I'm Earth_Phoenix on AO3 and these are my stories. You'll find updates, behind the scenes stuff and from time to time my own original work. Things you can call me: A royalist and someone who believe in the British Empire. *Insert evil cackle here*
(I guess it’s the thing now, I’m so old. I remember when tumblr was new.)
Name: Zelena
Alias: Earth. (You can call me by either name. I’ll answer to both.)
Age: 36
Star sign: Sagittarius ♐️
Birth month: November. Literally born 4 weeks before Xmas. Drove my mum round the bend. (Nooo mum. You can’t wrap birthday gifts in Xmas paper!!! It’s my birthday!!!)
Career: Freelance writer and self-published author
Hobbies: writing fanfic, listening to podcasts, playing video games, stanning for Christina Aguilera. (I’m half joking about the last one. I don’t have the time/energy anymore.)
Fandoms: Our Life: Beginnings and Always, Our Life: Now and Forever, Cabin Pressure, Hamilton: An American Musical, Death Note, Our Flag Means Death, The Librarians, Once Upon A Time, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, Death Parade
Likes: Books (I mean, obviously. My house is basically a small library at this point.), Knitting, cross stitch, crochet.
Dislikes: Most white people. Transphobes, racists, bigots, other people's annoying bullshit. Being fucking depressed.
Currently on my music rotation: Black Leaves by Kirby, Loved By You by Kirby, Energy (ft Beam) by Beyonce, What It Is (Solo Version) by Doechii, Jericho by Iniko, People by Libianca, Clotilda's on Fire by Shemekia Copeland, Santo by Christina Aguilera and Ozuna
Currently Reading: A Wise Man's Fear by Patrick Rothfuss, The Shinning by Steven King, Stein on Writing by Sol Stein, The N Word: Who Can Say It, Who Shouldn't, and Why by Jabari Asim, White Rage by Carol Anderson, Are Prisons Obsolete? by Angela Y. Davis
Phew. That's a lot for an Intro, but I'm not sorry. I'm a writer, I like words. (Those last few books are a must-read for anyone who is pro-Black. Read, learn, improve.)
fixing each other's collar/zipper/tie/etc - getting unexpectedly close, breath catching when they realize (or their light touches burning into the other's skin)
^ also moving someone's hair out of their face/behind their ear
^ or touching someone's necklace/bracelet/watch
eye contact in a crowded room, but not exchanging any words/expressions - just looking at each other, the rest of the world going still.
^a(n unironic) wink in this situation. or an eyebrow raise, lick or bite of lips, or head tilt. there's something in the subtlety of it - like "this is between us"
pulling someone in by their belt loops??? this is so random idk
feeling the other's breath/lips ghosting their neck
any sort of whisper. anywhere. goddamn.
a long pause when someone is speaking, as though they lost their train of thought while looking at the other person
their bodies accidentally pressed together - being stuck in a small space, falling onto one another, or having to sit really close together. the pause when it's realized.
^this but they're hiding
"make me"
"i dare you"
"and if i do?"/"what will i get (if i do)?"
"show/tell me what you want"
the pinky reach before holding hands for the first time
slow dancing (the hand placement, eye contact, proximity, MUSIC)
teaching the other something that involves physical contact (like holding their hands while trying to balance on a skateboard, or guiding their hands somewhere)
eye contact, waiting for one to fold
"don't do that to me" (tempting the other)
sharing earbuds - forced proximity, the vulnerability in sharing things that matter to them
i'm back!! i'm in a huge slump rn, so submit to my "ask" box if there is anything you want to see :) alsoo if you have anything to add to this list, reply to the post!! i love hearing what you guys have to say
Hi everyone! The wait is finally over, for Baxter's birthday this year, I am releasing the finished festival date <3 Over the course of these next weeks there will be announcements of the overhaul I've done for this game!
Friendly reminder that this is a non-profit, unaffiliated fangame for Baxter Ward of Our Life: Beginnings and Always.
(feel free to use<3 tw/mentions of blood! @urfriendlywriter yall.. 18th to 25th ones</3 tag me when yall write, i wanna read!!)
cradling them into your arms, blood smearing all over you
^ they try to smile, followed by an immediate hiss
"it hurts, huh."
"shh, it's gonna be fine. please keep talking." "i can't.. t-talk-"
their blood smudged hand reach for your cheek. eyes trying to focus on you
"i.. love you."
"this is not your fault."
