, finding a warmth against his own chest that he refuses to let go of. His mouth moves around your name as everything falls apart under his feet, metal almost slashing through clothing—and if it wasn't for Venom, it would have taken his flesh with it, no doubt.
Dust blows as he rolls on the bricked floor, a dull pain throbbing in his head when he blearily opens his eyes. Only to see Mysterio sneer down at him, hovering.
"She's still your weakness huh?" He quirks his head to the side. "Surely you won't mind if I pay her a visit after I'm done with you… after all, I know exactly where she's off to."
"DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE," Leehan stammers through gritted teeth. When he tries to get up, his legs feel like jelly, organs squeezing in pain as his insides regenerate too fast, making him see blinding white for a moment.
"Still the same, you—"
Leehan springs a web over his mouth, leaping from wall to wall as he wraps a thick sheet of silk around Beck's mouth, lithely dodging his annoyed laser shots—left, right, a leap over his head, then a swift kick to his chest that pushes the man backwards.
"I studied your drones," Leehan adds, huffing as he spots the tiny dent in Beck's plans. "It's just like you—flashy but too careless. Your need to be known shows."
"WHAT?" Beck has broken free of the webbed muzzle now, grasping at the floor under him as he skids back frantically with every step Leehan takes, an ominous twist of his mouth, slitted eyes narrowing and expanding like a broken transition between him and Venom, anger building first, then replaced by disappointment, then resentment.
"The pixels flicker; your illusion has holes," is Leehan's final blow as he readies his aim at the spot near Beck's head.
Beck raises an arm to shoot a spray of fire at him, and at the exact same time, Leehan's webbing twists around the invisible drone, forcing it to crash down violently and break apart into two clean slices.
Smoke billows and fire catches, making Venom shriek in agony as the heat overtakes its senses, Leehan's own body rejecting the fire as he claws at the material of his suit, splitting and morphing, trying to separate from its host. The scalding heat inches through to his own skin, burning, burning, burning…
Get out of my head! Leehan screams. Leave.
Venom seems to want the same thing, but it's only Leehan's resolve that can expel him completely—Leehan knows this from months of experimental trials. The host is in charge, not the symbiote.
A deep breath, then a blank mind. Leehan thinks of what brings him clarity and strength—it comes easily: the expanse of blue, sand under his feet, the scent of salt and breeze and your perfume lingering right underneath. Then your hands in his, and the softness with which you call his name.
When Leehan finally opens his eyes, he sees red.
His suit is back to normal, his body no longer Venom's. The adrenaline leaves him feeling high and spent—or maybe that's the injuries, Leehan isn't sure anymore. A trickle of black fluid spills to the ground, writhing slightly, and Beck's shallow breathing dies down.
The man lies there unmoving. Leehan belatedly realises that it's over.
Everything is over.
He's not wasting time looking back when the only thing he wants to do—needs to do—is find you. Leehan sends up a prayer hoping you aren't gone just yet, that you'll stay just a second longer because he needs you to know. Even if it means your feelings may have changed… None of that matters now, just that Leehan could have died and he'd have done it without saying those three important words to you.
Maybe it's the rush of adrenaline, or maybe it's the leftover fight in him, but he spares no glance behind him when he's leaping out a broken window, not seeing how Venom's remnants creep closer and closer to Beck's frozen body before its warmth leaves for good.
//
You haven't breathed correctly in the past hour.
The traffic blares around you, cars honking at each other in face of Spider-Man's impromptu announcement to the entire city. The phone in your hand feel heavier than it should, a thumb hovering over Leehan's name as you debate whether to call.
What if he's not okay?
What if…
"Hey, what the fuck is that?" Some guy hollers through a sunroof, standing up to get a good view at the bridge opposite the road. "Are those…spider webs???"
You lean forward to tell the cab driver to stop, even though the car hadn't inched a step closer in the past hour or so, and click open the door to see for yourself.
Under the blinking starlight, a single message is woven onto the cables of the suspension bridge, and you don't even need to assess the all too familiar handwriting to know who the sender is.
I LOVE YOU—it reads.
Your first thought is that Leehan is okay, he's made it out alive.
The second is the monumental epiphany that you'd never said it to each other, and that he'd been the first to tell you now.
The third is a rush of fear that it might be his last too. What if he only felt the need to relay it knowing he'd never see you again. What if he isn't okay after all. What if—
"Thinking too hard," Leehan's voice whispers behind you. He sits atop a car, the passengers inside gaping at the fact that THE Spider-Man was right there above them, separated only by a roof and nothing more.
Passengers pull out their phone cameras, flashes going off promptly. Kids wave and point at him, parents too stunned into silence, a small crowd forming around the two of you. But nothing else matters—not when you feel his heavy stare through the material of his mask, and your chest tightens with the sheer force of wanting to reach out.
But you don't have to, not when he's sweeping you off the ground and swinging you to the very top of the bridge's tower.
The sky is inky blue behind him when he takes off the mask, holding you tighter as his eyes meet yours.
"I missed yo—" you begin to say, but he seals your words with a kiss.
"I love you," Leehan whispers against you, bringing his forehead to rest against yours. "Sorry I'm late."
You shake your head. "You could never be late. All the time in the world, remember?"
"Did you hate me?"
"I could never hate you, Kim Leehan." You brush a sweaty blond strand out of his face, wiping a smudge of dirt away with your thumb. "You can be an idiot sometimes, but I'd never hate you. I love you too much for that."
Leehan smiles in what feels like the first time in forever, the weight inside of him resting gently, the world around stopping to spin just to suspend the two of you in a bubble. From tens of feet above everyone, you're safe.
"I-I haven't been the best boyfriend, I know," Leehan admits into the crook of your neck. "There are things I should have done differently—done better."
"It's okay, you didn't mean to."
"No, I-I kept things from you. You should have been the first person I came to after… after everything." He almost falters at the way your eyes soften at his words. "There's a lot to be said. I don't know how to start…"
His voice tapers off into a self-depreciating chuckle, but you bring him back with a kiss to the cheek.
"All the time in the world, bug boy. We'll talk whenever you want, and I'll listen like I always do."
A mellow drizzle begins to sprinkle down, making Leehan look softer than ever against the watercolour-blue sky. Once upon a time, you'd thought that he looked beautiful in blue, and you realise that your verdict hasn't changed since then.
"Woonhak will be thrilled to know we're back together," Leehan nuzzles into you, finding something gentle and apocalyptic in the way it's just you and him there, in love. "Riwoo hyung told me that he kept calling us his parents."
"Dramatic as expected," you grin.
"Does this mean you forgive me?" Leehan's voice is gentle, with something nervous underneath it.
"Hmmm…" You pretend to think, watching him gulp anxiously, hands stiffening with every second that passes. "Maybe… if you can make up for it."
"Anything you want. Name your price," he nods eagerly, tangling his fingers into your hair
"First a rerun of that first date at the aquarium, then you buy another penguin keychain to replace the old one so we can match again." Your grin is blinding and big.
It occurs to Leehan that there is indeed a lot to be said. He simply slips the keychain out of his glove cuff, placing it carefully into your palm, curling your fingers over it. He'd had the mind to pick it up from where it had dropped beside him. It's caked with grime, blood that could be his own or not, but the metal is still cool to the touch. Two birds of a feather—it reads, the same as you remember yours to be.
"You found it," you say in half amusement, half wonder. "How?"
"That's the part we'll need to talk about. Preferably over that dinner date I need to make up for."
"Oh c'mon, don't make it all suspenseful now. Haven't I waited long enough?"
You definitely had a point there…
But Leehan isn't entirely sure how to approach the revelation that your Robotics professor was the same person that had been out for his blood. Maybe there isn't a way to sugarcoat the situation at all, so he comes clean in what he hopes isn't a mess of incoherent sentences that could warrant a suggestion to book himself into the mental ward.
Thankfully, and like always, you listen without judgement.
"Professor Beck is Mysterio?" you repeat his conclusion "Mysterio has been hurting you all this time… and the symbiote…"
"I should have told you…I just…I didn't want to drag you into my mess," Leehan sighs.
But you simply take his hand in yours, holding the little keychain between the two of you, pressing a reassuring thumb over his glove. "You must have been scared. And alone."
Leehan does not want to lie again, so he nods. You pull him in for a tight hug, letting him fit perfectly against you, with all the intention of wanting to keep him safe for a change.
"Sorry about your internship though… Beck's sorta gone," he murmurs in a pout and it makes you chuckle.
"Hmm, don't worry. I'm smart enough to get another one on my own without his recommendation," you assure him with a few pats on his back. "Sorry you lost your goo."
"Hey, his name is Venom."
"You named the goo?"
"No, he came with a name. He's more sentient once he fuses…"
"Yeah, definitely a dinner worthy conversation. Maybe over hotpot?"
"Please," Leehan almost whines in relief. "I'm so sick of eating instant food and gummies. Woonhak tried cooking for me once and I swear to god the meat was expired. Gave me diarrhoea for like a week."
"That's headline worthy—Spider-Man halts activities due to bowel issues… It's got a nice ring to it. Maybe I should call up the reporters and sell it for some cash—"
"Y/N..." he pouts harder; you giggle at his natural cuteness, then lean in to wipe the pout right off his face with another kiss.
Leehan, ever the opportunist, kisses back without waiting for permission, coaxing control right out of you and into his hands. He braces your jaw with a strong palm, kissing like a man starved. And maybe he was—judging by how eager his mouth feels against yours—a little salty, making a mess of your emotions as you push back with fervour.
"I love you so much," he whispers between kisses. "More than anything in the world…"
You open your mouth—to return the kiss or to respond to his declaration, you're not sure. But any and all words vanish when a loud BOOM turns both your attentions away.
Smoke spirals in a distance, and slowly when the cloud clears up, you see the building behind it.
The clock tower stands tall, rubble plunging down onto the streets, police sirens beginning to blare as commotion ensues. It's much past midnight now, and usually the city would be swimming in a quiet haze of night-life. Tonight, it's mayhem.
Tides rise from the water below, morphing into phantom-like monsters, illusionary beings made of fire and ash forming out of thin air as people rush away screaming, piling into cars and buildings for safety.
Leehan lets you hold onto him as he swings you over the bridge, past the water, and safely sets you down onto your feet when he reaches underneath the clock tower. He's about to tell you to go take cover and turn on your comms when—
"I'm coming in with you," you speak, resolute.
"Oh no, absolutely not."
"Bug boy, not to be rude, but you don't know the first thing about robots—and I do. Let me handle this with you."
He wants to protest again, but Leehan knows there's no way out for him anymore—unless he managed to lock you up in a car or something until it was over, but then you'd definitely take that as an insult to your pride and capability. So he agrees with a deep sigh.
"Fine," he huffs. "But promise if If I tell you to run, you run."
You give him a determined nod, already sprinting off in the direction of the clock tower, so Leehan has to jog to keep up. He manages to pull on his mask before anyone can sneak a glance.
Before the two of you cross the threshold, he glances back at you. "Also, I did learn a little about robots by the way… Woonhak helped."
You can't help but beam with pride at that.
"Kim Leehan, I have never found you more attractive than I do now." You wink before dashing up the stairs, stunning him into bashful silence. Underneath his mask, his face burns.
Focus.
He berates himself for being so weak to your advances, trying to expel the fact that he was blushing like a schoolgirl at the thought of his girlfriend finding him attractive, while in the midst of the city's imminent downfall if he didn't get it together.
Leehan decides to help you out by shooting a web upwards to wrap around the topmost copper railing, swinging himself upwards and taking you with him.
"Hey, if this Spidey thing doesn't work out long term, you can always offer your transport services to the public," you quip as he lets you down.
A sharp crack of lightning disrupts the peace, frizzling through the jagged hole in the dome above. Thunder begins to roll, grey clouds billowing angrily, the start of something terrible.
In front of you, a silhouette materialises. Larger than he should be, green inferno blazing behind, snapping like a cape—crawling through the brassy gears, circling around them.
Leehan throws a protective arm in front of you. "Stay near me. Don't leave," he reminds you.
The creature makes an inhuman sound, guttural. Quentin Beck's voice is somewhere in there, but smothered by the nightmarish baritone of Venom.
They've fused. Somehow.
Leehan has to repeat to himself not to panic—to stay calm for your sake. But it's your steady arm around his upper arm that brings him down to earth.
"Don't think too hard," the hybrid drawls out. "I let him take over. He needed a body, I needed you dead. Perfect symbiosis."
It occurs to Leehan that this thing—this twisted version of Beck, was still more human than symbiote. Which led to the obvious conclusion that he could still be defeated.
You seem to have the same thought.
"Get Riwoo hyung on call," he says. You don't dawdle, already pulling up your contacts.
Beck moves closer, letting his smoke coalesce into shapes—innocent people shrieking in fear, bubbling fish that fade into obscurity with a simple swish of its tail, a mutant lizard that leaps across the clock's inner dials—miscellaneous nonsense.
"Hypnogens," you state. "Could be paralytic…keep on your toe, yeah?"
"Do I ever not?" Leehan finds the humour to add, and its worth the shot when you grin back.
"Hello?" Riwoo's voice springs into Leehan's ear—he figures you'd connected his comms three-way.
"We need your help, hyung? Can't really explain but it involves a parasitic villain and—"
"Who? Venom?" Riwoo asks as he chews on something.
"Wait," Leehan's wild eyes meet your confused ones. "You knew!?"
"Oh…was it supposed to be a secret…? You kind of bought me a sample and I took a wild guess—Kim Woonhak, will you stop banging your pots together, I'm on a call!"
The absurdity of the situation gives Leehan a whiplash. Here they were, talking on the phone like they weren't in the middle of facing off against a very real threat, possibly deadly hallucinogens surrounding them, while their two friends sat on the other end making a ruckus in Woonhak's kitchen like it wasn't past 1 AM already.
Lo and behold, Woonhak barrels over to interrupt the conversation.
"Hi hyung! Whatcha up to…? We were too busy playing board games, so I haven't turned the TV on yet."
"Woonhak."
"Oh wait shit…I meant, we haven't turned the TV to watch that whale documentary you've been pestering me about, ha ha." He laughs awkwardly, turning to Riwoo to make the excuse worse. "No other reason… What other reason would there be? It's not like Leehan-ie hyung has a second, super secretive, super famous job or anything…"
"Woonhak, you can stop. I don't mind if hyung knows."
"Oh, THANK GOD, because I don't know how many more creative excuses I've got left in me to be honest."
Before Leehan can get to his point, Riwoo is chiming in as well, "You know that I already know he's Spider-Man right?"
Leehan himself is now startled.
"How…"
"Again, you aren't that discreet. The first time you disappeared after Doc Ock had mysteriously made a comeback, you told me that the press paid you to interview 'modern oceanic hybrids' because you're a marine biology student. That's not even a thing."
You keel over clutching your stomach at how funny the situation had evolved—but when it drives Mysterio even more crazy to know that none of you were afraid of him as much as you should be, he doubles down on his powers.
He begins to send one surreal visual after another, trapping you and Leehan in the middle of a hallucinatory circle. They're bizarre, sometimes large and fiery, other times dreamlike, designed to break past your mental walls.
"He's using neurotransmitters. That's why the robots won't die unless he does," you supply, picking through your professor's specific quirks in design. He's always preferred it over remote controlled robotics.
"Venom makes him harder to be killed. It's highly regenerative, so we need to strike at it's weakness…" Leehan says. "Hyung, I figured out it has something to do with heat and sound, but we need to break past the threshold somehow to make sure he doesn't just heal himself over again."
"Where are you right now?" Riwoo asks.
Leehan gives a quick rundown of his location, handing the turn over to you when he feels his skin prickle through his suit. The gas has started to do its job.
He holds onto you as he dodges the snake-like tentacles of smoke, making sure none of it gets into your system. A shot of web sideways, and he barely grazes the leg of a misty spider-like monster, several more spawning beneath—too reminiscent of Leehan's childhood nightmares.
"You okay?" he asks and you nod.
But it's not long after that his web starts to thin out, the abrasive gas eating away at his support until you're both falling downwards.
Somewhere in the darkness, his hands slip from yours, and he lands on all fours.
"Y/N!" Leehan yells out into the shadows.
"Hannie?" your voice calls back, but you aren't there.
You sound far away and near all at once, direction and space making no sense while confined in this hallucinatory hell designed for you.
Leehan turns to call again, but you stand there, eyes vacant.
"Hey…"
You reach out your fingers, ready to welcome him into your embrace. Leehan moves without thinking at first, but then he hears it—a distant echo that sounds like 'bug boy—!'.
This one isn't you…it's yet another invention of Beck's.
Leehan's hand curls into a fist as an eerie smile creeps over fake-you.
"You thought I'd take you back so easily?" you sneer, corrupting his thoughts. "After everything you've put me through… Are you not ashamed, Kim Leehan?"
Leehan isn't immune to how close this you sound to the real thing—but he's studied your cadence and the way you say his name so many times now, that it is sure as day that the hallucination's taunt cannot hold a candle to your giggles.
"Bug boy, where are you?" you—the real you—calls out.
"Here!" Leehan turns to run to you, trying hard to not trip in the pitch black room. He ignores every illusion that Beck places around him, following your voice like a moth to a flame.
He feels your warmth before he sees you.
"You're okay." Leehan hugs you tight. "I thought I'd lost you."
"You will never get rid of me, bug boy," you assure him with a squeeze.
"Okay, lovebirds, can we get back to beating the bad guy now?" Riwoo snaps you back to attention. "Y/N, if you can somehow find a way to create a large explosion, or some sort of amplified sound, it might get Venom to back off. Fire should work too, but it needs to burn through the cells before they start restoring themselves."
"The problem is that there are also drones involved," you explain. "Beck's gone haywire with his smoke and laser. Wait…maybe we can use that to our advantage somehow…"
"Woah, hold on," Woonhak reappears into your ears. "Beck? As in, our professor Beck?? Our professor's evil???"
"Long story," you say with a tired sigh.
"Does this mean I can't get that letter of recommendation he promised me after I graduate—"
"Woonhak, focus!" You turn back to Leehan, intertwining your fingers with his. "Remember those stun grenades I'd made?"
Leehan nods.
"I want you to use those as a distraction while I try something that might work. But I'll need your webs."
"Wait," Leehan's brows furrow in worry. "We aren't separating—it's too dangerous."
"Hannie, do you trust me?"
"Yes, of course I do—"
"Then trust me when I say we'll always find our way back to each other." You offer him a soft smile. "No matter what, okay? It's you and me against the world. Plus, I'll be right here." You tap at where his ear should be.
Leehan lets go of your hand only when you give him a non-verbal cue that it's time to get to business. He ignores Riwoo and Woonhak's embarrassing coos while he heads the opposite way in search of Beck.
You climb up the spiral stairwell to the highest point reachable, while Leehan drops into a crouch some floors below, resting himself steadily over a flat piece of cog. Rain begins to pelt down slowly, drenching him. At your tap over a giant wheel, Leehan springs a jet of webs to tie around its pinion.
"Trying to be clever?" Beck leers, appearing below Leehan, his body covered in a mass of symbiotic semifluid—curling, lashing, whipping menacingly at air. "Now be a pair of brave children and come down, won't you… Fight me head on."
Leehan ties the other end of the web around a tube at his feet, using his now freed hands to reach for his utility belt. Beck is slow to react when a stun grenade explodes into his chest.
The symbiote shrieks in pain as a deafening bang transpires, writhing when Leehan follows it with more launched one after the other, overriding its senses.
At the same time, you're trying to push the cog to turn, using the web as a leverage in what looks like a quickly thought version of a pulley system. Planting your feet firmly to the narrow mesh flooring, you pull with a grunt. It moves barely enough for a spark to come alive.
"It's working!" Leehan hears you exclaim, and it brings a sense of optimism to his own movements. Beck tries to rip the symbiote off of him, but the more he flails, the more it clings onto him. Unlike with Leehan, Venom seems to need Beck's life source to remain intact after the damage done.
Leehan helps you out by adding another stream of webs for support, pushing his entire body weight backwards as he too begins to pull. The cog moves clockwise, its age-old teeth harshly scraping against metal. The speedier you get it to rotate, the quicker the friction turns to heat, sparking a dim yellow first, then steadily builds up to a blinding white flame.
The fire travels down the wiring, through metal and cords, setting the entire tower ablaze—and with it, Venom. You and Leehan remain safe at the centre, simply watching as Beck shrieks in agony, crying words of anger and insult at Spider-Man till he slumps over.
"You'll…pay for this," he grunts in his own voice, burns casing his skin. Before he takes his final breath, perhaps as his last act of vengeance, Quentin Beck looks straight at you. Then with his remaining shred of vitality, he commands a drone to fire its laser at the grill that keeps you balanced.
"NO—" Leehan springs into action at once, but the beam breaks your footing, and snaps the web in your fist into two. His eyes meet your frightened ones in what feels like a slow-moving dream.
The clock hands move to 1:21.
You're falling, slipping away when he isn't quick enough—not near enough to reach you, just like in his nightmares. They feel like a premonition now.
Leehan is diving after you, shooting a web at your fading silhouette, trying so hard to make it to you.
Your lips move to mould the shape of I love you around them; Leehan prays this isn't a farewell.
Cogs and wheels frame your fall, making you look small and so, so human. There is nothing but the sound of a downpour in his ear. Leehan has never felt this scared in his entire life.
A split second before your body makes contact with the dusty ground some hundred feet below, his web manages to wrap around your torso; your head slumping back in whiplash.
Leehan drops next to you at once.
"Y/N?" he crouches down to rest you in his lap, moving your hair away from your face. "Hey, look at me. You're okay now."
Your lips don't move. Nothing happens.
Leehan rips off his mask to discard it somewhere. "Y/N… c'mon, it's over now—wake up."
His hair sags under the weight of rain, hands cradling your unmoving face reverently, too scared to press too hard lest you break.
It can't be over. It shouldn't be over so soon. You'd promised him all the time in the world, so why had you broken your end of it.
In a moment of haze, Leehan wonders if this was the universe's sick way of getting back at him for abandoning you before.
"We were supposed to last," he chokes on a sob into he crook of your neck, wishing more than anything for your fingers to come alive and brush through his strands. "You and I can make it through anything. Right Y/N?"
The fire around him dies down as though it understands not to disturb his grieving, too weak to survive in the face of the rain's wrath. It turns to ash and smoke, billowing out the cracks and into the starry sky.
