Can I get a scenario where one of Shizuo's new friend (and huge crush!) visits him at Shinra's apartment and N/A is being all cuddly and sweet and Shizuo starts to get really fed up (not in a bad way tho) and reveals how he loves her and has been crushing on her ever since they met and how he's tired of hiding his feelings for her But he's afraid that he might hurt her due to his actions but N/A doesn't mind and understand! Then they make some lil lovin ;-))
Shizuo had been at Shinraās for some kind of thing they had decided to host, he wasnāt exactly sure what it was. It wasnāt quite a party, but yet still not small enough to just be considered a small get together. Though, he supposes to them it might have been. They knew entirely too many people.
He was glad he came, none the less, because there you were. You had come at the invite and promise of Shizuo being there too, though he was unaware of such a promise. He was glad to see you, though he tried to not let it on too much, afraid he might let slip how he felt, or worse, hurt you and ruin absolutely everything you already had going. He could live with this and having you at arms length if it meant having you in his life.
However, the moment he sat down with food, you sat directly next to him with a giggle and a smile. āHey Shizuo.ā You said, almost singing it in his ear. He shakes his head a bit, trying not to concentrate too much on the way his name sounded on your lips.
āHey.ā He says, looking down at you, keeping the plate in his hand steady as you moved to lean into his shoulder. Immediately, a heat filled the pit of his stomach and he tried desperately to shake it off. Had he known this was only the beginning he might have very well stood up and left right then and there.
As the time marched on and he found you at his side the entire night, he began to get fed up with the entire situation. You pressed to his side, the feeling in the pit of his stomach, the guilt that accompanied that feeling, the fear, your warmth, your voice, laugh, eyes, smile. It was all too much and he stood abruptly.
āI need a smoke.ā He says, going for the balcony and leaving you confused and a bit frazzled from how quickly heād stood, leaving you falling and flailing slightly for purchase. After a bit you decided to stand up and follow him out to the balcony, at least he was actually smoking.
āShizuoā¦ Didā¦ Did I do something wrong?ā You ask, softly as you come to stand next to him. You were a bit worried that youād pushed too far or maybe youād come on to strong. He shakes his head a bit and you feel relief flood your chest, like weight off it allowing you to breathe again.
āYou didnāt do anything.ā He says, a bit gruffly, you knew he didnāt intend it, it was just how it had come out. He feels guilty, looking down at you, that innocent face. That damn innocent face looking up at him as if youād hurt him! He shakes his head again. āItās me, Iām the problem.ā He should stop, but he doesnāt. āIā¦ I canāt stand being around you, and not for the reasons you might think. Youāre so soft and innocent. You make me feel likeā¦ like I could be gentle and loving. But I could never hurt you, couldnāt live with myself if I did.ā Heās going too far, saying too much, but now that heās started thereās just no stopping it. āI justā¦ I just want you to be here with me. I want toā¦ I love you.ā He hears you gasp, but refuses out right to look down at you again.
You look up at him for a long time, then take his hand in yours, slowly. āShizuo Iā¦ I love you too.ā You say, softly. He finally looks down at you, searching your eyes. In that moment he leans down and presses his lips to yours. Itās not gentle, you didnāt expect it to be, it was firm and a bit rough, but it didnāt hurt, it wasnāt teeth and desperation. It was careful and measured in a way only Shizuo could be. Then he pulls away and you two just smile at each other.
He offers to walk you home when you decide to leave and you happily take him up on his offer. You donāt talk about anything particularly interesting on the walk, plans for tomorrow, how he liked the get together. About halfway there you take his hand in yours, for a moment he doesnāt return the gesture, but finally his hand twines with yours carefully. Much like his kiss, it isnāt gentle, but it doesnāt hurt. Like a firm and comforting hug after crying for hours.
When you stop at the door to your apartment he leans down to give you a goodnight kiss, lips pressed to yours just like before, firmly. This time, however, itās a deep and lasting kiss, one that has you wrapping your arms around his neck as he carefully places his hands on your hips. You didnāt expect to get so heavy in your doorway and itās a bit surprising to you when you pull him into your apartment.
The two of you place desperate kisses to each other, hands all over the place, clothes finding their way to the floor in a path to the bedroom. Youāre both a bit caught off guard when you fall onto the bed, you looking down at Shizuo, skin to skin and nothing between the two of you.
āIā¦ Areā¦ You sure about this?ā He asks, eyes wide and a bit scared. He was always so scared of hurting you, you found it endearing as you smiled down at him.
āLet me take the leadā¦ You wonāt hurt me like this.ā You say as you move yourself to straddle his hips. He seems like heās going to protest, but then shuts his mouth and nods slowly.
Heās never done this before, you can tell, sensitive to your touch along his chest, down his sides, over his thighs. You take delight in the gasp and moan that leaves his throat as you take his length into your hand, slowly stroking it. Heās big, perhaps too big, you think, it makes you a bit nervous. However, you donāt let it deter you as you stroke a bit more quickly, moving his hand to your sex and telling him how to move his fingers.
Once youāre sure youāre wet and ready enough to take him, you tell him to stop and lift yourself up on your knees. āWait, wait.ā He says, suddenly. He turns to his night stand, opening the drawer and fishing out a condom. They were a gag gift from Tom, now he was glad he didnāt throw them away as he rolled it on.
You smile a bit and lean down to kiss his lips, swallowing his groan and muffling your moan as you slowly sink yourself onto his length. He fills you up so wonderfully you swear you could cry. You lean back up slowly and move your hips experimentally until you find a pace and angle that feels good to both of you.
Heās a mess beneath you and youād be lying if you said it wasnāt turning you on. Heās panting and moaning, your name falling from his lips like a prayer as you move your hips at a quicker pace. Your moaning absolutely driving him crazy and making him fight hard to keep from thrusting up into you, still scared to hurt you.
His hands fly to your hips, āIām gonnaā¦ Iām so close!ā He gasps, it only spurs you on. Moving your hips quicker, fingers finding their way to your clit and rubbing quick circles, you wanted to finish with him.
He gasps and grips your hips much harder than he would ever intend, to the point you think he might actually be about to break the bones and definitely to the point of leaving bruises. He cums, hard, still inside you, into the condom. You arenāt far behind, crying out his name, tossing your head back.
His hands move from your hips as you collapse onto his chest, panting heavily along with him. āIā¦ Fuck I love you.ā He says, softly. You smile and kiss his chest gently, āI love you too, Shizuo.ā
