oh, calamity.

my brain is ugly and mangled and i need the pieces to go somewhere, so here they are. submissions/asks are very welcome.

[dysfunctionalsuggestion]

i will be brave enough, one day.

i will be brave enough.

but i'm not brave enough, not yet. i'm still a coward.

until then, please forgive me. i don't deserve it, but please forgive me.

[heavensghost]

listen before i go // Billie Eilish

[dysfunctionalsuggestion]

it's all pain forever. that's what no one tells you. it's all just pain and suffering forever. no amount of good times, no amount of distraction, nothing will ever change the fact that it is all just pain and it is all just suffering and it will be this way forever.

[weltenwellen]

Fariha Róisín, How to Cure a Ghost

[liz-cat-meow-deactivated2020011]

[dysfunctionalsuggestion]

an apology fixes nothing

the plate remains shattered

the heart remains broken

the boy continues to bleed

and you still have the knife in your hands.

[heartlessqueen]

[uglyfruit]

[ID: a photo of a little kid putting various clips in their hair. they are in profile, and have pale skin, shoulder-length brown hair, a light pink sweater, and a bracelet of rainbow hearts. across the center of the photo, there is small embroidered text in rainbow letters, reading 'asking for things makes me bad']

[dysfunctionalsuggestion]

when will you be satisfied with the number of victims you've left in your wake?

will you ever be satisfied?

[heavensghost]

Dog teeth - Nicole Dollanganger

[no240s]

[dysfunctionalsuggestion]

it is one thing to cause someone pain.

it is another, worse thing to receive that pain

and continue the cycle of abuse.

but continue the cycle, i do.

[primulaceas]

Olga Tokarczuk, Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead (translated by Antonia Lloyd-Jones)

[perfumigate]

[dysfunctionalsuggestion]

does it hurt less on the other side?

do i dare believe there is a place where this pain cannot follow me?

[patientlights]

12.14.15

Art Insta: patientvibes

[heavensghost]

Margaret Atwood, The Testaments