"I love you." Tears roll down Leehan's face. He thinks of you when you were full of life…it feels like a lifetime ago now—your determined grin when you came up with a supposedly impossible idea, all the things you were supposed to do….the amazing inventions you were going to change the world with.
Woonhak's quiet sobs leak through your in-ears that have fallen out onto the ground, accompanied by Riwoo's gentle breathing.
At 1:21 AM on a pouring winter morning, Leehan's heart cleaves into two halves. And yours stop beating.
The world stills, and everything good refuses to exist for him. He burrows his head deeper into the crook of your neck, memorising what's left of your warmth, refusing to let go even when you aren't responding—
"Bug boy, why're you crying?"
Leehan thinks he's hallucinating again, that your voice is just an effect of his insanity, but the hands that come to brush back his hair feels too real to be a figment of imagination.
"Y-Y/N…?" Leehan finally lifts his head to look at you.
You're still breathing shallow, but your eyes have cracked open just a smidge, and an amused quirk of your lips lets him know that you aren't dead.
"Do you have some leftover Venom in your bag? I may need to regenerate some of my organs…" you quip lightly and Leehan crushes you into an all-consuming hug, his heart beating out of his chest, tears still spilling.
Riwoo whoops in the background, and Woonhak does a celebratory backflip, his excitement bleeding into Leehan's own.
"Told you I won't leave you that easily," you say as you wipe away at his wet cheeks, even going as far as dabbing it with your sleeve.
Leehan catches your wrist gently.
"I thought you almost broke your promise," he confesses, quiet, meant for just your ears.
Your eyes crinkle. "But those are the best kind."
The city stills, illusions vanishing away like they'd never been there in the first place, and Leehan presses a kiss to your palm.
On a rainy December night, you find your way back to each other again.
[EPILOGUE—5 years later]
SPRING
Being a to-be-wed is not a task for the weak.
7:00 AM
Your hair is coiled perfectly, coming down in ringlets to frame your face. There's soft blush on your cheeks, your lips painted a colour that brings out your features.
The suite is beautiful from where you stand, adorned in a long white dress, twirling in front of the mirror. Out the window, the sea sparkles a light blue under the morning sun. You carefully adjust the veil on your head, fastening your dangling earrings.
Everything is perfect, and you couldn't be happier.
7:00 AM
The groom's room is in chaotic disarray.
Woonhak is coughing on a mouthful of complimentary donuts that was supposed to be saved for the reception, getting crumbs all over his new tux, and Riwoo keeps opening and closing the velvet box anxiously—afraid he'd somehow mess up his only job as the ring bearer.
"Hyung, breathe," Woonhak manages to choke out. It's directed at a wildly pacing Leehan.
"What if Y/N says no…" he suddenly drops to a crouch, cradling his head in his hands, a genuinely worried expression crossing his face.
"Five years and you're still no better than you used to be…tsk, tsk." Woonhak shakes his head in disapproval.
But Riwoo is kind enough to come crouch next to Leehan, an empathetic hand at his back. "Leehan, you and I both know how entirely wrong you are. She loves you more than anyone else in the world. There is not a single universe where she'd say no."
"What if…" Leehan barely makes himself seen through the crook of his elbows. "What if she realises I'm not good enough for her?"
"Then who is?"
"Huh?"
Riwoo repeats once more, "Then who is good for her, if not you?"
Leehan comes short of an answer. There is no person that can match up to you—no one who he can imagine keeping up with you while you ran to your golden future. And yet, you'd chosen him.
It isn't long until the wedding planner knocks on the door to usher everyone out, interrupting Leehan's mini meltdown for good. He sucks in a deep breath, steadies himself, and follows the rest out.
7:40 AM
An 8 o'clock ceremony was as uncommon as they came, but you'd been stubborn about just this one thing (and several other demands, depending on if you asked Woonhak or not).
In all fairness, nothing about this whole ordeal was run-of-the-mill.
When Leehan had proposed to you, he'd done it at the beach, the sun setting behind the waves, your feet dipped in shallow water. He'd popped out a pebble to offer to you with the most shy grin you'd ever witnessed on his face, kneeling right into the wet sand and proceeding to get his jeans wet.
Needless to say, the ride home was an awkward one, most of his lower half splotched and soaking. But it hadn't mattered too much when the both of you wore matching grins and your hands held onto a pebble the shade of your eyes.
Woonhak had shrieked at the news, way too excited about the fact that Spider-Man was about to be a married man soon. Riwoo had pulled the both of you into a tight hug, sobbing into your shoulders like a mother about to let go of her children.
"Look at you two," he had been sobbing. "my babies—all grown up."
"Hyung, you sound so old right now," Leehan had quipped over his neck, exchanging an amused glance with you. You'd simply shrugged and let Riwoo hold you in the same position until his arms started to go numb.
Currently, you wait with bated breath, a bouquet of white tulips in hand as the door opens before you. It's a pleasant sort of sunny today—perfect weather for a wedding.
"Cue music, bride on standby," the wedding coordinator adjusts his microphone. "In three, two, one—and begin entrance!"
8:00 AM
Leehan holds his breath as you come into view, a trail of white over the long carpets laid on the sand. Woonhak walks some distance in front, tossing petals more enthusiastically than any one ever could (he'd volunteered himself as the flower girl when you'd brought up the idea for the sake of humour).
Beside him, Riwoo stands dutifully with the box safely placed inside his pockets, and Mr. Kim readies himself to proceed with the ceremony as the officiant. He'd pretended to not care when you had asked for his help, but after all, it was the biology project that he had assigned once upon a time that brought the two of you together—a partnership that had eventually evolved into something precious and lifelong.
"Dearly beloved," Mr. Kim begins once you reach the groom. "We are gathered here today to celebrate the union of two brilliant, beautiful people…."
8:00 AM
Leehan is so gorgeous, is your first thought.
His dark tux and dark hair makes him look ethereal with the cerulean sea as a backdrop, his slightly glistening eyes that you're sure is from holding back tears—everything about Leehan has you head over heels in love.
Woonhak sprinkles his flower petals onto the carpet and sand, Riwoo watches you both in adoration, your and Leehan's parents huddled together on the frontmost pew, sniffling and dabbing at their cheeks with a handkerchief.
"Dearly beloved," Mr. Kim begins once you reach your fiancé—soon to be husband. "We are gathered here today to celebrate the union of two brilliant, beautiful people…."
Soft music joins the sway of breeze, tides rising and crashing, everything warm—golden. All you see is Leehan when your hands fall safely into his.
"Do you, Kim Leehan, take L/N Y/N to be your lawfully wedded wife?"
Leehan does not look away from you. " I do," he whispers.
"And do you, L/N Y/N, take Kim Leehan to be your lawfully wedded husband?"
You smile. "I—"
BEEEEEEEEEEEP—!!!
Leehan’s watch has gone off, tucked under the cuff of his tux sleeve.
The crowd stares in confusion. Mr Kim pauses his officiating. You look at Leehan, he looks at you—a secret language that perplexes everyone else but Riwoo and Woonhak.
There's no pleasantries or apologies made when you grab his hand and make a run for it.
Your heels slip off as warm sand meets the soles of your feet, and you break out into an unrestrained fit of giggles when Leehan starts to discard his expensive tux somewhere on the ground, his Spidey suit peeking through the white shirt over it.
Somewhere behind you, Woonhak starts to make excuses on your behalf.
"The groom's got a terrible bladder," he placates the crowd. "And the bride has bad separation anxiety."
Riwoo thumps him aggressively on the back with a tight smile and a "Stop. Talking." muttered through gritted teeth.
Once you're a safe distance away from the wedding goers, Leehan abruptly turns to you with wide eyes.
"Wait, you didn't say I do yet," he realises.
The sheer sincerity with which he says it makes you reach up and steal a kiss from him.
"I do," you say before he responds. "Forever, bug boy."
He sighs with a smile. "Forever…"
But you're already pulling him along, off to the next mission. "Now let's go kick some butt!" you shout excitedly, making him giggle too.
Being Spider-Man is still the coolest job in the world. He loves all of it—the perks and the hard parts alike. It's sort of like a marriage, Leehan muses.
However, if it means he will get to sprint through the rest of his life with your hand in his, it's a risk he's willing to brave.
But Leehan has to admit—nothing beats being your husband.
⏱︎ GENRE: Spider-Man! AU | fluff, action, angst
⏱︎ SYN: to you, Kim Leehan is your gorgeous nerd of a boyfriend, who hasn't been able to take his eyes off you ever since you made it official. So why is he crawling in through your dorm windows at 3 am on a Saturday... And why is he... is he—breaking up with you...?
⏱︎ TOTAL WC: 33.8k [pt1: 14k, pt2: 19.8k]
⏱︎ T/W: lots of kissing, graphic violence, themes of death
⏱︎ A/N: thank you from the bottom of my heart if you've reached the final part of the lovebug series. it's truly been a labour of love to work on this story, so while im quite sad to say goodbye to it, im also happy to wrap it up quite satisfactorily <33 again, ily all for reading!
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FALL
Leehan sticks out like a sore thumb amongst the giggly students, back on campus for their first day of the second semester.
They chatter about family vacations and summer internships, voices bright and giddy. Unlike them, Leehan rubs his shadowy eyes before awkwardly placing his glasses back on.
"Riwoo hyung?" His throat croaks when he speaks, hair sticking up oddly as Riwoo spots him peeking in through the crack in the door.
"Leehan? Come in, come in! I was just setting up the classroom." The shorter blond smiles in his naturally amiable way, then looks down at his watch. "Wow, it's still early…even for you."
Leehan wastes no time. "Hyung, what do you know about parasites?"
"Wow, straight to the point, huh?" Riwoo grins, but when Leehan's face remains serious, he decides to answer without teasing. "Considering it's the centre of my thesis, I'd say…a lot."
"Symbiotes in specific."
"Symbiotes? Like the metahuman species on the news?"
Leehan nods.
Riwoo hums in thought as he taps a marker on the desk. "We don't know a lot about dangerous organisms like those just yet, considering they're most likely alien to our planet. But…it would be safe to assume they work like any other parasite."
"Do you think that…hypothetically, it could kill its host?"
"Hypothetically," Riwoo says, "yes. yes it could kill. But there's no saying how long it could take and how painful it would be without a thorough assessment of its physiology and mechanics, of course." When he sees Leehan's curious tilt of the head, he lets out a small laugh. "Interested?"
"Hm?"
"In parasites. You're free to come work in the lab on your own, but I doubt we have anything as cool as an alien symbiote…the most I can offer are tapeworms."
Leehan forces a smile at that—on any other day, he wouldn't have to, because anything Riwoo says is enough to send him into a fit of laughter. Today though, Leehan is distracted.
He had stayed up all night without reaching anything useful. Somehow, he'd managed to coax the symbiote out of his bag and onto his table, but it had barely reacted—simply laying there, weak and limp. As a final resort, he had even tried poking the shapeless goo with a stick to see if it would do something to retaliate…but nothing had happened.
"What if I could get you a sample?" Leehan asks before he can stop himself.
Riwoo's brows scrunch; he doesn't understand.
The younger boy repeats, "D'you think you can run some tests…if I can get you a sample?"
"Of the symbiote?"
The last thing Riwoo expects is for Leehan to nod. He doesn't even give the TA enough time to process the meaning of that before digging into this backpack to take out a Ziploc bag containing some sort of obsidian slime.
"Leehan…" Riwoo squints, then takes a deep breath. "What the actual fuck?"
It's probably the first time Leehan has heard the sweet research student say anything even remotely uncouth, so he assumes it must be a shock response.
"Riwoo hyung, I need you to ask as little questions as possible, but," Leehan says, feverishly, "I already tried testing stimuli—touch, scent, light…it's been pointless so far. I really need your help."
Riwoo looks at him—really looks at him, how frantic Leehan seems, more than just his normally clumsy demeanour. This time, he looks about as sane as some of the villains Riwoo's seen on TV: the way he bites his lip hard enough to draw blood, how red the whites of his eyes look, the sallow complexion of his skin…something is terribly wrong.
But Leehan needs his help and Riwoo does not pry.
"Alright, I'll run some tests," he says as he gingerly takes the transparent bag.
Leehan breathes out a sigh of relief, the knot in his chest easing now that he's got someone who understands the organism better than most people could. Riwoo urges him to skip class in lieu of getting some much needed sleep, and Leehan reluctantly agrees. He doesn't notice the older boy's worried eyes following his figure as he lets the door close behind him.
Before concern can gnaw at his brain, Riwoo pulls out his phone and shoots you a text.
//
"Hannie—!!"
Flames, roaring around him, tearing like wind through the room—burning flesh, burning everything in its path.
Leehan reacts to your voice like muscle memory, "Y/N!"
"Leehan, here!"
It's all smoke and char, and a figure in the distance, close to the ledge of the building. You. One more step back and you'd be tipping off, too late to be reached, to be saved.
Leehan runs.
His fingers almost meet yours—but almost doesn't cut it when you've already fallen, fading into the grey clouds of smoke below. Leehan hears your screams…or is it him that's screaming? He can't tell.
"Hannie," your voice echoes again.
"Y/N?"
"Hannie, wake up."
"Hm?"
"Wake up, you're sweating." Your face comes into focus. "It's a fever."
Leehan leans up on his elbows, almost slipping on his bedsheet, but you loop an arm under his shoulder to keep him steady. Your other hand comes to check his temperature.
"You're burning up," you say, brushing away the sweaty strands of gold hair. "Let's go to the doctor."
"It's just the weather change," he says dismissively, and it pinches at your annoyance a little.
"Have you been sleeping?"
He doesn't speak, but his eyes evade yours. The boy is no good at lying, no matter how hard he tries to.
"Did you eat at all today?"
Leehan has the decency to look at least a little ashamed, and eventually he shakes his head, a small motion combined with a gulp.
Riwoo had told you earlier, how Leehan had seemed so off that morning. You've been feeling it too—his sudden bouts of silence, when he zones out into space while he normally would've been earnestly listening to you; the way he hasn't asked you to turn on your comms each time he's gone out to patrol or fight. He seems even more alert of danger—obsessively checking the wiretapped police radio for news. You don't even know the last time he took off his suit; it wouldn't be crazy to assume he's wearing it right at this moment too.
There are more obvious signs. For example, he hasn't talked about fish with you in close to two weeks, not since the fire.
Something is terribly wrong, and you hope to the heavens the feeling of dread beginning to grow inside you is just an illusion.
"Hannie, you should take a break from," you pull down his collar just enough for his red suit to peek through, "this."
"People need help. They need Spider-Man."
"And I need you," You guide his head back onto the pillow, tugging off his overshirt. He doesn't fight it, too feeble to muster complaints. "I'm gonna go and get you some soup, yeah? Your mom sent a recipe for when I had the sniffles and it worked like a charm, remember?"
"Y/N, I don't need—"
"Shush, lemme take care of you. It's my duty as your girlfriend," you press a kiss to his cheek, swinging your purse over your shoulder, "Be back in twenty. Don't go anywhere!"
You give him a glare of warning before making your way out of your room, and once you're outside, let out a relieved breath that he still had the forethought to come to you before anyone else in this state.
Leehan stares at the ceiling for what feels like aeons, his head spinning when he strains too much at a spot, despite wearing glasses. His lips feel cracked, muscles weak; somewhere deep inside, he knows this isn't just physical—the recent nightmares have been driving his sanity downwards with each passing day, and in every single one of them, either one of you dies.
BEEEEEEEEEP–!
His watch blares, indicating a blinking signal near the museum. When Leehan wearily reaches for his phone on the side-table, he notices that you had forgotten to take yours with you.
He should stay put, that way, you won't be worried on the chance you come back and don't see him in bed. But when the news feed buzzes to life, Leehan sees the absolute mayhem going on in the streets: people's screams as they try to flee from a giant robot; it bulldozes without any care, sweeping away cars and streetlights with barely a step or two.
They need him, and fast.
Leehan discards his clothes with what energy's left of him, pulling on his mask with trembling hands. He doesn't make it past the window threshold before his body gives out, brain a jumble of dizziness—he could throw up from the nausea.
He's half slumped over, kneeling against the wall, when he feels something prod at his feet.
Venom.
The life form curls around his limbs, growing upwards like vines, twisting itself around Leehan's suit. The resurgence is immediate—a rush of adrenaline coursing through his veins like cold wind, replacing the prior fatigue with something strong, something…addictive.
"What are you…?" Leehan mumbles curiously as he looks down at his own hands. When he tests out a shot of web to the bedpost, it's faster than ever, even more than he could manage on his best days. It must be the symbiote's doing.
We are Venom.
Leehan jumps at the voice; he can’t place whether it comes from near him, or inside of him. When he catches sight of his own reflection in the window, barely illuminated by the setting sun, he reels backwards in shock.
Instead of seeing Spider-Man, Leehan sees an eerie slit of a smile where his mouth should be covered by the mask—a white spider marking his chest, giving way to the spindly, tar-like substance that makes up the rest of him.
Scared? The voice resounds again, deep and thrumming. Its words crawl. Spider-Man’s fear tastes good!
STOP–! Leehan attempts to overpower, to retract control, but the baritone cackle smothers over all his thoughts.
We kid, Venom appeases with a sly smile in his tone. We can help you. If you let us.
The offer stays dangled in front of him like bait; if Leehan was any less desperate, he would have ripped the symbiote off his skin, even if it took flesh with it, and chosen a less risky route to save those people's lives. But he's out of options right now. He's sick, and exhausted, and Venom makes him stronger. It's the simple truth.
He'd be an idiot to turn down the proposition.
Leehan doesn't even need to speak for the thing to understand; he cackles once more, and Leehan feels his own thoughts being assaulted, no safety within a mind that's supposed to be his alone.
It's fine, It's going to be fine, he tells himself over and over like a prayer—he remembers it to be an imitation of how you calm him down in tense situations, with a hand on his back and a kiss to his cheek. Leehan convinces himself that this is a temporary invasion—that he should be okay once he gets the crisis handled, that he can discard Venom once the mission is over and done.
So like always, he puts one foot up on the ledge and leaps.
//
Okay, so that was a terrible idea.
"You said you'd help!" Leehan screams as his ribcage crushes under the weight of the fifteen-foot-something robot's sole.
We feed on anger, Spider-Man. Not cowardice. Get up.
"I would if I could," Leehan grumbles as he squirms. Eventually he manages to pry an arm from underneath and shoot a tight rope of web around the metal behemoth's neck, yanking it powerfully so that it almost trips over and he takes the chance to haul himself up onto its nape.
To his surprise, his body doesn't ache like it should. When he runs a quick palm over his torso, he feels no broken bones. Venom must have healed him…somehow.
The tank of metal flails around, trying to swat Spider-Man off its back like he was nothing but a pesky fly. Leehan has to fire another jet of cobwebs to veer the giant away from crushing several people on the street—playing puppeteer—but the loss of balance sends it crashing through a line of buildings, eventually landing near a signboard for an ongoing performance, right outside the concert hall.
Leehan needs to stop this thing from hurting more civilians, that's his only priority when springs off to pull out the stun gun from his utility belt.
The…utility belt. Fuck, he'd forgotten it at home.
A rush of panic surges through him; it's worse when the absence of your voice in his ear makes itself evident. He's gonna fail, he's about to—
Kill it! —Venom instructs. Leehan wants to argue that he can't kill a machine, but the symbiote jumbles his thoughts so much that it disorients him, muscles spasming as though Leehan was the puppet now—just a body under the influence of something vile and dangerous.
He feels himself move, sees himself wrangle the robot to the ground, punching a fist through its armour. Venom's own pointless rage contaminates his confusion. And the more he attempts to fight it away, the worse it feels.
Kill! Kill! Kill! Venom is shrieking with uncontainable laughter; with every part of the machine coming off, Leehan feels the pure joy of violence. A little voice in his head—somewhere deep and untouched by the symbiote—tells him to stop. But he's too weak to obey.
Leehan can see his body swell to twice its size, muscles expanding, the writhing biomass of his faux skin morphing into a scythe—and its brought down to slice into metal, sending electric sparks flying into the rubble as wires show underneath. It's all Venom now, no part of Leehan in control. He is but a subconscious voice—there but not really. Floating inside the creature, only half aware. There's jagged teeth—long canines under a lashing tongue, too long to be human, too predatory to be kind. His vision is obscured as though behind a blurry visor, also floating like the rest of him.
There's an unnatural smile at his mouth when the robot stops moving altogether, more bloodthirsty than victorious. Mixed in with the fear in Leehan is a shameless rush of adrenaline.
It feels good—the act of hurting, he thinks. It's the closest to happiness he's felt in weeks.
Somewhere above him, the whirr of engines distracts his thrashing, or more so, distracts Venom. His clawed hands reconfigure into something tentacle-like, aiming for any of the multiple drones hovering overhead. They fade in and out as though behind a holographic screen, reappearing somewhere feets away that the symbiote can't catch up to its speed.
Mysterio.
Mysterio's here—Leehan's sure he is.
Before he can take a moment to think, Venom has already started chasing headfirst after a drone, crashing a hole through the concert hall's brick wall.
WAIT!—Leehan tries, but it's already too late. People scramble out of their chairs, shrieking as they squeeze past bodies and seats. A lady freezes in fear, her eyes bulging out of their sockets at the sight of Venom, of the monstrous creature Leehan was trapped within.
He wants to reach out and help her. He wants to be Spider-Man, but this body cages him in as it courses after the taunting drones.
"You're alright. You're safe, there's no need to worry. I have the situation under control," is what Leehan means to say.
But what comes out of his imposter's mouth is, "Killlllllllll—!!!"
The woman screams in panic, alerting the rest of the crowd at the front, and it belatedly occurs to Leehan that the music was ever there when it suddenly dies with an unpleasant clang of the wrong piano keys. The pianist takes off behind the curtain, and the opera singer lets out a shrill cry of terror.
The sheer frequency of it breaks a vessel inside of Venom, making him keel over in pain.
Human, make it stop! Make it—AHHHHHHHHH!!!
Leehan's own injury meshes with the mess of agony transferred from the symbiote's end, the obsidian material of his skin-suit struggling to peel away from Leehan's body, static washing over him with every attempt to separate.
