Hello! After how many years I'm here again.. Btw I'm 24 now, and I'm in a lot of pain and sadness..
I just can't seem to understand why when it comes to me, everything should be so hard. It feels like I'm the only one trying to reach for my dreams. Sure there are people beside me, but it always feel like I'm always in a struggle.. People are excited to see me achieve it in the future, but no one is really there along the process.
Another thing is that when it comes to me, it feels like I'm not that important. If i want something, I should get it on my own. That I'm the one who should always adjust when things are rough... Few years ago I had enrolled to a public college just because my brother was already in a private college. My tuition was not even a half of what his tuition costs.. I didn't even pick a program far from what the family business needs.. Then I remember skipping school parties, and invitations from friends since I thought that graduating as fast as I can is the only thing i can do. Then things didn't go the way they are expected to.. I lost my way and I had the chance to come back, and continue, as a student of medicine.. But it feels like.. It feels like I'm there again. On the part where if I want it, I should get it, by myslef.. I'm just losing my drive from school.. And I think nobody even notices