Transmissions of a Dead Wavelength

🏳️‍⚧️🇧🇷[PT/EN] [+18 AND USUALLY NOT THE FUN KIND] ☆Oh no love, you're not alone!☆

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

Uh, Hi

♤Pan/Demi, NB (Any Pronouns), 23yo, AuDHD

♡Partner in crime of @twilightings

◇Writter, Photographer, Graphic Designer, PC Technician, Psych Student, All around wierdo.

♧Special Interests: Nitw - Like A Dragon (Aka. Yakuza) -All things music, like production, writting, composing, playing etc. (With a special focus on guitar) - TTRPG - Cyberpunk stuff - Goth/Punk stuff - Anything Horror Related - Computers and other types of beeping and booping things

ALSO will vent sometimes in here so watch out for that ig.

Doodle of me by the lovely @twilightings

[twilightings]

making a deltarune oc called wingdings bastard, gaster's twin brother

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

I dont like ultrakill. Whenever i die the creepy skeleton man calls me a cuck. Thats mean :(

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

A goth werewolf that constantly does that whole classic "i am a hideous monster" werewolf type monologue but not because they kill ppl when they transform but because whenever the full moon comes out they become a rainbow colored scene XD rawr raver furry and it makes them cringe when they turn back the next morning send tweet i mean tumblr

[elliespectacular]

wanna hang out [remembers it's rude to put expectations on people] it's cool if not [remembers people like to know they're wanted] but I'd really like it if you did [remembers selfishness is bad] we can do whatever you want though [remembers that handing someone a blank canvas isn't as effective as providing a suggestion to bounce ideas off of] like sucking each others fingers for example

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

I wonder if people with more "out there" kinks also get performance anxiety. Like, do people with a watersports fetish sometimes record themselves and think "Aw man, that stream was way too short! If i send this to anyone they'll laugh at me, i should have drunk more water :(" or ppl go to meet their olfatophilic partner and are like "i knew i should have taken the longer way here, i didnt sweat nearly enough :("

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

Those "Surf Rock With Distortion is Just Black Metal" vids drive me insane cuz no its literally just old school punk. Like the guitars on Too Drunk to Fuck and Brand New Cadillac are straight up playing surf riffs through overdriven amps. Why must clickbait vids that are just riding algorithmic waves not be more precise with their titles?????

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

Was walking back from uni last week when a black camaro went zooming past me on the street.

The anarchist part of me thought "Its really wierd how capitalism makes people feel the need to flaunt their lifestyle to strangers on the street that they will never see again (if they saw them at all) by doing something as meaningless as driving a high powered sports car through a perfectly walkable city with a lot of narrow roads just so they can feel that they have won at a game that, inevitability, is impossible to win at an individual level..."

The car nut autism part of me thought "YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOLY SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT"

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

If steven becomes steve why stephen not stephe

[burgerdotcom]

reblogs were off

[furryprovocateur]

"maladaptive coping needs to be respected and enabled at all costs" ass website

[trans-girl-nausicaa]

theres an as-yet uncategorized strain of thought on this website that seems to be like not just critical of but entirely against therapy and psychiatry, against any form of self-improvement whatsoever other than certain very specific forms of gender transition, against physical activity, and finally, against going outside.

[trans-girl-nausicaa]

same website where i’ve seen what i can only describe as lengthy pseudo-intellectual justifications for suicide. (Not end-of-life compassionate death care stuff for terminally ill people, more like bodily autonomy arguments.) i think publishing that kind of thing is like… a hostile action.

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

How the fuck do i speak abt how making everything automatically (trans)fem when doing hc/personifications makes me kind of uncomfortable personally without sounding like a transmisogynist asshole

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

Had a dream last night where i improvised a beautiful song out of nowhere with lyrics and everything Tartini style, then was worried that i wouldnt be able to remember it when i woke up (still dreaming btw), then i randomly came across some wierd pokémon looking things that hatched out of eggs and were my best friends until they randomly died like 30 minutes later in dream time for no apparent reason and i cried, then for some fucking reason i was in this damp cave being attacked by like ghouls or smth (maybe because i started playing bloodborne recently ig????) Until they gave up the chase cuz like their goddess or smth said that she wanted to talk to me and she used THE RESURRECTED CORPSES OF THOSE BOOTLEG POKÉMON FROM BEFORE that she gave the ability to talk so they could guide me to her (apparently when i heard their voices i was surprised that they were female cuz i never noticed it before but they were chill abt it) and after that i immediately woke up.

And i really wanted to listen to The Man Comes Around by Johnny Cash for some reason.

Just in case you were wondering how my brain is.

[halondrus]

[cutecipher]

can you put that thing on a leash?

[halondrus]

ok

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

Tumblr TV apparently thinks id really enjoy seeing this random dragon things ass ig

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

I want to start acting as confused by gender as cishet ppl say they 100% are NOT (/S) when they encounter a trans/GNC person

Like ill go up to a cis person look them up and down and ask their gender the same way fuwawa asked what breed that wierd virtual dog was that one time

EDIT: I just realized its a very specific reference so heres what im talking about

[eddiestardustyeahellohi]

I went to the drug store to pick up some medication and i remembered i wanted to get some new black nail polish since my last one somehow went bad (due to me not having enough courage to actually use it). Right next to it was a top coat polish ment to give the color under it a coating that, to me, looked like a guitar's flake finish so i bought it too cuz i thought it wold look neat. When i brought to the cashier she scanned the two tiny flasks and idly said to her coworker "Wow that black polish with this other finish will probably look great together" like i wasnt even listening. I tried my best to hide the big stupid grin of validation i had on my face. Im pretty sure i failed at it.