Back After a Year… Life Update, Growth, and a Bit of Chaos
Okay, so this blog was created over a year ago now, and I won’t lie, uni swept in and took me out. I completely forgot about this space and didn’t keep up with it. It was meant to be a hobby, a distraction, and a comfort place for me… but I let it go. That’s on me.
Tbh, I don’t even know if anyone’s reading this but if you are, I’m sorry for disappearing.
Anyway, let me talk a little about myself (I rarely do this). I’ll be keeping my name anonymous just a little mystery from my side. I’m a 20 year old Nigerian girl, born and raised in Spain, and now living in the United Kingdom this cold, grey, and kinda grimy country 😭. I won’t get into my political side today (I’ve been way too political lately), but honestly, it’s good to be. We are the leaders of tomorrow, and the leaders of today are doing some really harmful things.
What’s happening in places like Palestine, Congo, and other countries the killings, the injustices, the inhumane treatment it’s heartbreaking. Innocent people are losing their lives. We need to keep advocating for an end to these genocides.
Okay… enough of that for now.
A lot has happened since my last post. At 19, I went through some really painful heartbreaks. I found out that someone I was deeply devoted to cheated on me with my friend’s situationship. That story is very blurred, but yes… I was cheated on.
Surprisingly, I didn’t feel much. I’d already lost feelings for him and was ready to move on. I mostly felt bad for the girl he hurt it was her first love, and she was shattered. What really got me was how he disrespected me afterwards. The things he said… I never knew he had that much bitterness in his heart.
He later tried to apologize just to say he “missed me.” He’s done that multiple times popping up randomly, saying he regrets everything, just to mess with my peace. I’d blocked him on everything except WhatsApp (because we never really talked there), and of course, that’s where he reached out 🙄.
But y’all would be proud of me I told him to keep his “I miss you” to himself. I didn’t need it. I told him to hold onto the no-contact rule and that I never wanted to hear from him again. I don’t miss him, and him calling me names only showed me I made the right choice.
Then came someone new. Something serious or at least I thought it was. Like I said in my previous post, I hate begging or having to ask for effort. I asked him, “What’s your plan with this relationship?” because I didn’t want to be stuck in a talking stage forever. He kept saying, “Yes, in due time,” but guess what? He ended up ghosting me.
He did eventually call me (on WhatsApp again that app needs to join my block list 😩). He gave me the closure and clarity I once craved, even though I’d already started healing. I didn’t need his words anymore, but it felt good to confirm I was truly over it.
And now? I’m dating someone who’s probably the best thing that’s ever happened to me. He’s goal-oriented, has his life together, and actually sees a future with me. He makes me feel like a princess it’s lovely. We’ll see where it goes, but right now, I’m happy. 💕
Also, I’m in third year of uni! A whole nursing student with big, big dreams 🩺. One major chapter is almost complete, and honestly, it’s a mix of bliss, sadness, and anxiety. I’m excited to be done — no more essays, exams, or placements (2300 hours, I’m so done 😭).
But at the same time… I’m terrified. I’m about to be a “big girl” in the real world, and that’s scary.
So yeah, that’s where I’ve been healing, growing, and trying to figure out life one day at a time.
If you’re reading this, thank you for being here. Maybe this little corner of the internet can still be that comfort place I wanted it to be. 🕊️
