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Dear Reader,

As the year 2024 is ending, I’m caught in this moral quandary… torn between wanting solitude and craving the presence of someone else. My mind is crowded with thoughts I dare not voice, knowing they could shatter others in ways that can’t be undone. It’s heavy, and there’s no easy way through it. And still, every day I catch myself thinking about others, wondering how they’re doing, if they’re okay, silently hoping they’re at peace while I’m tangled in my own chaos.

But I guess that’s what makes us human. It’s alright… maybe.

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Dear Reader,

There’s so much to be grateful for lately, and I wanted to share a few highlights with you.

First off, I’m graduating this December, and I couldn’t be more excited! It’s been quite the rollercoaster — full of anxious moments and plenty of drama, but I made it through. It feels so surreal to be at this point.

Secondly, this year has been full of surprises. I received two job offers, one of which is a managerial role with a hefty salary. The other also came with a great offer, higher than I ever imagined! You’d think I’d go for the higher-paying one, right? Well, I didn’t. I decided that gaining more experience and getting a better handle on my emotions was more important right now.

Lastly, I’m currently one of the top advisors in my field! It’s an amazing feeling to be recognized for my hard work, and I just hope I don’t mess it up. I’m optimistic, though, and feel like the future is bright.

My outlook has really shifted lately. It’s crazy how life unfolds when you start to see the things you’ve prayed for come to life. Of course, I still have my worries, but I’m learning to trust God more and reflect on my past mistakes.

Enough about me — how have you been?

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Mizukami Koshi in Till We Meet Again on the Lily Hill (2023)

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Dear Reader,

I bet you miss me. I just want to express how anxious I am about school.

This time, I know I slacked off and solely focused on work, hence not being able to deeply understand some concepts. Whatever happens, I deserve it. I need to face it.

In any case, there is still a lot to be thankful for. I am mostly happy because of my new job.

Reader, I just want a successful 2024. Pray with me. Pray for me. 🥺

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I just want to make a random post about my dog after a while.

I miss you, Esmé... I love you.

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Dear Reader,

Have I told you that I had my last day with my 3rd company last March 13? It was an emotional day because I've grown to love the team and I've made some friends. But there were lots of issues which I would no longer elaborate. I'm sure if you've read my previous posts, you would have an idea of my struggles with my family and with my work. It's crazy to experience such stress at a young age but well, lucky me, I am surviving.

I also had my operation last month which was funny but I will tell you more about it some other time. What's important is that I am okay.

Oh, wait! I also watched Miss Saigon and you wouldn't believe how happy I was when I got to see it in flesh. While the main female lead is no longer played by Lea Salonga (because you know lol), I was still happy hearing the song "Sun and Moon" live. I wanted to cry but the person sitting next to me was just annoying for singing along with the actors like... Hahaha! But I find it funny now that I am looking back at that time.

That's it. Now, I have to get back to my school stuff, but I will let you know about my new company in my next letter. Stay tuned! Haha!

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Love & Other Drugs (2010)

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A Short Letter to Esmé, From Me (6)

Dear Love,

It's been a while. Just last month, I randomly told Mama that I miss you a lot, and then I went upstairs because I felt like my tears were about to fall. How can I forget the pain of losing you, love?

Early this morning, I saw a video about a dog getting sick, and I could not stop myself from crying because I remembered how you struggled with your condition. I miss you, Esmé. You were my life. You were my family. And even if I had to spend money to get you better, I would willingly do so just to keep you alive. I need you, but now, you're not here. Also, I hated a comment on one video. The guy said animals do not have the soul that is accepted in heaven, and I was like, "What do you know, stupidhead?" He wasn't helping.

Anyway, I hope you are happy now, love. I'll always love you.

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