justGela

She may look innocent, but she knows how to leave her mark.

[the-inspiring-quotes]

[eeeenj]

Focus

Starting today, I’ll be focusing on my career and Primo! I will make sure that I’ll succeed with my goals and plans.

Own house and land

Peaceful life.

I am letting God to guide me all the way through! 😄

[eeeenj]

What keeps me going

This year is really a hard year for me.

I try to sleep more to forget things

But I can’t sleep!

[thepersonalquotes]

[eeeenj]

“Our society has become so obsessed with fitting into popular culture, fitting into what is trendy, what is considered beautiful. We obsess about the way we should look, what others think of us; we are so obsessed with feeding other people's desires to acclaim that feeling of satisfcation, that we forget to take care of our own needs. — Stop living through other's people's wishes, opinions, desires, etc. You are an individual, composed of the good, the bad, the ugly; you are composed of all these little things, these oddity that make you who you are today. ” — tc

[eeeenj]

“There are many ways in which you and I are great – there are truly things about us that are wonderful and inspiring. But we also have shortcomings and these shortcomings cause us to question our self-worth and whether who we are is enough for others; whether who we are is enough for ourselves. When you love yourself, you accept your good with your bad and you realize no matter how imperfect you are, your beauty is greater than your imperfections. But you have to learn to love yourself on your own.”

[eeeenj]

#BloggingAgain #MakingItAHobby

[eeeenj]

#BloggingAgain #MakingItAHobby

[eeeenj]

I welcome myself back at writing stuffs and feelings. I almost forgot when was the time I wrote that ‘melancholia’. Also forgot the feelings I’ve been bragging in that post. Waw. Was that really me who wrote it?

Ok. Again, I’m back. But this time it’ll be more of my passion, my life, and less with sad feelings, cause as we all know college is over! by that means, less 3 am broken thoughts. Ayun.

Been doing social media detox for couple of days na and *wew* I am finding all ways not to open my accounts! Annnnd that’s the reason why I’m here again. I’ll just write my thoughts diri and also be uploading good quality photos — hanash — food trips — travels etc. 😘😘 ay. if not busy with other works lang naman. so G? G!

Hahah. Can’t get over with what I wrote here. — melancholia 😂😂 Hoy! Ang broken mong babae ka. Dami hanash. Distracted tuloy ako. 😅

[eeeenj]

I welcome myself back at writing stuffs and feelings. I almost forgot when was the time I wrote that ‘melancholia’. Also forgot the feelings I’ve been bragging in that post. Waw. Was that really me who wrote it?

Ok. Again, I’m back. But this time it’ll be more of my passion, my life, and less with sad feelings, cause as we all know college is over! by that means, less 3 am broken thoughts. Ayun.

Been doing social media detox for couple of days na and *wew* I am finding all ways not to open my accounts! Annnnd that’s the reason why I’m here again. I’ll just write my thoughts diri and also be uploading good quality photos — hanash — food trips — travels etc. 😘😘 ay. if not busy with other works lang naman. so G? G!

Hahah. Can’t get over with what I wrote here. — melancholia 😂😂 Hoy! Ang broken mong babae ka. Dami hanash. Distracted tuloy ako. 😅

[eeeenj]

Melancholia

Have you ever experienced being sad without knowing its reason? I’m sure most! my generation is full of hugots kaya.

You had a wonderful day. And you thought that you’ve moved on. Cause that day went smooth. No traces of sadness, no flashbacks. You had a good time with your friends, you even almost ate that whole 12 inch thin crust pizza you ordered from shakeys and laugh at your dad bcoz of that chilli sauce. Got the time to fix your closet, listen to love songs and loudly sing with it without remeniscing. You think you survived. *heavy breathe*. Then that night when you were about to close your eyes ready to dream, every single sad feelings came back. Like —- melancholy. You couldn’t point what is it, you stared blankly to that loud lizard — ‘twktwktwk’. Tapos maiiyak ka na lang. Shems dba!!.

So eto na ko. Writing it all. Ang dami kaseng pwedeng reason talaga. Stressed pa din ba ako sa nakaraang exam? Baka naman kase dahil hnd ko pa din gets tong networking protocols? E baka naman kinakabahan lang ako, kase I am not sure if I still want to take that ccna exam. Nakakatense! — Or Is it about him again? AGAIN?!! na nakakapagod na.

Baka nga dahil sa kanya. Ayun!

Sabi nila past is past. In fact — "Live in the moment" is one of my fave lines. But, as much as I want to forget those times, laging bumabalik. Yung sakit. Kulang ba ako? Kung kulang ako. Hnd ba mas nagkulang sya. Baka naman hnd ko lang maintindihan talaga na baka ako na lang yung sumusubok at sya matagal ng bumitaw. Kaya eto hnd ko pa kayang maging masaya. — tanga gising ka na! para ikaw naman yung sumaya.

Ang dami daming pumapasok sa isip ko, and all are about the woes of the past. I've gone through so much, sacrificed those precious hours of sleep and even cried to sleep during the difficult days.

But I know! I know all those memories, those pain made me somehow stronger. coz’ what else pa dba? When being strong is the only choice I have. So why? Why the heck I still feel this?!! Ang Horror!!!!! Ayaw ko na. I wanna live peacefully and happy lang. 😭😭

I am not sure anymore how to handle this feeling, to think that it was all in the past and everything has changed now, I should be stepping forward and not looking back troubling myself with those memories. Sobrang Hateful!.

I know it hasn’t been a smooth journey to get to where I am today. But here’s the thing, I've come so far from day 1. Nalagpasan na. Dapat mas strong na. 👌

First Or. Baka kase kelangan ko lang ng kausap. Baka kase magisa ako tonight.

Second Or. Or maybe becoz time check: it iz 3 am.