A shot of fire lands on his arm and it multiplies the misery ten-fold. Venom yells as his skin bubbles up, melting away like grease, acrid smoke stinging the air. Leehan feels all of it, hissing, recoiling futilely. Flames catch onto the long scarlet curtains, spreading in lines around the perimeter, burning through age-old wood and polish. People scream, a beam above the stage crashing onto the floor into dust, and Leehan feels the symbiote leave him.
"Y/N," he says in habit, but you're not here. You're unaware of his state, blissfully oblivious of the dangerous predicament he's put himself under. Maybe that's for the best, he muses.
Leehan picks himself up, makes a half-assed attempt at putting himself back together, and takes one last look at the burning building before he’s forced to flee.
He’s fucked up terribly this time.
//
"You better have a good explanation." The ice in your voice makes his weary body stiffen over the window, spiking guilt and shame up his spine, rendering him speechless. Nothing he says can make it better.
When he finally looks over, gripping his mask in hand, a heavy gulp squeezing down his throat, Leehan feels sick again. Underneath his red suit, dregs of the symbiote cling to his skin, cold to the touch.
"You didn't call me, you didn't say you were leaving, nothing…" you say through a tight breath. "I've been dead worried, did you realise? I come home, expecting my sick boyfriend to be in bed—where I told him to stay put, and all I get is an empty room and radio silence."
"I'm fine—" Leehan starts, but you cut his excuse off.
"You could have died." It's curt, biting. "Why the fuck wouldn't you turn your comms on?"
"Your phone wasn't with you," is Leehan's answer. He collapses to the floor, vision hazy.
Despite the absolute wreckage to his physical body, he still feels the electric buzz courtesy of the symbiote's effect—alcoholic almost, a fever high that both took away a part of him, and refilled the empty space with an addictive energy. Adrenaline and power. A lethal combo.
"Still," you continue, taking a step towards him, untangling your crossed arms from over your chest. "There were other ways…you could have found me first. Or waited."
"People were about to die."
"You're a person too, you idiot. My person. What should I…" Your voice cracks albeit your attempt to reel it back to a stable line, turning into half a sob the second his eyes meet you. You look away down to the carpet, hiding how you bite your bottom lip to stop it from quivering. "You didn't keep your promise, Leehan."
"Some promises are meant to be broken." The words are out his mouth before he can take it back. You slowly lift your face in shock, wondering if you'd heard him wrong.
"What's happened to you?" There's no malice when you ask, just the slight waver of fear. "You don't talk to me anymore—why won't you just talk to me, huh?"
Silence again; Leehan wishes he had something appeasing to hand you—an assurance of 'I'm sorry, it won't happen again'—but he knows it will be just another lie, a promise he'll worry over but never have the capacity to keep. So long as he is Spider-Man.
Frustration claws at his innards, coiling like ropes into him, mixing with the utter failure of today's events. And there's anger there too—mostly at himself, a lot at Mysterio for planting the seed of doubt in his mind; Leehan curses internally at how foolish he had been for letting it grow rampant until he'd started waking up screaming from visions of death—of your death, of you being pulled into this mess of a life he'd been doomed to live.
Venom's tie to him only amplifies every terrible emotion he's plagued with.
"Let me at least clean you up," you choke back a sniffle, inching closer to try and lean down to meet his eye.
But the soft touch of your fingers over his cheek sends him into panic; he swats it away with more aggression than he means to, like your body had somehow burnt him.
"I—" Leehan shivers as something sad engulfs your expression. Your hand stays frozen in place, not knowing what you'd done wrong to anger him. Or worse yet, to hurt him. "Sorry," he says in the smallest of voices, looking away because one more look at you is all it will take to ruin him beyond repair.
But you don't yell. You don't blame him. Instead, you gingerly bring your hand to your side, then squat down to meet him at eye-length.
"Get some sleep. There's soup on the table," you say softly, and when he doesn't acknowledge it, you purse your lips, then bring yourself to your feet again. Leehan hears footsteps, then a quiet click of the door.
When he looks down at his collarbone, he sees reeds of black clawing up again, desperate to feed on his grim thoughts.
He leaves the soup untouched, crawling out your window for somewhere no one can find him easily.
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Time passes, but the recovery is gradual.
You don't mention a thing, and he doesn't bring it up either. It's a slow monotony of pretending away the awkwardness, but it helps, somehow.
Leehan gets coaxed into your bed again, after you'd politely asked his mother for permission to keep him there out of worry. He obeys wordlessly—drinks whatever concoction you slip past his lips, stares blankly in the direction of his suit you'd folded up neatly behind one of your shelves, flexes his fingers as though to test out their strength, feeling slack and weary, and more than often, his eyes stray away to his backpack, where he knows the symbiote remains dormant.
You'd gently taken away his phone; Leehan knows why you do it—to keep him from news channels, from terrible online commenters who'd no doubt found blame in the Venom incident. All Leehan knows for now is that you probably don't know as much about the symbiote's relation to him either, given you hadn't asked a single question, nor had you looked into his belongings for any traces of danger. And logically, that should mean the general public hadn't connected the dots either. There's some relief in that, but not much.
Then there are the babysitters you not-so-secretly sent his way when you're too busy with school-work.
Sometimes it's Woonhak, who casually strolls into your dorm room with an annoyingly big grin on his face; it looks too big to be real, and Leehan can already tell he's trying to brighten up his mood.
"Leehan Hyung! Wait, should I say Spidey Hyung? Is that too weird… Anyways," he's rambling as he pulls out several bags of dinosaur-shaped gummies and prawn crackers from a plastic bag. "Y/N has been on my back about me 'breaking important lab equipment'—" He mockingly adds air quotes, rolling his eyes comically. "Not like our university can't afford it, it's just that they spend all their funding on the athletics department and well—back to my point, she was saying how you've been sick and I volunteered to check up if it meant not having her breathe down my neck every time I'm trying to connect two wires together."
The younger boy never really acknowledges Spider-Man's public absence, and Leehan thanks him internally.
Leehan gratefully chews on a piece of candy without saying much in response. Words don't make it past his throat as easy these days.
Thankfully, Woonhak does enough talking for two people—he's jabbering on as though playing a part in a one-man show, taking deep breaths between every gap only to continue with an even lengthier monologue about space-time travel, and engineering recreational flamethrowers, and of course, once he runs out of wind, he switches to asking non-stop questions about being Spider-Man.
"When you swing from one building to the next, going at the speed you do, do you ever get airsick? Cuz there are medications for nausea you know."
"On a scale from 1 to 10, how likely are you to let me borrow the suit…? I'll even dry clean it for you!"
"So… do you like make the webs or…'make' the webs if you know what I mean—"
Leehan does not know what he means, so he just shrugs, scooting deeper into his cocoon made of blankets.
He means well, Leehan knows this, but some days he's just glad Woonhak is too preoccupied with his projects to torment his personal space. However, you have decided that he's not to be left completely alone at all times, which means it's Riwoo's turn to take care of him.
Unlike Woonhak, the TA acts more like a coddling mother—even more than his real one.
"You need to eat to feel stronger. Just bear the taste for a little more, okay? Now, say aaaaaah—"
"I know it's cold but you need the sponge baths. I promise to bring more sweaters for you tonight."
"Don't even think about coming back to class tomorrow—you've still got a temperature and you can barely hold a pen in your hand, let alone stand on your own two feet. I've already put in a request to extend the medical leave."
Leehan feels like a bedridden patient, inching closer to death by the day.
He's lying flat on the mattress, head propped up high, a cold towel on his forehead as Riwoo refills the water jug beside the bed. Leehan has been feeling better lately—no nightmares to plague his sleep, and no news of villains to take up his thoughts. His world has been strangely quiet.
"Hyung." He tilts his head to face Riwoo. "About the sample…"
Riwoo stares at him expressionlessly for a beat, then sighs, giving into Leehan's inquiry.
"I did what I could, but obviously, there are limits—" Leehan automatically perks up. "There's the basics: strength, durability, elasticity, healing… Exceptional performance in each of these factors. The symbiote seems to be made of some sort of organic polymer with insane regenerative capacity."
"And…?"
"Well, I'm guessing the government could have good use for it; imagine how it could revolutionise medicine, or the military."
Leehan gazes off into the distance as the other boy watches him. Riwoo looks as though he's wondering whether to ask Leehan questions of his own, but he swallows it down without prying.
When he too has to leave, Leehan has short windows of time to spend in his own company, before you'll eventually come home and berate him for forgetting to eat again. Most of it, he uses to wallow in his hyperfixation: Venom, who has started to consume his thoughts in more ways than one. He knows he can use this to fix his weakness, to finally beat Mysterio for good.
And that's how he ends up looking forward to Woonhak's visit for once.
Out of the three of you, he'd be the easiest to convince, given his over-interest in Leehan's part-time persona as Spider-Man.
"Leehan-ie hyung, you look like you're doing better! I must be an awesome nurse," he muses to himself, setting down a bag of takeout.
"Woonhak-ah," Leehan's voice startles him, not having heard it clearly in ages. "I need your help."
At first, the boy's entire face lights up like a Christmas tree. Soon after, it dissolves into a grimace and a gulp of fear. Leehan can tell he's afraid of what will be asked of him, and more importantly, of your reaction if he agrees.
"In return, you can ask me anything you want—I'll answer all of it," Leehan adds, a last ditch effort.
It isn't a secret that Woonhak has been suspiciously hoarding his used tissues and plastic water bottles to sell online as merchandise—not when he has the nerve to ask Leehan how high a crinkly napkin could sell for. Leehan is half glad that Woonhak isn't a Biotechnology major or he'd have most likely stolen his DNA for some sort of cloning experiment.The most absurd thing he has done so far is casually mention that he dabbles in writing Spider-Man fanfiction online, and while it sounds relatively harmless, Leehan does not want details.
Leehan is positive he'll take the bait—that the opportunity to get closer to Spider-Man looks alluring to the boy.
When Woonhak seems to slowly lower his defence, Leehan feels optimistic enough to ask, "Just let me borrow your phone for a bit," he says. "Just a bit."
He hesitantly pulls out his phone and hands it to Leehan, the grip on it loosening when Leehan flashes him a pathetic pout, wet eyes and all. Woonhak fiddles with the tapered end of a pillow as Leehan opens up his socials and scrolls down the newsfeed.
It's so much worse than he'd anticipated.
'Spider-Man fails to show; local concert hall burns down'—the tabloid headline reads, accompanied by reactions from internet users below, each more sour than the last.
user1091: knew 'vigilante justice' was just a hoax. where are superheros when you need them? probably off on vacation pretending to care about the world ugh.
spidermansucks: I was there when this happened, some monster beat the shit out of a robot and then set fire to a building. It's lucky no one died.
rando-on-the-street: this is all Spider-Man's fault. he should have stopped the criminals from breaking out of prison in the first place.
SpideyHak06: MAYBE HE WAS BUSY SAVING THE CITY YOU ASSHOLES! stop lying and go get a job
Some are mild, bordering on just frustration at the incident being so poorly handled. The rest simply point fingers at Spider-Man for not being quick enough—for not caring enough to stop Venom's damage. The only saving grace is a lack of footage, and Leehan wonders if that's somehow Mysterio's doing, some twisted way to mask the truth just enough for the public to hate Leehan.
He can't stop scrolling once he's started, and what he finds leaves a bitter taste on his tongue.
'Fault', 'Incompetent', 'Fake'—the words echo uneasily in his brain, along with the imagined visual of people's angry expressions aimed his way. Street interviews dig the point even deeper, clarifying how much public scrutiny he'd been subjected to since the event, how any tiny mistake he'd made before this had been dug up to examine under a microscope—to really make it clear that Spider-Man was no more than an attention seeker, too inept to make any real difference in the world.
The very same people he'd dedicated himself to saving each day, they had turned his back on him.
Leehan hands the phone back, already feeling an oncoming migraine. Woonhak observes quietly for a second, then brings his hand down to pat Leehan's shoulder.
"Don't tell Y/N," he mumbles, and Leehan sighs to agree.
Once he's left in privacy once more, Leehan's thoughts start to bubble like acid, pulling him in and out of shallow sleep.
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Days stop feeling real—just a blur of time he spends thinking about fire and anger and disappointments. When his fever starts to die down, you don't push as hard for Woonhak and Riwoo to supervise, the three of you only taking turns to drop by with his notes or food.
On Halloween, the campus starts to brim with excitement once more—night markets and booths in place, welcoming students clad in costumes, some sultry, some committed to the humour of it all.
Woonhak shows up in a less-than-authentic replica of the spidey suit and you groan at him.
"You could've been anything, literally anything for Halloween—a wizard, or a ghoul, or I don't know…a freakin' dinosaur for all I care, and you choose to dress up as my boyfriend?"
"Hey," Woonhak puts his hands up to clear his name, "I liked him before I knew he was your boyfriend."
"That's not the point—!"
Leehan clears his throat to interrupt your spat. "You guys should go now, if you don't want to be late for the haunted house," he says, propped against the headboard with a plushie hugging his chest.
"Are you sure about this… what if your temperature flares up again?" Your brows knit in worry as you slowly move a strand of hair off his face. You don't touch as carelessly anymore; Leehan can't blame you, but the feeling that swirls in his stomach does not sit well.
"Go," he hopes he sounds natural, "Woonhak bought tickets anyway."
"I can ask Riwoo—"
"Hyung has a meeting with his supervisor today. You don't need to call him," Leehan assures you. "Really, Y/N, I'm fine now."
He fakes a grin for good measure. You narrow your eyes, not believing it to be genuine in the least.
But you sigh, letting up. "Alright… call me if you need me." Then you add under your breath, "Please."
He sees how tired your eyes look in that moment, worry and exhaustion swimming behind the glazed-over look in them, and suddenly feels a pang of regret to his chest.
You don't deserve this. He doesn't deserve you. If he were anyone else, you'd be laughing now, joking about how Woonhak wouldn't last a minute into the haunted house. But Leehan is unfortunately frail in his confidence, too anxious for his own good, and he isn't worth the trouble you're going through.
But he still holds onto you, selfishly.
When he waves the two of you off, he doesn't miss the tense glance you spare him before the door clicks closed and he hears the distant echo of you asking Woonhak how he plans to go to the bathroom in his spandex onesie.
//
This isn't breaking another promise, Leehan mutters in his mind. He's just…taking a break. Recuperating with fresh air. Being proactive.
From up on the clock tower, he can see everything: the busy streets full of scary decorations and parade goers, the orange glow of string lights illuminating vendors, children with their little goodie bags, and a moon hanging low in the night sky.
Leehan lays out his scattered notes on the flat surface behind the ledge, throwing off his mask to the side before sitting down with a pencil in hand and his laptop propped up on his lap. His backpack is right beside him, and the Ziploc bag containing the symbiote sample inside.
What's another night of no sleep—it's not like he's been faring well lately anyways. He spends time researching Mysterio and the ruckus he'd caused twice. Fires. Robots. Lasers. Holograms. They weigh him down like lies. His eyes begin to burn at some point, but he pays it no attention, simply lets his body take over on autopilot. Each new article he comes across makes his heart tighten and thump against his ribs.
It's clear now, the world is starting to hate Spider-Man.
There is more criticism than kind words left for him, some calling him the worst of names, blaming him for things that are out of his control. Leehan can't take it. He needs to fix this, he needs a way out.
So he tries—throwing himself into running more tests on Venom on top of what he'd gathered from Riwoo.
He stays at a standstill for a long time, until—
"Oh."
The symbiote reacts violently when the clock strikes a loud, metallic hour hand at midnight, spasming in a futile attempt to escape the Petri dish he's placed it on.
Sound.
Sound is its weakness.
Then something else occurs to him, the way Venom had screamed and split as it touched heat. Sound and temperature—two factors neither he nor Riwoo had considered yet.
And so starts the experimenting.
He slowly builds his own makeshift lab, a hundred feet high above the city, accumulating equipment as he goes. First, he does the unsavoury act of breaking into the campus lab in the middle of the night to borrow a microscope. And then slowly, another tool, then another, then…
By 4 AM in the morning, he's crawling back into your room, discarding his suit, making quick work to change into his pyjamas, and crawling under the sheets. He pretends to be asleep when he hears the door creak open and your footsteps approach.
The twist of keeping a secret squeezes at him even as he sees daybreak approach.
//
In two days time, Leehan tries to actively bond with the symbiote.
He'd figured it had something to with his emotions, that Venom was attracted to his negative thoughts, the kind that made him regret everything the next day.
But he tries anyway; Leehan focuses on what makes him angry, of Mysterio's gleeful chides as he watched Spider-Man crumble to the floor, as fire had almost consumed him whole and left no evidence behind. He thinks of the articles, of people spewing insults against him, condemning him for neglecting the city. He thinks of how sad he makes you these days.
And it works. Venom is curling around him once more, binding his body into a single physical entity.
Finally! We were getting impatient—the creature drawls.
Leehan stands atop the tower and truly feels his renewed power. It's like a fresh breath after inhaling smoke for the longest time. When he leaps, there is no fear. When he's swinging from one concrete building to the next, his webs never run out. They feel stronger somehow. Sturdier. He trusts himself—or this version of himself—more than the real one.
His routine morphs into a fast-paced order of classes, research, and more surveillance. Outwardly, he's back to normal, but Leehan knows it's so far from the truth. He hasn't felt this restless ever.
On mornings, he patrols as usual, eyes peeled for a man with a cape and helmet. Ready to strike if needed. Everything else is a second priority.
At nights, he makes the excuse of needing to catch up with all his missed assignments, shoving the bitter taste of a lie down and putting on his suit for yet another sleepless shift.
The weather begins to harden, the air growing colder as fall slowly bleeds into winter.
He doesn't eat three full meals a day, resorting to the occasional energy bar or instant noodles; he's zoning out during classes, averting Riwoo's concerned gaze, hoping he isn't relaying the information to you. And his suit…at night, it barely shows it's red anymore, blending into the city's after hours as Venom shows himself on Leehan, watching Spider-Man's face planted up on the big screen above buildings with the latest news of what he's done wrong to offend the public.
And the nightmares, they become bone-chilling.
There's you, in multiple scenarios, and dying in each before Leehan can reach for your hands. Drowning sometimes. Burning in others. The look in your eyes breaks him open, slowly, withering any semblance of sanity left, chipping away at his being. The more he dreams, the worse it gets.
"Hannie," your voice bubbles around his ear, water cascading as he dips lower into the pool.
Leehan closes his eyes and tries to drown everything out. Focuses on happy memories.
You and him—at the beach, scavenging for pebbles, at the aquarium looking at jellyfish and sharks. Kissing. The warmth when you trace his skin, the first time you'd leaned up and kissed his cheek. The sound of your voice when you giggle, when you look at him softly, in awe, in love…
It isn't too long before murky black swirls begin to taint his thoughts, creeping into the crevices of his brain, ruining what's good.
Doc Ock towering above you, you crouching below pretending to be brave, pretending you couldn't have died that day because of him—because of Leehan.
Kill, Kill, Kill—! Venom is sneering.
"You shouldn't have been chosen to be Spider-Man at all"—Mysterio's voice rings the loudest.
Leehan feels dizzy. He feels lost.
He begins to choke, and not on water. His vision blinds, panic surging, a deadly scream ringing in his mind, telling him to ruin everything that's making him feel this way. Leehan tries to remind himself that he is kind, but the hot white anger that flares up makes him forget immediately.
Kill, Kill, Kill, Kill, Kill, Kill—!!!!! It shrieks, dense and boiling. He thinks of his own hands around your throat, curling black smoke around it, watching as the life drains out of you. It's inseparable now—him and the symbiote, whether fused or not, it feeds on him.
Stop it, he thinks weakly. Please, stop.
It isn't until minutes later he finally gasps for air, breaking through the water's surface, and his eyes prick with the sting of tears.
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WINTER
Leehan hasn't texted you in 5 days.
Which is strange, because you haven't seen him properly in over a week. Usually, he'd at least be ringing you up for missions, to stay with him on call while he chased after a petty criminal or two. If not, he'd be laying flat over your blankets, flipping through his book as you worked on a project at your desk.
It's dark outside, way past midnight, light winter rain drizzling down, tapping at your window panes. Your laptop is propped open, the news anchor reading out the headlines monotonously:
"Spider-Man under fire: city questions if its saviour is losing his edge. Officials are wondering if the need for a superhero is truly necessary, and if vigilante justice is justice at all. Is the collateral damage truly worth the mistakes of one masked hero?"
You glance down at the phone in your hand, tracing your eyes over the screen as the grip on your pen tightens.
TUESDAY
hannie / bug boy: class ended late. can we cancel dinner?
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: yeah, no problem. call me in the morning yeah?
WEDNESDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: hey you forgot to call, i'm worried you didn't eat last night
Read 10:30 PM
THURSDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: hannie, are you home?
Read 5:00 PM
FRIDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: prof beck recommended me for an internship, it's like super big and the best in the city. do you want to go celebrate tonight?
SATURDAY
Y/N-ie ♡!!!: i don't wanna bother you if ure busy but lemme know when u get better yeah? i miss talking to u, it'a been a while… anyways, ily <33 sleep well.
The unanswered texts glare back at you. A tiny part of you feels a strange sense of deja vu, and the rest of you reject the notion vehemently.
Nothing bad is going to happen… Nothing bad had happened; Leehan is safe. He just needs time to get better, to recover from whatever had happened that day he'd come back to you looking frail and broken.
You can wait a little longer, you tell yourself. But it does nothing to curb the fact that you miss him terribly.
A long sigh escapes your mouth, and you're about to slam the laptop down in irritation when you hear the window creaking open.
You don't even need to look—you already know it's him.
"Leehan!" Your feet move immediately, a bright grin spreading across your cheeks as you throw your arms around him before he can even make it across the ledge. "You came!"
While you can't see his expression as you hug his body to yours, coaxing his head to rest over your shoulder, you sense the difference in his demeanour—how stiff he feels, the tension in his hands and how they don't come to hold you; they just stay languid at his sides, empty.
Your fingers twist into the material of his flannel. "What's wrong? …are you okay—wait, are you hurt—"
Before you start to frantically search him for wounds, Leehan stops you by the wrist.
"Y/N," he exhales, eyes weary behind his rain-splattered glasses. "I have to tell you something; it's…important."
"Yeah, of course. You can tell me anything, you already know that," You attempt a small smile, trying to calm him down when he looks this close to breaking down. "Sit down, I'll get you some tea."
