constantly exhausted

I'm a 21 year old bi cis girl (she/her) from Germany, constantly confused and kinda clumsy. I don't post a lot, but I am here, complaining, and watching other people do tumblr things better than me.

[devipotato]

im losing my fucking mind

[elpiso]

unga unga me gamer, want titty

[ebsa-mi]

Isn't the tibia a bone in your shin??

[drawingden]

Exercise 50: Subsurface Scattering by CGCookie

[oceaniatropics]

Magnificent Riflebird Bird-of-Paradise (Ptiloris magnificus), SE Queensland, Australia

[ebsa-mi]

I’m really confused at my dad.

What happened to make him go from “yeah sure I’ll be best man at a lesbian wedding” to “homosexuality is a sin and I can not condone it!”

He does not know that he has two bisexual daughters.

I’m not yet ready to come out to him because I’m SURE I will get crap for saying I’m bisexual when I have never been in a relationship with a girl and am married to a guy, but I am so so so so ready to fight that fight for my little sis.

I’m sure there will not be any shouting matches or insults or slurs, and he usually is super intelligent and nice about things, but he told me that his faith is not compatible with being okay with homosexuality. And I think I’ll really need resources and a crap ton of patience to undo that.

Meanwhile my little sister made up a pretend boyfriend to make my parents happy, and has kept that lie going for over 3 months now. WTF.

[ebsa-mi]

I think i accidently either followed a Pro Life Blog or liked or reblogged it when I laid on my Phone so please if i did, Tell me i can't find what i did and I'm getting really anxious

[ebsa-mi]

I am off my meds, I shouldn’t be off my meds, my husband is telling me I shouldn’t be off my meds, but for some reason??? I get anxious about asking my GP for a new prescription and no Psychiatrist will see me ever... :(

[ebsa-mi]

is it normal that since my hallucinations are almost completely gone my intrusive thoughts are having one hell of a party?

[ebsa-mi]

Why are intrusive thoughts always so extreme??? Like NO dear brain, I do not wish to murder my allergic coworker by rubbing hazelnuts on her Keyboard, thanks for the Suggestion tho. I'd also like to avoid undressing in the middle of Town if possible and could you stop suggesting I kidnap random children, that would be swell

[ebsa-mi]

Can someone please explain to me why i keep feeling like nothing is real and i'm walking 2 Steps behind myself

[ebsa-mi]

the rental place where we were going to get the car for our holiday from cancelled on us and there is not a single place in germany that has wheelchair accessible cars available at the moment

we will have to cancel our holiday

I don’t even know what to do anymore I feel like crying this was the thing I was looking forward to for the last 6 months

and it’s all my fault because I suck and don’t have a drivers license

[episodechooseyourstory]

What would you do? You choose what path your character takes in Episode – download the app now!

[ebsa-mi]

WHAT THE FUCK

[saints-row-2]

i ordered a book off a seller on Amazon and that was two weeks ago and its not expected to get here until 13 April i mean what the fuck

[ebsa-mi]

He’ll have to write it first?

maybe he still has to grow the trees

[saints-row-2]

FFSSGGFFFDSHDD EHATS WRONG WITH HER LEGS

[ebsa-mi]

her legs? her belly button and face look in the same direction, her chest and arms in a different direction witout any indication that she… turned them.

ALSO You’re right she dislocated both of her legs

[saints-row-2]

honestly everything about this is horribly fucked up and bad and the longer you look the worse it gets

[ebsa-mi]

I also like how she’s covered in oil apparently

maybe she’s a contortionist

[saints-row-2]

FFSSGGFFFDSHDD EHATS WRONG WITH HER LEGS

[ebsa-mi]

her legs? her belly button and face look in the same direction, her chest and arms in a different direction witout any indication that she... turned them.

ALSO You’re right she dislocated both of her legs

[ebsa-mi]

For some reason I’m terrified of reblogging things to my main blog.

Hence I’m barely posting anything, I just read everything you guys post. But I’m alive, I promise.

[star-anise]

Executive dysfunction life hack

Instead of telling yourself, “I should get up,” or “I should do this,”

Ask yourself, “When will I get up?” or “When will I be ready to do this?”

Instead of trying to order yourself to feel the signal to do something, which your brain is manifestly bad at, listen to yourself with compassionate curiosity and be ready to receive the signal to move when it comes.

[lemonsharks]

Things I did not actually realize was an option

[star-anise]

What’s amazing is what happens when you do this with children.  I hit on it when working at the foster home, where nearly all our kids were on the autism spectrum, and they weren’t “defiant” around me because I said things like, “How long do you need to stand here before we can move?” and “Come into the kitchen when you’re ready” instead of saying, “Stop staring out the window, let’s go,” or “Come eat dinner,” and interpreting hesitation as refusal to obey.

[violent-darts]

I have also definitely found that doing the “okay when I finish counting down from twenty is getting up time” has been useful.

[star-anise]

Yup, that’s way better for toddlers and younger kids.  It helps when they don’t have the self-awareness, attention span, or concept of the passage of time to estimate when they’ll be ready by themselves.

[violent-darts]

Oh I meant for me. XD Saying it to myself.

[star-anise]

WELL OKAY WHOOPS XD I should not have been overspecific, I was just thinking about teaching this stuff to the parents at my job and your reblog made me immediately think of you with Banana and the kidlets.

[redshiftsinger]

Another hack: when you want to get up but are stalled by your brain and frustrated – stop. Breathe. Think about what you want to do once you’re up, without thinking about getting up. Treat it like a fantasy, no pressure, just thinking about something you’d like to do in the future. Instead of thinking “I should get up” over and over, think about having a bagel for breakfast, or getting dressed in your soft green sweater. Imagine yourself doing the thing. I find that exercise often side-steps the block and the next thing I know I’m out of bed and on my way to doing the other thing I thought about. Works for other things too, if you’re stuck on one step and having a hard time doing it, think about the step after that. Need to do laundry and you can’t get yourself to gather up your dirty clothes in the hamper? Think instead about carrying the hamper full of dirty clothes to the laundry room. And when you get to that next step, if you get stuck again, think about the step after it – you have a hamper of dirty clothes that needs to be put in the wash, let your subconscious handle the “carry hamper to laundry room” step while you’re thinking about the “putting them in the wash” part. YMMV of course, and this doesn’t even always work for me (particularly not when I need to do a collection of tasks in no particular order, like packing for a trip… “pack socks, pack underwear, pack toothbrush, pack pants, pack shirts” is the kind of non-linear task list where this trick doesn’t help at all), but it’s something I’ve found helpful often enough.

[naamahdarling]

This is one of the most beautiful threads I’ve seen on Tumblr simply because it deals so compassionately with an issue so many of us have and can barely even articulate to ourselves, let alone to anyone else. <3

[paperbackvortex]

The Official Discworld Infographic

[amireal2u]

Okay THIS is what I’ve been looking for! My only question is if I start with the purple starting line (coincidentally the first book published) and I just followed the circle, I’d be fine, right?

[luthienebonyx]

You could definitely do that, but I’d recommend not starting with the first book. I tried doing that - several times - when they first came out back in the 80s and never got into them. It took me a couple of decades before a friend strongly suggested that I start by reading the City Watch sequence (which begins with ‘Guards! Guards!), and that was an excellent call. Each one of those has a crime procedural type plot but the characters develop with each new book so it’s definitely good to read them in order. You need to have read the earlier City Watch novels to really appreciate just HOW good ‘Night Watch’ is, for example.

The Witches would also be a good place to start - but yeah, Sam Vimes and the City Watch will always be my favourites.