"i can't.. *tearing up* i can't feel your touch."
eyes tearing up, not knowing what to tell you
"it hurts so much, it's so.." frustrated tears flow because there's nothing they can do now
"please don't leave me.." "i want to rest, my love."
hugging them, saying something to them and then panicking, when they don't respond. (bonus points if one said i love you and the other died right after hearing it!!)
wincing between every word.
"I'm- so...so sorry."
"You're my heaven o-on earth, did you k-know that? :)" followed my an attempt at a smile that shreds you apart.
constant shortness of breath.
they take your hand and kiss it, griping it tight. it's when their grip loosens, you know...
"You've to live your life, [name]. You need to survive, and move on, and-and be.. happy. The happiest. just like i am now."
^ "why are you happy--now?" "because i get to die in your arms. the safest place.."
noticing a tear rush down their cheek after they've closed their eyes.
"no, no-no, fuck, [name], don't give up on me like that, please-please.. stay.."
"I'm gonna get you--" "no, no, no.. no don't. don't l-leave me alone, [name]. I can't br-breathe..."
"let go of me, love, I'm gonna sleep now."
lying near their cold unmoving body.
^ holding their limb hand, praying that this is all a nightmare and then you can wake up to their cheerful self. stupid hope.
Friendly reminder to all working artists or (especially) aspiring artists.
If a client says they can’t afford to pay you but you’ll get good exposure, one of two things is happening:
1. They are lying. They can afford to pay you, but they are choosing not to. They will pay the printer to print the books, they will pay the mail service to deliver them, and you’d better believe they’re going to pay themselves for sending you an email explaining that they can’t afford to pay you. They think you are a sucker, and if you take the job you’ll be telling them they are right.
2. They are not lying. They have zero budget, no audience and no real distribution system. They’ll still be paying the printer and mail service because people who work in those professions don’t work for free just because someone promises them a recommendation. But they aren’t paying themselves, they’re running on an incredibly small margin, and there’s a good chance they won’t exist as a corporate entity in a few years. Publishing your work with them will give you less exposure than putting it on tumblr or Instagram for free would. It will never lead to a paying job.
If a client starts ranting about the “short-sightedness” of artists, or otherwise complains about artists in general in their opening offer to you, run. Run as fast as you would run if a blind date spent the whole of dinner ranting about how horrible your entire gender is. Yes, there are doubtlessly clients who’ve been screwed over by artists in the past, but the ones who complain about artists in general will not respect you, they will not treat you well.
Working for free does not prove that you are passionate about something. It proves that you do not need to be paid for your work. How many doctors went into medicine because they are passionate about saving lives? Do you think any of them are asked to perform heart surgery for free?
No one will ever pay $50 for something if they can get something similar for $5. When you charge next to nothing for art that you’ve worked for hours on, art that required years of training to create, you are telling your client that it is worth next to nothing. They will remember that the next time they want to hire an artist.
People who are looking to exploit artists know that artists are hard on themselves. They know that most artists don’t think their work is good enough to charge top dollar. They know that artists have been told from the first day they started taking their art seriously as a career that they’ll never make any money off it, that it’s not a real job, that it has no value to society. They know how to push artists’ insecurities about their profession in order to convince them that that demanding fair compensation is unrealistic and uncooperative.
If you’re just desperate for a job in the arts, any job in the arts, give yourself a job. Start a webcomic, or give yourself illustration assignments that you post on social media regularly, create work for a gallery show even if you don’t have one yet, or make a book. Give yourself a job. If you’re going to work for free, you may as well be working for yourself, setting your own hours and following your own interests. Having original art with original characters and ideas in your portfolio, and making sure your art is visible online will get the attention of publishers who are actually looking to hire people for good jobs. Drawing a shitty comic for a defunct publisher based on someone else’s shitty ideas will not.
Protect yourself, because no one else will. Protect yourself, because no one else will. There are people lining up around the block to exploit you. Protect yourself because no one else will.
idk who needs to hear this but david tennant is doing meetups with fans in march with panels and stuff and ion wanna hear ANYONE being weird about the gaiman situation about it. he is there to have FUN and talk to fans of his work. DO NOT be weird about it. do not ask "what's your opinion on the news around gaiman?" that is gross and disrespectful and puts david in a REALLY awful and awkward position. talk about his work in good omens, sure, but DO NOT talk about that scumbag. i would hope that most people understand that this is a bad thing to do and would not do it, but sometimes people don't treat actors like humans.
well turns out Neil Gaiman is a monster and you will never see me read or draw for any of his books.