"It can't wait," Leehan says, and it sounds like a plea. Like he'd barely mustered up the guts to speak and could lose his courage if he wastes any more time.
You nod, then wait patiently. Absentmindedly, your fingers remain grasping the end of his shirt, tethering your feet to the spot and stopping your head from spiralling.
"I—" he begins in a small voice, "We should stop this."
You furrow your brow in confusion, not understanding.
Leehan hangs his head, refusing to meet your eyes, a painful trail of gulp travelling down his throat before he repeats:
"We should break up."
…
The world stands still, something static humming around the two of you—uncomfortable and cold. It makes you want to throw up.
"What?"
"I can't keep doing this to us—to you, I—it's unfair to you, Y/N. And I'll be damned if I'm the reason you're miserable." Leehan is biting his lips harsh enough to draw blood; watching him makes you almost feel the metal on your own tongue. His hands are fists now, a thin rim of red under his eyes, hair unkempt.
Despite everything, your first instinct is to worry about whether he's been taking care of himself.
"I thought we were past this," you keep your voice levelled. "We're partners, remember? In sickness and in health." A weary laugh escapes you at the futile attempt at a joke. He doesn't react.
"I'm sorry," he tries to sound impassive and fails monumentally. You hear a sob in his voice when he says, "Forget me and move on. You have your whole life ahead…don't throw that away—"
"It's not that easy! It's not easy, I can't just throw away everything between us." You motion to the minute space between your bodies, leading his face to yours, looking him head-on. "This, what we have, it's not disposable. And you're an idiot to think you'd be so easily forgotten."
"Y/N–"
"We were good together. Things were good, we were happy. Leehan, we just need to get through this like always…slowly, one day at a time," you try.
But Leehan has made up his mind. He puts more distance between you, even when you refuse to let go.
"It doesn't matter how bad I want you, or you want me. We're doomed to fail, okay? There isn't a single future where we can be happy and alive."
"You make me happy, you idiot," you scream, tears spilling without restraint now. "You. Not a promise of safety. Not a comfortable life, either. I don't need white picket fences and dinner dates… I want us, you and I—having picnics, going on missions, looking at fish. I don't care as long as you'll keep me around."
Leehan shakes his head, more stubborn than he's ever been. "Don't be foolish. You're too smart to ignore what could happen to you if you stick around with me."
Something taut snaps inside you; your voice rises, "I've stuck around for this long haven't I? What's some more—"
"You don't get it."
"Then explain it to me!" A sob wrecks past your lips—then grows quieter, sadder. Your hand on his shirt pulls tight enough to stretch the fabric. "Talk to me, please, Hannie. I'm trying to understand…"
"I…can't."
"Did I do something wrong?" You say it so softly, so sincerely that Leehan has to look at you.
"Never." He fights the urge to bring his thumb to your cheek, to wipe at the tear-stained skin there. "You're perfect. Always have been."
"Then why?"
"Because you deserve someone better than me. Someone just as kind."
You want to scoff. To pull him by the collar and press your lips to his and make him believe that there is no one kinder than him that you know of.
But Leehan doesn't let you when he pries your fingers off of his shirt, moving backwards until his legs hit the wall.
You promised me, you want to say.
Some promises are meant to be broken—you hear the echo of his voice from a while ago. It stings.
Then he's speaking, and it feels like a whisper when the rain begins to crash down twice as hard, his voice muffled by water on concrete. "I'm sorry," are his last words before he disappears into the night, barely a shadow at your window-ledge at first, then nothing at all.
At 3 AM on a cold Saturday morning, your heart breaks into a million pieces, and Leehan leaves his behind.
Looking back, you should have probably seen this coming. Or at least that's what you tell yourself to feel better. It doesn't work, not one bit.
Your recent observation is that a break up is a lot like the five stages of grief:
First there's denial.
You don't believe it. Leehan would not end your relationship, he would not give up on you this easily. He wouldn't. It was strong, the feelings you had for him, and you're positive it's the exact same for him.
Then it bleeds into anger.
Every time you look at the Polaroids of the two of you together, you feel an insurmountable amount of rage. The scent of rain makes you see red, the thought of him makes you want to punch a pillow. When Woonhak walks in at an unfortunate time, you almost throw it straight at his face before he immediately walks back the same way and shuts the door in front of him, face pale from your ambush.
Bargaining is third.
Usually you wouldn't be drinking this much—you barely like the taste of alcohol, let alone how it makes you feel. But here you are, slumped on the floor of your room, knocking the bottle back as it burns your throat going down. When nothing remains, you're clawing for your phone, staring at the lock-screen: a candid picture of him staring at the aquarium glass, eyes shiny and big.
The next day, you're waking up to a string of incoherent texts you'd sent him, progressively growing embarrassing as you scroll down. Your pride is nowhere to be seen in them when it's just you begging for him to talk to you, promising you can try again—that it'll be different this time.
Depression looks no better on you.
Crying should feel like a release, like finally letting go of a held breath, but your heart thuds painfully against your ribcage as a stream of tears flows down. And it's as close to the end of the world as you'd ever felt.
Sometimes you even find yourself crying when you wake up from a dream—of a bright smile that reminds you of the sun and the sea, of hair the colour of spun gold, of seeing the city from above, safe in his arms.
Acceptance never really comes, but you hold a seat for it, terrified of the day it might arrive.
//
November is turning out to be a terrible month for Leehan.
He didn't think it would be easy—not by any means. From the second he'd decided to end it, he'd already predicted how hard it would be to stay away from you.
Leehan doesn't even know who he is without you.
As a kid, he'd always latched onto creatures with all the innocence and naivety that came with childhood. His father called it a phase, his mother called it 'Our Leehan-ie just has a tender heart'. But the thing about loving too hard was the aftermath of it—every time a fish died, or when the family dog got too old and succumbed, he'd sobbed into his mom's arms without holding back. It got better with age; he'd learnt to let go without letting the hurt get to him, accepting it as part of life. Seeing a sort of beauty in endings.
Leehan hadn't planned to fall in love back then, let alone have to watch you die over and over again every time he'd slipped into slumber.
So yeah, it was for the best. When he eventually hunted Mysterio down and confronted whatever came after, when one or neither of them won for good, you'd be safe regardless.
And if he did…die, then it'll be easier for you to let him go this way. Even if it means you hate him now.
"All units, stand-by. A possible explosion at the natural history museum downtown," the police radio transmits right into Leehan's phone as he crouches on top of the clock tower, scanning the city below him. It's colder now, more windy—erratic and unpleasant. He takes a deep breath in, watching the white spider-symbol on his chest contract over the black suit, darting a web quicker than his mind moves.
Anything for us to kill, Spidey? Venom chimes dutifully within his brain.
Leehan has learnt not to lower his guard, so he refuses to reply and focuses on directing himself to the museum location.
Silent treatment? Rude.
Can you shut up, I have work to do—Leehan chides.
It's a routine now: Venom's voice in his head accompanying him like a devil on the shoulder as he moves on autopilot, dousing another fire, holding up another collapsing pillar, trying to get as many civilians out unharmed. Leehan does not stay to entertain pleasantries any more—he ignores reporters and news crews without caring for making a statement. On worse days, he has lost his temper and snapped at them, but the lesson was learnt when his public rating dropped to an all time low with every broadcast out there kept replaying “Spider-Man threatens innocent passerbys".
Hence why he preferred to work discreetly now, letting the black of his suit camouflage him—sneaking into buildings and making quick work of the next mess Mysterio had left for him to salvage. Each of them feels like a trap, to wear down his body and mind. Almost like he wanted Leehan to drive himself mad for the pure fun of watching it happen. If it weren't for Venom, he might have died already.
The only semblance of peace he gets in a day is getting to watch you from a safe distance.
Like some twisted version of a guardian angel, Leehan makes sure you're safe. Even when he stares down at your texts, the ones he has to reject all instinct to keep from replying to, a twinge of relief keeps him going—that you are alive and breathing. He tells himself that's the only reason he hasn't deleted your number off his phone.
He watches you on mornings when you're on your way to class, during your lunches with Woonhak and the lab team in the quads, makes sure no one is following you when it gets dark outside, when you're alone. And sometimes you turn to look at him, almost straight through him—and Leehan feels a shiver travel down his spine even when he knows there is no way you can see him from such a long distance.
It's like you sense his presence with something beyond logic.
But each time, you sigh as though in disappointment, like you were probably just imagining him there, and you turn back to walk away.
Then there are titbits of information Woonhak brings on his barge-ins that help a little with the paranoia.
"You look like you're hanging on by a thread," the younger boy sympathises, making himself at home on Leehan's bed. "No pun intended."
Leehan has no energy to entertain him, so he simply purses his lips and goes back to scribbling on his notebook that was progressively being filled with new findings on the symbiote.
"Riwoo hyung is with Y/N," Woonhak adds.
Leehan can't help but jolt slightly.
Thankfully, Woonhak doesn't need to be prompted to continue, "She's doing better these days. Hyung's been dragging her to try new restaurants, so she's eating better. Oh, and she's taking that internship with Dr. Beck next year. He says she could easily land a junior researcher position at Oscorp."
"That's good," Leehan's voice is small but he means every word. It was good that your friends are there for you when he couldn't be.
"You guys will figure it out, you know," Woonhak says suddenly, without a shred of doubt. "If any two people can find their way back to each other, it's you guys."
Leehan pauses for a breath.
It's not that he doesn't believe the same; a part of him will always belong to you, would always look for you in a crowd and seek out your voice like a lighthouse. By the time it happens, he wonders if he'll be Kim Leehan anymore—the boy you fell in love with in the first place. Or will he just be a vestige of himself, simply a vessel for the symbiote…a weapon to get back at Mysterio.
He doesn't reply. When Woonhak eventually starts to yawn, he excuses himself out with a slurred out goodnight, leaving Leehan for yet another night of patrol and research.
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December fares no better.
Campus grows steadily quieter once the exam season wears down, bringing more snow and rain with it. He does his usual regimen—a half-attended handful of classes, barely passed exams, patrol, patrol, then more patrol.
"—shouldn't be pulling so many all nighters. That's why you lost marks over here, and—" Riwoo is on an uncharacteristic tangent about Leehan's latest grades, scolding him for his sudden drop in interest.
Leehan listens with one ear, and tries to close off the other one when Venom starts spewing his own string of complains:
Human, this is boring. Where is the blood… We want to KILLLLL—!
Shut up, Leehan replies mentally, sneaking an annoyed glance down his collar where the suit rested.
"Zebrafish reach up to 4 to 5 centimetres in length, not inches… How did you even get that wrong, Han-ah? It's so careless—" Riwoo is saying as they walk across the grounds into the campus cafe, and Leehan wishes he could get some caffeine in him sooner than Venom can jump back in with various versions of ‘Kill ‘, and ‘Die’.
These days, Leehan feels more like a babysitter than a vessel, if he's being completely honest. And his psyche has only been deteriorating with the severe lack of sleep and any real food. Thank heavens for coffee and instant rice, he reckons.
They queue up for the counter, Leehan pretend-nodding along to whatever Riwoo is saying, head slumped down, his hands deep in the pockets of his jeans. It's quieter than usual with most of the students having headed home for winter break already—only bits and pieces of conversations, mixed with the comforting scent of breakfast, in the small space around them.
But as the universe would have it, all of Leehan's defences lower at once at the sound of your voice.
You're a couple spots in front of him, chatting animatedly with Doctor Beck as he grabs two cups off the counter.
Leehan should look away, or better yet, turn around and make a break for it. But Riwoo has already noticed the way his body stiffens, how he freezes at the sight of your face, and Leehan realises it's already too late.
Thankfully, you don't seem to notice, too busy conversing.
"—I'm heading home this weekend, so I should be able to send in those final documents soon enough," you say smiling. "Thank you again, Professor. If it wasn't for your letter of recommendation, this would never have happened."
"Nonsense," Doctor Beck waves away your modesty. "You're a brilliant young scientist, Miss L/N. Oscorp will be lucky to have you."
You reply with a bashful smile, and while it looks perfect and practised, Leehan can tell that you're not all there. There are shadows underneath your eyes, and you've forgotten to tie your hair back. Even your clothes look slightly wrinkled.
He hates the possibility that he could be the cause of it.
It doesn't matter, Leehan repeats inwardly. You were going to be okay. You were going to be happy and successful and eventually forget he ever existed. That was the plan.
Are you about to cry over your girlfriend? Venom smirks tauntingly. Our bad, we meant ex-girlfriend.
It takes every bit of resolve to not burn the symbiote right then and there, but as fate would have it, Riwoo gets ushered forward to make his order. By the time they've turned back to find a spot to wait, you have already disappeared past the door.
Follow them.
Leehan doesn't immediately take it seriously. But Venom repeats again—Follow those two.
What for?
She could be in danger, you know.
Y/N is fine. She won't be in class anyways, it's her last day of finals.
Wow, and here we thought you'd stopped stalking—
It's not stalking!
Follow them. We'd like to see something.
Why?
Curious.
I have to get back to my work station. There's a lot to do if I want to stop Mysterio before it's too late.
FOLLOW THEM—!!
Leehan flinches visibly, earning a concerned glance from Riwoo. He gives an awkward smile, taking the coffee from the older boy's hand.
Can you not yell? Leehan rebukes telepathically.
But the symbiote is relentless as always, already beginning to curl its body around Leehan's, threatening to bond with him right in the middle of the cafe in front of everyone. Leehan panics, a hand coming to grab at his chest on pure instinct.
"Are you okay?" Riwoo leans in. "Do you need to go to the clinic?"
"Ah, it's nothing hyung, just a heartburn," Leehan makes a half-convincing excuse.
Riwoo doesn't seem to buy it, but before Leehan can derail the conversation away, Venom is cackling at his misery. His head throbs from the sheer volume of it, pounding against his skull like his brain was being eaten alive.
FINE—! Leehan yells. It takes a moment of held breath before he notices Riwoo's shocked expression and realises he'd said it out loud instead of thinking it.
"Sorry, I—" He attempts to undo his mistake, but Riwoo seems to be about to suggest again he go to a doctor, so Leehan beats him to it, "I'll make a booking. And don't worry, Woonhak can take me."
Woonhak will absolutely not be taking him anywhere; Leehan would rather trust his health in the hands (or fins) of a brain-dead fish before he'd have resorted to Woonhak as an option. Instead, he returns his coffee cup back to Riwoo, bows in apology, and sprints off out of the cafe.
The robotics lab is empty today, at least from what Leehan can gauge through the windows. If it were anyone else, he wouldn't be able to see into the room from all the way at the top of the opposite building—but fortunate for him, his superhuman senses had only sharpened under the effects of the symbiote.
He hears broken sentences; Woonhak is bidding goodbye after gathering his formulae sheets and you're pulling him along with you, making it clear that you won't be sparing an extra pen in the middle of the exam if he had forgotten one.
Despite everything, the normalcy of your banter makes Leehan's heart soften.
Once you've disappeared, Professor Beck's face appears through the parted curtains. He turns to take a seat at his desk, flipping a pencil between his fingers. His brows are scrunched in thought, lips a thin line—grim and stony. His other hand reaches into his coat to fish something out.
And then Leehan's entire world stops.
His heart constricts painfully at the sight, a rock forming at his throat, making his tongue taste like acid.
Quentin Beck turns the object, watching how the metal reflects the winter sun. And then his expression turns sourer, teeth gritted as he squeezes it between his fist with obvious rage.
The keychain.
Leehan's keychain. The one he'd lost under the bridge, the one he'd spent hours looking for, the one…
The one he had seen dangled in front of him, from Mysterio's hand.
Leehan doesn't stomach the implication easily—he feels bile rise before Venom distracts him enough for him to push it down.
What is he saying? the symbiote asks.
I can't tell…
Use one of her inventions. Your girlfriend's.
Leehan doesn't correct him; his mind moves with muscle memory, fingers already reaching to tap his watch. The nanobot spiders come alive at once, floating invisibly through the air until one lands safely at the window ledge.
"Enabling microphone," Leehan commands as he plugs in his Bluetooth earphones, something he had heard you passingly mention you wanted to install—it seems like you had ended up doing it eventually. Doctor Beck's mumbling vibrates through his ear, incoherent at first, then the words slowly grow longer, making more sense.
"Soon, boy….it's only a matter of time before you take your last breath." The professor seethes. "Keep falling into my traps and eventually, I'll make sure you won't have legs to run away any more.
I'll break you inch by inch until there's nothing but bones left of you…until you finally realise how you don't deserve to be hailed as everyone's king. Hah—! 'Spider-Man'… how arrogant… it's time someone put you in your place! First you, then everyone else who's ever had the foolish idea to feed your ego…."
Leehan feels dizzy. His knees give out as he collapses onto the concrete rooftop, keeling over to swallow the panic.
"And then your girlfriend," Beck says, making every hair on Leehan stand up. "Good thing she landed right into the palm of my hands," he's grinning as he speaks, "Good thing you hurt her so bad that she didn't think twice before taking my proposition. Soon, she'll be off to Oscorp, you'll be dead, and I won't have a pest to distract me while I blow their entire company to bits. Along with all the technology they stole from me…"
Leehan is ripping the earphones out before he can continue, head spinning as he books it for his house, barely stumbling in through the window and spilling his guts into the toilet.
He feels sick all over.
Quentin Beck is Mysterio.
The thought makes him recoil away, landing backwards with the cold tiles under his palms.
Mysterio had been right there, a hair's breadth away, right under his nose, and Leehan hadn't known. He feels stupid to never have doubted it would be someone known to him. And then another wave of nausea hits him at the realisation of what this meant.
Beck had been watching him from the very first day Leehan had been introduced by you… Maybe even before that. His paranoia wasn't wrongly placed, it had been real all along.
Every little scenario, each odd happening—they piece together to complete the puzzle, until Leehan feels like he's seeing clearly for the first time in a very long time. The sudden reappearance of Doc Ock, the jailbreak, the illusions and fire and carefully curated mousetraps, set in place simply to drive Spider-Man mad—no, to drive Leehan mad. Because Beck had been surveying him long before Leehan had the mind to pay it any mind.
And now, Quentin Beck had successfully made a dent in his life, plaguing his thoughts with fear and vengeance.
The words Oscorp and technology stand out in his memory; on shaky feet, Leehan trudges to his laptop to search up what could link the man to the corporation. It doesn't take too long to skim through articles to find the truth Beck had been trying so hard to quell:
"Senior Oscorp Researcher fired for malpractice: Quentin Beck endangers humanity with the proposal of superpowered military drones. Oscorp responds quickly."
The articles are few in quantity, and seems to have been swept under the rug courtesy of Oscorp's PR team. And any damage they hadn't been able to explain away, they seem to have blamed on the now Professor, compensating his loss of livelihood with a unglorified teaching position at the city's university.
Kill now? Venom sneers with the cadence of an animal growling for meat, and this time, Leehan does not oppose him.
"Soon," he whispers instead, tone turning cold. "After Y/N leaves for home… She has to be safe before I rip the head off that asshole."
Now you're talking. Spidey's grown a pair, I see. The symbiote is gleeful—Leehan can clearly imagine the hungry grin on his face if he were masked right now, ready to pounce if given permission to.
"Patient now," Leehan says, and Venom only calms down because it sounds like a promise. "You can kill him all you want, but first, we need a game plan."
The evening starts with a drizzle—too soft to predict anything harsher to follow.
It's cold, people swathed in their fluffy winter coats and tightly wrapped scarves, the traffic jam-packed with everyone heading home for the holidays. December 21st—the day Leehan knows you'd be safely tucked away in a car or train, far away from the trouble that was about to ensue.
Once the initial shock had worn off, Leehan had found the energy to get down to business, flipping through tens and hundreds of pages of Quentin Beck's research profile and previous portfolios, trying to figure out how exactly he had designed his Mysterio persona.
When Leehan had eventually realised that Robotics lingo and drone models made no sense to him, he had finally resorted to asking Woonhak for another favour.
Needless to say, Woonhak had been more than eager to help.
"You're taking an interest in Robotics!? Is this your ploy to win Y/N over, because might I say, it would most definitely work on me," Woonhak delivers a greasy wink to punctuate his point, and Leehan has to hold back a groan.
"Will you help or not?"
"Listen, the way to a girl's heart is through combat-grade drones. I totally approve!" Woonhak plants his hands on Leehan's shoulders, shaking him slightly in enthusiasm. "And also, you need all the help you can get after she dumped you."
"She didn't dump me—"
"Let's get to work, hyungie!" The younger is already barrelling past him, leading him to the corner of his mostly messy couch. Then he turns around abruptly, eyes wide and sparkly like a puppy hearing the word walk. "Oh my god, does this mean I'm officially part of Spider-Man's team…"
"Sure."
"And that Spider-Man needs me. That I get to boss Spider-Man around…AM I SPIDER-MAN'S BOSS!? I've dreamt of days like this, wow…."
"I'm kicking you off the team if you don't stop right there."
Once they've settled down, Woonhak doesn't need to be prompted to talk, given it was his favourite hobby next to Spider-Man fanaticism and time machine fantasies. He builds off of the word robotics and covers a whole array of topics, most of which is nothing but hogwash to Leehan's untrained ears.
Parts of it sound familiar though. He must have heard you talk about it once upon a time and his brain had most likely held onto the memory without him knowing.
"So…" he begins carefully, right when Woonhak takes a deep breath after a long tangent on Teleoperation. "What about Beck? Your professor—what does he do?"
"Doctor Beck?" Woonhak quirks his head to the side, taking a bite out of his bowl of rice. "He's chill. Why?"
"No, like…what does he do? What does he like? Dislike? Y'know…stuff like that."
This only makes Woonhak even more perplexed. He gives Leehan a judgmental look. "Are you trying to win back Y/N or seduce our Robotics professor…"
"It's part of my tactic, okay?" Leehan sighs, finding no other way to wheedle the information he desperately needs.
Woonhak doesn't seem too bothered by the excuse. "Hmm…he's a funny guy sometimes. Like a very quirky, mad scientist typa guy. Likes to mess around with ideas like holographic illusions and tricks. My theory is that he wanted to be a magician as a child but never had the flair for it; Y/N says he's just getting bored the older he gets. We have a bet going."
