EAT THE RICH.

Happily depressed.

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Today I felt like taking my life

And I wish I could lie

But that feeling ain’t new

I wish I could be happy and full of joy

But then I tell myself

You know that ain’t you

deep down I wish I could be better

Deep down I really wish I knew

A way to water my soul

How to get to the root

They say

it takes a cause

for the effect to effect you

Today I felt like taking my life

And I wish I could lie

But some nights I end

crying at night

I wish I could be happy and full of joy

But then I remember

I live trying to block out that noise

Trying to block out the music

Songs that keep telling me

Do it ….

Today I felt like taking my life.

And yes

These thoughts scare me

I wish I wasn’t this scared to do it

I wish I wasn’t scared but truth is

I’m Scared of being the reason

My mother cries

I’m scared to lose it

Today I felt like taking my life

❤️‍🩹🥀

[eattherichg5]

I feel like a few months ago

I feel like last year

I feel like last week

I wish I could wake up new

I can’t even escape this

while I sleep

I wish I could wake up

like the old me

The me that was sure

about who I am

The me that was happy

The me that never had to pretend

Or maybe I could wake up new

Happier than I ever been

A mixture of something new

With the old me in mind

I try to drown my thoughts

I wish I had a spine

I wish I could stand up

To my thoughts

And never let them win

But I keep overthinking

Over and over again

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I don't want to live.

I don't want to die.

I just want not to exist.

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I pray and I pray

God please give me the strength

Please help me over come all the issues that repeatedly effect me again

I wish this was just a phase

A time period in life

Maybe this will fade with the upcoming days and the nights

Maybe this feeling will disappear

As randomly as it came

I get on my knees and I pray in your name

God please be with me during these times

Please help me be strong

I have forgotten how to be happy

It feels like so long

So long ago

I felt purpose in life

Now I’m asking for the strength

As I cry through the night

As I hold in my tears

Infront of family and friends

As I feel ashamed of admitting my pain

For so long there has been nothing I craved

More than the strength

To take it away

Please help me be strong enough

To end all my days

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It’s been hard to write …

I want to come on tumblr and write the most depressing shit I could think off

But lately I been fighting my urges of being sad and alone

Although some days I’m broken

And let me tell you

The nights are worse.

It’s been hard to write…

I been working on being positive

Even through those days

That I just want to quit.

Even through the nights

That I wish I could just go and forget.

I used to live craving to die

But once I’m dead , they’ll be no room for regret .

What if my thirst to die

Can be quenched?

What if life is more than

What I have seen?

What if I yet don’t understand

What life means?

Those are questions I don’t want to die with.

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Wrappping paper by ETR. Ny

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I know I tend to post a lot of depressing shit. Don’t let being depressed killl you.

Eat healthy

Go to the gym

Get therapy

Cut people off

Have sex

Drink wine

Meditate

Clean your space

Pray to god

Be active in goal chasing

Stand up for yourself

Seek new opportunities

Depression is something we feel like we can’t control, but remember we are the writers of of own story. Regardless of how many days I cry and wish my days were over. I WILL NEVER HURT MYSELF. I WILL NEVER STOP TRYING TO WIN AT LIFE. I WILL NEVER LET MY THOUGHTS CONTROL ME, and I will find peace, Love, and happiness.

[wifislim]

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All my life I been a nigger

Since the day I was born.

Maybe even before,

Since my parents were niggers

Way before I came along.

I been a nigger

Before pre school, middle school,high school

Before I could drink,

Way before I could drive,

Before I knew right from wrong,

Before I knew being a nigger

Could cost me my life.

Before I ever felt this anger,

Before I ever felt hate,

Before I knew life isn’t fair

For those who resemble my face.

Before I cried due to injustice,

Before my thoughts kept me up late.

I been a nigger for so long

Regardless if I behave,

Regardless if I get good grades,

Regardless if I work hard,

Regardless if I pray.

God why did my boss call me a nigger today?

😞

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FREE THE POOR

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All my life I been a nigger

Since the day I was born.

Maybe even before,

Since my parents were niggers

Way before I came along.

I been a nigger

Before pre school, middle school,high school

Before I could drink,

Way before I could drive,

Before I knew right from wrong,

Before I knew being a nigger

Could cost me my life.

Before I ever felt this anger,

Before I ever felt hate,

Before I knew life isn’t fair

For those who resemble my face.

Before I cried due to injustice,

Before my thoughts kept me up late.

I been a nigger for so long

Regardless if I behave,

Regardless if I get good grades,

Regardless if I work hard,

Regardless if I pray.

God why did my boss call me a nigger today?

😞

[eattherichg5]

Today I felt like taking my life

And I wish I could lie

But that feeling ain’t new

I wish I could be happy and full of joy

But then I tell myself

You know that ain’t you

deep down I wish I could be better

Deep down I really wish I knew

A way to water my soul

How to get to the root

They say

it takes a cause

for the effect to effect you

Today I felt like taking my life

And I wish I could lie

But some nights I end

crying at night

I wish I could be happy and full of joy

But then I remember

I live trying to block out that noise

Trying to block out the music

Songs that keep telling me

Do it ….

Today I felt like taking my life.

And yes

These thoughts scare me

I wish I wasn’t this scared to do it

I wish I wasn’t scared but truth is

I’m Scared of being the reason

My mother cries

I’m scared to lose it

Today I felt like taking my life

❤️‍🩹🥀

[eattherichg5]

Again today

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I live trying to drown out the fear

Trying to drown out the thoughts

Wish I could drown myself

With out hurting the ones I love

With out leaving

My niece , brothers and mother

In waves full of pain

The same pain

I feel everyday

I wonder if there’s others

As lonely as me

As lonely as I

As lonely as some one has to be

To start praying to die

To start craving to end

All their sorrows

And pain

I wonder if I die

Will they remember my name

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