Don't get me wrong it hurts after having been a fan of GO, coraline and the graveyard book for decades but just with like Harry Potter (who got me to start reading as a child), I am moving on.
I have other stories that matter to me from other writters and from myself. (and excitingly there will be even more in the future!)
i can’t help but notice that a lot of the people who are trying to tell us what to do and what to feel clearly weren’t here when the neil gaiman allegations actually came out (spring last year). a lot of them aren’t even in our fandom. like is this just a moral outrage competition? purity posting for notes?
a lot of us have already processed the allegations (we’ve had months) and are in full support of the victims. and yes, we are also still in fandom. we’ve tried to get him fired, we’ve lived through near-cancellation, we’ve donated to victims of sa. we’ve also been sharing our fics and art and gifs and headcanons.
if you don’t think you can be in a fandom with a cancelled creator as ethically as possible (making sure not to support the creator financially) then don’t be in one.
to all the others: i’ll still be here as long as it’s my hyperfixation. sharing your fics and art and gifs and headcanons. 🤝
I’m not naming names because I’m not trying to start anything but I’m seeing several mutuals claiming they always knew Gaiman was a bad egg and it was so obvious, as though they didn’t make me stand in line with them to get his signature and kept their signed copies of his books on a special shelf akin to a shrine.
And like, listen, you don’t need to pretend.
This isn’t the devil’s sacrament. You’re not tainted by association. You’re not morally bad for not immediately knowing when someone is being charming and persuasive to hide something they don’t want you to know.
Abusers don’t just groom their victims. They groom their witnesses too. You were never supposed to know something was wrong because it was intentionally hidden. It’s okay you didn’t know. You don’t need to act like you never liked him or his work. You don’t need to pretend. But you do need to stop being shitty to other people who also didn’t know because it reeks of victim blaming.
“Well I knew, so how come others didn’t?”
His victims were fans. Are you blaming them for not knowing?
Shared here today by Matthew Boroson on Facebook. (ETA: Gaining inspiration from other authors is great. Lifting passages and avoiding giving credit isn’t.)
Tanith Lee was the first woman to win the British Fantasy Award for best novel, for the second book of the Flat Earth series. She died in 2015. You can buy Tales From the Flat Earth here in paperback or here on Kindle.
One of the few things I enjoy about the winter holidays is sending and receiving post! (I'm not usually together enough the rest of the year to do this regularly. ^^; )
YES, I send cards worldwide!
NO, I don't expect cards back, but I super appreciate any people send me. :D
This form will be open until the 10th of December this year! If you come in after that wanting one, send me a PM and we’ll see what we can do.
Link to the form is both the picture, and this text here. ;)
If you want to send me a card back – TOTALLY UNNECESSARY, but I love the ones I get – you can send it to:
Batsutousai
P.O. Box 933
Newington, VA 22122
USA
Yes, you can reblog this post, btw :) And you do not have to be following me to request cards.
I've moved the ficlets info under the cut, this year, because this post was getting long.
Also under the cut are credits for stickers I use to decorate, and some FAQs.
Ficlets!
Yes, we have ficlets again this year! (Yes, you can request a card without a ficlet.) There are 18 ficlets this year, in 8 fandoms (see below for fandom, characters/ship, a brief summary, & any relevant warnings). These are open to everyone.
As per usual, all fics will be posted to AO3 in 2025.