Slowly and casually, Leehan manages to gather as much on Quentin Beck, filing it away mentally to be put down into his personal research notes. If Woonhak gets suspicious about anything, Leehan points out the window at a non-existent bird, and without fail, the younger boy looks over—not unlike a hyper dog, he muses. Rest of the time, he throws in a bait or two about Spider-Man and Woonhak bites it every single time, any prior scepticism abandoned in favour of fanboying.
Which brings Leehan back to the present—perched on his usual spot, at the very top of the clock tower, the tallest building in the city, bathed by the glow of a hanging moon.
Unusually however, he also has a phone in one hand, and Woonhak's genius expertise to aid his plan in the other.
"HELLO THERE, PEOPLE OF THE CITY," he begins somewhat awkwardly, watching the big screens light up all around the city square, every television and radio breached, a live broadcast in place. "THIS IS YOUR FRIENDLY NEIGHBOURHOOD SPIDER-MAN SPEAKING. NOT TO WORRY, IT'S JUST A PERSONAL ANNOUNCEMENT TO MY DEAREST FRIEND AND OVERALL 'WORST DRESSED' PERSON WITHIN A THOUSAND MILE RADIUS—MR. MYSTERIO, THE FAILED MAGICIAN WANNABE."
Leehan can hear the sneer in his own voice echo through the public systems: people stopping their cars to turn up the radio, news vans making a speedy run to get the latest scoop, teenagers tapping their screens to scroll through live updates. The entire city stops for a split second, Christmas shopping put on a pause to listen to Spider-Man's sudden declaration.
"YOU'VE WATCHED ME, TOYED WITH MY LIFE, ATTEMPTED EVERYTHING TO DRAG ME DOWN WITH YOU. BUT GUESS WHAT…" Leehan grins behind his mask to match Venom's own smile. "YOU'RE A PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A SUPERVILLAIN. YOU AREN'T A GOD—ALL YOU ARE IS A SAD OLD MAN PROJECTING HIS OWN INSECURITIES ONTO OTHERS."
The words are mirrors of what he'd told Leehan the first time he almost killed him, and Leehan can't help but feel a sick sense of happiness at saying it back now.
"CATCH ME IF YOU CAN," he says. "YOU KNOW WHERE TO LOOK."
And with that, he shuts down the feed at once, screens turning static.
Good job, Venom adds with a hint of pride.
Shouts blare out from below—people's outraged cries, demanding justice for Spider-Man with the abrupt revelations. They might not know who Mysterio is yet, but the public opinion is quick to turn against a potential enemy, subjecting him to angry insults without waiting to see reason. Cars honk in protest, reporters springing to action to interview angry civilians, chants of 'Spider-Man rules' already coming to life beneath on the streets.
The bait works like a charm.
Before Leehan can count to ten, Venom's happiness flares up, making it known that he'd found a new prey to hunt.
"Ah, look who's right on time," Leehan smiles, dangling his feet down off the dome, watching the way the helmeted figure levitating mid-air, red cape whipping angrily behind him, chest heaving in anger above where Leehan sits.
"You!—"
"You're not that intimidating once your tricks are exposed, you know." Leehan pretends to check his fingernails for dirt, which aids to be useless given he was wearing his symbiote-fused black suit. "It's like a magician. The illusion only works as long as you don't reveal your secrets. But you… you're a phoney top to bottom. Just cheap camera tricks and invisible wires, right? Maybe a few optical illusions here and there of course."
"How dare you!" Mysterio fumes, and with it, the green smoke around him burns angrily. "You insolent, arrogant—"
"Yeah, yeah, cry me a river," Leehan taunts, now springing up to his feet. "I already know what you think of me—you’ve made it crystal clear two separate times, so I think we can forgo introductions now. Are you gonna fight me or what?"
Mysterio barely gives a second of thought before commanding one of his drones to shoot a fiery laser right at Leehan's chest. But Venom has honed his senses beyond human capacity that he responds without the need to think, a quick flip that dodges the beam and has him land smoothly on all fours.
"Miss me," Leehan cackles, and it sounds more like Venom this time—gruff and deep.
Mysterio's face might be hidden beneath his fishbowl of a helmet, but the way his moves get frantic after proves Leehan's suspicions to be true.
He's getting sloppy.
A web shoots out to grab Mysterio by the neck, a quick pull of Leehan's wrist doing away with the helmet as it plummets to the ground feet below. Beck's terrified face shows itself.
He tries to hide it with a palm, but it's useless when Leehan has known for a while now.
"Why did you do all of this? Because of some petty revenge you wanna plan against Oscorp?"
Beck's face falls. "How did you…"
"You monologue when you think too hard. Should probably stop doing that in case someone's spying on you."
Beck grabs Leehan's string of web and yanks, landing the two of them in an aerial fight; Leehan can barely keep his feet on solid ground when Mysterio abandons his drones in favour of his fist, jamming a sharp elbow into his stomach, rendering his webs useless for the time being.
So Leehan does the logical thing—he grabs Beck as hard as he can and drags him down with him, leaving a human-shaped hole in the brick dome and plunging downwards together, crashing down onto a metal grill, pressed into his shoulder blades.
Leehan is lithe, swinging a fist into Beck's jaw. The snap of bone sends a shiver of rage down his—or Venom's—spine, and soon after, he's pummelling into muscle and skeleton without caring what breaks.
How dare you threaten me, Venom sounds clear and loud.
"You wanted to hurt Y/N," Leehan barks out, punctuating each word with a punch. "You were using her to get to me."
Instead of conceding as Leehan expects him to, Beck only grins through a mouthful of blood.
Before Leehan can swipe that look off his face with another blow, he hears a snap of fingers.
The room begins to cloud with smoke—eerie and green, sparks of pixels flickering around him. The scenery begins to transition from the inside of the tower to something tubular and fleshy, almost like the belly of a large animal.
An illusion. Just an illusion, Leehan reminds himself.
"Could have proved me wrong this time, but my verdict remains unchanged," Mysterio's voice rings out, the same way it had in all of Leehan's nightmares and memories. "You're still incompetent."
Leehan shoots a web at the silhouette he sees behind the smoke screen, but the veil parts just enough to show empty space. Venom's frustration begins to gnaw under his own, stringed together with a mess of expletives.
The scene shifts once more, body falling through a void until he finds himself trapped inside a globe made of glass.
A fish bowl?
Leehan bangs against the walls, attempting a scream, but nothing comes out of his throat. Water begins to drip through the crack above, filling the empty space with rounded droplets, a haze of what seems to be dream-like fish and octopods, floating and phasing through his body.
It would have been a beautiful sight if not for how terrifying it feels.
Water rises until it drowns his entire lower half—Leehan can barely yell when it creeps higher, threatening to break past his throat, past his nose, until air is stolen from his lungs and he chokes—
Once again, the scene changes.
This time, it's a mirror maze. Each reflection is a past enemy: each with a scathing remark to throw at him, making it clear how much they wanted to skin him alive at the next chance.
Then, your voice.
"Hannie!" You sound frightened to see him. Or maybe that's sorrow he sees on you: wet lashes, blurry eyes, the way you clutch your hands to your chest. "Please."
"Y/N?" he asks despite himself, inching closer even when Venom howls at him to back off.
Leehan sees you hesitantly extend a hand, reaching out for him, like in his dreams. But then you're falling backwards, through the sheen of glass and smoke, down and down into pitch black nothingness…
And he follows because there isn't a world in which he wouldn't.
His feet move first, then his body dives forward, finding a warmth against his own chest that he refuses to let go of. His mouth moves around your name as everything falls apart under his feet, metal almost slashing through clothing—and if it wasn't for Venom, it would have taken his flesh with it, no doubt.
Dust blows as he rolls on the bricked floor, a dull pain throbbing in his head when he blearily opens his eyes. Only to see Mysterio sneer down at him, hovering.
"She's still your weakness huh?" He quirks his head to the side. "Surely you won't mind if I pay her a visit after I'm done with you… after all, I know exactly where she's off to."
"DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE," Leehan stammers through gritted teeth. When he tries to get up, his legs feel like jelly, organs squeezing in pain as his insides regenerate too fast, making him see blinding white for a moment.
"Still the same, you—"
Leehan springs a web over his mouth, leaping from wall to wall as he wraps a thick sheet of silk around Beck's mouth, lithely dodging his annoyed laser shots—left, right, a leap over his head, then a swift kick to his chest that pushes the man backwards.
"I studied your drones," Leehan adds, huffing as he spots the tiny dent in Beck's plans. "It's just like you—flashy but too careless. Your need to be known shows."
"WHAT?" Beck has broken free of the webbed muzzle now, grasping at the floor under him as he skids back frantically with every step Leehan takes, an ominous twist of his mouth, slitted eyes narrowing and expanding like a broken transition between him and Venom, anger building first, then replaced by disappointment, then resentment.
"The pixels flicker; your illusion has holes," is Leehan's final blow as he readies his aim at the spot near Beck's head.
Beck raises an arm to shoot a spray of fire at him, and at the exact same time, Leehan's webbing twists around the invisible drone, forcing it to crash down violently and break apart into two clean slices.
Smoke billows and fire catches, making Venom shriek in agony as the heat overtakes its senses, Leehan's own body rejecting the fire as he claws at the material of his suit, splitting and morphing, trying to separate from its host. The scalding heat inches through to his own skin, burning, burning, burning…
Get out of my head! Leehan screams. Leave.
Venom seems to want the same thing, but it's only Leehan's resolve that can expel him completely—Leehan knows this from months of experimental trials. The host is in charge, not the symbiote.
A deep breath, then a blank mind. Leehan thinks of what brings him clarity and strength—it comes easily: the expanse of blue, sand under his feet, the scent of salt and breeze and your perfume lingering right underneath. Then your hands in his, and the softness with which you call his name.
When Leehan finally opens his eyes, he sees red.
His suit is back to normal, his body no longer Venom's. The adrenaline leaves him feeling high and spent—or maybe that's the injuries, Leehan isn't sure anymore. A trickle of black fluid spills to the ground, writhing slightly, and Beck's shallow breathing dies down.
The man lies there unmoving. Leehan belatedly realises that it's over.
Everything is over.
He's not wasting time looking back when the only thing he wants to do—needs to do—is find you. Leehan sends up a prayer hoping you aren't gone just yet, that you'll stay just a second longer because he needs you to know. Even if it means your feelings may have changed… None of that matters now, just that Leehan could have died and he'd have done it without saying those three important words to you.
Maybe it's the rush of adrenaline, or maybe it's the leftover fight in him, but he spares no glance behind him when he's leaping out a broken window, not seeing how Venom's remnants creep closer and closer to Beck's frozen body before its warmth leaves for good.
//
You haven't breathed correctly in the past hour.
The traffic blares around you, cars honking at each other in face of Spider-Man's impromptu announcement to the entire city. The phone in your hand feel heavier than it should, a thumb hovering over Leehan's name as you debate whether to call.
What if he's not okay?
What if…
"Hey, what the fuck is that?" Some guy hollers through a sunroof, standing up to get a good view at the bridge opposite the road. "Are those…spider webs???"
You lean forward to tell the cab driver to stop, even though the car hadn't inched a step closer in the past hour or so, and click open the door to see for yourself.
Under the blinking starlight, a single message is woven onto the cables of the suspension bridge, and you don't even need to assess the all too familiar handwriting to know who the sender is.
I LOVE YOU—it reads.
Your first thought is that Leehan is okay, he's made it out alive.
The second is the monumental epiphany that you'd never said it to each other, and that he'd been the first to tell you now.
The third is a rush of fear that it might be his last too. What if he only felt the need to relay it knowing he'd never see you again. What if he isn't okay after all. What if—
"Thinking too hard," Leehan's voice whispers behind you. He sits atop a car, the passengers inside gaping at the fact that THE Spider-Man was right there above them, separated only by a roof and nothing more.
Passengers pull out their phone cameras, flashes going off promptly. Kids wave and point at him, parents too stunned into silence, a small crowd forming around the two of you. But nothing else matters—not when you feel his heavy stare through the material of his mask, and your chest tightens with the sheer force of wanting to reach out.
But you don't have to, not when he's sweeping you off the ground and swinging you to the very top of the bridge's tower.
The sky is inky blue behind him when he takes off the mask, holding you tighter as his eyes meet yours.
"I missed yo—" you begin to say, but he seals your words with a kiss.
"I love you," Leehan whispers against you, bringing his forehead to rest against yours. "Sorry I'm late."
You shake your head. "You could never be late. All the time in the world, remember?"
"Did you hate me?"
"I could never hate you, Kim Leehan." You brush a sweaty blond strand out of his face, wiping a smudge of dirt away with your thumb. "You can be an idiot sometimes, but I'd never hate you. I love you too much for that."
Leehan smiles in what feels like the first time in forever, the weight inside of him resting gently, the world around stopping to spin just to suspend the two of you in a bubble. From tens of feet above everyone, you're safe.
"I-I haven't been the best boyfriend, I know," Leehan admits into the crook of your neck. "There are things I should have done differently—done better."
"It's okay, you didn't mean to."
"No, I-I kept things from you. You should have been the first person I came to after… after everything." He almost falters at the way your eyes soften at his words. "There's a lot to be said. I don't know how to start…"
His voice tapers off into a self-depreciating chuckle, but you bring him back with a kiss to the cheek.
"All the time in the world, bug boy. We'll talk whenever you want, and I'll listen like I always do."
A mellow drizzle begins to sprinkle down, making Leehan look softer than ever against the watercolour-blue sky. Once upon a time, you'd thought that he looked beautiful in blue, and you realise that your verdict hasn't changed since then.
"Woonhak will be thrilled to know we're back together," Leehan nuzzles into you, finding something gentle and apocalyptic in the way it's just you and him there, in love. "Riwoo hyung told me that he kept calling us his parents."
"Dramatic as expected," you grin.
"Does this mean you forgive me?" Leehan's voice is gentle, with something nervous underneath it.
"Hmmm…" You pretend to think, watching him gulp anxiously, hands stiffening with every second that passes. "Maybe… if you can make up for it."
"Anything you want. Name your price," he nods eagerly, tangling his fingers into your hair
"First a rerun of that first date at the aquarium, then you buy another penguin keychain to replace the old one so we can match again." Your grin is blinding and big.
It occurs to Leehan that there is indeed a lot to be said. He simply slips the keychain out of his glove cuff, placing it carefully into your palm, curling your fingers over it. He'd had the mind to pick it up from where it had dropped beside him. It's caked with grime, blood that could be his own or not, but the metal is still cool to the touch. Two birds of a feather—it reads, the same as you remember yours to be.
"You found it," you say in half amusement, half wonder. "How?"
"That's the part we'll need to talk about. Preferably over that dinner date I need to make up for."
"Oh c'mon, don't make it all suspenseful now. Haven't I waited long enough?"
You definitely had a point there…
But Leehan isn't entirely sure how to approach the revelation that your Robotics professor was the same person that had been out for his blood. Maybe there isn't a way to sugarcoat the situation at all, so he comes clean in what he hopes isn't a mess of incoherent sentences that could warrant a suggestion to book himself into the mental ward.
Thankfully, and like always, you listen without judgement.
"Professor Beck is Mysterio?" you repeat his conclusion "Mysterio has been hurting you all this time… and the symbiote…"
"I should have told you…I just…I didn't want to drag you into my mess," Leehan sighs.
But you simply take his hand in yours, holding the little keychain between the two of you, pressing a reassuring thumb over his glove. "You must have been scared. And alone."
Leehan does not want to lie again, so he nods. You pull him in for a tight hug, letting him fit perfectly against you, with all the intention of wanting to keep him safe for a change.
"Sorry about your internship though… Beck's sorta gone," he murmurs in a pout and it makes you chuckle.
"Hmm, don't worry. I'm smart enough to get another one on my own without his recommendation," you assure him with a few pats on his back. "Sorry you lost your goo."
"Hey, his name is Venom."
"You named the goo?"
"No, he came with a name. He's more sentient once he fuses…"
"Yeah, definitely a dinner worthy conversation. Maybe over hotpot?"
"Please," Leehan almost whines in relief. "I'm so sick of eating instant food and gummies. Woonhak tried cooking for me once and I swear to god the meat was expired. Gave me diarrhoea for like a week."
"That's headline worthy—Spider-Man halts activities due to bowel issues… It's got a nice ring to it. Maybe I should call up the reporters and sell it for some cash—"
"Y/N..." he pouts harder; you giggle at his natural cuteness, then lean in to wipe the pout right off his face with another kiss.
Leehan, ever the opportunist, kisses back without waiting for permission, coaxing control right out of you and into his hands. He braces your jaw with a strong palm, kissing like a man starved. And maybe he was—judging by how eager his mouth feels against yours—a little salty, making a mess of your emotions as you push back with fervour.
"I love you so much," he whispers between kisses. "More than anything in the world…"
You open your mouth—to return the kiss or to respond to his declaration, you're not sure. But any and all words vanish when a loud BOOM turns both your attentions away.
Smoke spirals in a distance, and slowly when the cloud clears up, you see the building behind it.
The clock tower stands tall, rubble plunging down onto the streets, police sirens beginning to blare as commotion ensues. It's much past midnight now, and usually the city would be swimming in a quiet haze of night-life. Tonight, it's mayhem.
Tides rise from the water below, morphing into phantom-like monsters, illusionary beings made of fire and ash forming out of thin air as people rush away screaming, piling into cars and buildings for safety.
Leehan lets you hold onto him as he swings you over the bridge, past the water, and safely sets you down onto your feet when he reaches underneath the clock tower. He's about to tell you to go take cover and turn on your comms when—
"I'm coming in with you," you speak, resolute.
"Oh no, absolutely not."
"Bug boy, not to be rude, but you don't know the first thing about robots—and I do. Let me handle this with you."
He wants to protest again, but Leehan knows there's no way out for him anymore—unless he managed to lock you up in a car or something until it was over, but then you'd definitely take that as an insult to your pride and capability. So he agrees with a deep sigh.
"Fine," he huffs. "But promise if If I tell you to run, you run."
You give him a determined nod, already sprinting off in the direction of the clock tower, so Leehan has to jog to keep up. He manages to pull on his mask before anyone can sneak a glance.
Before the two of you cross the threshold, he glances back at you. "Also, I did learn a little about robots by the way… Woonhak helped."
You can't help but beam with pride at that.
"Kim Leehan, I have never found you more attractive than I do now." You wink before dashing up the stairs, stunning him into bashful silence. Underneath his mask, his face burns.
Focus.
He berates himself for being so weak to your advances, trying to expel the fact that he was blushing like a schoolgirl at the thought of his girlfriend finding him attractive, while in the midst of the city's imminent downfall if he didn't get it together.
Leehan decides to help you out by shooting a web upwards to wrap around the topmost copper railing, swinging himself upwards and taking you with him.
"Hey, if this Spidey thing doesn't work out long term, you can always offer your transport services to the public," you quip as he lets you down.
A sharp crack of lightning disrupts the peace, frizzling through the jagged hole in the dome above. Thunder begins to roll, grey clouds billowing angrily, the start of something terrible.
In front of you, a silhouette materialises. Larger than he should be, green inferno blazing behind, snapping like a cape—crawling through the brassy gears, circling around them.
Leehan throws a protective arm in front of you. "Stay near me. Don't leave," he reminds you.
The creature makes an inhuman sound, guttural. Quentin Beck's voice is somewhere in there, but smothered by the nightmarish baritone of Venom.
They've fused. Somehow.
Leehan has to repeat to himself not to panic—to stay calm for your sake. But it's your steady arm around his upper arm that brings him down to earth.
"Don't think too hard," the hybrid drawls out. "I let him take over. He needed a body, I needed you dead. Perfect symbiosis."
It occurs to Leehan that this thing—this twisted version of Beck, was still more human than symbiote. Which led to the obvious conclusion that he could still be defeated.
You seem to have the same thought.
"Get Riwoo hyung on call," he says. You don't dawdle, already pulling up your contacts.
Beck moves closer, letting his smoke coalesce into shapes—innocent people shrieking in fear, bubbling fish that fade into obscurity with a simple swish of its tail, a mutant lizard that leaps across the clock's inner dials—miscellaneous nonsense.
"Hypnogens," you state. "Could be paralytic…keep on your toe, yeah?"
"Do I ever not?" Leehan finds the humour to add, and its worth the shot when you grin back.
"Hello?" Riwoo's voice springs into Leehan's ear—he figures you'd connected his comms three-way.
"We need your help, hyung? Can't really explain but it involves a parasitic villain and—"
"Who? Venom?" Riwoo asks as he chews on something.
"Wait," Leehan's wild eyes meet your confused ones. "You knew!?"
"Oh…was it supposed to be a secret…? You kind of bought me a sample and I took a wild guess—Kim Woonhak, will you stop banging your pots together, I'm on a call!"
The absurdity of the situation gives Leehan a whiplash. Here they were, talking on the phone like they weren't in the middle of facing off against a very real threat, possibly deadly hallucinogens surrounding them, while their two friends sat on the other end making a ruckus in Woonhak's kitchen like it wasn't past 1 AM already.
Lo and behold, Woonhak barrels over to interrupt the conversation.
"Hi hyung! Whatcha up to…? We were too busy playing board games, so I haven't turned the TV on yet."
"Woonhak."
"Oh wait shit…I meant, we haven't turned the TV to watch that whale documentary you've been pestering me about, ha ha." He laughs awkwardly, turning to Riwoo to make the excuse worse. "No other reason… What other reason would there be? It's not like Leehan-ie hyung has a second, super secretive, super famous job or anything…"
"Woonhak, you can stop. I don't mind if hyung knows."
"Oh, THANK GOD, because I don't know how many more creative excuses I've got left in me to be honest."
Before Leehan can get to his point, Riwoo is chiming in as well, "You know that I already know he's Spider-Man right?"
Leehan himself is now startled.
"How…"
"Again, you aren't that discreet. The first time you disappeared after Doc Ock had mysteriously made a comeback, you told me that the press paid you to interview 'modern oceanic hybrids' because you're a marine biology student. That's not even a thing."
You keel over clutching your stomach at how funny the situation had evolved—but when it drives Mysterio even more crazy to know that none of you were afraid of him as much as you should be, he doubles down on his powers.
He begins to send one surreal visual after another, trapping you and Leehan in the middle of a hallucinatory circle. They're bizarre, sometimes large and fiery, other times dreamlike, designed to break past your mental walls.
"He's using neurotransmitters. That's why the robots won't die unless he does," you supply, picking through your professor's specific quirks in design. He's always preferred it over remote controlled robotics.
