[louisegluckpdf]

anxiety will have you thinking things like "will everyone hate me if i order coffee at the coffee shop" and "will people think i'm crazy if i work out at the gym"

[dyslexiccherry]

Going back to school in September. I degree just taking random classes. I need to actually figure out what I want to do. So glad I’m not going to work full time anymore. Feels like I’m moving a little, progressing. I hope I actually will

[dyslexiccherry]

Just went swim suit shopping. Accepting your body is so difficult. I have disliked my body for so many years now, I have been thinking if I should keep accepting it or if I should start trying to change it. I really want to weigh myself right now but I don’t have a scale at my apartment. There are some parts of my body that i lobe. Sometimes I wonder if I’m wasting my 20’s because I’m so uncomfortable in my body. If I was skinnier I would go out more, talk to boys, wear cuter clothes. My social anxiety wouldn’t hold me back so much. I see bigger girls that are confident and pretty I try to be like them, I wish I could be them. Is my weight the only thing holding me back in life? Would everything be better if I was skinnier?

And I have been trying to lose weight too, it’s hard because I can’t have these conversations with my friends. Most of them are skinnier, and even though that doesn’t prevent them from understanding how I’m feeling I feel like they just wouldn’t get it. I know that that there are way more horrible things happening in the world, more important problems. But right now this is the only thing in my mind. I have a picture of myself with a bathing suit on and I just can’t stop thinking about it. I feel like I’m too old to hate myself like this, it’s embarrassing to realize that I think the same way I did when I was a teenager

[dyslexiccherry]

I feel like because of body the positivity movement it became taboo to talk about your insecurities but that doesn’t mean that you don’t feel them. It just means that everyone is uncomfortable but unwilling to talk about it so we don’t know that other people feel the same way. So we just all feel alone.

Like this is not a conversation I feel like I could have with my friends because we never really talk about it

[dyslexiccherry]

Just went swim suit shopping. Accepting your body is so difficult. I have disliked my body for so many years now, I have been thinking if I should keep accepting it or if I should start trying to change it. I really want to weigh myself right now but I don’t have a scale at my apartment. There are some parts of my body that i lobe. Sometimes I wonder if I’m wasting my 20’s because I’m so uncomfortable in my body. If I was skinnier I would go out more, talk to boys, wear cuter clothes. My social anxiety wouldn’t hold me back so much. I see bigger girls that are confident and pretty I try to be like them, I wish I could be them. Is my weight the only thing holding me back in life? Would everything be better if I was skinnier?

And I have been trying to lose weight too, it’s hard because I can’t have these conversations with my friends. Most of them are skinnier, and even though that doesn’t prevent them from understanding how I’m feeling I feel like they just wouldn’t get it. I know that that there are way more horrible things happening in the world, more important problems. But right now this is the only thing in my mind. I have a picture of myself with a bathing suit on and I just can’t stop thinking about it. I feel like I’m too old to hate myself like this, it’s embarrassing to realize that I think the same way I did when I was a teenager

[coldswarkids]

wow you got to the red stop light faster and more dangerously than anyone else. should we throw a party?? should we call nascar

[misscromwellsmonocle]

Inseparable by David Hettinger

[thisistheendbeautifulfriend]

David Hettinger 🧡

[dyslexiccherry]

My roommates made me download hinge pray for me pls

[dyslexiccherry]

Also I cried on the plane and when I got back home bc I don’t want to go back to work, probably quitting my job soon

[dyslexiccherry]

Went to Paris for 2 weeks and now I want to move there, so original

[dyslexiccherry]

My roommates made me download hinge pray for me pls

[dyslexiccherry]

I have a crush on a guy who’s a friend of one of my best friend and i don’t even want to have a crush on him i just always develop little crushes on men i’m kinda close to for some reason?? And i hate it bc when i have a crush on someone it’s always so obvious like all my friends can see so i obsess over everything i do/say. Anyways i’m seeing him tonight and i keep telling myself that the crush is gone but if i keep thinking about him it definitely isn’t. I just want to be normal omg

[dyslexiccherry]

Omg i keep thinking about him and imagining my life with him and looking at apartments on marketplace and imagining how it would be to live there with him. Can i pleaseeeeeeee have a crush on someone that actually likes me????? Idk i think that might be cool potentially. Also since like no one has ever had a crush on me i think i might lowkey be really ugly and deformed, who knows

[dyslexiccherry]

Coffee shop and post dumplings

[dyslexiccherry]

I might be weird and bad at stuff and behind in some aspects of my life but one thing i will never doubt about myself is that i’m a clean person. That i know how to clean well. I just function so much better in a clean and tidy space. When my room is clean it’s like my sanctuary where i can have peace and hide from my gross roommates.

[dyslexiccherry]

Never not thinking about this TikTok because so many women i know are lonely and haven’t been in relationships but you don’t see the media talking about it like it’s a societal problem, you don’t see us killing people and voting republican. When women were mostly stay at home moms so many of them were on antidepressants because they were so fucking lonely and bored, did you see psychologists talking about it? Breaking news everyone is lonely women just don’t blame they’re loneliness on society, they’re able to deal with it in a way that’s not violent.

[dyslexiccherry]

I have a crush on a guy who’s a friend of one of my best friend and i don’t even want to have a crush on him i just always develop little crushes on men i’m kinda close to for some reason?? And i hate it bc when i have a crush on someone it’s always so obvious like all my friends can see so i obsess over everything i do/say. Anyways i’m seeing him tonight and i keep telling myself that the crush is gone but if i keep thinking about him it definitely isn’t. I just want to be normal omg

[dyslexiccherry]

Something something i spent the weekend watching american horror story and now i want to be back on tumblr so welcome back to my two followers, i hope you’re ready for me to post once every 3 weeks

[podencos]

Spiritually I am curled up on a porch swing as a soft breeze caresses my cheek