BBC Merlin—Merlin & Morgana & Arthur
Spiritual sequel to The Truth of Who We Are; Merlin realises this is his best chance to convince Arthur that not all magic is terrible. (AU, post-magic reveal)
DC TV—Barry Allen/Len Snart/Mick Rory
Barry trips over a Snart who keeps getting mentally lost in time on his way back from Flashpoint. (Developing relationship, Time Vortex!Snart)
Final Fantasy 8—Seifer Almasy & Squall Leonhart
Seifer finds a place for himself in Balamb Garden after Time Compression. (post-canon, can be pre-ship with the right glasses)
Final Fantasy 8—Squall Leonhart & Team
Meeting up again after months apart for the Trabia Garden reopening. (post-canon)
Fullmetal Alchemist—Darius/Ed Elric/Heinkel
Travelling together outside of Amestris after the Promised Day isn't always fun, but at least they have each other. (homophobia, violence, post-canon)
Fullmetal Alchemist—Ed Elric/Roy Mustang
Ed discovers that he has a lot of survival skills to unlearn, once he finally makes it back home to Amestris. (post-03 canon, period-typical homophobia, pre-ship)
Marvel Cinematic Universe—Tony Stark & Loki & Steve Rogers
Loki sneaks into the Avengers Manor to cause some minor chaos (& maybe get some help). (animal transformation)
Marvel Cinematic Universe & Real Person Fiction—Loki/Tom Hiddleston
Loki discovers that he can sometimes save his variants when they fall through the Void from Bifrost. (minor Loki tv show spoilers, pre-ship)
Persona 5 (Royal)—Akechi Goro & Protagonist & Nijima Sae
When Goro hears Sae explaining to Ren that she'll need to take him in to solidify the case against Shido, he offers himself instead. (3rd semester spoilers, character study)
Persona 5 (Royal)—Sakura Futaba & Protagonist
Futaba needed to talk to Ren about her perfect reality, even if it meant hunting him down, for once. (3rd semester spoilers, platonic confidant route)
Star Wars: Prequels—Alpha-17 & Baar (Alpha-38)
Baar loves every one of his brothers, even when they're being idiots. (post-Rattatak, PTSD)
Star Wars: Prequels—Alpha-17/Obi-Wan Kenobi & Ahsoka Tano
Seventeen enjoys retirement in Temple, watching over their Jedi and the troopers who found their own homes there. (established relationship, no Order 66, post-war, Anakin leaves Jedi Order)
Star Wars: Prequels—Fox/Cody/Obi-Wan Kenobi
Fox thinks about all the reasons living in Temple instead of the Guard apartments is the best. (established relationship, no Order 66, post-war, PTSD)
Star Wars: Prequels—Jaster Mereel & Ben Kenobi
Jaster finds himself trapped on Tatooine far into his own future. (time travel AU, post-Obi-Wan Kenobi show)
Star Wars: Prequels—Kix & 501st Legion
The 501 is in hyperspace for a while, after picking up a new batch of shinys, and Kix is waiting to see what sorts of injuries this round of hazing brings to his door.
Star Wars: Prequels—Mace Windu & Obi-Wan Kenobi
Once things have calmed down, following the bombing of the crèche lift, Mace realises he misstepped in that interaction with Obi-Wan and goes to check on him. (Jedi Apprentice series, post-Melida-Daan)
Star Wars: Prequels—Obi-Wan Kenobi & Quinlan Vos
Quinlan brings an idea to Obi-Wan which is a little…questionable. (post-war, no Order 66)
Star Wars: Prequels—Padmé Amidala & Handmaidens
Padmé struggles with her position after the occupation, but her handmaidens are there to support her. (post-Occupation of Naboo, survivor's guilt, grief)
Patreon supporters for the month of November (& possibly those who hop in early December, before this poll closes) have a couple of different options for bonuses with their cards, which include stickers of recoloured fandom stickers, a second ficlet, and a DIY craft (though that is US-only). This text will take you to the public post on Patreon.
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Art credit for stickers:
Everyone should get a little bat sticker, next to my signature, and those were made by Inspire Ever After (if her shop site’s down, find her at Instagram). My sister introduced their shop to me, and I fell in love with all of their bats. I’ll be putting them into cards for years, and I’m utterly delighted at the prospect.
There’s also some The Child stickers which were done by them; those who requested The Mandalorian stickers probably got one.
The majority of the super tiny fandom stickers came from JLynnPaperCo. (SW original & Mando & sequel, Disney princesses, HP, MCU, DC, Merlin, Animal Crossing, & the smaller DW.) They’re adorable and tiny and I love them. My only wish is that they had SW prequel trilogy stickers.
Moogle stickers came from Ryuuza on Etsy.
All other stickers are official, or ones I've recoloured/edited a bit and printed out.
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FAQs!
Why do you send cards?
I started sending cards to folks in university, because I had a number of online friends who were around the same age, and, well, none of us were really getting anything at our campus addresses, save, you know, bills. So we’d send each other things so we’d have a bit of happy to look forward to.
I’m no longer in contact with most of those friends, and I no longer have the time and energy to keep on top of regular letters with folks, but I know everyone benefits from getting something that’s not a bill or junk in the post. So, once (or twice, when I can get myself together for Halloween or Valentine's) a year, I ask for addresses and send out cards to any and everyone who asks.