"Venom makes him harder to be killed. It's highly regenerative, so we need to strike at it's weakness…" Leehan says. "Hyung, I figured out it has something to do with heat and sound, but we need to break past the threshold somehow to make sure he doesn't just heal himself over again."
"Where are you right now?" Riwoo asks.
Leehan gives a quick rundown of his location, handing the turn over to you when he feels his skin prickle through his suit. The gas has started to do its job.
He holds onto you as he dodges the snake-like tentacles of smoke, making sure none of it gets into your system. A shot of web sideways, and he barely grazes the leg of a misty spider-like monster, several more spawning beneath—too reminiscent of Leehan's childhood nightmares.
"You okay?" he asks and you nod.
But it's not long after that his web starts to thin out, the abrasive gas eating away at his support until you're both falling downwards.
Somewhere in the darkness, his hands slip from yours, and he lands on all fours.
"Y/N!" Leehan yells out into the shadows.
"Hannie?" your voice calls back, but you aren't there.
You sound far away and near all at once, direction and space making no sense while confined in this hallucinatory hell designed for you.
Leehan turns to call again, but you stand there, eyes vacant.
"Hey…"
You reach out your fingers, ready to welcome him into your embrace. Leehan moves without thinking at first, but then he hears it—a distant echo that sounds like 'bug boy—!'.
This one isn't you…it's yet another invention of Beck's.
Leehan's hand curls into a fist as an eerie smile creeps over fake-you.
"You thought I'd take you back so easily?" you sneer, corrupting his thoughts. "After everything you've put me through… Are you not ashamed, Kim Leehan?"
Leehan isn't immune to how close this you sound to the real thing—but he's studied your cadence and the way you say his name so many times now, that it is sure as day that the hallucination's taunt cannot hold a candle to your giggles.
"Bug boy, where are you?" you—the real you—calls out.
"Here!" Leehan turns to run to you, trying hard to not trip in the pitch black room. He ignores every illusion that Beck places around him, following your voice like a moth to a flame.
He feels your warmth before he sees you.
"You're okay." Leehan hugs you tight. "I thought I'd lost you."
"You will never get rid of me, bug boy," you assure him with a squeeze.
"Okay, lovebirds, can we get back to beating the bad guy now?" Riwoo snaps you back to attention. "Y/N, if you can somehow find a way to create a large explosion, or some sort of amplified sound, it might get Venom to back off. Fire should work too, but it needs to burn through the cells before they start restoring themselves."
"The problem is that there are also drones involved," you explain. "Beck's gone haywire with his smoke and laser. Wait…maybe we can use that to our advantage somehow…"
"Woah, hold on," Woonhak reappears into your ears. "Beck? As in, our professor Beck?? Our professor's evil???"
"Long story," you say with a tired sigh.
"Does this mean I can't get that letter of recommendation he promised me after I graduate—"
"Woonhak, focus!" You turn back to Leehan, intertwining your fingers with his. "Remember those stun grenades I'd made?"
Leehan nods.
"I want you to use those as a distraction while I try something that might work. But I'll need your webs."
"Wait," Leehan's brows furrow in worry. "We aren't separating—it's too dangerous."
"Hannie, do you trust me?"
"Yes, of course I do—"
"Then trust me when I say we'll always find our way back to each other." You offer him a soft smile. "No matter what, okay? It's you and me against the world. Plus, I'll be right here." You tap at where his ear should be.
Leehan lets go of your hand only when you give him a non-verbal cue that it's time to get to business. He ignores Riwoo and Woonhak's embarrassing coos while he heads the opposite way in search of Beck.
You climb up the spiral stairwell to the highest point reachable, while Leehan drops into a crouch some floors below, resting himself steadily over a flat piece of cog. Rain begins to pelt down slowly, drenching him. At your tap over a giant wheel, Leehan springs a jet of webs to tie around its pinion.
"Trying to be clever?" Beck leers, appearing below Leehan, his body covered in a mass of symbiotic semifluid—curling, lashing, whipping menacingly at air. "Now be a pair of brave children and come down, won't you… Fight me head on."
Leehan ties the other end of the web around a tube at his feet, using his now freed hands to reach for his utility belt. Beck is slow to react when a stun grenade explodes into his chest.
The symbiote shrieks in pain as a deafening bang transpires, writhing when Leehan follows it with more launched one after the other, overriding its senses.
At the same time, you're trying to push the cog to turn, using the web as a leverage in what looks like a quickly thought version of a pulley system. Planting your feet firmly to the narrow mesh flooring, you pull with a grunt. It moves barely enough for a spark to come alive.
"It's working!" Leehan hears you exclaim, and it brings a sense of optimism to his own movements. Beck tries to rip the symbiote off of him, but the more he flails, the more it clings onto him. Unlike with Leehan, Venom seems to need Beck's life source to remain intact after the damage done.
Leehan helps you out by adding another stream of webs for support, pushing his entire body weight backwards as he too begins to pull. The cog moves clockwise, its age-old teeth harshly scraping against metal. The speedier you get it to rotate, the quicker the friction turns to heat, sparking a dim yellow first, then steadily builds up to a blinding white flame.
The fire travels down the wiring, through metal and cords, setting the entire tower ablaze—and with it, Venom. You and Leehan remain safe at the centre, simply watching as Beck shrieks in agony, crying words of anger and insult at Spider-Man till he slumps over.
"You'll…pay for this," he grunts in his own voice, burns casing his skin. Before he takes his final breath, perhaps as his last act of vengeance, Quentin Beck looks straight at you. Then with his remaining shred of vitality, he commands a drone to fire its laser at the grill that keeps you balanced.
"NO—" Leehan springs into action at once, but the beam breaks your footing, and snaps the web in your fist into two. His eyes meet your frightened ones in what feels like a slow-moving dream.
The clock hands move to 1:21.
You're falling, slipping away when he isn't quick enough—not near enough to reach you, just like in his nightmares. They feel like a premonition now.
Leehan is diving after you, shooting a web at your fading silhouette, trying so hard to make it to you.
Your lips move to mould the shape of I love you around them; Leehan prays this isn't a farewell.
Cogs and wheels frame your fall, making you look small and so, so human. There is nothing but the sound of a downpour in his ear. Leehan has never felt this scared in his entire life.
A split second before your body makes contact with the dusty ground some hundred feet below, his web manages to wrap around your torso; your head slumping back in whiplash.
Leehan drops next to you at once.
"Y/N?" he crouches down to rest you in his lap, moving your hair away from your face. "Hey, look at me. You're okay now."
Your lips don't move. Nothing happens.
Leehan rips off his mask to discard it somewhere. "Y/N… c'mon, it's over now—wake up."
His hair sags under the weight of rain, hands cradling your unmoving face reverently, too scared to press too hard lest you break.
It can't be over. It shouldn't be over so soon. You'd promised him all the time in the world, so why had you broken your end of it.
In a moment of haze, Leehan wonders if this was the universe's sick way of getting back at him for abandoning you before.
"We were supposed to last," he chokes on a sob into he crook of your neck, wishing more than anything for your fingers to come alive and brush through his strands. "You and I can make it through anything. Right Y/N?"
The fire around him dies down as though it understands not to disturb his grieving, too weak to survive in the face of the rain's wrath. It turns to ash and smoke, billowing out the cracks and into the starry sky.
"I love you." Tears roll down Leehan's face. He thinks of you when you were full of life…it feels like a lifetime ago now—your determined grin when you came up with a supposedly impossible idea, all the things you were supposed to do….the amazing inventions you were going to change the world with.
Woonhak's quiet sobs leak through your in-ears that have fallen out onto the ground, accompanied by Riwoo's gentle breathing.
At 1:21 AM on a pouring winter morning, Leehan's heart cleaves into two halves. And yours stop beating.
The world stills, and everything good refuses to exist for him. He burrows his head deeper into the crook of your neck, memorising what's left of your warmth, refusing to let go even when you aren't responding—
"Bug boy, why're you crying?"
Leehan thinks he's hallucinating again, that your voice is just an effect of his insanity, but the hands that come to brush back his hair feels too real to be a figment of imagination.
"Y-Y/N…?" Leehan finally lifts his head to look at you.
You're still breathing shallow, but your eyes have cracked open just a smidge, and an amused quirk of your lips lets him know that you aren't dead.
"Do you have some leftover Venom in your bag? I may need to regenerate some of my organs…" you quip lightly and Leehan crushes you into an all-consuming hug, his heart beating out of his chest, tears still spilling.
Riwoo whoops in the background, and Woonhak does a celebratory backflip, his excitement bleeding into Leehan's own.
"Told you I won't leave you that easily," you say as you wipe away at his wet cheeks, even going as far as dabbing it with your sleeve.
Leehan catches your wrist gently.
"I thought you almost broke your promise," he confesses, quiet, meant for just your ears.
Your eyes crinkle. "But those are the best kind."
The city stills, illusions vanishing away like they'd never been there in the first place, and Leehan presses a kiss to your palm.
On a rainy December night, you find your way back to each other again.
[EPILOGUE—5 years later]
SPRING
Being a to-be-wed is not a task for the weak.
7:00 AM
Your hair is coiled perfectly, coming down in ringlets to frame your face. There's soft blush on your cheeks, your lips painted a colour that brings out your features.
The suite is beautiful from where you stand, adorned in a long white dress, twirling in front of the mirror. Out the window, the sea sparkles a light blue under the morning sun. You carefully adjust the veil on your head, fastening your dangling earrings.
Everything is perfect, and you couldn't be happier.
7:00 AM
The groom's room is in chaotic disarray.
Woonhak is coughing on a mouthful of complimentary donuts that was supposed to be saved for the reception, getting crumbs all over his new tux, and Riwoo keeps opening and closing the velvet box anxiously—afraid he'd somehow mess up his only job as the ring bearer.
"Hyung, breathe," Woonhak manages to choke out. It's directed at a wildly pacing Leehan.
"What if Y/N says no…" he suddenly drops to a crouch, cradling his head in his hands, a genuinely worried expression crossing his face.
"Five years and you're still no better than you used to be…tsk, tsk." Woonhak shakes his head in disapproval.
But Riwoo is kind enough to come crouch next to Leehan, an empathetic hand at his back. "Leehan, you and I both know how entirely wrong you are. She loves you more than anyone else in the world. There is not a single universe where she'd say no."
"What if…" Leehan barely makes himself seen through the crook of his elbows. "What if she realises I'm not good enough for her?"
"Then who is?"
"Huh?"
Riwoo repeats once more, "Then who is good for her, if not you?"
Leehan comes short of an answer. There is no person that can match up to you—no one who he can imagine keeping up with you while you ran to your golden future. And yet, you'd chosen him.
It isn't long until the wedding planner knocks on the door to usher everyone out, interrupting Leehan's mini meltdown for good. He sucks in a deep breath, steadies himself, and follows the rest out.
7:40 AM
An 8 o'clock ceremony was as uncommon as they came, but you'd been stubborn about just this one thing (and several other demands, depending on if you asked Woonhak or not).
In all fairness, nothing about this whole ordeal was run-of-the-mill.
When Leehan had proposed to you, he'd done it at the beach, the sun setting behind the waves, your feet dipped in shallow water. He'd popped out a pebble to offer to you with the most shy grin you'd ever witnessed on his face, kneeling right into the wet sand and proceeding to get his jeans wet.
Needless to say, the ride home was an awkward one, most of his lower half splotched and soaking. But it hadn't mattered too much when the both of you wore matching grins and your hands held onto a pebble the shade of your eyes.
Woonhak had shrieked at the news, way too excited about the fact that Spider-Man was about to be a married man soon. Riwoo had pulled the both of you into a tight hug, sobbing into your shoulders like a mother about to let go of her children.
"Look at you two," he had been sobbing. "my babies—all grown up."
"Hyung, you sound so old right now," Leehan had quipped over his neck, exchanging an amused glance with you. You'd simply shrugged and let Riwoo hold you in the same position until his arms started to go numb.
Currently, you wait with bated breath, a bouquet of white tulips in hand as the door opens before you. It's a pleasant sort of sunny today—perfect weather for a wedding.
"Cue music, bride on standby," the wedding coordinator adjusts his microphone. "In three, two, one—and begin entrance!"
8:00 AM
Leehan holds his breath as you come into view, a trail of white over the long carpets laid on the sand. Woonhak walks some distance in front, tossing petals more enthusiastically than any one ever could (he'd volunteered himself as the flower girl when you'd brought up the idea for the sake of humour).
Beside him, Riwoo stands dutifully with the box safely placed inside his pockets, and Mr. Kim readies himself to proceed with the ceremony as the officiant. He'd pretended to not care when you had asked for his help, but after all, it was the biology project that he had assigned once upon a time that brought the two of you together—a partnership that had eventually evolved into something precious and lifelong.
"Dearly beloved," Mr. Kim begins once you reach the groom. "We are gathered here today to celebrate the union of two brilliant, beautiful people…."
8:00 AM
Leehan is so gorgeous, is your first thought.
His dark tux and dark hair makes him look ethereal with the cerulean sea as a backdrop, his slightly glistening eyes that you're sure is from holding back tears—everything about Leehan has you head over heels in love.
Woonhak sprinkles his flower petals onto the carpet and sand, Riwoo watches you both in adoration, your and Leehan's parents huddled together on the frontmost pew, sniffling and dabbing at their cheeks with a handkerchief.
"Dearly beloved," Mr. Kim begins once you reach your fiancé—soon to be husband. "We are gathered here today to celebrate the union of two brilliant, beautiful people…."
Soft music joins the sway of breeze, tides rising and crashing, everything warm—golden. All you see is Leehan when your hands fall safely into his.
"Do you, Kim Leehan, take L/N Y/N to be your lawfully wedded wife?"
Leehan does not look away from you. " I do," he whispers.
"And do you, L/N Y/N, take Kim Leehan to be your lawfully wedded husband?"
You smile. "I—"
BEEEEEEEEEEEP—!!!
Leehan’s watch has gone off, tucked under the cuff of his tux sleeve.
The crowd stares in confusion. Mr Kim pauses his officiating. You look at Leehan, he looks at you—a secret language that perplexes everyone else but Riwoo and Woonhak.
There's no pleasantries or apologies made when you grab his hand and make a run for it.
Your heels slip off as warm sand meets the soles of your feet, and you break out into an unrestrained fit of giggles when Leehan starts to discard his expensive tux somewhere on the ground, his Spidey suit peeking through the white shirt over it.
Somewhere behind you, Woonhak starts to make excuses on your behalf.
"The groom's got a terrible bladder," he placates the crowd. "And the bride has bad separation anxiety."
Riwoo thumps him aggressively on the back with a tight smile and a "Stop. Talking." muttered through gritted teeth.
Once you're a safe distance away from the wedding goers, Leehan abruptly turns to you with wide eyes.
"Wait, you didn't say I do yet," he realises.
The sheer sincerity with which he says it makes you reach up and steal a kiss from him.
"I do," you say before he responds. "Forever, bug boy."
He sighs with a smile. "Forever…"
But you're already pulling him along, off to the next mission. "Now let's go kick some butt!" you shout excitedly, making him giggle too.
Being Spider-Man is still the coolest job in the world. He loves all of it—the perks and the hard parts alike. It's sort of like a marriage, Leehan muses.
However, if it means he will get to sprint through the rest of his life with your hand in his, it's a risk he's willing to brave.
But Leehan has to admit—nothing beats being your husband.
― note: girl who has never stepped foot in a club tries to write a club scene...anyway my first official lengthy fic !!! if it's horrible don't tell me (ᵕ—ᴗ—) i also don't know a thing about aliens or space so let's not look too into it lol
rumor has been going around about this other alien and his supposed 'big dick', but you were more of a see it to believe it type of person so you just shrugged those rumors off. it wasn't until the topic was brought up again that now your ears were tuned in. it was just another girls night. drinks going around, gaming (if you can even call playing sims 4 that), just you having fun with your girls. and then the gossip started.
"well gigi told me that her friend told her his dick was definitely a 10 out of 10." one of your friends said.
"whose dick?" another asked.
"she said his name was donghyun? i think he's new 'cause i've never heard that name before."
donghyun, donghyun, donghyun you're running his name through your mental files wondering if you've ever come across him, but come up empty. everyone knows each other on the planet you're from so maybe he was new.
"where could he be from?" you asked, still focused on customizing your sim.
"i don't even know, but these rumors are kind of making me curious," your friend bites down on her finger looking around at the rest of the girls. "right?"
"hey, you think he'll be at that club?" you turn to ask, brain full of mischief now.
and that's how you all end up in your uber which is also a floating pod. as you see the neon lights of the club in the near distance, you feel the excitement running through your body. you won't lie and say you weren't curious about who this donghyun was and if the rumors were true. if it was the topic of discussion more than once, it couldn't be false, right?
arriving at the entrance, you check in with the bouncer getting the okay to walk in. the hall's a bit dim except for the one or two dim red led bulbs on the wall to help guide you in. but as you start walking further in, the lights are brighter and more colorful, the music's loud you could feel the bass in your chest. almost the entire population was in here, dancing, grinding and laughing. you head over to the bar which is lined with white leds underneath, ordering a drink for you and your friend.
you're in the middle of a conversation and then your eyes stray around the bar spotting a familiar face next to someone you've never seen before. he was the most beautiful creature you've ever laid your eyes on. your friend also turns to look behind her and she gasps when she sees who you're looking at. "that's him!" she smacks your arm, excitedly.
he looks up, your eyes making contact and you swear if you were human you'd faint.
"i think i need a fan." you sigh.
"i think you should go for it." gigi encourages, taking a sip of her drink.
you're all in a private room now, gigi being called up as soon as your friend let everyone know donghyun was, in fact, here.
"i don't know. wouldn't it be too forward?" you twiddle your fingers in your lap, nervous.
"of course not! you said you guys made eye conact, right? that's code for he wants you. now go!" gigi pats your back. "and don't leave out any details." she smirks into her drink.
you down a quick shot for encouragement before you're out the door.
"so you're the new talk of the planet, huh?" you squint your eyes, shutting and locking the door behind you.
donghyun sits on the hot pink couch in the middle of the room, smiling and waving. "hello."
"forgive me for being so straightforward," you come nearer, straddling his lap now. "but i couldn't help being so curious."
"curious about what?" his eyes widen at the way you just sit yourself on his lap. no introductions, just straight to business, he guesses. the pure confusion on his face is enough to raise your own confusion. wait, hasn't he already slept with someone?
"huh?" you tilt your head. "haven't you heard the rumors about you?"
"what rumors?"
"that you're packing a weapon in your pants."
if he weren't an alien, his cheeks would've flushed at what you're insinuating, but he's not so he just stares at you with a blank face.
"um, i wouldn't know where you heard that from, but it's not false either?"
a devious smile creeps up on your face. "can i see?"
unbuttoning his pants and pulling them down along with his boxers, your eyes widen at the absolute monster looking you right in the face. your mouth couldn't help but water and so you eagerly take him into your mouth, no warning. he gasps, lurching forward at the sudden feeling of your warm mouth around his cock.
"oh my god," he moans. "could've given me a warning."
you hum around him, bobbing your head. you take him out of your mouth and get up off your knees to sit on his lap again. "wanna fuck myself on it." you line his tip up with your hole, mouth dropping open at the stretch. he was lengthy and pretty girthy. he was definitely bigger than any other you've ever had.
you don't move for a good few minutes, just sitting on him taking his size in, feeling stretched and full. then you start bouncing, hands on his shoulders. his hands move to your hips, fingernails digging into your flesh leaving behind little indents.
"can i kiss you, please?" he begs and he looks at you with his sparkly eyes you could combust from that alone. you don't even answer him, just take his face in your hands and bring his lips to yours. the kiss was hot, his cock was hot, he was hot. it was enough to bring you to release. and when he cums soon after you, it's a lot.
"oh my god when's the last time you fucked anyone?" you gasp, lifting yourself off a bit to see the amount of cum inbetween you both. you're surely coated.
"s-sorry. it's actually my first time."
"what?"
who the hell started the rumor then?
"and she told me that there was a rumor i was carrying a weapon in my pants or something." donghyun finishes after telling jaehyun all about his night.
jaehyun bursts out laughing, smacking donghyun in the chest meanwhile donghyun just stares at him. what was so funny?
"i just started that rumor for funzies." he laughs. "but i'm glad to know you got something out of it. your first time with the hottest alien on this planet, dude."
thanks, jaehyun?
"and he was a virgin!" the girls gasp after you spilled the juicy details.
"well i guess i should've questioned it when it was jaehyun who told me," gigi shrugs. "but i mean at least you got to find out for yourself. wow so he really does have a weapon in there."
SYNOPSIS ➜ after a fake rumour circled around koz university that led to her reputation being ruined, l/n y/n can’t seem to get along with anyone without receiving judgemental looks besides her loyal friend group, until he came along. it all started with being paired up for a project, to meeting up for study sessions, to something even more than just that.
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ix. he got that jizz (jaehyun rizz)
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a/n: ouuuu dramaaaa 😈😈 who do u guys think this mystery person is? (or should i say who do you think is y/n’s ex?) im gonna do a double update this week cuz i feel generous heh 🥹✌️ the chapters title is from stormi clipping me after accidentally saying jizz while trying to say jaehyun rizz
vocalist!reader making out with guitarist!leehan and shamelessly dry humping before rehearsal starts, but then springing apart when the rest of the band walks in need him so bad pls
notes: fem!reader, single dad!leehan, strangers to lovers, neighbor au (lol), implied older!reader, appearance of side characters, fluff, smut, soft dom!leehan, cunnilingus, unprotected sex (wrap it b4 u tap it), creampie, light manhandling, implied breeding/pregnancy kink
a/n: this is the longest fic i've written to date i think, i just lost my mind a little hshjfshj sorry i just really love leehan with kids i could NOT rest until i purged this from my body. title is from touch tank by quinnie!
among the many things that you hate, being woken up without your consent places high on that very long list. unless you permit it, no one, absolutely no one, can wake you up without being subjected to an earful of complaining and cussing from you.
another item on said list is unruly children. what makes that worse are pushover parents. children, you can understand. they don’t know how to communicate well enough, so it’s on the parents to make sure their needs are being met.
so when you’re woken up to a commotion across the hall from your apartment, a childlike, high-pitched voice bleeding through your front door, you couldn’t help but beg every deity you can think of for strength.
you fling your door open, muttering under your breath, asking god what on earth could be going on that warranted this much noise.
lo and behold, boxes crowd the hallway in front of the apartment directly across yours. there is the unmistakable sound of a child’s laughter drifting through from the inside, paired with music blasting from a speaker, some pop tune that you’ve heard about a hundred times on the radio. not the best song to be waking up to at 7 AM.
you don’t want to impose. you really don’t. but you’ve had a long work week and deadlines shoved so far up your ass you could–
“hi! we are so sorry for the mess.”
you blink, bringing the scene in front of you back into focus. a young man stands in your line of sight, a worried look in his big, round, beautiful, brown eyes.
you blink again.
