As I've grown older, I've come to find how much more aligned with nihilism I've become. Not necessarily in a super pessimistic way per say (most of the time anyways), but rather just understanding that besides the value I or someone else has prescribed to something, there wasn't reason for me to do many things. I guess I'm trying to come to terms with that it is truly only up to me to ascribe meaning and value to anything for myself and that ultimately my happiness is my responsibility alone in the end of the day. Some days that might be super hard and overwhelming, but I owe it to nobody but myself to try.