I don’t require people to be following me, or even to know who I am, and I’ve never required people to send anything back. This is just something that’s attached to good memories for me, and it makes other people’s lives just that little bit better. That’s worth it, to me.
What do you do with my address? *suspicious stare*
I put it on the envelope? And then usually delete the google sheet with everyone’s addresses, which is why I ask for them again every holiday. (Sorry/not sorry.)
I promise I will never share your address. Nor will I use it to google maps stalk you. (Unless you forget to include your post code, which has happened, and I need to look up the address for a nearby business and hope you have the same code, whoops. ^^; )
Are these Christmas-themed?
Nope. I default to the ‘season’s greetings’ variety. If you really want me to add a holiday greeting specific to whatever you celebrate, you’re certainly welcome to ask, and I’ll write something in, but that is something of an ‘opt-in’.
Are the cards in the picture on the form the ones you’re sending out?
Yes, they are.
I think one of them ended up being an emergency buy last year, so there's always a chance that you'll get a repeat card if you've requested one before.
I also have some slightly smaller cards with animals on the fronts that aren't good for ficlets, so I'll sometimes use those if someone requests no ficlet.
I sent you a card and it got returned!
This happens 3-4 times a year. Batsutousai is on the list of names who can receive post at my po box, and most of the cards do seem to get to me.
My best guess is it’s something on your end; try going in to your local post office and talking to a worker about it. (It may be a case of a faulty machine doing the processing, or difficulty reading part of the address right. I know going in can be a hassle—I say this as someone who works the same hours as the post office—especially during the holidays, but there really is nothing I can do from my end.)
You can try putting my name as B. Batsutousai and see if that helps?
I can’t pick between two ficlets. 😭
Good news! All of the ficlets in this post will be posted on AO3 (& LJ & DW, eventually) in either mid-Feb or mid-March 2025.
So, you will absolutely get to read any and all of the ficlets, you’re really just picking the one you want to read soonest.
Also, one of my offers for Patreons this year is to receive 2 ficlets. More about that in the post linked above.
Voldemort is someone who is consistently invested in other people's love lives. This was a big aspect of how I characterized him in Keep My Candle Burning, and it's not one I see explored that much.
We first see this in the Chamber of Secrets when Tom Riddle reveals he's been talking via the diary to Ginny about her crush on Harry:
Of course he says it was boring, yet he was doing this, seemingly in-depth and often, for what, the entire school year? Also, I think it's highly possible that the diary helped write Ginny's singing Valentine, due to the use of 'the Dark Lord,' a term virtually only Voldemort supporters use:
In the graveyard, Voldemort gets his body back and almost immediately starts monologuing about his parents' romantic relationship. It's so understandable that he's really tried to put all this together, but it strikes me how he says Merope 'fell in love with' Tom Riddle Sr. Canonically, he probably got this paragraph of information from his father, who believed that Merope 'hoodwinked' him (HBP Ch 10), not that she fell in love with him. Did Voldemort make this up? Why?
And again here he then acts scornful of what he just willingly said, making an ironic/sarcastic (I think, though I took it literally in my fic) comment and then denying that they're even his family at all:
I think this trait of his is most noticeable in The Dark Lord Ascending, where he spends half the meeting talking about Lupin & Tonks's marriage and their hypothetical future pregnancy, and then says Professor Burbage wants them all to mate with Muggles and werewolves (side note, I love how he says 'us all' as if he's also going to do it HAHAHAHA). His mind immediately goes to bringing up someone's marriage to get his point across to Bellatrix:
Next, the locket goes mainly for humiliating Ron about his romantic life (or lack thereoff...) Horcrux pattern... being interested in its victims' love lives, and using them as a main point of manipulation:
And then finally the big one: the fact that Voldemort, canonically, has had not just one but multiple conversations with Snape about his feelings for Lily: Snape asking for Voldemort to spare her, and evidently saying something that led Voldemort to believed that Snape 'desired' her, and then a second conversation where they apparently both agreed that there are better romantic partners for Snape:
He then immediately proceeds to interpret Harry's statement "he loved her for nearly all of his life" to be about romantic love (which to be fair he already knew, but still, I think it's notable because I'm not sure that it's true):
For a character who really has such little time on-screen, this is definitely a repeated behavior we see from him. Voldemort is not averse to topics of romance or sex, which is a huge misconception about him. There is no evidence for that whatsoever—quite the contrary
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