“is my son making too much noise? sorry about that,” the man apologizes again, fiddling with the sleeve of his oversized flannel. he’s wearing it on top of a university shirt, and the jeans he wears are faded and ripped in certain spots. he doesn’t look a day older than twenty-two.
“we’re moving in and he’s really excited about it, so he’s running up a storm in there,” he continues to explain, jerking a thumb over his shoulder towards the direction of his apartment.
“um,” you begin, suddenly incapable of stringing words together.
clearing your throat, you decide to settle on “it’s a bit early to be playing music that loud, don’t you think?”
the man’s eyes widen, as if only realizing the commotion he’s causing at this hour of the morning.
“oh! yes, right, i’m so sorry.” the man apologizes a third time and your previous irritation ebbs away as you watch him dash inside, the music cutting abruptly. he hurries back out and flashes you a sheepish grin.
“sorry.” you count a fourth apology. “yijin likes it when i play music.”
a figure darts out of the door, and out comes a little boy about two years old. he clings to who you assume is his father, the boy’s arms circling the man’s knee.
“this is yijin,” the man introduces, bending down to pick the child up.
“and i’m donghyun. but most people call me leehan.”
leehan stretches out an arm in greeting and you grasp it briefly, attempting a friendly smile. you’re not one to be overly familiar with your neighbors, but this leehan guy seems genuinely sorry about waking you up. and he’s cute. but that’s beside the point.
“i’m ______. i live across the hall. as you can see.” you direct a gentle smile at the kid in leehan’s arms. the last thing you want is an upset toddler crying over their scary neighbor.
“right, sorry again.” leehan visibly cringes as he finally seems to take in your mildly disheveled appearance. your cheeks grow warm when you realize you’re just in a pair of ratty pajamas and an oversized shirt. not the most flattering look to have when meeting your new neighbor.
“we promise to keep it down,” leehan concludes, smiling apologetically.
“it’s okay,” you reassure leehan. “and no need to apologize. moving in is always a pain. especially since you have a little one with you.”
leehan grins at that, turning to his son. yijin eyes you warily, suddenly melting into his father’s touch, as if wanting to shrink himself against your gaze.
“he’s a little shy at first,” leehan explains, rubbing yijin’s back soothingly. “he’ll come around soon enough. he’s super friendly once he gets to know you.”
you don’t know what to say to that, so you just smile. not that you didn’t want to be a kind neighbor to this pair, but you definitely aren’t in the business of saying more than a passing ‘hi’ or ‘how are you?’ to the other people in your building.
no matter how cute both father and son are.
“well, i’ll start by being a good neighbor and leaving you guys to it,” you say, backing into your own apartment. “let me know if you need anything.”
as soon as those last words were out of your mouth, you knew you had made a big mistake.
-
the next time you see the two of them is monday morning, as you’re leaving to go to work. leehan is clutching one of yijin’s hands while he fiddles with the lock of their apartment. true enough to his promise, leehan didn’t cause you any trouble for the rest of the weekend. you had almost forgotten they were there. almost. yijin has a very loud, rambunctious laugh, as you soon found out.
“good morning,” you say before you can stop yourself. yijin looks up first, recognition in his round eyes. leehan turns to you a moment later, a smile instantly painting his pretty face.
“morning,” leehan greets. “going to work?”
“mhm,” you nod. you wave at yijin and the toddler waves back shyly.
“same for you?” you continue, watching in mild amusement as leehan continues to struggle with his keys.
“ah, no,” leehan answers distractedly. finally, he gets the right key in and manages to bolt their door shut.
“i’m going to school.”
your eyebrows shoot up. leehan must see the surprise in your face because he rubs the back of his neck, cheeks reddening.
“i’m a senior at the university nearby,” leehan expounds. “i don’t have anyone to leave yijin with, so he comes with me.”
you’re rendered speechless for a few seconds, a million things crossing your mind. he’s a student? he’s a dad and a student? where’s the mom? are you allowed to ask about the mom? did he kidnap this baby? what–
“oh,” is all that comes out of your mouth. “i–well, i mean–that’s…does he like it when he goes with you?”
leehan chuckles, ruffling yijin’s hair. “he does. my classmates and professors love him, too. he’s very well-behaved.”
you feel a smile tug at your lips upon hearing that. that’s sweet. you’d hate to pry, but your curiosity was definitely piqued now.
“i also work at the local aquarium part-time,” leehan adds, a hint of pride in his voice. “so, on the weekends, yijin spends hours looking at the fish.”
“dada like fish,” yijin chimes in, pointing at his dad.
“‘like’ is putting it lightly,” leehan laughs. “i’m also studying to be a marine biologist.”
“that’s…wow, that’s amazing,” you supply, unable to find the right words for the situation. suddenly, your own life pales in comparison to your cute neighbor’s colorful, fish-filled days.
“have you ever been? to the aquarium, i mean,” leehan asks.
you shake your head. “no.”
“aquarium, go!” yijin cuts in, jumping up in excitement. leehan grins at you and you feel your hands clam up and your heart beat just a little faster.
“you should definitely listen to him,” leehan teases lightly. “he’d know a thing or two about the aquarium.”
you bite your lip, trying to suppress another smile.
“i’ll see about that,” you say. you glance at your watch and shoot the pair an apologetic look.
“sorry, i gotta go. take care on the way to school, though!”
leehan nods, raising a hand to wave goodbye.
“say bye to ______,” he hurriedly adds, coaxing yijin to do the same.
“bye!” comes the little one’s enthusiastic send-off. you wave at both of them as you descend the stairs to the first floor.
-
the third time you see leehan and yijin, it’s during a thunderstorm, about two weeks after they moved in. the night sky is an inky, starless black. your windows rattle from the howling wind and your lights flicker ever so often. you pace around your apartment, worrying over the building’s backup generators and the tree banging against your living room window.
the knock at your front door makes you jump and it takes you a second to collect your bearings enough to rush over and open it for whoever’s waiting on the other side.
leehan has yijin in his arms, the poor boy clutching onto his dad for dear life.
“hi, sorry to bother you at a time like this,” leehan hurriedly begins. “but i need to get a few things from the store, and i can’t find where i put away all our umbrellas and coats, and i can’t have the stuff delivered in this storm so i was thinking maybe you could watch yijin, just for a bit though, i know this is a crazy thing to ask you, i promise–”
“wait,” you cut in firmly. “you’re going out in this storm?”
leehan runs a hand through his hair, worrying his bottom lip as if debating internally with himself.
“it’s just been a hectic week for us and with school and work, i haven’t been keeping up with everything,” leehan admits. a clap of thunder jolts all three of you and yijin starts to whimper into leehan’s shoulder.
you regard your neighbor for a moment. you sigh. “surely, nothing at the grocery is so important that you have to run out into a storm for it.”
leehan lets out a breath and you feel genuinely sorry for him. you stand to the side and usher them into your own place.
“why don’t you come in? maybe i have some of the things you need.”
leehan gapes at you for a few seconds, but you motion for him to hurry in just as another bolt of thunder illuminates the dim hallway. he crosses the threshold into your place and you shut the door securely behind him.
he’s rocking yijin back and forth, muttering soothing words into his son’s ear. you only now realize how absurd the situation is. your neighbor, who you have known for all but two-ish weeks, is standing in the middle of your living room, his two-year-old son trembling in his arms.
you didn’t know the first thing about childcare, but you do know that you want to help.
“sorry, it’s just–i couldn’t drop by the store yesterday since yijin was throwing a fit after my class ended, and now all i have to feed him is a loaf of bread and some gummies,” leehan rambles, continuing to sway side to side in an attempt to calm yijin down. to his credit, the kid seems to be taking the very scary, very loud thunderstorm quite well. no major meltdowns so far.
“okay,” you begin.
“don’t get me wrong, we’re not struggling or anything like that,” leehan cuts in, ears turning red in embarrassment. “it’s just a lot at the moment.”
“okay,” you repeat yourself. “i wasn’t thinking that, anyway. parents have it hard. especially parents like you who have to work and study.”
leehan pauses, looks at you, and finally smiles, albeit a little uneasily. his shoulders relax just a fraction as he allows himself to survey his surroundings. you’re terribly aware of how lackluster your place seems to be. sure, there are some decor and trinkets scattered around, especially in your bookcases, where your prized possessions, your vast amount of books, are displayed.
“nice place,” leehan comments, peering at the string of fairy lights cascading down one of your bookshelves. this seems to catch yijin’s attention, too, because he’s reaching out with his hand, pointing at the shimmering yellow orbs.
“you like to read?” leehan asks. you nod.
“i kind of have to. i work as a writer, so part of that is lots of reading,” you explain.
leehan meets your gaze and you feel your heart stutter in your chest. damn your biological functions and your natural predilection towards finding attractive men with babies cute. you blink, attempting to look anywhere else but directly at leehan.
“sorry, you can take a seat on the couch,” you say, trying to change the subject. “i have some blankets if it would make yijin feel better.”
“banky!” yijin calls out, peering up at you with those big, brown eyes, exactly like his father’s.
you grin, reaching over to gently press his cheek with your finger. “okay, i’ll get you a blanket.”
“thank you,” leehan hurriedly says. “you don’t have to, but thank you.”
“don’t worry about it,” you say in response, patting leehan’s shoulder reassuringly. somehow, this minuscule touch sends a jolt of warmth through you.
you return a few minutes later with a thick blanket and some more pillows you had in your storage. leehan had set yijin down on the couch, where the little one was currently curled up, eyes blinking sleepily. leehan takes the blanket from you and props yijin’s head on one of the pillows. he tucks his son in with a brush of the hair and a kiss on the forehead. yijin is out cold not even a minute later.
“thanks again,” leehan whispers, getting up from the couch. at his full height, he towers over you. suddenly, his proximity has your chest constricting. his cologne is fresh in your nose, mixed in with the barest hints of baby powder. he’s wearing a plain white tee and some sweats, and you quickly look away as your eyes go past his waistband.
“so, uh, what was it you needed from the store?” you ask, trying to get back to the reason he’s even in your house in the first place.
“right,” leehan says, face lighting up, as if only just remembering as well.
“i was supposed to get us the essentials yesterday. some produce, chicken, and some other meat. oh, and the yogurt snacks yijin really likes.” leehan lists the items off on his fingers, like he’s done this a thousand times before.
you nod along, trying to make a mental note of what you had in your own cabinets.
“honestly, come to think of it, i can probably just make the bread work. we have some nutella left,” leehan says with a touch of humor.
“i don’t think nutella for dinner is the healthiest choice,” you respond with a smile.
leehan chuckles, shoving his hands in his pockets. you’ve never seen him without yijin clinging to his side, so his relaxed demeanor is new to you. you notice the curve of his wide shoulders, the way his arms slightly bulge out against his shirt. again, your eyes traitorously lower down to where his pants ride low on his hips.
“i guess not,” leehan agrees, you force yourself to look at his eyes and his eyes only. but even that is a challenge.
the two of you stare at each other for what seems like ages before you clear your throat.
“i have some instant mac n’ cheese and some vegetables that i promised myself i’d use for meal prep, but never got around to doing.” you walk past leehan into the kitchen, reaching up towards one of the cupboards. sure enough, your stack of microwavable mac n’ cheese sits there, waiting.
“i can actually chuck a few into the microwave for the three of us, if you want,” you say, looking over your shoulder at leehan. he’s standing behind your kitchen island, eyes trained on you. it’s bizarre, having a man in your place after so long, the last one being some fling or some other, more than a year ago.
you decide it’s not so bad seeing leehan in your space.
you pull three of the containers out, setting them down on the island between you and him. “this should be okay for tonight. assuming you’ll be able to visit the store by tomorrow?”
“yeah, definitely,” leehan interjects almost immediately. ”i have some time before my shift at the aquarium.”
you nod, not really knowing what else to say to that. a silence lapses over both of you as you prepare the food. you can feel leehan watching you, but you refuse to look up. now is a good time as any to admit to yourself that you definitely find your neighbor attractive. which is ridiculous because you barely know him. but then again, you don’t need a slow burn to know that you find your young single dad neighbor hot.
“i’m really sorry,” leehan says all of a sudden. “we probably ruined a perfectly peaceful night for you.”
you snicker, shaking your head. “not at all. i was just about ready to pop a sleeping pill to keep myself from panicking over the wind.”
you peek up through your lashes and leehan is already looking, his hands braced on the island as he leans closer. you unconsciously back up, dwarfed by his towering stature.
“you must really need help if you were willing to leave your child with a neighbor you’ve spoken to for a total of two times,” you muse, tilting your head curiously. leehan’s lips spread in a slow smile and your heart jolts once again.
“three times. if you count my rambling at the door,” he says. then he adds with a shrug, “something tells me i can trust you.”
you flush, unable to find the right words. thank you? i’m honored? i trust you, too, can you maybe kiss me for absolutely no reason at all?
you shake these thoughts away, turning your back to him, filling up the first of the mac n’ cheese with water. you hear shuffling behind you and you startle when you feel leehan sidle up beside you, placing the two other containers on the counter in front of you. his chest brushes your shoulder ever-so-slightly and you’re convinced you’re about to pass out.
“so,” you begin, giving yourself something else to think about other than leehan’s proximity and how heavenly he smells.
“how old is yijin?”
leehan, thankfully, steps back, leaning his hip against the counter instead, arms crossed. you make the mistake of peeking over and seeing the veins running along his forearms.
“he’s two,” leehan answers.
“and how old are you?” you continue, filling up the next plastic bowl, hands trembling lightly.
this is ridiculous. there is a man in your kitchen. telling you about his son.
“twenty-two.”
you look at him then, an eyebrow raised. he’s smirking, as if anticipating this reaction from you.
“we had him during sophomore year,” leehan explains. “the situation isn’t lost on me, _______.”
hearing your name from his lips causes an involuntary shiver down your spine. why does he say it like that? how have i never heard my name spoken like that?
“am i allowed to ask about…well, about his mom?” you attempt to sound casual yet empathetic.
leehan gives a slight shrug of his shoulders. “she’s in the picture. but i take care of yijin most of the time. his mom is studying in another city, and her parents originally…well, they didn’t want…”
you give leehan a look and you see his eyebrows pinched together, as if he’s looking for the right words to say.
“hey,” you offer, patting leehan’s arm briefly. “you don’t have to tell me.”
he eyes you then, his lips pursed. he sucks in a breath and says, “he was supposed to be given up after she gave birth, but that’s when my parents intervened and offered to take him in.”
you feel yourself nodding as you listen to leehan convey the story of yijin’s birth.
“so, i’m his primary caretaker. his mom visits on the weekends when she can during or after my shifts at the aquarium. sometimes, we spend time together there as a family. yijin really likes those days,” leehan concludes, a wistful smile on his face.
you finish with the containers, pausing momentarily to face leehan.
“thank you for trusting me enough with that information,” you supply, smiling at your neighbor. he returns the gesture. he looks over at your hands, occupied with tonight’s dinner.
“oh, i’ll do it,” leehan says, reaching over for the containers of mac n’ cheese. your fingers brush against his and you feel like some untouched virgin, trembling at the slightest physical contact.
he walks carefully to your microwave, placing all three bowls inside. he pauses as he assesses the controls. you giggle, reaching over to start it yourself.
“so,” you say, turning back to him as your food heats. “what’s her name? yijin’s mom, i mean.”
leehan leans on the kitchen island behind him, fully facing you. “minju.”
“that’s a pretty name.”
leehan nods. “yeah.”
“you’re not together anymore?” you ask cautiously, scared that you might have crossed the line this time, as if him spilling the details of his child’s origins wasn’t enough.
“no,” leehan says with a shake of his head.
“it was practically over the moment we found out about yijin.”
“oh,” you say plainly. “i’m sorry.”
“it’s okay,” leehan reassures. “we’re better friends than we were partners.”
you hum in acknowledgement, pondering on that for a moment. it’s a good thought; some people work better when there isn’t pressure to be romantic.
can the same be said for the opposite? can two people instantly connect romantically?
your thoughts are interrupted when the microwave goes off. leehan hurriedly opens it, but you stop him.
“let me,” you say, a hint of teasing in your voice. “you’re my guest, so technically, i have to serve you, you know.”
“technically, i barged into your place, and i’m about to eat your food, so the least i can do is help,” leehan reasons, flashing you another one of his eye-crinkling smiles that you’re starting to like a little too much.
you sigh, gesturing for leehan to continue. he bows with an over-ceremonious flourish of his hand before he lays out the food on the counter.
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that night, after yijin was roused and gently coaxed to eat, and after the three of you gathered around your tiny kitchen island, eating instant mac n’ cheese while the storm raged outside, you bade them a quiet good night, telling leehan over and over that it really was no trouble at all. you liked their company, and you’re glad you could help.
“i promise i’ll make it up to you,” leehan swore, standing in the hallway between your and their door. yijin was asleep in his arms, and even leehan’s own eyes had a drowsy look to them. it was unfairly pretty to look at.
now, lying in your bed, you ponder on what exactly is going on.
i like my neighbor. is that weird? surely not. i just think he’s cute. and gentle. and so sweetly soft spoken. and a kind, doting father.
you sigh, curling into yourself as you feel the first remnants of sleep.
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the fourth time you see leehan and yijin, it’s the next day after the storm. it’s a bright saturday morning, as if the skies weren’t punishing everyone the night before. on a whim, you decided as you woke up that you would pay the aquarium a visit. no particular reason, you just wanted to take yijin up on his enthusiastic recommendation.
you arrive just after 11 AM, the place already bustling with families and a smattering of uniformed school kids on field trips. you enter the lobby and approach the line for admission tickets. you look around, amazed at the decor, both sleek and nautical and bursting with marine themes. you smile at a family passing by: a mom, a dad, and their young daughter.
soon enough, it’s your turn, and you purchase a ticket for one. you’re directed to the entrance to the first exhibit and you realize with a slight thrill that you’re actually excited to see the fish and other sea creatures.
not that you had any other plans for being here. you looking over your shoulder now and then, as if searching for someone, held no significance at all.
you marvel at the large tanks of fish, listening intently to the nearby guides giving their tours. you read the signs diligently, letting yourself move through the halls unhurriedly. it’s actually quite nice, being here alone, not chasing a schedule. you almost forget about the brown-haired boy with the adorable toddler living across the hall from you.
almost.
because in front of you is leehan, crouched down to yijin’s level as he points out the different fish in the tank in front of them. behind them is the most beautiful woman you’ve ever seen, one who looks exactly like yijin.
you blink, your feet rooted on the spot.
this was a terrible, terrible idea.
before you could scurry away, leehan straightens, and only then do you notice his attire: a uniform similar to the other aquarium employees around you. he looks endearingly dorky in the navy blue polo and khaki shorts, and you can’t help but smile, despite the situation you’ve found yourself in.
leehan turns and locks eyes with you, and you feel as if the ground beneath you is giving away. he grins, waving frantically and gesturing for you to come over. you swallow, hands clammy as your feet mechanically bring you closer.
“hey! you’re here!” leehan says with a laugh. yijin looks up as well and stares at you. a moment later, he waves shyly, mirroring his dad.
“i had some free time, so i decided to drop by,” you explain, smiling sheepishly. you catch the eye of the woman beside leehan. minju, if your assumptions are correct.
“oh, minju, this is _______,” leehan begins, gesturing to you, further confirming your suspicions. “she lives next door to yijin and i.”
minju smiles, and you’re floored by how kind she looks. it’s the exact same smile yijin gives to his dad.
“nice to meet you,” minju says, grasping your hand in hers. well, fuck. even her hands are dainty.
“i’m yijin’s mom.”
you fight the urge to say ‘i know’. instead, you smile back at her, hopefully conveying some version of delight.
“i can definitely see the resemblance,” you muse, grinning wider down at yijin. he waves at you again and you feel your heart clench. he really is such a cute kid. like his dad.
“she’s the one that i told you about, the one that helped us last night,” leehan describes, picking yijin up. leehan’s eyes never leave you and you have to avert your own gaze to keep yourself from blushing in front of the literal mother of his child.
“oh,” minju says. “that was awfully sweet of you. thanks so much for looking out for them.”
she lays a hand on leehan’s arm, where it stays, and you know it’s irrational, but a mild pinch pierces your chest.
this is ridiculous. that’s the mother of his child, you idiot. his baby mama. you can’t be jealous of her!
“just being a good neighbor,” you supply, shrugging nonchalantly.
“well, i’m glad you’re there for them, anyway, ” minju responds, reaching down to ruffle yijin’s hair.
“but, i’m afraid i have to go. i have class and i have to drive back all the way.”
minju turns to leehan and gives him a brief hug before exchanging a few words with him. you try not to eavesdrop. instead, you look around at the fish, distracting yourself from how close leehan and minju’s heads are bowed together. a few moments later, minju pulls away and ducks so she’s eye level with her son.
“bye mama,” yijin says, hugging minju.
“bye yijin-ie,” minju coos, patting the little one’s back. “be good to dada and _______.”
the mention of your name sends a strange jolt through your stomach. it’s too familiar. too…domestic.
dada and _______? why does that sound so…nice?
minju straightens and gives you a final, hurried smile.
“thank you again, ______! and it was great meeting you!”
the next thing you know, she’s walking off, waving goodbye to yijin before she disappears into the crowd.
you turn to leehan, the whole ordeal just a little too strange for you. you definitely didn’t expect your little crush-induced visit to lead to you meeting his ex.
“she’s wonderful,” you comment, and you truly think so. “and you didn’t mention that she’s absolutely gorgeous.”
leehan chuckles, the tips of his ears turning red. you deflate a little at this. did he still find her cute?
