Just Ed

A little place for you to know me.

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Hey guys is good to be back, I have so much stuff to tell you. I met the boys a few days ago, I mean the band, and they’re really cool guys. I mean, they were going to spill water on my face wile I was sleeping, but they though I was Harry so I spouse is ok. It feel weird knowing that Harry is my brother and that now this boys will be kinda like my family now, or at least that’s what Liam told me wile they were playing FIFA.  It is nice to know they are this open to me, I mean they don’t know who am I or who I was and still Harry said I’m good to trust and they believe him. Is weird, I had never had people that rusted in me this fast, I always had something to prove. In the orphan,  with my dad… With Marina.  Is weird to think about her this way, but I have to be realistic, is true.  I’m not even sure if she really liked me or if she was with me only because her parents didn’t wanted us to be together.  The only thing I’m sure of is how I feel about her… I mean, felt. How I felt about her. Felt… What ever, it doesn't matter anymore, I shouldn’t be thinking of her.  I wasn’t even talking about her at first place. So, forget about it…  The thing is that I had never be treated like this before, people thought of me the wrong way most of the time.  I know I should talk about it with Harry and explain some stuff, but I have to be honest, I’m scared.  Scared that he, Gemms or Anne will think bad of me, like every one else does.  Is not that I had done something really bad like killing someone or something like that. Is just that… I’m an orphan and a lot of things comes with that.  People talk, stories are made and people always make stuff bigger and worst.

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So here am I again, I know I had been gone for too long, but I mean I found my twin brother, and he's Harry Styles for crying out-loud!! We had a lot to talk about and he had been showing me around. But is really difficult for us because we don't want much people to know about us until management know. Harry said it didn't matter but I don't want to cause him any trouble, so we had stay home most of the time. I had met some of Harry's friends and family. I think Annie is really happy about it, but at the same time is really hard, I mean... This people thought I was dead. And I never imagine I had a family, I don't know how to be around... If it wasn't for Harry I really would be screwed. Any ways, I really wanted to say sorry for been away for so long, but you have to understand. I really want to know this people and make them my family and I will do what it takes to make it. So here is a picture of Harry and me. I know is really weird ....

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We would call them The Avengers.

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I met Louis last night!!

            Life is difficult, and many people think we can complain at will. But then just think ... What if other people do not consider it so? What would change your complaints in the life of a happy person, that you love?  That's why I have concluded that his life will become even more unhappy than your own. He wold began to worry about everything you do, for everything you say. Even when your complaints are already routine. That will damage their lives and will gradually consume yours. I know that the best thing to do when things go wrong is to talk to a friend. And I'm not saying you should not, just advise you that if you really want that person think well in the way you would speak because you can turn your problem in one of the two of you and that's not good. It would do the same or more damage you do to you, to that person you want and love.

So that's why I'm not telling Harry my hole story yet.  Not him,not Gemma, not even Anne. I don't want them to feel bad for me.  I'm not Harry,I'm not like him and I haven't had the life he had, the luck he had. I'm not complaining, but in some way I would love to had a life like his.  Last night I met Louis, Harry's best mate.  I really didn't get their relationship before I met them, but now I realize that I really would have loved to have a friend like him.  I never did, I was on my own most of the time and to see how Harry found Louis and how they are with each other... I mean, not the part were they act like a couple, that's just weird.  But the part where they act like brothers, like the ones in the movies and I always wanted that.  I can say I am kind of jealous of Harry in that part.  I mean, he have the hole family tree with him. He has two dads, a mom, a sister and not just one brother, no he has four. The ones that I would meet in a few days. Louis said that they would love me.  But I think he only likes me because I look just like Harry and that just kind of funny now. Don't know. Is weird the way he acted around us. It was like if it was a normal thing he do every day. But anyways, I just wanted to let you know that I met Louis and that I think he is quite weird, but cool. I really did like him, and I just hope he liked me too, I mean I'm his best mate twin... Now I have to wait to meet the other part of One Direction, and I am kind of exited.  Lest hope everything goes right. 

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PUT MORE THINGS ABOUT YOU ED!!!

I'm really busy with Harry right now, I really am, but I will let you know everything. I will.

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I'm still here... waiting for trouble.

       I started this painting without even thinking about her.  But I think she had been so much in my head that I could not help it and there are her eyes. I've been hiding this painting since I arrived. I just finish it. And I do not want Harry to see it, he will start asking questions. "Who is it? How you met her?" And I will answer only to have the chance to talk about her. And I really do not want, I do not want anyone to know who she is or how I met her. Not even Harry. She will bring trouble to all of us. She's always trouble.

Marina had been the only girl I've "dated". The only one that I loved. Things happened between us and we had to separate. I met her one of those days that end in a song. She penetrated to my bones. I learned in her arms, she was the muse of my inspiration. We love each other so, so much, that now that she's gone, she taught me to have hope. And I'm still here... Sinking like a stone into the ocean. Tied to what is left of her kisses. They have spent two winters since the last time I saw her and when the memory blows I feel her in my skin. And I'm still here... I keep talking about her in all my songs. Begging to see her again. I'm still here.

And I'm still here... waiting for trouble.

The link of the song.

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Badman, The Dark Knight Rises!

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Harry Styles

After thinking for a few days, I decided to visit Anne Cox. This morning I came to her house without anyone knowing. Gemma her oldest daughter  was the one who opened the door, she looked at me surprised and began to shout, "Harry! Mom is Harry!" Hugging me. I denied it at the time I saw Anne come. A strange feeling came over me at that time. She was my mom and that girl my sister. We talked for a few hours inside the house until Harry appeared in the hallway. I'm still in their house, I'll sleep in the living room for today. It was a strange day. I met my real family and now I seriously  know I am the twin brother of Harry Styles.

Harry is physically just like me.  And in some way now that I know him, I feel like, if a part of me had been missing and finally I had found it. He says he feels the same and keeps saying how excited he is for me to know his band mates. Louis is the only one that Harry had told because he thinks this is just Harry joking. So he thought they should saw me to believe him. That's why he told their management about me a few hours ago, and ask them to not tell the boys yet. Now we suppose to go met with their management some day in this week. Is funny how we had bond in so few hours and how open he is with me about his job. 

Now I have to go. It's 2 am and Harry want to watch a movie with me.  We still have a lot to talk about, so...   

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Does He Even Know I'm Here?

                                    I've been thinking about my life  in the wrong way.  It had been two days since I talk to my dad ... (Well, don't know if I can keep telling him so.) Not sure if posting this here is a good idea. Although I sill don't know that, I know that writing is the best way to take out all that. It's amazing how for 18 years I have been thinking that I do not belong in another place other than my writing or my paintings, but now I think, and ... What if, I do belong in some place, some family. I had never care to live at the orphanage because I knew that my dad was not well after the death of my mother and he could not take care of me. I understood that while being so small, I only had 6 then. But now I hear that he's not my father, and that that woman that I've cried so much for so long, nor was my mother. No longer have to think, because I was afraid this would happen. And worst of all I knew it would happen. The coincidences were many. I have to admit that I do not regret the life I had, I had gone through many ups and downs, more lower than higher, but I had learned everything I know because of that. Now I only want to know the other side of the story. What was the thought of that family which I was separated and if they know that I even exist.

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