“yeah, well, yijin’s a cute kid. he gets it from somewhere,” leehan says.
your eyebrows furrow. “i thought he got it from you.”
the words are out before you can stop them. you feel your own cheeks heat up and leehan’s face gets redder, too.
“oh,” leehan breathes. “thank you.”
you manage a nervous grin. “no problem.”
the two of you stand there, smiling but refusing to meet eyes. yijin seems to be getting impatient, though, because he’s tugging at his dad’s arm, pointing further down the hallway.
“i was just about to have lunch with yijin at the aquarium food court,” leehan states. “do you want to join us?”
without thinking, you answer, “yes. i’d love to.”
but yijin, it seems, has other plans.
“more fish!” the little boy demands, pulling harder at his dad’s arm.
“we can look at more after lunch,” leehan explains gently, wrangling his son back to his side. “dada has to work, too, so you need to wait, anyway.”
leehan glances up at you as yijin starts to squirm. “sorry. i was going to leave him with some of my coworkers after we eat, since i have a guided tour scheduled.”
your mind seems to work a little faster at the mention of this, an idea sprouting in your mind that you don’t even have time to think too much on.
“i can look after him,” you offer. “after lunch, i mean.”
leehan’s eyebrows shoot up and he looks at you like you’ve grown a second head.
“really? i mean, don’t misunderstand, i’m not making it seem like i want you to look after him, i really can just leave him with–”
“leehan,” you interrupt with a gentle smile. “it’s fine. i can babysit for a couple of hours.”
leehan sighs. yijin is still struggling against his dad’s grip, visibly impatient now as he asks for ‘more fish! more fish!’. your smile comes out a little more endeared than you intend to as you look down at the toddler.
“yijin-ah,” leehan starts, kneeling to yijin’s level. “_______ will take you to see more fish, is that okay? dada has to work.”
yijin pauses and peers up at you. you hold your breath, hoping that he’d be amenable to this little arrangement. he blinks, tilts his head, then nods. he waddles over to you and takes your hand.
“more fish!”
leehan bursts out laughing, though most of it is in relief.
“after lunch, okay? you can see more fish with ______ after lunch,” leehan reminds, scooping yijin up in his arms. yijin protests a little bit more, but leehan is firmer with his words this time. eventually, yijin concedes and pouts against his dad’s shoulder.
this should not have made the butterflies in your stomach so strong.
leehan turns to you, grinning.
“you hungry?”
-
“dada favorite.”
you lean closer to the glass of the tank, observing the fish that swims by. yijin is in your arms as you crouch behind him, holding him securely in place. not that you really need to. he seems too entranced by the creatures in front of you to think of running off elsewhere.
“hm?” you ask, turning to yijin. “is this your dad’s favorite?”
you glance at the nearby information card and find that the type of fish is called corydoras.
“oh, so that’s what you meant,” you giggle, playfully rubbing yijin’s stomach. he laughs along, leaning even closer to the glass.
you allow yourself a moment of reprieve, your mind drifting back to the last hour.
lunch with leehan and yijin was an experience, to say the least. you had to hold in your nervous giggles whenever leehan said something, and you also had to prime yourself for what you had just signed up for.
if your best friend could see you now, she’d say that you were doing too much for a man. babysitting his kid?
well, yes. you aren’t afraid to admit that.
thankfully, leehan had talked your ear off while you ate, saving you the potential embarrassment of saying something completely stupid in front of your equally stupidly hot and cute neighbor. he rambled on about his workday, how he loves being on feeding duty, how his favorite kinds of crowds are the preschoolers because they’re the ones who are still excited to know about the fish.
you hoped you hadn’t been too obvious in the way you simply stared at him, enamored with everything he was saying.
“_______, favorite fish?”
yijin’s voice brings you back to the present. he’s looking at you expectantly, and it takes a second for your brain to catch up.
“oh, my favorite fish?” you ask. yijin nods, tilting his head closer to you, as if anticipating your answer.
“i’m not really sure. i like the chubby little goldfish. i don’t know what they’re called.”
“those are ranchu or maruko goldfish.”
you give a start, turning to find leehan standing behind you, his hands in his pockets. he smiles down at you and you can’t help but return it. you straighten, still clutching yijin’s hand as he continues to look at the tank.
“yijin, dada’s here,” you coax, gently tugging the toddler away from the tank.
“oh, no, i was just checking in. my group’s still not done with their tour,” leehan clarifies. “i’m just here on a little break.”
“ah, i see,” you respond, glancing at yijin. “well, lots more exhibits to go through for us.”
leehan laughs, reaching over to ruffle yijin’s hair. the little one doesn’t even budge, too focused on the corydoras.
“after months of coming here, you’d think he’d grow bored,” leehan wonders out loud.
you tilt your head, looking directly at leehan. “do you ever get bored here?”
“god, no,” leehan answers instantly. “i love this place.”
you nod. “well, i’m sure yijin can tell just how much you like it here, so it’s no surprise he does, too.”
leehan pauses at that, an unreadable expression passing by his features. his eyes turn soft and he breathes out a laugh.
“thank you again. for doing this,” he says.
“it’s nothing, really. yijin’s a wonderful kid,” you praise, smoothing back some of yijin’s hair.
“he really is,” leehan agrees.
you’re standing unbearably close now, closer than the two of you have ever stood in the couple of weeks you’ve known each other. that in and of itself is strange. you’ve known this man not even a month, and yet you were impossibly infatuated.
oh, but it’s so hard not to be. especially when he looks at you the way he does.
“well, i gotta go,” leehan speaks up after a moment. you breathe in, a little dazed, your heart hammering against your chest.
“you have my number, right? text me if you or yijin need anything!” leehan follows up as he starts walking backward. you wave your phone in the air, nodding.
“yep. daddy on speed dial.”
leehan bursts out laughing and you can’t help but giggle along, too, despite the mortifying way your words came out. he gives you a quick wave before jogging off in the opposite direction.
you feel a tug on your arm.
“jellyfish?”
yijin looks up at you, his eyes shiny and hopeful. you smile at the toddler, crouching down to pick him up.
“okay, sweetheart. let’s go see the jellyfish.”
-
the fifth time you see leehan and yijin is the next day, after leehan invited you for dinner.
after your day at the aquarium, the three of you caught the train back to your apartment building. yijin was spent, dozing off in his dad’s arms. your own legs were sore, but you had come away with nice memories and equally pretty pictures in your camera roll. there was one that leehan took of you and yijin walking through the tunnel aquarium, your smile visible despite the angle, as both you and the little one gazed up at the creatures.
leehan was a little too happy about airdropping that one to you.
“hey.”
leehan had turned to you as the train rumbled on. his shoulder was pressed against yours in the crowded car, but neither of you seemed to mind the proximity.
“do you want to join us for dinner tomorrow?” leehan paused, then grinned. “i promise i have all sorts of ingredients this time.”
you chuckled, but you nodded your head nonetheless.
“i’d love to.”
so now, you stand in front of their door, hand poised to knock, a haphazardly purchased bottle of wine in your other hand. you rap on the door twice, and not even five seconds later, it swings open.
leehan stands there, his hair pushed back by some gel, sporting a simple black tee and jeans.
and glasses. he’s wearing glasses.
“hi,” he breathes out.
“hey,” you respond, trying not to swoon at just how good he looks. you gesture to the wine in your hands. “for the grown-ups.”
leehan smiles and ushers you in.
“you didn’t have to, but thank you,” leehan says, taking the bottle from you. it’s a good thing he did because a second later, yijin comes sprinting out of a room, making a beeline for your leg.
“_______!” he squeals, hugging your knee.
“hey, yijin,” you greet, bending down to plant a quick kiss on his head. you catch leehan’s eye as you do so and there’s a vaguely fond smile that settles on his lips.
you clear your throat, straightening up as yijin darts away to play on the couch.
you look around and you’re not that surprised to see that the layout of their apartment is similar to your own place. obviously, the furnishing is different, and there’s a mound of toys in the corner of the living room. a large fish tank glows on one side of the unit, a plethora of colorful sea animals swimming inside.
as if that wasn’t enough, the couch is littered with all kinds of marine-themed stuffed toys: an octopus, a clown fish, a clam, and some others.
“my profession might have rubbed off on yijin a bit,” leehan admits sheepishly, observing you from the dining area. plates are already laid out, and you smell something good wafting from the kitchen.
“occupational hazard,” you tease. “fish are very interesting, as i’ve learned over the past twenty-four hours. i can hardly blame yijin for liking them.”
leehan nods at that, laughing.
“well, as much as i love talking about fish, i am a little hungry. care to join me?” leehan declares, pulling out a seat and waving you over.
you approach the dining table and slide into the chair, heart pumping even faster when you catch yet another whiff of leehan’s cologne.
“yijin, dinner time,” leehan calls out to his son and the toddler obediently comes waddling over. leehan secures him in his high chair, affixing a bib around yijin’s neck.
“i made real mac n’ cheese this time,” leehan announces, rushing into the kitchen and producing a steaming casserole. he sets it down on the table and unveils his creation.
“oh wow,” you say, genuinely stunned. “you didn’t tell me you were a good cook.”
leehan blushes at that. “i prefer if you tasted just how good i am.”
you both pause, meeting each other’s eyes. you instantly devolve into a fit of giggles.
“i mean–”
“i know what you mean,” you interrupt through peals of laughter. “i know what you mean, leehan.”
you both laugh for a bit more, yijin looking between you two in an increasing state of confusion.
“sorry,” leehan gasps after a while, wiping tears from his eyes.
“you’re good,” you reassure, still reeling from his unintentional innuendo.
“let’s just eat,” leehan says, a hint of defeat in his voice. “this is what i get for trying to ask my neighbor out.”
you swallow, expression turning serious as you study leehan’s face. he looks back at you, his cheeks an angry shade of red.
“so…this is a date?” you clarify.
leehan busies himself with serving yijin a small portion of the mac n’ cheese. yijin happily stabs the pasta with his fun-sized fork.
“i mean…it could be,” leehan supplies, scooping a generous serving for you next.
“with your son,” you respond, deadpan. leehan cringes a bit at that.
“i mean, i didn’t intend for this to be, like, a date date. i just wanted to spend more time with you.”
you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding.
“let’s talk about it later,” you conclude, reaching over for the wine you brought. you unscrew the cap and pour leehan a glass.
he smiles thankfully at you.
-
“is he asleep?”
you look up from your perch on the couch, your legs curled under you. leehan walks out of the hallway leading to the bedrooms, seemingly exhausted from the ordeal of having to put a two-year-old to sleep.
“out like a light, but it took several plays of baby shark to get there.” leehan sinks into the space next to you, his shoulder brushing yours as he leans back against the backrest.
you observe the prominent line of his adam’s apple, bobbing up and down as he swallows. his eyes are closed as he takes a moment to breathe.
dinner was an okay affair, with leehan mostly busy with making sure yijin was eating. you and him made good conversation, nonetheless, going over the events of yesterday. of course, minju was brought up somewhere along the way. leehan, for some reason, made it a point to mention that he and minju were just co-parenting and nothing more.
“i heard you the first time,” you had said, a mischievous smile spreading on your lips.
“just making sure,” leehan bantered back.
at present, leehan cracks his eyes open, glancing over at you. you quickly look away, as if you hadn’t just been making flirtatious passes at each other all night.
“is this okay?”
you let yourself turn back to leehan, a questioning look on your face.
“i mean, all this. i’m not…coming off too strong, am i?”
you turn his words over in your head carefully. the past couple of weeks were some of the most bizarre you’ve experienced, something right out of a cheesy meet-cute rom-com. but you can’t say you don’t like it. in fact, you’re starting to appreciate the weirdness.
“if anything, you’re not coming off strong enough,” you say lightly, propping your elbow up on the back of the couch. your whole body turns to face leehan and you can see the subtle shift of his eyes downward.
you’re wearing a sleeveless top, demure by usual standards, and easy pants that don’t give anything away. and yet, leehan lets his gaze drift further and further down, lingering on your chest before trailing all the way to your legs.
“i have a kid,” leehan states seriously, though the corner of his mouth twitches up. “i can’t just go hooking up whenever i please.”
“i know,” you say with a laugh. “i was joking.”
“i wasn’t, though,” leehan responds. “about asking you out.”
“it’s just…this is the best i can come up with for now.” leehan ducks his head, shy all of a sudden.
you can’t help but smile. you reach over tentatively, fingers barely brushing against the strands of hair that had fallen over leehan’s eyes. he looks at you and you smooth some of his locks back, revealing more of his handsome face.
“i had a great time,” you whisper, shifting even closer. leehan is surprisingly receptive, angling his body the same time you do. his knee knocks against yours and you both still, eyeing where your thigh is pressed against his.
“me too,” leehan whispers back. he catches your outstretched hand in his and pulls it closer, grazing his lips on the inside of your wrist. you sigh, watching him as he places featherlight kisses on your skin.
“tell me to stop.”
you shake your head, breathing growing heavy as leehan continues up your arm.
“okay,” he mutters. his other hand comes up to cup your face.
before you know it, leehan is kissing you.
you gasp into the kiss, leehan’s body pressing against yours as you both grasp at each other’s clothes. leehan’s knee presses between your legs, and you retaliate by raking your nails over his shoulder, eliciting a groan from him.
“we should…in your room,” you pant against his mouth, his hold on you growing tighter by the second.
instead of answering you, leehan pulls away, and you’re left lying on the couch, dazed. he gets up, plants his feet firmly on the floor, and tugs at your thighs.
“hold on,” he says with a smirk and you scramble to hold onto his shoulders. he lifts you with ease, your legs automatically wrapping around his waist.
you laugh breathlessly, your lips easily finding his once more as he slowly walks you two into his bedroom.
inside, a smaller fish tank is displayed near his desk, the glow of the blue tank light the only source of illumination. leehan deposits you on his bed, his lips already attached to the underside of your jaw.
“mmm, i’ve always wanted to fuck in the light of an aquarium,” you whisper, a playful grin playing on your lips. you thread your fingers through leehan’s hair, laughing along as you feel him snicker against your neck.
“i’m glad you’re just as weird as i am,” leehan mumbles into your skin, nipping lightly at the junction between your neck and chest.
you moan softly, legs tightening around him. you subtly grind up into him, seeking friction.
“take off your clothes, baby.”
you sigh dreamily at the nickname, hands already grasping at the bottom of your blouse. you tug it off in one fluid motion, fingers quickly untying the strings of your pants. in front of you, leehan unbuttons his jeans, his eyes never leaving you.
once you discard your bra, leehan pauses, left in his own underwear. he stares for a moment before leaning down, his breath ghosting over one of your nipples. you whimper, falling back against his pillows.
“leehan…”
he takes it into his mouth, tongue swirling over the sensitive nub. you buck into him and he hums around your flesh, sending goosebumps all over your skin.
“thought you were so pretty the first time we met,” leehan mumbles, rolling your nipple between his teeth. you squirm underneath him, but he lays a hand firmly against your hip, pinning you down.
“then you showed up at the aquarium,” leehan continues, finally letting up on your chest. he takes a second to look at your flushed face before leaning in to kiss you sweetly.
“i knew i was crushing hard on you then.”
you laugh, hooking your thumbs beneath the waistband of your panties. you slip it down and off your legs, leehan watching every movement you make.
“why don’t you do something about it?” you challenge.
leehan bites his lip, suppressing a smile. he discards his own underwear, both of you completely bare in front of each other.
“lie back.”
leehan starts kissing his way down from your chest, to your stomach, to each of your thighs. he levels his face between your legs, the tip of his finger lightly gathering the wetness between your folds.
you whine softly, fingers carding through his hair once more, tugging him closer to where you want him.
“so needy,” leehan observes with a chuckle. he leans in and licks experimentally at the apex of your cunt. he brushes lightly against your clit, but this is enough to have you gasping.
you seal a hand over your mouth, not trusting yourself to keep quiet amidst leehan’s ministrations. he licks harder, feeling around your soaked pussy for the spots that make you tick. he flattens his tongue against your clit and your eyes roll into the back of your head.
“leehan, please,” you plead against your skin.
he merely hums, burying his face deeper into you. his own eyes are closed, eyebrows knit together, as if he’s enjoying this as much as you are. you’re grinding up against his face, his tongue alternating between swirling over your clit and teasing your hole. a litany of his name and colorful curse words spills from your mouth.
“leehan, oh god, leehan–!”
a particularly harsh flick of his tongue against your already sensitive clit sends you over the edge. your body seizes up, teeth digging into your lower lip as you tremble through your orgasm. leehan doesn’t let up and laps up your release, seeing you through until the aftershocks taper off.
“fuck,” you whine, chest heaving as you try to catch your breath.
“language,” leehan admonishes lightly, a smirk on his face as he resurfaces. he kisses you harshly, your own arousal smearing all over your lips.
leehan pulls away, his eyes, usually so bright, have darkened as he looks at your current state. hair splayed all over his pillow, your own eyes half-lidded, blown wide with lust for him.
“i bet you can make me say much worse things,” you taunt.
leehan chuckles, shaking his head, as if in disbelief at what just came out of your mouth.
“i can,” leehan agrees, reaching down to stroke his cock. your eyes flit down to watch, and you gulp when you realize what he’s packing.
“like what you see?”
you meet leehan’s gaze and you nod, bottom lip slipping between your teeth. “yeah. i want it in me, actually.”
he hums in satisfaction, lips spreading into a smile. he lines himself up with your leaking entrance, teasing around it with his tip. you sigh, wriggling closer, trying to get him to just slip it in.
“be a good girl and stop squirming,” leehan commands, eyes hardening as he gives you a warning look. your lips part in surprise at how much authority his voice carries.
“i want you to feel good,” leehan continues, kissing your forehead. “so, let me.”
he rolls his hips, finally pushing in.
you both sigh at the stretch, your hands clutching at his firm arms. leehan bottoms out and stills, groaning softly in your ear. he pulls almost all the way out a few seconds later before slamming back in with renewed vigor.
“mmfgh–!”
you’re forced to bite down on your knuckles as leehan starts to pound into you. he straightens, eyes trained only on you, your face, and your body. his hands grip tightly at your hips, keeping you trapped against the mattress as his cock drags against your walls, stretching you out for him. his tip just brushes against the spot inside you, leaving you a moaning, whining mess, begging for just a little more.
“l-leehan,” you whimper pathetically. “h-harder.”
leehan catches you by the back of your knees, pressing your legs closer to your body, nearly to your chest. he drives in even harder, deeper, and he hits that exact place where you need him most, over and over again.
you’re folded nearly in half, but you can’t find it in yourself to care.
“fuck, come on, angel,” leehan pleads, pressing his whole body weight against yours as he loses all restraint and starts hammering into you. you sob into your hand, every part of your body trembling along with leehan’s movements.
he slams into your g-spot one more time, and it’s like the world is reduced to an all-white canopy. your eyes squeeze shut and your fingers dig into the sheets beneath you. leehan is still going, despite your quivering state.
you’re about to burst into tears at the overstimulation when leehan finally stills, spilling inside you, a ragged moan ripping out of him.
the room is plunged into near silence, the only sounds coming from the faint hum of the water filter and your labored breathing. leehan pulls out eventually, plugging two fingers in to replace his cock.
“ah–!” you startle, still overwhelmed by the sensitivity between your legs.
“sorry,” leehan apologizes with a sheepish grin. “don’t wanna make a mess.”
you merely groan in response, pulling him down so you can kiss him on his stupid face.
“if i didn’t know better, i would think you were trying to give yijin a sibling,” you tease, smiling against leehan’s lips.
leehan quietly groans, pressing his forehead to yours.
“please, don’t say that.”
you pull back slightly to look at him, concerned that you might have said something wrong.
“what, why?”
leehan shakes his head, a smile of content on his face.
“that’s gonna make me hard again.”
you stare at him for a second before the two of you start giggling. he wraps his arms around you, pulling you flush against his body.
-
the sixth time you see leehan and yijin is at breakfast the next morning.
you’re wearing one of leehan’s shirts and yijin sits surprised at his high chair, gaping at you who had just exited from his dad’s room.
you and leehan lock eyes, and again, you can’t help but laugh.
"keep it down!" you breathed out, again having warned him more than once before since the dorm was full. leehan's moans only elevated as your walls squeezed around him, your ass meeting his thighs harshly as you bounced on him desperately chasing both of your highs.
"ah ah yn fuck pleasepleaseple-" you slapped your hand over his mouth and he gripped your hips tighter, pulling you down harder on him
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"Oh my—fuck, Leehan." Your grip on the mattress below you tightened; you can almost feel Leehan's knuckles with how deep he was, making your head fuzzy.
"Can't believe he didn't even work you up," he murmured in a tone that sounded almost amused, watching how he had you trembling. He pressed a flutter of soft kisses along your inner thigh, each one a tease, the faint brush of his breath making your hips jerk toward him. “You deserve better than that.”
You swallowed. "We were—we were just talking."
"Were you?" His fingers slowed just enough before pushing them deeper, hitting your sweet spot that made your eyes shut in full force, moaning pathetically. "Because you sounded really sweet when you told me everything he did wrong."
Your face felt warm at his words, because maybe you had sounded a little flirty and breathier than usual when you’d ranted about that awful one-night stand over wine. And even when Leehan’s eyes had lingered too long on your lips, you didn’t stop him. You simply kissed him until you two were completely naked on his bed.
He added a third finger, stretching you like you had never been before; your breath broke into a needy cry. His movements were now up and down you, seeing the bulge in your belly before he decided to flatten his free hand over it.
You have to feel every movement, causing you to clench around his fingers.
"Fuck, I can feel you pulsing against me from the outside." His thumb started creating circles on your clit as he increased his speed. Your hips began searching for more. He leaned forward to kiss the inside of your knee, then higher, his lips dragging along sensitive skin.
You tried to say something, but you were only capable of moaning incoherent words, too focused on the way his fingers were curling inside you. Your back arched violently as the pleasure tore you apart.
He withdraws his fingers achingly slowly, the wet sound filling the not-so-quiet room. You whined at the loss, and you softly smiled at how he started settling between your thighs and guiding the covered head of his cock against your entrance.
He rubbed himself against you once, coating himself in everything he pulled out of you. Then he leaned in, lips brushing yours.
"Relax for me," he whispered. "I’m going to satisfy you so completely that you will forget his name."
♡; this anon is back at it with the leehan request, yes sir. atp, just choose your emoji 🙂↕️🙂↕️
